Dear Kurt,

I'm sorry I yelled at you over Skye. I know you didn't need that, but I couldn't help it. This is hard without you, harder than I wanted to admit.

You won't get this for a few days, but that's okay. I made the whole Glee club promise to write letters to me, and it's only common courtesy that I write back. Letters are just so much more romantic. You can save them forever.

Upon re-reading, my first paragraph seems rather crass, and I apologize again. I guess I shouldn't be talking to you about missing people or needing them. It's just that New York is empty without you and Blaine and Finn. I had always imagined the four of us doing this together, but those plans have changed. I just wish that I could at least have you.

I understand why you're still in Ohio, I suppose, but you're a star, Kurt. We both are. You can't shine there, and I'm finding it hard to shine here without you.

I miss you.

Love,

Rachel Barbara Berry

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Letter: September 31, 2012

Kurt,

There's nothing more amazing than the Grand Canyon. I've never felt more like a celebrity than standing at its edge, and I've been on tv, you know. The red carpet could never compare.

The whole family went when we younger. Blaine wouldn't have remembered, he was just three or so, but I was thirteen. It was nice to go back and remember.

I haven't received any contact from my adoring parents, so I figure either you told them I'm fine or they just don't care enough to look for me. Probably the latter. If they do ask you, tell them I'm on an artistic journey. That should get the old man's testicles in a twist.

I don't know if you've been able to drive out to Blaine's grave, being a college hot shot now, but when you do visit, say hi from me please. I'll do the same for you when I get back.

Don't butt chug (but maybe a couple of shots wouldn't hurt),

Cooper

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Email: October 3, 2012

Kurt,

UCLA is amazing. You would love it here, boo. I've never seen so many different kinds of people. I know you're busy with classes, but when you get the chance give me a call. I miss you.

Love, Mercedes

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Email to Rachel Berry (unsent): October 10, 2012

Um, you don't know me, but I'm Greg? Kurt's roommate? Anyway, I've been concerned about him. He always talks about you, so I thought you might want to know he's being evaluated by campus health. He had an outburst in class the other day and he's been talking to himself a lot. I got your email from his folder, by the way. Um, that sounds creepy. This whole thing is kind of creepy. I'm just gonna...yeah.

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Email: October 14, 2012

Dear Glee Club members,

This is everyone who deserves to know, so please don't talk about this with anyone else or I'll personally make sure Santana kills you. I just thought that all of you deserve to know what's been going on with Kurt. The only thing I know from his dad was that he wasn't coping as well as we thought, and they've decided to temporarily put him in a facility for psychiatric care. That's all I got, word for word. I don't want to bother his dad again, but if everyone could help me bug Finn, we might get more information.

Please keep this on the down low. Jacob Ben Israel is still lurking somewhere, I'm sure. When I get Kurt's contact information, I'll distribute it accordingly. In the meantime, I will be keeping a musical diary of songs of support. If anyone would like to contribute, please write me a letter.

Sincerely,

Rachel Barbara Berry

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Letter: December 25, 2012

Merry Christmas, Kurt!

It took me forever to find out how to get in touch with you. How are you? I guess it won't be Christmas any more when you get this, but I hope your day was great anyway.

I really don't know what's going on and Finn hasn't been emailing me that much, so if you could let me know that would be great.

I have so much to tell you about NYADA. You'll get all caught up, but let me give you one spoiler: I got a golden ticket.

Love,

Rachel Barbara Berry

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Letter: February 14, 2013

Kurt,

Your last letter sounded really upset. I'm sorry it's taken me this long to respond. It took me a while to get back to my PO box. I've been helping these guys from India with their hiking trip. Or maybe they're from Iran? Egypt? I'm not really sure, but they point to where they want to climb on a map and I get them there. They're cool guys. I'll definitely have to make a movie based on this when I reach the directing part of my career. That won't be for a while, of course. No one directs until they get old and ugly.

Anyway, your letter. We haven't really talked about him in while. I just wanted to say that if you need to, we can. I'm getting a cell phone specifically for it, and I'll send you the number and everything. I might not always be in areas with reception when I'm out on the trails, but I'll get back to you as soon I as I can.

Don't do anything stupid, squirt.

-Cooper

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Email to Rachel Berry: March 15, 2013

Burt wants me to tell you they're going to stop letting Kurt receive mail. No one but him is allowed to visit anymore, so don't try that. I don't know what's going on, but everyone's kind of freaking me out.

I think maybe he tried to kill himself, Rach.

I don't have your number anymore, so can you call me when you get this?

-Finn