Kurt was sitting on a bench in a secluded corner on Central Park. When he had first moved to New York after graduating High School, Kurt had been a little overwhelmed with the big city and the people everywhere. He truly loved New York, and he knew he belonged there like he had never belonged anywhere before, but he couldnt help the claustrophobic feeling and one day during his first year, he had found this secluded spot and adopted it. He was sitting on an old wooden bench, and he could hear people walking by but he couldnt be seen because the bench was hidden by a bunch of bushes and trees surrounding it, it was the perfect spot to think. It was a little cliché; a man sitting alone on a bench, deeply in thoughts and in the middle of nature, but Kurt didnt care. This was one of the places where he felt the most secure and comfortable.

It had been five days since Burt had come knocking on their door early in the morning, and Kurt had been coming here a lot lately. When he had first seen his father, he had recognized him instantly, even though he hadnt seen him in more than 10 years. Burt had the exact same style of clothing, and the same kind face he had in Kurts memories.

Seeing Burt after so many years had brought up so many buried feelings inside of Kurt. He felt the abandonment, and the anger, and hurt he had for many years, and he didnt want to feel these things anymore. He was so angry at Burt, because not only had the man not fought for him, but he had also indirectly been responsible for the worst years of Kurts life, and now, just when Kurt had started building back up a life of his own with Blaine, Emily and Isaac, Burt had to come crashing back and force Kurt to question everything.

Ever since Burt arrived, Kurt had been spending more and more time outside of the apartment, wanting to be alone and avoid being vulnerable in front of Blaine, and Emily. He knew he wasnt being rational, and that his behavior was probably hurting Blaine when the man had done nothing to deserve it, but he couldnt help it. He was in love with Blaine, he realized that now and there was no point in denying it anymore, but how long until Blaine left as well? How long until he lost yet another family he had built for himself, and he ended up alone and hurting once again. Kurts feelings werent logical, but he was so scared, and seeing Burt again just reminded him of everything he had to lose now and how easily he could lose it all, just like he had before.

He had barely survived the years in the orphanage; he didnt think he could survive it if he lost Blaine and Emily, not when he had come to love them both so much already. So he had been avoiding Blaine, and staying out of the apartment. Its not that he didnt want to be with the other man, he just needed some time alone to figure out his feelings and build back his tough skin, and he couldnt do that with Blaine. Blaine made him feel everything more intensely, and he made Kurt want to speak and open up about his feelings, he made Kurt want to love and be loved, and that was not something Kurt wanted to be doing right now. He just needed a little space from the man so that he could get his bearing, and then he would talk to Blaine and be able to be with him without the rush of feelings overwhelming him.

"Maybe we should buy this bench and have your name engraved on it or something with the amount of time you spend here." Said a voice behind him, making Kurt jump slightly.

Kurt turned around towards the voice, and he saw Isaac standing next to a bush a couple meters away. Kurt was so deep in thought he hadnt heard him coming, and he had no idea how long Isaac had been standing here and watching him.

Isaac started walking, and he made his way towards the bench, sitting next to Kurt silently.

"How did you know I would be here?" asked Kurt, looking in front of him and not turning directly towards Isaac, even though he could feel Isaacs gaze on him where the other man was watching him with concern.

"I know you Kurt. I know this is where you come when something happens and youre freaking out, and knowing you, youre probably majorly freaking out right now." Isaac said, and even though the words might sound insensitive or uncaring, Kurt knew this was Isaacs way of keeping things light and allowing Kurt to decide himself if he wanted to talk about recent events.

Out of everyone in Kurts life, Isaac was probably the one who understood the most what Kurt was going through right now. Even though Kurt had told Blaine about his past and his story with his parents, Blaine hadnt been there and couldnt imagine how shitty his life had been with social services, while Isaac had been right there with him and seen everything Kurt had gone through and all the anger Kurt held.

Both men stayed silent for a long time, Kurt still deep in thought and Isaac watching his friend with concern. He knew prompting Kurt to speak wasnt the way to get him to open up, but he also couldnt let Kurt deal with this alone, especially after the conversation he had had with Blaine, and when Kurt kept pushing away the people closest to him out of fear.

After about ten minutes or so, Kurt sighed deeply and in a small voice, he finally asked the question he had been asking himself since he had seen his father again.

"Why did he have to come back? Why now?" he asked softly turning towards Isaac, tears building inside his eyes, even though he wanted to be strong and not let this affect him.

Isaacs heart broke at seeing his best friend so sad and broken, and he instantly took Kurt into his arms, and hugged him tight even when Kurt tried to push him away and shy away from the affection. After a few seconds of Kurt trying to get out of Isaacs embrace, he gave up and slumped against Isaac, burying his face into the younger mans neck and crying softly. He cried because of his father, because in spite of everything he had lived through because of the man, he still loved him. He cried because of Blaine and Emily, because the fear of losing his newfound family was so strong he had trouble breathing with it. He cried because of the mess his whole life had become in under a week, and because he didnt know what to do with anything. He didnt know what he should do with his father, with Blaine, and he was tired.

During Kurts breakdown, Isaac just held him strongly and massaged his skull with a hand through his hair, and caressed his back with another while soothing him with whispered words of comfort.

After a while, Kurts tears finally started to slow down and he had no idea how long he had been crying in Isaacs shoulder. Kurt made a move to move back and Isaac let him back off a little, seeing that Kurt had calmed down.

"God, Im such a mess" said Kurt, running his hands under his eyes and drying his tears while laughing self-depreciatively.

"Yeah, you kind of are." Answered Isaac, which prompted a small real laugh out of Kurt, and in turn, made Isaac smile at seeing his friend smiling.

"I dont know what to do." Said Kurt, once he untangled himself from Isaac and righted himself on the bench. "My brain is a mess right now and I dont know what to think, I hate my father so much because of what he put me through, but at the same time I cant help but love him, and I just dont know what to do. He left him his number, and even though Ive wanted to throw it away, I cant make myself do it. Should I speak to him, should I even want to speak to him after what he did? I just cant figure out."

"You dont have to figure everything out right now Kurt." Said Isaac, putting a hand on his friends shoulder and squeezing it. "Its only been five days, and its a messy situation. But you should know that your decision is fine either way. No one could blame you for not wanting to see or speak to your father ever again, but youre also allowed to want to see him and talk things out. Youre allowed to want a relationship with him, even after what he did. There is no right or wrong decision here, there is just what you feel and what you want, and youre allowed some time to figure that out, no one expects you to have all of the answers right now. And most of all Kurt, youre not alone; you dont have to deal with this alone anymore."

Kurt just nodded in answer to Isaacs monologue, and Isaac left his hand on Kurts shoulder, leaving him in silence to think about what he had said for a while, but wanting to anchor him and show his support nevertheless. After a couple minutes of silence however, Isaac broke the silence and launched into the other subject which had pushed him to come and confront Kurt.

"Are you mad at Blaine?" he asked softly, already knowing the answer but wanting to start up the conversation.

Isaacs question brought Kurt out of his thoughts and he whipped towards Isaac, a frown on his face.

"Mad at him? Why would I be mad at him?" he asked disbelievingly.

"I dont know, thats why Im asking." Answered Isaac simply, waiting for the other man to expand on what he had been feeling lately, and why he had felt the need to push Blaine away.

"Of course Im not mad, why would you think that?" asked Kurt, not understanding how Isaac could think he was mad at Blaine when the other man had done nothing to deserve it.

"I dont, but Blaine does." He answered, wanting Kurt to understand what his actions were doing to Blaine.

Hearing those words, Kurt felt a rush of guilt and sadness course through him. He had been avoiding Blaine and been cold and distant every time he saw him since his father had come back, and it made sense that Blaine would think that, even though he had done nothing wrong and had been nothing but perfect and protective of Kurt since it had happened.

"Youve been avoiding him, and he feels like hes not enough for you and not what you need. He thinks hes losing you Kurt." Isaac said softly, knowing the effect those words would have on Kurt but still needing the other man to understand and realize what he was doing to Blaine by acting this way.

Hearing Isaacs words, the guilt Kurt felt increased tenfold and he felt tears come back up to his eyes. Because he had been avoiding Blaine for days, he had made the man he loved doubt himself and doubt his place in Kurts life, and he felt all the worst for it. Kurt was afraid, and he wanted some distance from Blaine and his feelings for him, but he never meant to hurt Blaine so much and he didnt mean for Blaine to doubt himself and belittle his place in Kurts life when he was now one of the three people he loved most in the world with Isaac and Emily.

Kurt knew he had to figure out his feelings and sort out his fears, or he would just keep hurting the other man like he was doing right now, and Blaine had done nothing to deserve that.

"Hes not, and hes always enough." He finally said, this being the one thing he was sure about. Blaine was perfect, and everything Kurt could need and he didnt want the other man to doubt that.

"Then maybe you should tell him that, because hes been worried sick about you, and he doesnt know what to do to get you to open up to him." Said Isaac.

For a moment, Kurt didnt say anything and just kept frowning, trying to put into words what he was feeling.

"Im scared Ise. How long before I lose him too? I love him, I dont think I could survive that." He finally admitted in a small voice, saying his biggest fear out loud.

"I know Kurt. And I know seeing Burt again probably brought all of this up, but hes here and waiting for you to open up and be there with him. He wants to be there for you, and you keep pushing him away." Answered Isaac softly, knowing how hard admitting this must have been for Kurt.

"Look.... Can I promise you that youll never lose him? No, I cant. You and I both know life doesnt work like that, and it may be a promise I cant keep, we never know what the future holds. What I can promise you though, is that Blaine loves you, even if he hasnt said the words yet, and hes in it for the long haul. I know you love him, and thats why youre scared and acting this way, but hes here and he wants to there for you and help you through everything. And Kurt, hes scared too. Youre not the only one who has lost people, and he has Emily to think about as well. So I know youre scared shitless right now, but try to see things from his point of view and just.... Be with him. Truly be with him, for both of your sakes." Isaac said, trying to reassure Kurt of Blaines place in his life, but also wanting the other man to realize the consequences of his actions and do something before he pushed Blaine so  far away, he wouldnt be able to get him back.

"God, Ive been pretty selfish uh? Only thinking about myself, and not considering he might be scared too." Said Kurt, self-depreciatively.

"Not selfish no" Isaac reassured his friend. "Youve been though a lot, it makes sense for you to be scared to open up and let new people in, but youre not alone anymore. You have me, and Blaine and Emily, and were all there for you. Im just saying, maybe its time for you to realize that, and go do something and reassure your man, before he drives himself insane."

With those words, Isaac banged his shoulder against Kurts lightly and smiled a little. Kurt once again, didnt say anything for a while, before he straightened up and squared his shoulders, nodding stubbornly.

"Youre right, Im going to go and speak to him." He said in a decisive tone, decided to reassure Blaine and make him understand how much he meant to him. Things might come back and crush him in the face later on, but Blaine was worth the risk and he didnt want the man doubting himself for a second more. With these words, he hugged Isaac tightly, saying ‘thank you in his ear, and got up from the bench before decidedly making his way towards the apartment, leaving Isaac sitting on the bench behind him with a happy and proud smile.

"Atta boy" murmured Isaac happily. He knew things werent resolved with Kurts father and the man still had a lot of things to figure out, but he was confident that things between Kurt and Blaine would improve, and that together, these boys could face anything. Figuring it would be best to give his friends some time to themselves, Isaac took his phone out and called Marc, wanting to see the man and share how he was a relationship-savior.

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After his conversation with Isaac, Kurt was decided to make things right with Blaine. He was still scared, terrified in fact, of losing Blaine and Emily and being hurt and alone once again, but speaking with Isaac, Kurt had realized that right now, he was more likely to lose Blaine because of his own behavior than anything else. And even if he had tried to keep his distances with Blaine for five days now, his conversation with Isaac and those five days away made him realize that he was already in too deep, and he already loved Blaine with all of his heart, losing him now would already hurt like crazy, and he wasnt ready to put himself through that. Plus, he owed it to Blaine to be honest with him, and let him in.

Kurt left the park, and decided to stop by a little florist not too far away from the apartment. He brought a bouquet of red and yellow flowers for Blaine, figuring it wouldnt do much without an apology and an explanation, but it would show Blaine that he really did care about him, and he made his way back towards their building.

Entering inside their apartment, Kurt saw Blaine and Emily sitting on the floor, and playing with an electronic piano Blaine had gotten for Emily a few weeks back. The little girl was laughing while hitting the keys with her fists, and Blaine was smiling softly towards her. From where he stood, Kurt could see the love and devotion in Blaines eyes when he watched Emily, and it made his own heart swell with affection for the other man.

Hearing the front door opening behind him, Blaine turned around expecting it to be Isaac walking through the front door, considering Kurt tended to avoid the apartment these days. Kurt saw a look of surprise cross Blaines face upon seeing him, and then a look of doubt and uncertainty took place on his face, breaking Kurts heart in the process. He couldnt believe he had let things become so bad that Blaine looked that uncertain when he saw Kurt.

Blaine didnt seem to notice the flowers, and he smiled uneasily and whispered a quite ‘hi before turning back towards Emily, obviously expecting Kurt to go straight to his bedroom like he had been doing as soon as he came home for five days now.

Kurt towed off his shoes and his jacket, and made his way towards Blaine, sitting on the floor besides him, which prompted Blaine into turning towards him startled by his behavior. Kurt saw the uncertainty still towing on Blaines face and the look of longing he was aiming at Kurt, and it made him feel even guiltier for the way he had been treating Blaine lately.

Putting the flowers down beside him, Kurt pushed forward slowly and gently cupped Blaines head with one hand behind his head and kissed Blaine on the lips softly. He could tell that Blaine was really surprised by his action because of the seconds it took the other man to answer his kiss, but after a few moments of waiting, Blaine started to answer back to the kiss and Kurt felt relief wash through his body. He would have understood if Blaine had pushed him away, after the way he had been acting, but the fact that he hadnt made Kurt love him all the more.

Blaines lips were soft and perfect against his, and Kurt couldnt believe he had gone five days without so much as kissing the other man. In that moment, he vowed to never go that long again. After they exchanged a couple soft kisses, Kurt pulled back from the kiss and looked at Emily briefly, seeing the little girl playing with her toys across from them, before turning back to where Blaine was looking at him with a dazed look.

"Im an idiot" Kurt said softly to Blaine "And Im sorry."

Blaine didnt say anything for a while and just kept watching Kurt like he couldnt quite believe the kiss and the words coming out of Kurts mouth. After a few seconds, he cleared his throat.

"Why?" he simply asked, leaving the question open enough that Kurt didnt know which statement he was questioning.

"Im an idiot because Ive gone days without kissing you, and only the worst idiot would do that when they had a boyfriend as wonderful as you. And Im sorry Ive been avoiding you. When my father came, it brought up a bunch of unwanted feelings, and I needed to be alone, but I was being stupid, and Im sorry Ive put both of us through this." Kurt apologized and tried to explain at the same time.

"Its ok Kurt, you dont have to explain anything and I understand you needed some time to yourself" answered Blaine, too happy to have Kurt be there with him and not wanting to risk Kurt pushing him away again if he felt forced to talk.

"Yes I do, and I want to anyway." Answered Kurt, cupping Blaines face and caressing his cheek gently. He could see how afraid Blaine was that Kurt would get angry, or would start being distant again, and he wanted the other man to understand why he had acted this way.

"Like I said, when my father came back, it brought back to the surface a lot of unwanted and old feelings. The reason Ive been distant and avoiding you is because... Im scared Blaine." Kurt admitted, hating the vulnerability but understanding that Blaine had to know what he was feeling. If they wanted this relationship to work, and Kurt really wanted it to, he would have to get better at communicating what he was feeling.

When Blaine didnt say anything and just stared at him with a look of misunderstanding on his face, Kurt took a deep breath, and he let go of Blaines face and dropped his hand into his lap, only to have Blaine reach forward and take one of his hands in his, squeezing it gently and showing Kurt that he was there and listening.

"Im scared because Ive lost everything once before. When I was young, I lost my mother and my father just a year after, and I know how much it hurts to lose your entire family. Now, you and Emily have become so important to me and..." his voice shook a little, and he had to stop talking for a few seconds before he could continue on.

"Oh Kurt..." said Blaine, this time he was the one to reach for Kurts face with both of his hands and he stroked his cheeks gently with his thumbs, feeling pain blossom in his chest at the look of anguish that was on Kurts face.

"Youre my family now Blaine. You, Emily and Isaac are the most important people to me now, and Im scared to death Im going to lose you, and I dont think I could stand losing another family." He finally confessed.

"You wont lose us" said Blaine vehemently, wanting to show Kurt how much he meant to him, and that he wasnt alone. "Im right here Kurt, and so is Emily. Were not going anywhere. You know youre family to Emily too, and youre so important to me, a lot more than you realize I think."

"I think Im starting to get that" answered Kurt softly "But its hard for me opening up, and Im still afraid all of this will go away someday, and Ill be left alone. But I dont want to be scared anymore, even if its hard, I want to open up and truly be with you and Emily, if youll still have me after my behavior these past few days."

"Kurt... yes. Thats not even in question okay? Im here, and were together for as long as you want this, and I dont want you to be afraid of losing me, us... okay?" he said, wanting to reassure Kurt and show him how much he was loved, even if he didnt dare say the words out loud yet.

"Okay." Answered Kurt, before pushing forward to kiss Blaine softly on the lips again.

After the kiss, he turned around and picked up the bouquet of roses he had brought earlier and was lying on the floor almost forgotten next to him, and gave it to Blaine with a small smile.

"These are for you, because you are amazing and you deserve nice things." Kurt said, to which Blaine answered with a huge smile.

Kurt then turned back towards Emily, and took a big breath to settle himself.

"So what are we playing at?" he asked Emily, which prompted Emily to babble excitedly in answer, even though Kurt couldnt understand a word she was saying.

Blaine who was still holding the beautiful flowers in his hands just smiled in answer and he simply listened to his daughter babble at Kurt, while the other man ohed and ahed in all the right places. Blaine leaned against Kurts shoulder, nuzzling his face against him, feeling so happy in that moment to have Kurt back by his side, and when he felt Kurt turn slightly and press a kiss to the top of his head, a soft smile crossed his lips and he closed his eyes in happiness. Everything was going to be fine.

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Later that evening, after Kurt and Blaine had both put Emily to bed after reading her a story together, they were laying in a hot bath, cuddling and soaking in the warm water. Blaine was in the back of the tub, and Kurt was sitting in the V of his legs, his back leaning against Blaines front while Blaines arms where around Kurt chest, in a gesture of comfort.

"I thought I was losing you" admitted Blaine quietly, after the boys had been sitting in the bath silently for a few minutes. Kurt felt a surge of sadness and guilt inside of him, and even though they had already had a conversation before and talked things out, he was glad Blaine was sharing how he had felt with him, even if it made him feel bad.

"I know, Im so sorry" Kurt answered quietly. He took one of Blaines arms that was resting around his waist and lifted it up to his mouth, kissing the palm of Blaines hand gently. "I just needed a little time to figure stuff out and stop being an idiot. You wont lose me Blaine, Im right here."

Instead of answering, Blaine just lowered his face and kissed Kurt shoulder and neck softly. The gesture wasnt sexual; he just wanted to reassure Kurt without words that he was here as well. Neither of the boys said anything for a while, and Blaine just kept pressing soft kisses to Kurts shoulders and neck.

"Why did he come back?" Kurt said in a small voice, finally ready to speak about the subject which had been on his mind for five days now. "Why did he let me be taken when I needed him the most, and now that Im finally settled, come back? Why now, after all of this time?"

Blaine didnt answer immediately and just brought both of his arms around Kurts torso once again and hugged him tight.

"I dont know baby. Maybe these are questions you should ask him instead." He whispered in Kurts ear because kissing his temple.

"Its just... I have so many questions. Why, what did I do to deserve all of this, why come back, what has he been doing for the last ten years... But still, Im not even sure I want to see him. Im not even sure he deserves me giving him anymore of my time."

Blaine leaned back a little against the edge of the bathtub and let his arms loose a little so Kurt could pull back just a little, when Kurt did, he put one hand around Kurts face and turned Kurts face gently towards him so that the other man was looking at him. From this position, Blaine could see the tears pooling in Kurts eyes, and he wanted to strangle Burt Hummel, even if he had never met the man. Still, he forced himself to ignore his feelings about the older man, and focus on what Kurt needed.

"Do I think he deserves you meeting him and giving him a second chance? Absolutely not. The man was stupid enough to let you go and couldnt see how amazing his son was, that will always be on him and make him unworthy in my book. However, do I think you deserve it? Yes, I do." Blaine tried to explain.

"But, I dont know if..." Kurt started to say, until to be cut off by Blaine gently putting his thumb on Kurts mouth.

"Let me explain. If you dont want to see him or talk to him ever again, then thats completely fine. We wont, and if he comes back around, well deal with it. But... I think thats not what you want. You said it yourself, you have so many questions, and I think if itll make you feel better, you deserve to have some answers. Maybe meeting up with him will help you. You may find that youll want to build up a new relationship with him, or just that the meeting gave you closure."

Kurt stayed quiet for a beat, just thinking about what Blaine was saying, and trying to gauge what he really wanted to do, even though he had a feeling he had known from the beginning. There was a reason he hadnt been able to throw away Burts number when Blaine first gave it to him.

"You dont think that makes me weak? Running back to the man after everything he put me through, even if it was indirectly?" asked Kurt, uncertain and feeling like wanting to see his father showed how weak he really was.

"I think it makes you brave Kurt. Confronting your Past and moving forward with your life, either with a new relationship with your father or having closed that page of your life. I think just the fact that you are thinking about it after everything shows how much courage you really have. After everything thats happened, hes still your father. No one can judge or blame you for wanting to have a relationship with him okay? And either way, whether you decide to never call him, or you decide to meet with him and see how it goes, Ill support you and Ill be there with you every step of the way." Blaine reassured Kurt, bending and pressing a soft kiss to Kurts lips, while lifting up one of his hands to brush away soft tears that were running down Kurts cheeks.

Kurt turned back around, and once again pressed his back against Blaines chest. Once he was laying against the man and he felt Blaines arms come around him again, he took one of them and started kissing his wrist and hand, before entangling their fingers together and laying them back on his stomach.

"I love you so much Blaine" he murmured, closing his eyes and leaning back against the other man.

Laying against his chest, he felt Blaines sharp intake of breath hearing Kurt admit he loved him, seeing as neither of them had said the words before, and he couldnt help but hold his breath, waiting anxiously for Blaines answer.

Only a few seconds later, Blaine turned Kurts face around once again so they were looking at each other, he gently cupped Kurts face and kissed him ever so gently, until both of them needed to stop to come out for air.

"I love you too" he finally answered, and Kurt could see all of the love and devotion reflected in Blaines eyes.

He may not know what the future would hold, and he may not know what was going to happen with his father, but in that moment, being in Blaines arms, he felt confident that he had everything he could ever wish for in life.