Sept. 26, 2015, 7 p.m.
To create a home: Chapter 16
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So, you now know Kurts story. I had such a hard time deciding what I was going to do with Burt, because I love Canon Burt so much and I didnt want him to be a bad dad, but at the same time, I needed him out of the picture for this story. This way, I see him not as a bad dad but a man that was lost with grief for the death of his wife...
Any thoughts?
Blaine would never get tired of the feel of Kurt's lips on his. Both of them had been sitting on the bench for about half an hour, softly kissing when they could stop themselves from smiling too much, and Blaine had never felt this good. He was a little disappointed that it had taken Emily going to the hospital for him to see what was just in front of his nose, but now he had, and he was ready to start enjoying his newfound relationship with Kurt.
Blaine felt like he could stay there forever, on this bunch, kissing Kurt, but as much as he enjoyed this perfect moment, he was starting to feel an urge to see Emily again. Since the hospital, Blaine had been scared of letting Emily out of his sight, and as much as he understood what Kurt and Isaac were saying when they said it wasn't healthy, he still didn't feel comfortable being apart from the little girl for too long. He was glad he and Kurt had had a chance to do this and talk things through, but he missed the little girl and needed to see her.
With this thought in mind, Blaine slowed the kisses with Kurt and started to pull away to tell Kurt what he wanted. He laid his forehead on Kurt's, because he didn't want to stop touching him completely now that everything was in the open between them and that he could finally act on his attraction to Kurt, and opened his mouth to tell Kurt that he would like to go home. Before he had the time however, Kurt beat him to it.
“Emily?” Kurt simply asked, in a low voice.
Blaine's shoulders sagged in relief and he couldn't help the small laugh that escaped him.
“Am I that obvious?” he asked softly.
“Well, you haven't left her side for days and we've been here for about an hour now. I knew you would start to get angsty soon and that you would want to see Em. I just didn't say anything because I've been enjoying doing this.” Kurt kissed him softly to illustrate his point. “But I understand that you want to go back and see her now.” He said with a gentle smile.
Kurt got up and extended his hand towards Blaine prompting the other man to stand as well and take it in his.
“Thank you for understanding” Blaine said, looking a little sheepish and feeling a little stupid about the fact that he was forcing them both to go back home after only about one hour.
“It's really fine Blaine” Kurt reassured him, kissing him on the cheek. “Baby steps right?”
“Baby steps.” Answered Blaine with a small smile, wondering how he got this lucky to meet a man as sweet as Kurt, even if he hid it well as first.
The boys walked back towards the apartment in a companionable silence, both deep in their thoughts. When they were nearing the apartment, Kurt squeezed Blaine's hand and asked:
“So, what now?” Blaine understood that he wasn't asking about right now, but more about what would be happening with them now that they had finally opened up about their feelings. He couldn't help the fond smile he directed towards Kurt, still not used to seeing him opening up and uncertain. Blaine was used to the Kurt that always put a façade on, and even though there were still many things Blaine didn't know about Kurt, the man had been opening up a lot recently and it was a nice change for Blaine, seeing Kurt show his true feelings and worries.
“Well for now, we go home, we spend some time with Emily. Then later this week, I am going to take you out and we are going to enjoy our very first date, although we do know each other quite well already I guess, you know with being roommates and all!” said Blaine jokingly.
Kurt chuckled at Blaine's antics, and was reassured to see Blaine act in such a way. Since the hospital, Blaine had been a little withdrawn and it was nice to see the man being goofy and joking.
“After that, I say we enjoy the rest of our lives” Blaine said, somewhat seriously.
“Rest of our lives uh?” asked Kurt teasingly, not too worried about the prospect, which he had to admit, was very strange for him. Since he was young, Kurt had had the hardest time opening up to people and none of his past relationships had been well… relationships. He had always had one night stands, and fuck buddies. He would have thought being with Blaine would scare him, but strangely it didn't and he was looking forward to trying it out and experiencing it with Blaine.
“You know it isn't going to be this easy right? Things never work out so perfectly in life.” Kurt still felt obliged to point out. Blaine's smile dimmed a little hearing those words. He didn't know what had happened to Kurt in the past but he knew that his life hadn't been easy, and he felt sad for the man he was quickly growing to love.
“I know.” He said a little more somberly “I'm sure there will be many obstacles, and sometimes things will be hard. We'll fight, and we'll hurt, but we'll get through things together okay? When have things ever been easy for us anyway?” he said, in a teasing tone.
“Well, that is true.” Said Kurt with a smile.
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When they entered the apartment still hand in hand, they found Isaac and Emily exactly where they left them, both giggling on the floor.
“Well, well” started Isaac in a teasing tone “I see this was a good walk afterall!” he exclaimed eyeing their hands still clasped together.
“It was.” Answered Blaine simply, squeezing Kurt's hand before letting go and going to lift Emily into his arms, hugging her. Kurt just smiled at the scene, and when he saw Isaac's eyes on him, he turned towards the man and grinned, indicating how happy he was with this turn of events. Kurt and Isaac have been close for a long time, and Isaac had been worried about his friend. Him and Kurt had talked a little about Blaine, and lately, he had been sad because of the situation with Blaine, so he was glad to see Kurt was happy again.
“Well it's about time!” he ended up saying, prompting Blaine to look towards him and let out a huge smile.
“What do you say baby girl? Are you happy that daddy finally stopped moping around and got his act together?” Blaine said, tickling the little girl making her giggle.
“You've been moping?” asked Kurt with a smug smile, even though he was trying to hide it.
“I've, uh….”
“You have no idea how much”. Said Blaine and Isaac at the same time. Blaine felt his cheeks heat up, he hadn't quite meant to let this information out in front of Kurt, but he had forgotten himself with Emily.
Kurt came up next to Blaine and kissed Emily's cheek, the little girl beaming back at him for the attention, before kissing Blaine's cheek as well and whispering: “Me too”, before walking towards the kitchen.
“I'm going to get a start on diner okay? Is pasta fine with everyone?”
When Blaine simply smiled back and Isaac nodded enthusiastically, Kurt smiled and started cooking.
Later, the boys were sitting at the dinner table and Emily was eating her pasta, which meant she was spreading most of her dinner on her face, while managing to swallow a small part of it.
“So, am I watching Emily sometime soon?” asked Isaac with a smug smile directed towards Kurt and Blaine.
“You are.” Answered Blaine.
“He is?” asked Kurt, pretending to be surprised by the news.
“Yep. You and I are going out on Friday night.” Blaine said, turning towards Kurt to smile at the man.
“Oh are we? I must have forgotten this whole conversation where you actually asked me….” Kurt teased Blaine.
“Oh I'm sorry, my bad.” Answered Blaine, entering in Kurt's game. “Kurt Hummel, would you do me the honor of going on a date with me Friday evening?” he asked with his most dazzling smile.
“Why certainly Mr. Anderson” replied Kurt.
“It's this how it's going to be now?” exclaimed Isaac with a defeated face “You two are already nauseatingly cute.”
“That we are!” just answered Blaine, beaming towards his friend.
“Speaking of, when are you and Marc going to be nauseatingly cute together?” asked Kurt with a teasing smile towards Isaac, which prompted Blaine to turn towards Isaac as well and to wag his eyebrows suggestively.
“Seriously?! You guys have been together for 5 minutes and you're already playing match makers?!” exclaimed Isaac.
“We're just that good. Now don't change the subject and answer the question Ise.” Prompted Kurt.
“I don't know guys, it's complicated…” Isaac tried to justify himself.
“More complicated than being roommates?” asked Kurt
“More complicated than having a child in the mix?” followed Blaine.
“More complicated than hating each other for two years and then realizing that you didn't hate your roommate but you in fact, quite liked him?”
“More complicated than…”
“Alright, alright, I get it guys!” Said Isaac, laughing and his friends' comments. “I'll try to ask him up soon okay? Happy now?”
“Ecstatic” answered Blaine.
“Overjoyed” followed Kurt, both of them with a huge smile.
“You two are awful and deserve each other.” Said Isaac grumpily, which caused Blaine to turn towards Kurt and smile hugely while Kurt winked at him.
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That Friday, Kurt was getting ready for their date in the bathroom while Blaine sat on the couch watching TV with one eye, while surveying Emily with the other. The little girl was playing with her toys and hitting her building block on the floor excitedly when she threw one of them too far away for her to reach while sitting. Blaine expected her to crawl towards where the toy had fallen, or to start whining for Blaine to give it back to her if she was feeling particularly lazy, but Emily surprised him by pulling herself up using the small living room table they had, and taking tentative steps towards the toy.
Blaine felt his jaw drop for a second, before he suddenly jumped off the couch and started to walk backwards towards the bathroom door while simuteanously taking out his phone to record Emily.
“KURT, KURT! Come out now!” Blaine exclaimed, while filming Emily who was still walking towards her favorite toy.
“What? What's wrong?” asked Kurt rushing out of the bathroom, worried about Blaine's screaming. He stopped short when he saw what Blaine was filming however, and couldn't help the huge smile that grew on his face.
“Look Kurt, my baby's walking” said Blaine, still not taking his eyes off of Emily.
“I can see that Babe.” answered Kurt with a soft smile, as they both watched as Emily reached her destination, and bended down to grab the toy, which prompted her into falling backwards onto her bottom, and starting to cry softly.
“Oh no sweetie, it's okay!” Said Blaine rushing towards the little girl, him too with tears in her eyes. He knew the little girl hadn't really hurt herself and was crying because she was annoyed at having fallen suddenly, and not because he was in pain. Blaine lifted her into his arms, and hugged her tight.
“You did so good baby girl!” he exclaimed, holding Emily at arm's length so that he could see her more clearly. “I'm so proud of you!” and he brought Emily back towards his chest, kissing her all other the face, which made the little girl laugh.
Kurt approached the two of them and he kissed Emily on the cheek too, feeling a huge sense of pride at seeing the little girl taking her first steps. “I'm proud of you princess!”, which had Emily smiling at him, even though she didn't really understand what he was saying.
Blaine turned towards Kurt, and finally noticed what the other man was wearing. Kurt was dressed in skintight black pants, with a purple shirt tucked into them, and a skinny black tie. He looked wonderful, and Blaine gulped, before suddenly exclaiming:
“Oh no, I'm seeing you before the beginning of our date!”
“It's our first date Blaine, not our wedding. I think we should be fine” answered Kurt, laughing at his boyfriend's goofy nature.
“Oh well, still. We should put all chances on our side right? I really want all of this to work out.” Blaine said sheepishly, even though he had been joking with the first comment, he really means it when he says that he wants this to work out between him and Kurt. “Plus, I had this idea of the perfect date in my head. I would come and pick you up… from your room, and we would be dazzled by each other's outfit, and then leave to have the most perfect date ever.”
At those words, Kurt's smile softened and he cupped Blaine's cheek before kissing him softly. “You are the most romantic, cheesy person I know Blaine. And as much as I appreciate the thought, I think this is perfect. Witnessing one of Emily's first just before makes it even more special” with those words, he turns towards the little girl and makes a funny face, which makes the little girl giggle. “Plus, at the risk of being cheesy myself, and don't get used to it, it's perfect because it's you I'm going out with.”
By the end of Kurt's little speech, Blaine had a huge smile on his face and couldn't help but lean forward and peck Kurt on the lips again. “Who's the cheesy one now? But thank you. Now, take my daughter in your arms so that I can go and change, and we can go out as soon as Isaac comes back.”
Blaine walked towards his bedroom, but just before he entered, he turned back towards Kurt and said in an amused tone:
“ ‘Babe' by the way, don't think I missed that Kurt Hummel. Is this a thing now?” he asked teasingly.
“I just thought I would try it out…” said Kurt, blushing a little. The term of endearment had just escaped earlier, and Kurt was a little embarrassed that Blaine was calling him out on it.
“Well I like it, you can keep it up.” said Blaine with a smug smile, before entering his bedroom and closing the door behind him to get changed for their date and leaving a pleased Kurt behind.
Kurt sat on the couch, and sat Emily on his laps. While Blaine was getting changed, Kurt amused Emily by moving his legs up and down which made the little girl jump on his knees. Emily was laughing loudly, and Kurt couldn't help the huge smile that reached his face at the sound, it was wonderful to hear a child laugh this way, and he would forever be grateful for having Emily in his life, and respect Blaine for allowing Emily to have this life, and be this happy.
Isaac arrived a few minutes later, and he sat down on the couch next to Kurt. When she saw him, Emily extended her arms towards her uncle, and when Isaac smiled at the little girl and picked her up to position her onto his laps, she started babbling to him, as if she was telling him her day. Isaac answered “Really, Wow, Uh uh…” as if he could understand what Emily was saying, and the little girl seemed happy enough with the reactions she was getting, and continued babbling excitedly to her uncle.
“So, are you nervous?” asked Isaac, turning towards Kurt when Emily paused her babbling long enough for him to speak. Isaac knew Kurt didn't really date, and he knew what was at stake tonight, with Emily and the fact that Kurt and Blaine lived together. It would be understandable for Kurt to be nervous about tonight. However, his friend surprised him when he answered:
“Not really, no.” answered Kurt, shrugging. “I figure, Blaine and I already know each other pretty well, and we already spend a lot of time together. The positive aspect of dating someone you live with is that I think I've seen him at his worst, and he's definitely seen me at my worst. We're practically already raising a child together! So no, I'm not too nervous. Mostly excited at the prospect of spending some time alone with Blaine, even if I do love this princess.” Kurt said, bumping Emily's nose with is finger by the end of his sentence, which made her wrinkle her nose adorably.
“Well, that's very mature of you Kurt Hummer, I'm impressed.” Answered Isaac, only half joking.
“I try my best.”
At this moment, Blaine came out of his bedroom, and smiled at Isaac when he saw the man was back and sitting with Emily. Blaine had opted to wear a jean-colored shirt with a minty green jacket on top of it. He also had fitted black pants, and the outfit was completed with a pair of loafers and a black bow tie. He looked amazing, and Kurt was hit with how lucky he was to be going out with such a beautiful man.
Kurt and Blaine said goodbye to Isaac and Emily, and Blaine hugged Emily tight. Even though the man had tried to go out every day for a while this week to get used to leaving Emily for longer periods of time, he was still a little protective of the little girl, and tonight would be difficult, although he was glad to be going out with Kurt.
Both Blaine and Kurt made their way to the coat rack where their vests and scarves were hanging.
“Hey, Blaine?” said Kurt, while the man was putting on a black coat to go out.
Blaine turned towards Kurt and looked at him questionably.
“I'm dazzled. You look amazing.” He said with a small smile.
Remembering their conversation from earlier, Blaine smiled a bright smile at Kurt's words, and both boys left to go and enjoy their evening.
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The date had been perfect. Blaine had insisted that he organize everything, since he had been the one to invite Kurt out, and he had picked a wonderful little Italian restaurant at a walking distance from their apartment, where both boys had been able to enjoy their delicious pasta dishes in a romantic atmosphere. Since Kurt and Blaine knew each other so well already, they had had none of the awkward moments that usually happened during first dates, and they had spoken about their classes, and Emily, and Isaac. Blaine had told stories about when he was little, and Kurt had told some stories about when he was living with Isaac at the orphanage, although he didn't talk about his past a lot. They had both laughed until tears were in their eyes at some of the shenanigans Blaine and Laura used to get into when they were little, and the evening had been one of the best they had had in a while.
The boys were sharing a chocolate soufflé for desert when Kurt lifted his head to tell Blaine something, and blanched when he saw something behind Blaine.
“Kurt, are you okay?” asked Blaine, recognizing that something was wrong with Kurt instantly.
Before Kurt had the time to answer however, a man reached their table and leered at Kurt.
“Well, well, if it isn't Kurt Hummel.” He said in a suggestive tone, and completely ignoring Blaine.
“Jake, hi.” Kurt said, with a friendly façade, although Blaine could see how tense he was.
“How have you been? We haven't seen each other in a while, I think it's past time we renew our… exploits from last time. “He said, leering at Kurt.
“No thank you Jake. I'm on a date right now, so I'd like to get back to that if you don't mind” he said, still polite, but clearly dismissing the man. Jake however, didn't seem to get the message or refused to listen and instead exclaimed:
“A date?! Since when does Kurt Hummel date? What, is this one playing hard to get, is that why you're putting all of this charade up?” he asked, gesturing quickly towards Blaine.
Blaine was starting to get mad, but decided to let Kurt deal with Jake. Although he didn't know him, he could already tell he despised the man and he didn't want to say anything too rude in case that was one of Kurt's friends.
“Just because we never dated doesn't mean I don't date Jake.” Said Kurt, all traces of politeness gone now. “Now if you'll excuse us, I would like to finish eating my soufflé with my boyfriend and enjoy the rest of my evening. So goodbye.” He said coldly.
“Whatever Kurt, you're so stuck up now, what happened to you?” he asked, and then turned towards Blaine. “Good luck with that one, all he's really good at is sex, so I hope you'll get a taste of that. And enjoy it while you can, as soon as he meets someone else, you'll be forgotten.” With these parting words, he left to go back to his table.
After he left, a small uncomfortable silence dropped over Kurt and Blaine, until Kurt decided to break it a minute later.
“I am so sorry about him, Blaine. I used to know Jake a while ago, I slept with him once and when I refused to do it again, well… let's say he doesn't like me too much.” He said with a defeated voice. This was definitely not the way he had imagined his first date with Blaine would go, and not the image he wanted Blaine to have of him.
“Hey, no. It's okay Kurt.” Said Blaine reassuringly.
Blaine took a spoonful of Soufflé, and pointed the spoon towards Kurt, trying to comfort the man and bring their evening back on the right track. After the incident, the boys finished eating their desert fairly quickly, and after Blaine insisted on paying for the meal, they made their way out of the restaurant and started walking slowly towards the apartment.
Blaine had been pretty quiet since Jake's interruption, and Kurt was a little afraid that his words had gotten to Blaine and that the man having doubts about them. Not being able to stand the silence anymore, Kurt decided to clarify the situation with Blaine now, before they got home.
“Blaine, about what he said earlier…” he started to say, but Blaine cut him off.
“I can't believe he would say such awful things about you.” Said Blaine, angered for Kurt because of what Jake had said.
Kurt couldn't believe his ears, he was persuaded that Blaine was being distant and quiet because he was angry at Kurt for ruining their evening, and that he was having doubts about them because of Jake's words, but instead here he was, not angry at Kurt but angry for Kurt.
“You're not mad…?” asked Kurt hesitantly.
“Of course I'm mad! Mad at this asshole for saying these things to you! And in front of me too, what did he think that would accomplish? Did he think it would repulse me or something? So what, because he didn't get his way and you refused to sleep with him again, he thinks he's allowed to try and sabotage all of your future relationships? Did he think I was just going to take his word over yours! Plus, how stupid is he?! I know you've slept with many people, I know you had one night stands, and I'm completely fine with it, as long as you don't do that when…”
Blaine's rant was cut off by Kurt's lips on his. Kurt kissed him passionately, in the middle of the street, not caring about who was watching. He couldn't believe what he was hearing, how Blaine was defending him and he couldn't not kiss him in that moment. After a few minutes of heated kisses, Kurt slowed down and pulled away from Kurt a little, although he left his arms around Blaine's waist, holding the man closely to him.
“What was that for?” asked Blaine breathlessly.
“You are an amazing man Blaine Anderson. And I am so lucky to have you.” Kurt said, his forehead still pressed against Blaine and enjoying the moment. At those words, a huge smile spread across Blaine's face, and he cupped Kurt's face before kissing him softly once again. When he pulled off, Blaine took Kurt's hand in his and they started walking again.
“Well thanks for noticing it.” He said with a happy smile.
“You know…. I used to be like that, I used to…” Kurt started to explain, but before he could go any further, Blaine cut him off.
“You don't have to justify your actions to me Kurt.”
“I know, but I want to okay?” asked Kurt, before pursuing what he was saying. “I used to be like that, and have one night stands. I didn't want to have relationships, and because of what's happened to me in the past, I don't trust easily. But it's all different with you. I already trust you, and I want to have the whole package with you: a relationship, the trust, the dates, the lo…”he cut himself off before he could finish this word, as it was still too early to say it at loud, even though he already felt it and would mean it with all of his heart. “I just want everything with you Blaine.”
Hearing these words, Blaine smiled softly at Kurt and simply answered:
“I know Kurt, me too. I want everything too.”
With these words, they kept walking hand in hand until they reached their apartment, and entered silently. It was only 10 in the evening and was still fairly early, but Isaac had been the one staying with Emily and they knew he wanted to go out with Marc tonight, which he couldn't do while he was watching Emily, so they decided to go back home early, and to continue their evening at home. When they arrived inside, they saw Isaac sitting on the couch watching TV, and Emily was nowhere to be seen, the little girl was probably already asleep in hers and Blaine's bedroom.
When Isaac saw Kurt and Blaine, he smiled and after asking them how the evening went, they both just said it was perfect and neither of them spoke about the incident that had occurred with Jake. After speaking for a few minutes, Isaac made his way to his bedroom and came back out a few minutes later having changed, and he waved goodbye to Kurt and Blaine, going out to have fun with Marc and their friends.
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A few hours later, Kurt and Blaine were both seated on the couch, with Kurt's legs tucked under Blaine's thigh while they spoke. A bottle of red wine was open, and both glasses were on the living room table.
“Kurt, can I ask you something?” asked Blaine, breaking the companionable silence they had been in. Kurt just smiled and nodded in answer to Blaine's question.
“What happened to your dad? When we fought last time, you said that your dad didn't think you were worth fighting for and before when we were talking, you said that because of your past, you didn't trust people easily and I've just been wondering…”
At those words, Kurt tensed a little and sat a little straighter on the couch, but he left his feet under Blaine's thigh. After he was silent for about a minute, Blaine started to feel bad about his question and started to take it back.
“You don't have to tell me if you don't want to, or if you're not ready to. I just want to know more about you, but you don't have to feel obligated to share this with me.” He said hesitantly, worried that he had somehow offended Kurt with his question.
“No, no. I want to.” Kurt said, reassuring Blaine. “It's an important part of my life and I want you to understand me better, it's just… difficult to talk about for me. So give me a minute, please?”
“Of course” Blaine said, and he took Kurt's hand in his, kissing it softly. Keeping Kurt's hand in one of his, Blaine's other hand went to Kurt's knee where it was planted on the couch and he started to gently caress his knee and leg with his fingers, wanting to show Kurt that he was there without pressuring the man. After a few minutes, Kurt turned towards Blaine a little more. He kept Blaine's hand in his, alost as if it was to give himself some strength, and started to explain:
“My mother died of cancer when I was 6 years old. I was too young to remember much about her today, but I was old enough to feel and understand that I had just lost my entire world. A mother is so important, and mine had been taken away from me. From the few memories I have, she was a wonderful human being and a perfect mother, and when she was alive, I had the perfect life with her and my father.” Kurt paused his story at these words, as if he was remembering a happier time. After a few seconds, he kept going.
“When my mother died, my father took it…. Very hardly. My mom and dad had met when they were 17, My mom was my dad's entire world, and he had just lost the love of his life, and was left with a little boy that looked exactly like her. After a while, my father started drinking. At first, the drinking was occasional, but after the while, I guess it escalated. My father couldn't cope with my mother's death, and he drunk to forget about it. This was one of the hardest part of my life. My father was never violent towards me, and he never harmed me in any way. He used to be a great father before my mother died, but after he died he would forget to feed me supper sometimes, or he wouldn't make me have a bath and change my clothes, all these things that an 8 year old still need their parents to do for them. I know my father would have never hit me or anything and I was lucky because of that, but he just sort of… neglected me. After about a year, people started to notice that something was wrong at school. I would come to school with the same clothes for a week straight, and my teacher's started to question what was going on at home. And then one day, without me really understanding what was going on, I was taken and placed with child services because my father was considered unfit for taking care of me. I was 8 at the time, and I've never seen my father since.”
As Kurt told his story, his voice was shaking and Blaine had tears in his eyes, he squeezed Kurt's hand to show silent support, but decided not to interrupt, seeing that Kurt had more to say.
“In the orphanage, it was….well, horrible. At home, my father would not take care of me sometimes, but he never harmed me in anyway. However in the orphanage, things were different. I was a strange kid to be honest, I mean, you've met me right? Well imagine an 8 year old Kurt, I had just lost my mother and my father, I didn't like playing sports and liked to wear what I called “pretty clothes” and read, I was the “gay kid”… I just didn't fit in there. The kids would tease me, sometimes even worse… and the social workers were so overwhelmed with the number of kids that were in the orphanage that they didn't even see what was happening. After a few year in an orphanage, you learn to build a shell. I had to learn how to protect myself, and I think that's why I became so… cold sometimes. I couldn't let things reach me, because otherwise I wouldn't have survived in there. When Isaac and I met, he had just entered the orphanage and I had been there for 4 years. I was 12 years old, and he was only 10. On his first day, I saw some of the older kids trying to tease him already, and I decided to stand up to him. That was one of the best decisions I made in my life. I gained an amazing friend, and growing up together, Isaac and I stayed close. So now you know… You know what happened to me, and why I am the way I am today.”
By the time he finished his story, Kurt had small silent tears running on his cheeks, and Blaine cupped his face with his hands and brushed them away with his thumbs.
“And who you are today is an amazing person Kurt, so I guess you did pretty good for yourself.” He said, kissing Kurt softly.
Still, now Blaine could understand Kurt a lot better. This is why Kurt had reacted that way when Blaine had first talked about Emily living with them, his personal experience was the reason why he had been so quick to agree with the living arrangements, because he had personal experience with the system, and he had hated it. Now that Blaine knew the whole story, he admired Kurt even more and he could understand why Kurt had been so cold when they met. Not only because he himself had a hard time trusting others, but he was probably worried about Isaac, seeing as they had known each other for so long and Kurt had been protecting him for so many years. Knowing what he knew now, Blaine was even more grateful that Kurt was willing to give them a chance and open up to him. He could understand how difficult this situation must be for Kurt, putting himself at risk of being hurt again, and he was grateful that Kurt trusted him enough to do so with him.
“Have you ever thought about contacting your father again?” asked Blaine softly, holding Kurt close to his body. Kurt was now laying back against Blaine, in between his legs with his back leaning on Blaine's chest, and both of Blaine's arms wrapped tightly around him.
“I have, but I never did. I wasn't enough for him. After my mother died, I wasn't enough for him to keep holding on, and when they took me to the orphanage, he didn't even try to fight for me to stay. Although I can understand why he felt the way he did, and that he was buried in grief, I'm not sure I could ever forgive this…” Kurt answered, softly, his hand squeezing Blaine's arm around his torso.
“Thank you for telling me all of this Kurt. I know this mustn't be an easy story to share… and I am grateful for you telling me. I want you to know that I am here if you ever feel the need to talk about any of this, or anything else, okay?” said Blaine, wanting to show Kurt that he was cared for and that Blaine was there for him.
“You're welcome, and I know” said Kurt, his head dropping to rest against Blaine's shoulder and turning his head towards Blaine so that the man could peck him lightly on the lips.
“Good. And Kurt?” Blaine prompted, wanting Kurt to understand this. “He was wrong your father. You are absolutely worth fighting for, and the fact that after everything that's happened to you, you're still able to be here with me tonight, to be generous towards Isaac and Emily, to be the man you are today proves that.” He said, kissing Kurt on the temple to show him his affection and how much he meant these words.
“You are a wonderful man Kurt Hummel, don't ever forget that.”