~Blame It On The Alcohol: part two~

The next morning Blaine finally forced himself to get up from his bed. His cause for not wanting to face the day had nothing to do with that he had barely slept. It had everything to do with facing a day when he and Kurt weren't speaking to each other. As Blaine sat on his bed, still feeling slightly groggy, he stood up and headed off to take his morning shower. He felt miserable, but even worse Blaine felt like he was being split into two pieces, one piece of him wanting to do nothing but rush to Kurt's side and apologize so they could make up and be together again. But the other piece of him knew that Kurt was the one in the wrong and he was determined to wait until Kurt made the first move. As the pounding water of the shower hit him, he fought to try to make sense of his jumbled mind, only to break down again.

Things didn't get much better when Blaine arrived at McKinley, so many places in the school reminded him of Kurt, reminded him how much he missed him, he began to shake his head, trying to rid the thoughts from his mind. He had to be strong, Blaine only hoped that Kurt felt as miserable as he did and that he would face him soon, if Kurt actually did approach him to apologize, Blaine would follow him less than a second later. For now, he had decided they both needed some time apart to let heat of their big fight cool down. Suddenly Blaine deep thought was broken when Rachel suddenly rushed up to him, her face full of worry.

“Oh my god, Blaine, there you are! I am so sorry about yesterday! I cannot begin to forgive myself for me asking you out... I was stupid and, well, drunk, and I feel so guilty.” Rachel began to blurt out.

Blaine sighed, he was not in the mood to deal with Rachel Berry, drama queen at the moment. Even when she was apologizing, Rachel still managed for it to be all about her and how she felt. “It's okay, Rachel...” he began.

Rachel quickly interrupted him and continued to babble on. “No! It's not okay! I was way out of line. I mean, you're gay and with Kurt. I don't know what happened, when I drink I seem to think every boy in the world is mine for the taking. I'm going to make this up to you, Blaine! Do you think Kurt will even listen to me right now so I can beg for his forgiveness too?”

“Um, I haven't actually talked to him since our f-” Blaine began, but he couldn't finish. “... since I saw him last night.” he finished.

Rachel eyed him suspiciously, “Wait that's not possible... you guys talk to each other every morning! Kurt's tells me about that all the time and so have you.” Rachel began.

Blaine watched as her face turned to an over dramatic look of horror and he fought the urge to run away from her.

“Did you two end up fighting because of what I did?” Rachel blurted out and she grabbed Blaine by the arm.

Blaine hissed as Rachel's nails dug into his skin, he yanked his arm out of her tight grip. “No, well yes... kind of. It might have started because of your call but it changed subjects really quick.” Blaine muttered. He wasn't comfortable with telling anyone, especially Rachel. The details of their fight.

“Say no more, you must be miserable without him. Blaine, I will make this all better, I'm going to find Kurt right now.” Rachel told him.

“No, don't!” Blaine shouted, but it was too late. Rachel had already darted off down the hallway in search of Kurt.

Blaine groaned, he was beginning to think maybe it had just been the alcohol that had made girls appealing. Either that or it was just Rachel who was not desirable at all, at least when he was sober. Blaine closed the door to his locker and headed off to his first class, letting out another long sigh as he went. Blaine reminded himself Rachel wasn't that bad, he actually considered her a good friend most of the time. So he hoped that by some miracle Rachel would somehow get through to Kurt, but he doubted they'd be that lucky.

Meanwhile Kurt was showing his depression over his fight with Blaine in a very obvious way, through fashion. It was the least flashy he had ever been, heck it was downright low key. Kurt was wearing a pair of jeans and a pale blue long sleeve shirt. Of course both of these items were expensive designer brands, but it still showed Kurt was deep in despair.

“Kurt... is that you?”

Kurt glanced up from the spot on the floor he had been staring at by his locker and looked up to see Rachel gaping at him. Kurt glared at her, holding none of his frustration at her back. “What do you want?” he asked, giving high emphasis when he said 'you'.

“I hear that you and Blaine had a fight... that I started, and I've come bring a stop to this insanity.” Rachel explained.

“Clearly you're the insane one here, Rachel.” Kurt replied coldly.

“Oh, really? Then why are you the one who's only wearing a shirt with no accessories? Look at yourself Kurt, you and Blaine and are miserable being apart even for a few hours. I am so sorry that I asked Blaine out when I was drunk. It's my fault, this all is, so neither of you should suffer for it.”

Kurt had reached his limit, if he stayed any longer he'd start a full blown shouting match, which he did not have the energy for. “Oh for god sakes Rachel, I know you might find it hard to believe. But this isn't about you!” he shouted and stormed off before Rachel could respond.

“KURT!” Rachel called after him, much like Blaine had done to her and once again it was too late. Even after Kurt had disappeared around the corner Rachel just stood their sulking in her moment of defeat.

“What was that all about?” Mercedes asked as she stepped up to stand beside her.

“Kurt and Blaine got into a big fight, they're not talking to each other.” Rachel replied.

“Are you serious, how is that even possible? I mean it's Klaine! There supposed to be so cute that it's painful for others to watch.” Mercedes blurted out in surprise.

“I know! If they can't make up then there's no hope for the rest of us.” Rachel replied.

“What are they even fighting about?” Mercedes asked.

“I don't know, well I kind of do, I know how it started. But after talking to the both of them... I think there's a lot more going on here. Which is why I refuse to give up, I am going to get those boys to make up, even if it kills me!”

“Whoa slow down Berry, it's none of your business remember? Ever think they might have to work this out on their own?” Mercedes pointed out.

“No, as their friend and the initial cause of this fight, I cannot just sit by and watch their love fall apart.”

“God you are such a drama queen.” Mercedes muttered as she shook her head. “Which is why I can't let you do that...” she added and got an annoyed look from Rachel, which made Mercedes grin. “Not without me helping, making sure you don't go over the line.”

“Thanks Mercedes, what should we do first?”

“First we have to get them talking, not to each other, not yet. But we need to know what went down between them.” Mercedes suggested.

Rachel nodded, “Agreed, leave Kurt to me, I know he's pissed off at me... but I think I can use that to my advantage.”

“You know you're far more likeable when you're too busy trying to help people to than fighting me for solos.” Mercedes told her.
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“Welcome Kurt, I never thought you'd actually show up here.” Rachel said as she ushered Kurt inside her house.

“You did invite me, didn't you? Or was your promise to let me watch you have to clean up from the weekend drunkenry while you tell me how fabulous I am all a lie?” Kurt replied with a smirk.

“Nice try Kurt, I know the only reason you came here is because you're avoiding Blaine and this is the last place he'd expect you to be.” Rachel pointed out.

Kurt rolled his eyes, “Maybe it was a mistake to come here.” he muttered and turned back to the front door.

“Oh no! It's too late now.” Rachel said as she grabbed onto his arm and pulled him away from the door. “You're obviously miserable and confused about what happened with Blaine. It might help if you... you know actually talk about it. I mean how many times have you had to hear me talk about Finn?”

“More times than I could ever count... but I dunno Rachel. I mean yes I'd like to get some this out... but it's kind of personal.” Kurt hesitated.

“You can trust me, Kurt, I swear I won't tell anyone. I promise you that I'll just shut up and listen.”

Kurt sighed, “Fine you win, I'll talk. Let's go start the clean up, it will be good to have something to do while I vent.” Kurt said as he led Rachel down to her basement. Once there he whistled at the sight of the numerous empty drink cups and bottles that were spread out everywhere. “We have got our work cut out for us.”

Rachel, who already had a trash bag ready in her hand, turned and gave Kurt a warm smile. “You gotta start somewhere.” she urged.

“Right, so I am guessing you probably know why the fight started.” Kurt began.

“Because I called Blaine when I was drunk and asked him out, yes.” Rachel interrupted.

“Do you happen to remember what Blaine said after you asked?”

Rachel frowned, she was clearly trying to remember. “Um, that he was flattered, but he was with you...”

“And that if he wasn't with me he'd totally take you up on offer.” Kurt added.

Rachel's mouth hung open in surprise, “You mean I didn't dream that part up?”

Kurt sighed and shook his head, “No, you didn't. Turns out Blaine has suddenly gotten this idea that he's bisexual now... all because how good his drunken kiss with you felt at the party.”

“Oh wow...” was all Rachel could reply.

Kurt sighed again and picked up a cup and tossed into the bag Rachel was holding. As he began to explain the fight, all his emotion came rushing back to him. Only this time, he wasn't blinded by anger or shock. “When I look back on how I reacted to the news I know now it was bad. I should have been supportive, but all I could think about was how freaking crazy the idea was! Blaine's always been so out and proud, so sure of himself. I've looked up to him from day one because of that, it's probably one of the reasons I fell in love with him so easily.” Kurt explained, he felt his legs go weak and he slumped down on the floor.

“If you felt that way why didn't you just tell him instead of getting so angry?” Rachel asked softly as she came to sit beside him.

“Probably because we had just finished having sex, so hearing your boyfriend now likes girls after that kind of hurts, you know.” Kurt muttered.

Rachel's eyes widened, “You guys have had sex already?” she blurted out.

Kurt looked at her in surprise, it seemed everyone had been too drunk to remember Blaine outburst at the party. Also, Finn actually could keep a secret from Rachel. “That's beyond the point right now, Rachel! So I got mad and said some things I truly regret. But I'm not the only one who went too far. Blaine said some hurtful things and it just all blew up from there and before I knew it, he stormed out of the room.”

“Just apologize to him, Kurt, you know he's waiting for you to... so why don't you just talk to him?”

Kurt turned to look at her, the fear on his face was easy to read as he started to cry. “I can't...” Kurt said weakly.

“Why?” Rachel pressed.

“Because...” Kurt began but he faltered, admitting why would just make it real.

“Kurt!” Rachel shouted.

“Because I'm scared, Rachel!” Kurt blurted out as he stood up so quickly he got a head rush. Kurt clutched the sides of his head and fought to steady himself. “I afraid that Blaine's too good for me! That I don't deserve to be with him! I mean, Blaine shared with me something so personal... because he thought I would help him figure things out, like a loving boyfriend should. But I just attacked him, Rachel, not physically, of course, but it's almost worst than it was emotionally. The second he told me he might be bi I couldn't stop picturing some girl stealing him away. When Blaine accused me of being selfish I knew deep down he was right, but I was too angry to admit it... and I hurt him, Rachel, I did. And I hate myself so much right now...” Kurt sobbed as he covered his hands over his tear stained face. “I have made Blaine put up and go through so much crap because of me. All the while he's never complained and has always put aside his own needs for me! He is such an amazing person... and I can't help but think that he'd be better off without me.”

Having finally admitting out loud the fears he had been having since the night before, Kurt felt a heavy weight lift from his chest. He peered through his hands to see Rachel was holding out a tissue in front of his face and he took it, thanking her weakly.

“Kurt, I'm not going to tell you what to do about Blaine. But I will give you some serious advice. Before you decide anything, like if Blaine's too good for you, you need to talk to him about this, find out what he thinks. If you don't and you let yourself walk out of his life, you are going to regret it for the rest of your life, Kurt.” Rachel told him softly.

Kurt blew his nose and nodded, he then bent down to pick up another cup. “Can we talk about show-tunes now to distract me before I attempt to figure things out?” he asked her.

Rachel smiled and rushed over to give him a quick hug, “Of course.” she answered.
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Rachel stepped into the Lima Bean and quickly found Mercedes and Blaine were already sitting at a table. She hurried over to them and saw Mercedes wave at her. Blaine was sitting at the table and he looked far from his usually cheery self.

“Hey there you two and how is Blaine today?” Rachel asked as she joined them.

“You mean Mr. Mopey?” Mercedes replied.

“I'm not moping.” Blaine muttered, but it was hardly convincing.

“Fine, Mr. Cranky then.” Mercedes said with a smirk.

Blaine just rolled his eyes and played with the stir stick in his opened coffee cup that had been empty for a while. The past few days had been tough for Blaine, because Kurt had become such a big part of his life. He had never fully realized just how much until he was gone, as how things like this tended to work in the world. Blaine looked up and saw Mercedes and Rachel were giving him big thoughtful smiles and he sighed. “I'm sorry, I'm not responding to your guy’s efforts to cheer me up.” he told them.

“Blaine, seriously you need to talk to Kurt...” Rachel urged.

“I mean talking is what you two do, I've heard the both of you say how it's how you've stayed together this long.” Mercedes added.

“I want to, I do but...” Blaine began, but he stopped because he wasn't sure if he was comfortable enough to tell them why.

“I know the reason the fight started, Blaine.” Rachel admitted softly.

“Did Kurt tell you?” Blaine blurted out in surprise.

“Well yes, but you did kind of tell it to me yourself when I called... and it's nothing to be embarrassed about!” Rachel replied.

“Oh my god.” Blaine muttered and he face planted his head on the table.

“Would someone please fill me in on what's going on?” Mercedes demanded.

Blaine glanced up from the table and saw Rachel give him an encouraging nod, he sighed and pulled his head back up to sit properly. “At the party... when Rachel and I ended up kissing. Well I realized that it felt... sort of good. So that made me start to think that it means I could be bi...” Blaine began to explain. But he stopped talking when Mercedes's eyes widened in shock and she began to choke on her coffee.

“What?” she yelled through her coughs.

“Why does everyone react like that...” Blaine muttered, which was a lie since Kurt was the only other person to hear the new directly from his mouth.

“Sorry Blaine, but you gotta admit it is kind of out of the blue.” Mercedes commented.

“I have to agree and you didn't pick the best point to tell Kurt about it either...” Rachel began. “But of course I'm not saying this is all your fault!” she quickly added.

Blaine just stared at her, “How did you get Kurt to tell you this stuff? He's still alive, right?” Blaine asked.

Rachel glared at him, “You're stalling, Blaine...” she warned.

“Yeah, well, maybe I don't want to talk about it yet. I mean. yeah my timing to tell him wasn't the brightest. But he did ask me what was wrong and it wasn't insane for me to think that he would be supportive, at least for the most part. What I ended up getting was Kurt judging me, and looking at me like I was a totally different person!” Blaine shouted.

“We get it you're pissed and that's allowed, but the real question is this: do you want your relationship with Kurt to end because of this?” Mercedes asked him.

“No, of course not... Kurt's become my whole world... or at least, a big part of it. He's the love of my life, and I am so scared of being left alone without him.” Blaine admitted.

“Then why won't you try to talk to him?” Rachel asked.

“Because I'm scared, I'm afraid that if I end up being bi I won't fit into Kurt's life anymore. I understand that he was surprised and everything. But it hurt to see him practically reject me, like it suddenly changed everything. It's like... like if I'm not gay that I'm not good enough to be with him.” Blaine explained.

Rachel just gaped at him, the irony of why Kurt and Blaine weren't talking to each other was too much to accept. Both of them were afraid of losing each other and that fear was keeping them apart. Rachel found herself being torn, she wanted to smack them both and tell them they were being crazy. But she knew even when she wanted to help, it wasn't her place to tell each other what they had said to her. “Okay Blaine, listen up. Because I am not going to tell you what Kurt told me. That would be too easy. But I will give you the same advice I gave him. Talk to him, before you make any decisions, because as scary as losing Kurt is, losing him when you didn't have to is way worse.”

Blaine looked forward and gave Rachel a weak smile, “Yeah you're right... I just… is it too selfish to want Kurt to apologize first?”

“You're asking the wrong person.” Rachel muttered and they both turned to look at Mercedes.

“Oh no, I am not walking into that trap. I'm going to the bathroom.” She quickly told them and made her escape.

“You know if you want to find out for sure if you're bi or not, I might be able to help you.” Rachel told him.

“How?” Blaine asked suspiciously.

“I could kiss you again when you’re sober, it should do the trick.” Rachel answered with a playful expression on her face.

Blaine laughed lightly, “Uh... thanks, but no thanks. I don't think it's a very good idea, not when Kurt and I are still fighting.” Blaine told her.

Rachel grinned and stood up from her seat, “Fine, a supportive hug will have to do. I know you and Kurt can patch things up. You're made for each other, the perfect match.” Rachel told him as she gave him a warm hug.

“Thanks, Rachel.”

Kurt could barely take in what he was currently watching from the other side of the Lima Bean's glass window. Blaine was with Rachel and they were hugging. It tore at his heart so much it felt like it would break. It wasn't that they were hugging, because despite their fight Kurt still trusted Blaine. He would never cheat on him with anyone, let alone Rachel when nothing was resolved between them yet, one way or another. It was the fact that while he had been ignoring and avoiding talking to Kurt, he had no problem in talking to Rachel. Even when Kurt knew he needed to be the one to apologize first, it hurt to see that Blaine had reached out to her. He stared at them for another moment and he simply pulled away, turned around and headed right back to his car. Blaine and Rachel never even noticed they had been watched.
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Giving his dad a breakfast making lesson was one of the least things he felt like doing, but he had promised and Kurt hoped it would distract him somehow. Just when he had gathered the courage to finally face Blaine and talk to him, he had hit another wall. One that he wasn't sure he could recover from quickly enough. Kurt sighed, he knew he was being immature and he needed to talk to Blaine. He just wanted to get his tempter under control before he did. His plan was to call Blaine so they could meet up and finally deal with everything that had happened. Once he was finished with his bonding time with his dad of course. But it seemed he was too annoyed not to be snippy and when Burt called him out on that, he decided one of their famous father son talks might be helpful.

“I'm sorry dad I know this is supposed to be bonding time but it's Blaine, we got into a big fight friday night and now we're not speaking to each other.” Kurt explained.

Burt looked up from his souffle and gave Kurt a quizzical look, “I'm surprised you guys haven't talked about it yet.” he commented.

Kurt sighed, he wasn't really all that comfortable with telling his dad most of the details of their fight, mainly because it all started with Blaine being drunk at the party. He tried to think of the right way to phrase things and give his dad and idea of where he was emotionally. “It's a long story but basically what happened was Blaine did something stupid. Something that wasn't that big of a deal and I tossed it aside. But there was an unexpected side effect to that stupid thing and I didn't react well to it. We both said some hurtful things and that's when the whole silence between us started. But just when I thought I could be brave enough to face him...” Kurt explained, but he struggled to keep his emotions under control. “Blaine... he... it's hard to explain but... I knew he was waiting for me to make the first move. I finally realized I should be the one to talk first. But I was rewarded to find out Blaine would rather talk to someone more appealing instead of me.” Kurt finished.

Burt remained silent for a moment, “Look Kurt, you gotta know if you're in a relationship, you're gonna have fights. I mean, considering this is what like the first big one you two have had that's pretty impressive. But nothings gonna happen if you guys are too stubborn to work it out.” Burt told him.

“I just wish he had been mature enough to come to talk to me about it first.” Kurt muttered.

“Yeah, well he's not the only one.” Burt replied with a small chuckle.

Kurt eyed him, “And what's that supposed to mean?”

“Oh I dunno, how about the fact that I found Blaine in your bed on Saturday morning? And the fact that you seemed to have forgot it happened makes me think you think that's not a problem. I had been waiting for you to prove how mature you are by coming to talk to me about it on your own. But it seems I was wrong to assume you would, which is why you're grounded for the rest of the week.” Burt said.

Kurt gaped at him in disbelief, “We were fully clothed the entire time! Nothing happened! Blaine was too drunk to drive home so I let him crash here, I was being responsible.” Kurt sputtered quickly in defence.

“What? You kids are drinking now?” Burt blurted out.

“Finn and I didn't get drunk, if that's what you're worried about.” Kurt replied.

“No, I'm worried about you being inappropriate in my house.”

“I said nothing happened!”

“This time maybe, and I actually believe you. But I'm also not stupid Kurt and I bet you can't say that's true for all the times you and Blaine have been alone here.” Burt told him.

Kurt looked at him awkwardly, he knew it would be stupid to outright lie to his father's claims. But it didn't mean he was going to confirm anything either.

But Burt took his silence as a yes, “That's what I thought.” he replied. Burt walked over to the kitchen table and turned to look back at his son. “Take a seat, Kurt.” he told him.

Kurt knew there was no point in fighting it, not when he couldn't escape the house. So he walked over and silently took a seat at the table. “I'm sorry if me being gay makes you uncomfortable...” he muttered under his breath.

“Hey when I have I ever been uncomfortable with you being gay?” Burt replied as he raised his voice.

“So it's not being gay that upsets you, it's just me acting on it.” Kurt told him.

“Don't you go making yourself the victim here, Kurt. You know that's not what this is about! It has nothing to do about you being gay. I wouldn't allow Finn to have a girl sleep over in his bed. So I expect the same thing from you.”

Kurt rolled his eyes, “What do you want from me here dad...I” he asked. Kurt wasn't about to promise he would stop having sex with Blaine, if they ever did make up. Because it was ridiculous, sure they were young but they were always safe and it was a way for them to connect to each other, let alone that it felt good.

“I want you to apologize for being inappropriate and promise me you'll never do it again. And by 'it', I mean for having Blaine sleep over without asking. Because I know I can't stop you from doing things with him, I was your age once too. But it doesn't mean I'm gonna give you my permission for it to happen. So I expect you to be more responsible from now on, you hear me?” Burt told him.

Kurt, who had been staring at the kitchen table, looked back up at Burt. “Fine, I'm sorry. I won't have Blaine or anyone else who might be gay sleep over without asking you first.” Kurt replied.

“And?”

“What?” Kurt asked, he had honestly no idea what else his dad wanted him to say.

“That I won't walk in to find Blaine in your bed again.” Burt answered.

Kurt rolled his eyes, “That goes without saying...” Kurt scoffed.

“Thank you, then.” Burt commented.

“I know this will probably be seen as too much attitude for me to say. But I'm already grounded so I'll risk it. I know Blaine and I might be young, but we do love each other dad. You yourself told me you wanted me to experience everything when I was ready. So I just have to say being intimate at my age might not always mean it's inappropriate.”

“It doesn't mean I wanna see any proof of it happening, Kurt.” Burt warned him.

“Honestly I dunno if that will be even possible...” Kurt muttered.

Burt's face became full of concern, “Is it really that bad?” he asked.

Kurt sighed, “I have no clue, that's the problem... I'm afraid that Blaine's turning into another person now, with this whole new life, one that I no longer fit into.” Kurt said softly. When his dad said nothing in reply Kurt stood up from the table, “Can I go now?” he asked.

“Yeah you can, just make sure you come straight home after class every day.” Burt told him.

“I promise, we're done then?”

When Burt nodded, Kurt walked off to his bedroom without another word. Once he was in his room Kurt grabbed his phone and brought up Blaine's contact name. He sat down while he was stared at it and began to make a text message to send to him.

I'm so sorry Blaine, I miss you.

Only Kurt couldn't bring himself to hit the send button, because he wanted to say these things in person to Blaine. But now he was grounded and that meant they wouldn't be alone, not in the true sense. He tossed his phone onto the bed and looked around the room. His attention wavered over to his parents wedding photo book he had gotten made. Kurt walked over and grabbed it and began to finger through the pages as he sat back down on his bed. A small smile spread across his face and he looked at the photos. The memories of that magical night began to flood back him. When he came to a photo of him and Blaine where they were dancing and he paused. Their love for each other was easy to see. Kurt went through a few more pages until he came to the picture Kurt had the photographer take of Blaine by himself. Kurt touched the photo with his finger gently. 'Oh Blaine.'Kurt thought to himself. Kurt knew he couldn't go through another day of ignoring Blaine at school. It hurt far more than their fighting had. Kurt retrieved his phone and sent Blaine a text, hoping it would start them on their road to recovery.

I miss you.

Kurt waited to see if Blaine would bother to reply, when he had given up hope, Kurt went to go sit on his vanity to start his skin routine for the night. Then he heard his phone buzz, Kurt picked up the phone, he was almost too afraid to see what Blaine had written.

Me too.

Kurt smiled weakly and he felt a tear streamed down his cheek, because it seemed that there was hope for them after all.
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Kurt had planned to head to school early in hopes of getting some time to think what he would tell Blaine when he arrived. But that hadn't worked out when Kurt ended up oversleeping, so much that he made it to school far later than he had wanted to. As soon as he stepped inside the building he hurried over to Blaine's locker and gave a sigh of relief to see his boyfriend was waiting for him.

“Blaine!” Kurt called out as he made his way over. Once at Blaine's side, he took a moment to catch his breath. “I'm so sorry I'm so late! I overslept... or rather I had so little sleep last night I ended up oversleeping!” Kurt blurted out.

Blaine fought the urge to just gathered Kurt up into his arms, no, they needed to talk things out first. “It's okay, I didn't sleep much either.” Blaine admitted softly. “So this is awkward huh....” Blaine added.

“Yes...” Kurt admitted. “I know we need to have a serious talk, but all I want to do is just... touch you, it's very distracting.”

Blaine smiled, he slowly held out his hand and took hold of Kurt's, they stared at their hands for a moment. Letting their feelings for each other fuel them both with the courage they needed to admit their fears to one another.

“Blaine... I'm so sorry... I...” Kurt began, but he was interrupted by the class bell ringing and Kurt swore under his breath. “Oh god why!” he shouted. It soon became clear to them that there was no way they could continue their conversation. “I have half a mind just to skip first period but I'm in enough trouble already!” Kurt muttered in annoyance.

“Looks like we'll have to finish this at lunch or something...” Blaine suggested.

Kurt sighed, “Yeah, I guess and we've got the assembly performance before that too. How are we going to survive?”

“I suggest we promise that we won't get stubborn or chicken out this time. That we'll wait and the second we have the chance, we talk, like a serious one. The one we should have done a lot sooner." Blaine suggested.

Kurt nodded. “Agreed and we both promise to listen and not fill our minds of doubt, before we know if we can work things out. But honestly. I'd like to think we will.” Kurt said with a weak smile.

“Me too.” Blaine said with a small nod.

Before they could part they suddenly rushed forward to hug each other, needing physical re-assurance that they would be okay. Only as soon as they found themselves in each other’s arms, they regretted it. Not because it was too soon, but that now it was very hard to part, even for only a few hours. Neither of them wanted to but they finally gave in and headed off in different directions to their first class of the day. When the alcohol awareness assembly had started, Kurt and Blaine found themselves in a strange position as the New Directions got dressed in their outfits. Normally they would have been at each other’s sides, talking and chatting away. But there was still an unfinished air around them that almost formed an invisible wall around them, keeping them apart. But they also didn't want to totally ignore each other existences like they had done all week. The couple ended up both being so nervous, that Kurt and Blaine actually accepted Rachel's strange alcoholic concoction she had made to cure every one of their stage fright. Only Kurt hoped, along with Blaine, that it would calm their nerves that were caused by a different reason all together.

Kurt managed to swallow his share and shuddered. “Oh god, that is vial.” Kurt muttered.

“This is what a hangover tastes like.” Blaine commented.
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“Kurt!” Blaine shouted as he chased after Kurt down the hallways, he had a pretty good hunch why his boyfriend had bolted out of the gym the second their performance had come to a crashing halt. Because Blaine was feeling it to, so much that he caught up to Kurt and they both ran into the bathroom, heading straight for the stalls. Blaine stumbled out a moment later, relieved that he barely ending up vomiting at all. He looked around for Kurt and heard him before he saw him, clearly Kurt wasn't so lucky.

“Are you okay?” Blaine asked as he looked over at Kurt's crouched figure over the toilet.

“Oh god, don't look at me Blaine... I don't want you to see...” Kurt muttered but his conversation was cut short when he threw up again.

Blaine retreated to wait for Kurt over at the sinks, finally Kurt sounded like he was finished and Blaine saw him weakly join him. Blaine handed him a tissue and Kurt thanked him for the gesture.

“This is why I don't drink...” Kurt muttered.

“I think it was more what the drink was made of this time, not a good combo.” Blaine pointed out with a shudder. “Which is why I barely drank any of the stuff.” Blaine added, he saw how bad Kurt still looked. “Are you okay?” he asked again.

Kurt sighed, “No... but I sort of deserve this so it's okay. It just shows how alcohol can turn anyone into something they're not. But it has it's uses, after seeing Rachel get thrown up on… I knew even she didn't deserve that. Not when I'm the one who ended up being such a jerk to you...” Kurt told Blaine.

“Kurt...” Blaine told him with a small sigh, but Kurt held up his hand to stop him.

“No Blaine, this needs to be said. I realize we both said some hurtful things, things I know we regret. But you also can't deny that I was the one to start it all, once again...” Kurt said. He began to think about their last fight, which had happened when he had gone all straight acting to please other people, the irony didn't escape him.

“I'm far from innocent here, Kurt.” Blaine commented. “And I'm sure there will be plenty of other times when I'm fully to blame.” he added.

Kurt smiled lightly, “You are so amazing...” he said to Blaine. Kurt had planned to continue to say that he was worried that he didn't deserve him. But Finn suddenly stepped into the bathroom so he never got the chance.

“There you guys are! You two need to get changed and quick!” Finn told them quickly.

Kurt eyed him, “Why exactly?” he was not amused to be interrupted again.

“Principal Figgins wants to speak with us and it's not gonna be good...” Finn explained, he tossed each of them their bags. “Just change in here and head off to the principal's office the second you're done. Trust me, we're all in enough trouble as it is.” Finn told them and he hurried out of the bathroom and down the hall.

Kurt took hold of his bag and sighed, “The world is a cruel, cruel place.” Kurt muttered as he stepped into one of the bathroom stalls and closed the door so he could get changed.

“Yeah, ditto.” Blaine muttered as he did the same.
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After everyone in glee club managed to escape suspension, Kurt and Blaine had to wait yet again. When finally it was lunch time and neither of them had any desire to eat, so they had the whole period to finally talk. Not wanting anyone to overhear them, Kurt had suggested they go to his car, which Blaine had agreed to. There was still a chance someone would noticed them there, but it worth the risk. As soon as they climbed into the back seats and Kurt locked the door he couldn't contain himself any longer. He reached out for Blaine, who moved just as quickly into his embrace, and they just sat there holding onto each other for a while.

But Kurt knew they couldn't solve their problems by just hugging like this so he pulled away. “I should have been supportive when you told me you might be bi, Blaine, I know that now. I was just.. so afraid and shocked and my mind was running everywhere at once. I was... actually, still am terrified of losing you...”

“You're not going to lose me, Kurt. You're being insane, heck we both are. I won't lie and say how you reacted didn't hurt me at the time. But I also can admit I see now why you did it... and... I think, no I know I can look past it.” Blaine told him.

Kurt paused, “I don't know if you should, Blaine... I mean, look what you've had to go through because of me. You were right, it is always about me and that's hardly fair to you. Even now I'm making it all my fault...” Kurt moped.

Blaine found himself getting angry, despite the need to make up with Kurt. But this time, the anger might help them out. “Then stop being so stupid and think about me for once, Kurt! Did you ever consider to ask me what I think, what I want? Kurt, most of those things that happened to you were not even your choice. Also, don't think you're the only one who's been an idiot because believe me you are wrong. All this time, I've been thinking that you wouldn't want to be with me if I was bi.” Blaine blurted out.

“Excuse me? How could you think I would want that?” Kurt told him in disbelief.

“See, stupid... we're both equally to blame. We were stubborn and stupid and we were both being afraid for nothing. We deserve to be together Kurt, because we work for it. Chemistry like ours.... it just doesn't happen without a reason.” Blaine told Kurt as he wrapped his arm around his shoulder.

Kurt blinked away the tears that were risking to form in his eyes. “We're meant to be together Blaine... because we make everything else bearable. I'm so sorry, but more so I'm sorry that I took this long to realize the fact.” Kurt admitted. “Let's try not to be that stupid again, okay?”

“Sure but we are teenagers, so it's bound to happen.” Blaine pointed out. “So are we good?” Blaine asked, mirror the last time they had made up over after a fight.

“We're good. I think we should talk about this more, later on. But we're good.” Kurt told him with a smile.

“Does that mean we get to have make up sex tonight?” Blaine asked with a smirk. Normally he would never dream of being so tackles after such a beautiful and romantic moment. But they needed to diffuse the tension a bit and smile once more. When he saw Kurt crack him a playful smile and give him a quick peck on the lips, Blaine felt the rush of joy run through him, something he had missed.

Kurt pushed at Blaine as he shook his head, “Sorry, no can do. I'm... sort of grounded for the rest of the week.” Kurt told him reluctantly.

Blaine's cheeky grin turned into concern at that instant and he took hold of Kurt by the shoulders as guilt filled him. “What? Why?” Blaine blurted out. He was disappointed because he had hoped they'd spend the whole day together after school, he didn't even care if they got a chance to be intimate or not. Then Blaine thought of what could be the cause for Kurt's punishment and he winced. “Is it because Burt found me in your bed?” He asked reluctantly.

Kurt stopped Blaine's accusing of himself by kissing him again, but this time it was longer and more tender and afterwards, the ploy had worked, Blaine couldn't recover quick enough from the embrace to be the first to speak. “No, we're through blaming each other, Blaine! What's done is done. I got grounded because I wasn't responsible, something my dad made clear. So... don't even try, Blaine Anderson.” Kurt warned as his tone got all sassy.

Blaine smiled in surrender. “God, I've missed you.” Blaine muttered as he hugged his boyfriend with all of his might.
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“So do you think the universe is trying to punish us because of how stupid we were?” Blaine asked as he flopped down on his bed while he talked to Kurt over the phone that night.

“Seems that way to me, considering we don't get to be alone together till the weekend.” Kurt moped. “Although it could be worse...”

“How?”

“I could be grounded over the weekend too.” Kurt pointed out.

“Oh yah, that's true... I still can't help but feel guilty.” Blaine muttered.

“Blaine, you've already said you're sorry for getting drunk far too many times.” Kurt warned. “Not to mention us going through the whole we're done with the sorrys thing we insisted on, because I lost count on how many times we said it since we made up yesterday!”

“Not to you... to Burt.” Blaine said.

“Oh, well it's your funeral, cutie, but if you're so keen on facing my dad, I suggest you wait a bit.”

“Okay will do... so what are you wearing?” Blaine asked in a seductive tone.

Kurt began to laugh, “Oh my god Blaine! Keep it in your pants! I am so not ready to give phone sex a try yet.”

“Spoil sport, okay if you want to kill the mood...how about the fact about how Rachel kind of helped us figure things out.”

Kurt smirked at the mention of Rachel's name, it was true she had tried her best, in her own boarding diva-ish ways. Really Blaine and Kurt had patched things up on their own, for the most part, but there was no denying that she had helped push them in the right direction. Even when she tended to make everything be about herself, something he and Rachel might have in common, but Kurt thought he was nowhere near her level. Rachel's act had been selfless, which was amazing and that needed recognition of some sort. “You’re right, she did help me, somewhat. I take it she talked to you as well?” Kurt asked, but by talk, he more meant, pushed.

Blaine noticed the hidden meaning and he chuckled at Kurt's less than subtle message. He nodded in confirmation to his query, even when Kurt couldn't see him. “Yes, she and Mercedes both did, they tried to cheer me up at the Lima Bean... they called me Mr. Mopey actually and well, that's pretty much who I was.” Blaine admitted with a sheepish grin.

Kurt began to laugh but then he realized, that must of been when he saw Blaine and Rachel together and he groaned. “Well, then I'm Mr. Complete idiot...” Kurt grumbled.

“What?” Blaine asked in confusion.

“I saw you, well you and Rachel there... and I ran... something I'm not proud of, even more so now.” Kurt admitted reluctantly.

Blaine just gave Kurt a loving smile, wishing Kurt could be there to see it. He was relieved when Kurt didn't start apologizing all over again. “Kurt, when will you learn you can never run from me.” he pointed out.

“I love you so much, Blaine.” Kurt told him softly.

“I love you, too.” Blaine replied. “Now back to Rachel, since we both know it's never wise to ignore her for long.”

“Yes, don't I know it. In fact, I can tell she's been resisting the urge to approach us. I'm not sure why... exactly, maybe she wanted to give us the proper space to make up?”

“I haven't got a clue myself... you know her better than I do.”

“I guess we'll just have to thank her and find out ourselves. But not yet, we'll wait until Friday. Because she still asked you out, and being drunk doesn't make up for that, nor does her valiant efforts to have us make up. Not to mention her whole asking you to give her kissing tips...” Kurt grumbled.

Blaine eyed Kurt playfully, he had missed their normal playful rapport so much, just as much as he missed their sexual encounters. “Cut the girl some slack, or do you not want make up sex on Saturday?” he teased.

Kurt rolled his eyes at the empty threat and if they were in the same room, he knew Blaine would call his bluff. “Oh don't kid yourself, cutie.” he teased back. “Because we both know we both want it bad.” he added.

“After our much needed long talk.” Blaine agreed.
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Friday finally arrived and Kurt had only one more night of torture to survive before he could bask in the company of Blaine outside school. True to their word, he and Blaine went in search of Rachel after class, Kurt had asked his dad if he could be a little late so they could thank her and luckily Burt had actually believed him. It might of taken him promising to have Rachel take a photo of them together as proof, but Kurt was fine with it needing to go that far.

They found Rachel at the auditorium of all places, where she was working through a session of warm up vocals it seemed. Most likely to get her ready for singing yet another solo in glee club. Kurt and Blaine walked up the aisle and made their way to the stage.

“Hey, Rachel.” Kurt said causally.

Rachel looked over at them and saw they were holding hands and her face lit up with delight. “You guys made up!” she squealed and rushed over to hug them.

“Uh yeah, like a couple of days ago, couldn't you tell?” Blaine asked with a laugh.

“I wasn't sure, I mean you guys haven't been as well... close as you usually are.” Rachel explained.

Kurt and Blaine looked at each other in confusion, then it dawned on Kurt. “Oh that... that's just because I'm grounded and we can't hang out after school at all. So if we got all snuggly here it would be too much torture.” Kurt explained.

“That, and bullies and the risk PDA has per usual.” Blaine added with a shrug.

“I'm so happy, I mean I thought maybe you two had broken up and were just friends... but I was too afraid to ask!” Rachel said.

Kurt sighed and shook his head, “Typical Rachel behaviour, anyway we've come to thank you for trying to help. Even when it wasn't really needed...” Kurt began.

“Sure Kurt, whatever you say, well I was happy to help and I'm glad you were able to make up.” Rachel told them warmly. “Is everything alright then?”

Kurt gave Blaine and warm look before he nodded at Rachel, “Yes, we're good. If Blaine's bi or gay it doesn't matter, because it's who he is and he's also my fabulous boyfriend.” Kurt told Rachel as he rubbed Blaine's back with his hand. “And he's so much more than that, of course.” he added.

Blaine suddenly began to break out into awkward laughter, because he had almost forgotten the whole 'he might be bisexual ordeal.' Which make him think if it had got pushed under the drama of fighting with Kurt, he had been overthinking things. He flashed a nervous glance at Rachel, trying to avoid eye contact with Kurt. But considering she was the girl he had kissed to bring the idea on, it did little help to calm him. He quickly began to feel embarrassed about the whole ordeal and he couldn't find the right words to say anything good in reply.

“Well, Blaine my offer still stands if you really want to find out one way or the other.” Rachel said sweetly.

“What offer?” Kurt asked.

Blaine sighed, “Rachel said she could kiss me when I was sober, to find out if still feels good or not.” Blaine admitted. He waited for Kurt to have a strong aversion to the prospect, but it never came and this time Blaine was happy with the surprised reaction.

“Go for it.” Kurt said with a smirk.

Blaine just gaped at him in surprise, “Seriously? You're okay with Rachel kissing me?” he asked.

“If it helps you figure things out, sure, but no tongue.” Kurt answered as he glared at Rachel, who rolled her eyes at him.

“Okay then, lay one on me I guess.” Blaine said shyly.

Rachel grinned and pulled out her chap stick, after applying a thin layer to her lips she smiled. After looking over at Kurt just to be sure, she saw him nod and suddenly stood up on her tiptoes and kissed him.

Blaine was unsure what he should do in reaction, he had no idea where his hands should be. It also felt very weird that Kurt was still holding on his shoulder during the kiss. But as it continued, Blaine didn't feel the sparks like he had when they had kissed before. It was nothing compared to kissing Kurt, Blaine felt nothing.

Rachel finally pulled away and Kurt came to stand beside her as they both stared at him. “Well?” Rachel asked.

Blaine grinned at them both, as he began to nod his head in approval. “Huh... yeah I'm gay, 100% gay. Thank you so much, Rachel.” Blaine told her.

Kurt's face was full of amusement and he leaned over to give him a quick peck on the cheek. “That's my boy.” he said affectionately. “And thank you Rachel, I hope you're not too disappointed.”

Rachel beamed at them both, “Are you kidding? I almost split up a couple from sheer jealousy. That is song writing gold. I have to go compose, thank you.” Rachel muttered as she kissed Kurt's cheek and raced off the stage and out the auditorium door.

Blaine and Kurt, now alone just started at each other until they began to laugh. “Well, turns out you knew me better than I did. I'm gay, or rather, I'm gay for you Kurt.” Blaine told him.

Kurt glanced at his watch and saw he still had a bit of time before his dad expected him home. So Kurt wrapped his arms around Blaine's neck and pulled him close. “Lucky me.” he muttered and kissed him.