Feb. 20, 2013, 2:53 p.m.
Chorus of Crickets: 17-Jan
T - Words: 2,682 - Last Updated: Feb 20, 2013 Story: Closed - Chapters: 5/? - Created: Feb 01, 2013 - Updated: Feb 20, 2013 342 0 1 0 0
Loverboy.
dont call me that
I get the feeling from both you and Kurt that your nice long talk didn't go as planned.
jsut leave me alone
We're friends. Talk to me as Rachel Berry, your friend and not Rachel Berry, the crazy pregnant lady you met through Kurt
i dont wan tto tlak im fine
You're obviously not fine. I'm coming over to your apartment
not home
Okay, where are you?
not at my apratment
Where?
dosent matter besides i dont want yuo to get cold
It does matter. I'm worried about you. Stupid hormones. Cold? You're outside?
no rachel im not outside im fine i jsut wan tto be alone
Blainey... please...
no rach i dont want ot cry anymroe
Then let me help you
i dont want help
i just want kurt and i wnat him to just want ot hlep me on his own without havnig to chase him or have yuo tell him to do smoething
UGH YOU TWO ARE SO INFURIATING
he broke up wiht me hes dnoe i told him how i feel and he still broke up ith me like he didnt care adn i justty wanmt to get overr himnalone ok
[Silence]
[silence]
Ugh
Rachie is everything okay?
Kurt and Blaine.
I'm sorry?
Ugh
Rachie, do you want to get together for coffee?
I can't drink coffee.
Do you want to get together?
I'm busy.
Why did you text me?
Leave me alone
You were the one who texted me
[Silence]
Hey, are you okay?
Leave me alone.
Okay then.
Blaine, is everything okay?
i jsut wna tto be alone
What happened?
kurt brok eup wiht me
He did? Why?
i dont knwo he aksed if we shuold take a braek and i said theredno differnce betweeen breaknig up and takign a brake adn thennow were ona break but its teh same thign adn its so cold up here
You two are taking a break? What happened to get you to that point?
And cold? Where are you, Blaine?
cuase youcame to fix me on chritsmas eve.
on my apratmetn biuldng roof
Right. I came to fix you on Christmas Eve. How did that ruin things?
Are you okay up there?
kurt hates yuo cuase of everythign
i dnot hate yuo wes
yuore teh only person who i cnacount on
its windy uphere
I'm glad you don't hate me.
Would you like some company?
im so sad it feles like im gonig to explode
i dont relaly wnatto be alone
I don't want you to be sad.
Do you want me to come see you?
yes
I'm on my way
im onteh roof
Yes, you mentioned
Sebastian quickly puts Wes's phone back where it was and heads to the door, putting on his coat.
Wes glances up from where he's watching tv and laying on the couch.
"Hey, where are you going?"
"Study group."
The lie comes naturally.
"Oh. I thought that was Thursdays. Well, have fun."
"Yeah, Ethan can't make it tomorrow. So we're meeting today. Besides, we have a test tomorrow."
"You're not leaving without giving me a kiss, are you?"
"Oops. Sorry. Never."
Sebastian walks over to the couch and bends over to kiss Wes.
Wes leans up and kisses Sebastian.
"Now, go. I'm trying to watch the six o'clock news, and I'm going to miss the weather."
"Fascinating stuff. I'll text you when I'm on my way home."
Sebastian walks back to the door and pauses.
"I love you."
Wes glances over with a small smile.
"I love you, Seb."
Sebastian makes his way to Blaine's apartment building and heads up to the rooftop, glancing around for Blaine.
Blaine is huddled on the floor of the roof, sitting against the half-wall where he and Kurt had kissed in the snow however long ago that was. He hears the door creak open and glances up through tear-filled eyes at a figure that isn't Wes. Looking back to his phone, he ignores the other person and tries not to let those tears fall for fear of them freezing.
Sebastian spies Blaine and takes a deep breath, walking over.
"Hey you. I know the past few times we've seen each other it hasn't been... pretty..."
Blaine looks up, confused.
"W-what are you doing here?"
"Wes was busy. Asked me to check up on you."
Blaine's face falls and he looks back down.
"I'm fine."
"I can tell you're not. What's up?"
"I'm just tired. I think I'm going to go to sleep, actually, but thanks for stopping by."
Blaine moves to stand up.
"Hey. I get it, you know."
"I don't know what you're talking about."
"I dated Kurt. I know how he is."
"Everything between... Kurt and I is fine. I don't even know what you're talking about."
"Considering Rachel texted me, and I quote, 'ugh Kurt and Blaine' and Kurt's being distant, combined with you like this, I'm pretty sure things aren't fine. Wes was even worried."
"Wes doesn't worry."
"You'd be surprised."
"I've lived with him for like four years. He doesn't worry."
"And I've been hanging out with him for several years. Trust me. But I'm not going to hold a 'who knows my Wes better' contest. I understand, you know. Kurt runs away when things get hard."
Blaine has a defensive look on his face until Sebastian pinpoints what's wrong, and his eyes soften then.
"You know, at first, it wasn't that bad. Cause, you know, it was through text messages. I didn't even notice it. He just had to go. Big deal. But now it's so much worse. B-because he's running away, literally, from breakfast. I just don't get it. All I want to do is love him."
"I get it, really, I do. He used to do it to me all the time. After we'd fight about something. Granted, I usually left to go hang out with Wes immediately after, but he always ran first. It's his defense mechanism. He was bullied really bad before I met him."
"We're fighting about Wes."
"You are...? Why? What about?"
Blaine sighs and leans against the brick wall behind him.
"Just before Christmas, my ex showed up, randomly. Kissed me. Kurt took off, all the way to Ohio, before I had a chance to explain that it wasn't me that kissed him. Anyway, I chased him to Ohio, some other stuff happened and we took a break. Which is pretty much breaking up. I... I wasn't so good. On Christmas Eve, Wes came to my apartment. He.. he made me eat a granola bar and get up and whatever. If he hadn't come by, I'm pretty sure I'd be dead. But, Kurt's still upset that I don't hate Wes as much as he does. I can't hate him. Right now, he's my only friend. Only, I guess he's not, because he was supposed to come here and he sent you instead."
Sebastian stands patiently through Blaine's explanation.
"So that's what happened to my granola bar. Anyway. Wow. That's some intense stuff. No wonder Rachie's so freaked out right now. I guess... can you blame Kurt for hating Wes? I mean, I don't even blame him. After what happened. I mean, I still love Wes. And... I have to be perfectly honest. That was me. Earlier. Texting you."
"I... that was you? From Wes's phone? Mental note never to trust that anyone is who they say they are. Uh. Well. Yes. Sorry for eating your granola bar. They're really good, by the way. Especially when they're the first thing you've really eaten in a while. And no, I don't blame Kurt. But I can't just shut out Wes when he's the only person who cared enough to bother checking in on me."
"Um, yeah. I was worried. Rachie was acting weird and I wanted information. They are good, aren't they? My favourite snack food. But hey. There are people who care about you. Take Rachie. I get daily texts from her about you. The only person she trusts more than you is probably Kurt. Just because her hormones are going crazy right now doesn't mean she doesn't care."
"Yeah, but she's connected to Kurt. If we're going to be broken up... I can't.. I don't think I can be her friend anymore."
"That's the biggest piece of shit I've heard in a while."
"You don't understand."
"Blaine. Rachel and I are best friends. And Kurt and I broke up. We text each other every day. We get together for coffee. There are times when I think I can't be friends with her because it's too awkward but really, it's hard to give up being friends with someone like her."
"Yeah, I know she's a great person, and she cares and everything, but being so close to ...him... I just-"
"LISTEN TO ME! I'm telling you that I've been in your situation. And I did a heck of a lot worse things than you. I may not talk to Kurt that often any more but Rachel... seriously, don't cut her out. Not when she needs people around her right now."
"All she wants to talk about is Kurt and planning the two of us a date. I don't always want to be cheered up. Like tonight, I just wanted to be frustrated and upset, and if I would have let her come over like she wanted to, she'd have me chasing after him like I always am. Like I have been since the beginning. And that doesn't work."
"You think I haven't been in that exact same situation before? And the last time, I didn't even get a chance to chase after him. Because he was already with you."
"You were already with Wes."
"Not officially."
"Because officially makes so much more difference."
"It doesn't make a difference. I was mostly fine with Kurt until the hurricane."
"That's weird. I was mostly dead until the hurricane."
"It hurt, you know. As much as I did, I never thought Kurt would do that to me."
"I didn't try to love him. It's not something you do, you know. Someone tells you they have a boyfriend, and you leave them alone. But I just couldn't leave him alone."
"Kurt has that effect on people."
"You say that like it's happened before."
"I fell for Kurt insanely fast when I first met him. Because of the type of person he was. Is."
"When he sang Blackbird... I know. I ...could have fallen for him then too."
"Yeah. Blackbird. That was definitely the moment. You know, it's crazy. You could have been the one he ran into his first day. I wonder if things would have been different."
"Funny you should mention that. Kurt and I actually discussed that once."
"Oh really? You know something? Sometimes I just hate myself for what I did to him. Because he's really an amazing person. I miss him as my friend right now."
"I sort of hate you for what you did to him, too. But... your heart was with Wes, wasn't it?"
"Exactly. I love Wes. Despite everything. He can be a pain in the ass, but I still love him. I'm going to ask you something, and it might sting a bit, but you need to answer honestly, okay?"
"Oh... okay?"
"Do you love Kurt?"
"I... yes. Too much, I think."
"Impossible. But here's what you do. Calm down. Listen to Rachel. And if you ever need someone to talk to, I'm always available. Just... don't tell Wes I was here today, alright?"
"I... won't... Why are you being nice to me? I stole your boyfriend of five years via text message."
"I don't know. Call it maturity."
"Right, okay..."
"We should get coffee sometime. Follow up on this conversation."
"Yeah, maybe."
"Listen, like I said. We don't have good history between us. But I'm willing to change that if you are."
"I don't hate you. I've never hated you. Just... so you know."
"Really? I can't say the same thing. But I've learned not to hate you."
"Well, I guess a lot of people hated me. Kurt hated me. But you had every reason to hate me. I'm sorry for that, by the way."
"Kurt never hated you. You're forgiven. I'm sorry about... Wes and I."
"Don't be sorry about that. And he did hate me. Before he knew who I was, he hated me. Well, he hated 'Blaine, the captain of the Warblers.'"
"Everyone hated 'Blaine, the captain of the Warblers'. Because it wasn't fair."
"I wasn't the one who decided I should be captain, you know. I hardly even remember that whole thing. I just remember that Wes was really excited about it."
"You think I haven't heard that story a million times when Wes is trying to apologize to me for it?"
"I'm just saying. It wasn't my fault."
"I know. Actually, I think Wes and I hung out over that topic a few times at Dalton."
"Uh, okay?"
"We had a lot of disagreements."
"I always thought you hated him."
"Hate can lead to passion."
"Apparently."
"We had an interesting relationship."
"I don't see why me being captain would have anything to do with you hating Wes and for whatever reason hanging out with him when you hated him."
"You didn't hang out with him."
"What? Yes I did. Wes and I hung out all the time. We lived together until a couple of months ago."
"Trust me. You didn't. You spent time with him."
"Uh, okay... whatever."
"Sorry."
"I have no idea what you're talking about."
"Listen. When Wes or I say we're hanging out. It doesn't mean just sitting together and talking. It means something else."
"Okay... Oh. OH! Sebastian. No."
"It gets better the more we're angry. When we hang out."
"That doesn't sound fun at all."
"Oh, it is. Very fun. Did you know Wes could actually be... you know...?"
"I'm trying not to picture it, Sebastian."
"What about you and Kurt?"
"What do you mean, what about me and Kurt?"
"Did you hang out?"
"Is that really any of your business?"
"Oh, I figured since I shared..."
"I didn't ask you to share. But y-yes."
"Lighten up, I'm just teasing. I remember hanging out with Kurt."
"Can we just not talk about this?"
"Chill out. You're being entirely too blah about this."
"What, you want to know about our chocolate fights and the way I can't help but miss him when he's at work and I'm at school and all I can think about is how it would feel to have his hands on me? Hmm?"
"Mhm. I think I've heard everything I need to hear. Rachel's right. Now I need to go talk to a couple of friends and build an alibi, but just keep in mind. I'm always available to talk. I know what Kurt's like. And Rachel too, for that matter. Give me a shout. There's a party on Friday, I'm sure you've heard of Chandler. Maybe you should come along? Wes and I will be there."
"Thanks, but I don't think I really fit in with that crowd."
"Consider it. It'll get you out of your apartment, at least."
"Yeah, okay, sure. I'll consider it."
"Great. I'm glad we had this talk. Talk to you again?"
Sebastian starts walking backwards, away from Blaine.
"Yeah, sure, sure. Hey, Sebastian?"
"Myeah?"
"Thanks. I think."
"You're welcome. Don't be a stranger, mkay?"
"Yeah, okay."
I'm on my way home now Wessy
Don't the study groups usually last a while?
Headache
Maybe I can help?
I'd love that
I know you would. You always do. How long will you be?
A few minutes, max. Love you
See you soon.
Ethan. This is important. If Wes asks, we were studying just now for a test we have tomorrow and I had a headache so I left.
Uh, okay... What's going on?
Just don't want Wes finding out what I was doing just now. Nothing bad. Everything's okay. Just do that for me.
Well, okay. I can do that. But you owe me like, coffee or something.
I'll bring it to class tomorrow. What's your order?
Bring me a grande four shot latte, 2% no sugar.
Alright, will do. Thanks.
No, thank you.
Whatever man. Gonna be at Chandler's Friday?
Yeah I'll be there. You?
But of course
Fantastic! Bringing Wes?
You know the answer to that question.
Just making sure. I mean, you were out secretly tonight.
The two of us wouldn't miss one of Chandler's parties.
Alright, alright. Don't forget that coffee.
I won't, man. See you tomorrow.
See you tomorrow.
Are you going to bite my head off again?
Why would I do that?
Never mind. So, I hunted down Blaine today.
You did what?
I went to see Blaine. And talked to him. I may have made a breakthrough for you guys. I don't know.
Why did you do that?
Because.
Because why?
Don't worry about it, Rachie.
So, what did you guys talk about?
He's upset
No kidding
Yeah. He's upset that Kurt keeps running.
He always runs.
I know. He won't listen to me. We're good but things are still awkward.
I'll try talking to him.
Great.
Why do you care so much?
I want Kurt to be happy.
You're a really great person Sebbie.
Not as great as you, Rachie
Love you <3
Love you more <3
Kurt, I need to talk to you tonight when you get home.
Fine.
It's important.
Okay.
Love you Kurtie <3
<3
Comments
I'm starting to think Seb might actually be a decent person. Wow...thats something I never thought I'd say. Can't wait to see how Rachel and Kurt's talk goes. I hope Blaine will be ok soon. It pains me to see him sad. Update soon :D