Nothing special led up to one of the most important nights of their lives.

            Maybe Kurt had fantasized about them being intimate for the first time a few times…okay more than a few times.

            He pictured a fancy French restaurant. They would wear suits and share dessert before going on a long walk through Central Park. After shy touches and glances they would go back to Kurt’s empty apartment and make love all night long.

            But Blaine had been shy.

            He refused to get undressed around Kurt or do more than make out before shying away. Memories of Blaine grinning at him wickedly before suggesting something new to try in bed came easily to mind. Those memories clashed horribly with the worried, frightened looks Blaine gave him now.

            Date nights were regular and most of the time they ended up at either Blaine’s dorm or Kurt’s apartment just talking the night away.

            This night had been Kurt’s time to plan. After a quick dinner of sushi they had tried to ignore the dropping temperatures and go for a walk. Both shivered through their walk and were about to give up when thunder crashed overhead.

            “It’s not supposed to rain!” Blaine gasped from behind his scarf.

            Just as he said those words fat, freezing raindrops starting pouring from the sky. Both boys yelped at the cold and sprinted to the street, trying to wave down a taxi. They both stepped into the road and frantically waved until a taxi pulled up next to them.

            Giggling, they tumbled into the taxi as Kurt rattled off his address. Their teeth chattered and their soaked clothing clung to them uncomfortably.

            “Rachel went home for fall break,” Kurt mentioned as they climbed out of the taxi and started up the stairs to the apartment. “So we’ve got the place to ourselves.”

            “Goody,” Blaine said through chattering teeth.

            “I have some extra clothes for you,” Kurt looked through his dresser. “Ah! A shirt and pajama pants!”

            “Honestly, I think I’m going to freeze to death,” Blaine grinned slightly and Kurt could see that, just like him, he was shivering so badly it looked almost like he was going to have a fit.

            “Would a hot shower help?”

            “Oh my God, yes!”

            “Okay,” Kurt laughed. “Well, you go ahead. I can go after.”

            “Don’t be silly,” Blaine shrugged, running his fingers through his soaked curls. “I hate the idea that you’re out here freezing! We’re both…adults and we can be adult about this. Let’s just go get warmed up.”

            With a soft smile he held out his hand and Kurt took it. They both walked back to the small bathroom and after a short hesitation took off their coats.

            They laughed when Blaine’s wet shirt got stuck as he tried to pull it off and when Kurt’s numb fingers fumbled over his buttons, Blaine reached up to help.

            Blushing bright pink, they both stepped into the steaming hot water. They hesitated before finally reaching around each other to get the soap and shampoo and trading positions to get more hot water.

            Kurt took a soft cloth and poured fragrant soup onto it before gently washing Blaine’s back. The smaller man smiled back at him and rolled his shoulders, sighing. With a grin, Kurt pressed a kiss to the nape of his neck.

            His eyes followed a few track mark scars on his throat down to his arm where they littered his forearms. Blaine’s body stiffened and he glanced back, looking nervous but not pulling away.

            “It’s okay,” Kurt took both of his hands and turned him around so that the water was hitting Blaine’s back. He raised his hands and gently kissed them before kissing along the line of marks.

            Blaine’s breathing hitched and his eyes went wide as Kurt took his time kissing the marks, making sure that Blaine knew that he wasn’t going to turn away from him.

            He pulled Kurt towards him and kissed him deeply.

            For a moment they just stood there, kissing each other as the warm water cascaded down on them.

            “I’m sorry,” Kurt whispered, breaking the kiss.

            “Don’t stop,” Blaine pulled him back in for a kiss and deepened it. He moaned softly and they pressed their bodies together.

            “Can…do you think…bed?” Kurt mumbled out between kisses, grinning.

            “Yes.”

            Kurt reached around his boyfriend to turn off the water and Blaine gave him a quick grin before stepping out of the shower. After fiddling with the sticking knobs for a few moments he quickly followed him out to see Blaine standing by the bed, naked and smiling.

            Both boys let out a shriek as Kurt tackled him into the puffy comforter and they wrestled for a moment, laughing loudly before Kurt pressed eager lips onto his boyfriend’s.

            The kisses grew deeper and more passionate until they were grinding together and moaning. Blaine broke away to trail kisses down Kurt’s neck, biting slightly down on his collarbone.

            “Please can I touch you?” Kurt gasped out, arching into his touch.

            “Yes,” Blaine whimpered as Kurt’s slim fingers slid down his chest, lingering on his nipples before one surrounded his cock and the other dug lightly into the flesh of his ass.

            “What do you want Blaine? Tell…tell me what…I want to make you…I want you to enjoy this,” Kurt’s cheeks flared pink. It had been so long since the last time they were at this stage and Kurt was terrified to mess this up.

            “Shh,” Blaine giggled and kissed him a few times. “You are thinking too much.”

            “Sorry,” Kurt laughed, tickling his fingers up Blaine’s sides making him shriek and writhe. “The lube is in the bedside table. I’ll even let you prep me.”

            “Well…I kind of wanted to…”

            “Oh…I just thought that after…that after…you wouldn’t want to…”

            “I think,” Blaine sat up, scrubbing his hands over his face. “That I need to replace those memories you know? I don’t want to be scared forever. I want to be with you but maybe I can be in charge?”

            He winked and spun them around so he was straddling Kurt before leaning down and kissing him deeply. He nipped his lip and leaned forward to run his tongue along the shell of Kurt’s ear.

            “I want you to prep me though,” He smiled and leaned over to grab the lube, pressing it into Kurt’s hand.

            Kurt spread the lube over his fingers and was reassured that Blaine seemed to be trembling as much as he was. He slowly pushed his finger into Blaine and froze when the smaller man let out a sharp hiss.

            “It’s fine,” Blaine gasped out. “Please…please keep going.”

            Kurt continued to slowly pump it in and out until Blaine was grinding down slightly and leaned forward to press their lips together sweetly. His breath hitched and he whimpered as Kurt pushed another finger in.

            “Another,” Blaine whimpered, circling his hips.

            Soon Blaine was grinding down hard on his fingers making gasping sounds. With a quick jerk he pulled Kurt’s fingers out and moved to hover of his hard, leaking cock before freezing.

            “Um…” His confidence broke for a moment. “Do you want to wear a condom? I mean…I got the treatment and everything came back clean during the last test I took.”

            “I trust you,” Kurt brushed his thumb over Blaine’s cheekbone and Blaine’s eyes brightened with tears for a moment before he blinked them away.

            Slowly, he sunk down onto Kurt’s cock. Both of them moaned loudly and they just stayed there for a moment, savoring the closeness.

            Blaine face split into a wide grin and he leaned forward to kiss Kurt, gasping as he changed angles.

            “Oh Blaine…Blaine please move,” Kurt gasped out.

            “Oh honey, honey,” Blaine chuckled, slightly breathless. “I’ll take good care of you.”

            He grabbed Kurt’s wrists in both hands and pressed them into the bed, riding him fast and hard. Blaine caught his boyfriend’s lips in a kiss as he squirmed and bucked.

            “I’m not gonna last long,” Blaine whispered as he quickened his movements.

            Kurt didn’t even respond but his gasps got louder and louder until he strained against Blaine’s hold and came hard in him. With a loud shout Blaine’s back arched and he came as well, collapsing down onto Kurt’s chest.

            They both lay still for a long moment before they got uncomfortable enough to move apart. Kurt felt himself smiling brightly and when his muscles began to start working again, glanced over to see tears streaming down Blaine’s cheeks.

            “Baby? You okay?” He sat up quickly. “Oh my God, I hurt you. I hurt you!”

            “No,” Blaine shook his head quickly. “You could never hurt me.”

            “Why are you crying then?” Kurt pushed himself onto his elbow to hover over Blaine and gently wiped the tears from his cheeks.

            “It’s just…I feel like I can breathe. That since you left for New York my senior year I can finally breathe,” He let out a trembling laugh. “For over a year I thought I was going to suffocate but with you here I am actually living.”

            “So…you’re all better?” Kurt smiled slightly.

            “No. I don’t think I’ll ever be all better,” Blaine shrugged a little. “But with you here I feel like I’m finally getting as close to it as possible.”

            “But you’re happy?”

            “I am,” Blaine turned shining eyes back towards him. “I am happy.”