*At Dalton Academy

Thad: Hey Blaine, are you crying? 

Blaine: NO! I NEVER cry! He quickly ran to his dorm. He slammed his door and locked it.

Thad softly knocked on the door. 

Thad: Are you okay? Thad could hear sobs through the door, he was getting worried.

Blaine: Does it look like I'm okay? 

Thad: Well- 

Blaine: No I'm not okay, Sherlock!   

Thad: Do you want to talk about it? 

Blaine: What do you think??!!?! 

Thad: I just wanted to help. I'm worried about you. I'll leave you alone if you want.. 

There was a moment of silence, then Thad heard footsteps and the door opened. 

Thad gasped, he had never seen Blaine like this. Blaine had dark circles around his eyes, his nose was redder than a rose, his face had all the color drained out of it, and he had a noticeable lump in his throat. 

Thad: Blaine, I- 

Blaine: I don't care say it. I know I look like shit. 

Thad: Well, I can't deny that... 

Blaine glared at him.  He put his hands up in surrender.

Blaine: Talk    

Thad: What exactly happened?

Blaine took a deep breath and rethought if he should tell Thad. On one hand, Thad was always there for him. He would never tell anyone what they talked about, it always stayed between them. But on the other hand, what happened was really personal. Blaine decided to tell him. Because that's what friends do, right?

Blaine: I-I- it's about K-kurt.

He got tears in his eyes at the sound of Kurt's name. Thad's eyes widened.

Thad: You didn't, like kill him or anything, right??

Blaine glared at him with angry eyes, but Thad saw right through them and saw the sadness that lay beneath it.

Thad: Sorry, that was a stupid question.

Blaine: From a stupid person.

Blaine tried to keep his voice firm, but anyone with ears could tell he was breaking.

Thad: Oh, Blaine...

Thad went over to him and hugged him. Blaine lost it at the touch of arms wrapping around him. Although it felt nice, he wished Kurt was holding him instead of Thad.

Thad*softly*: H'shh, it's alright. Let it all out.        

About half an hour later, Blaine ran out of tears.

Thad: Okay, so are you ready to talk about it? 

Blaine blew his nose into a tissue. It sounded like an elephant's trunk. He nodded. He took a deep breath and told Thad everything. 

When he was finished, he fell onto his bed with exhaustion. 

Thad: Wow.. Umm... Blaine, I-

Blaine*stuffy (as in with a stuffy nose)*: It's fine you don't have to say anything. I just appreciate you listening.

Thad lied on the bed next to Blaine.

Thad: I have no idea what to say.. It's so unfair, everything bad happens to you!

Blaine shrugged.

Blaine: Life's unfair.

Thad gave a small nod in agreement. 

Blaine: Can you do something for me?

Thad: Yes, of course.

Blaine: Can you stay the night? I don't want to be alone tonight..

Thad: Sure, absolutely.   

Blaine: Thank-you..

Thad nodded with a slight smile. Blaine gave a sad smile in return. Even though he appreciated the favor, it just hurted to smile.

*At Rachel's House

Since Kurt couldn't stand being alone (especially with Finn), he went to Rachel's house. Plus he knew she was probably be the only one that didn't care that he showed up uninvited.

Rachel: Wait... So let me get this straight... You and Blaine, y-y-you and B-Blaine k-

Kurt *cutting Rachel off*: Yes. 

Rachel: And then he-

Kurt *tired*: Yes.

Rachel: And then you-

Kurt *tired*: Yes.

Rachel: And then he-

Kurt *tired*: For the fifth time Rachel, yes!!

Rachel: ...Woooowww...

Kurt sighed and lied down on the bed. Rachel joined him. For awhile they just lied there, staring at the ceiling, then Rachel hugged him. 

Rachel *softly*: Are you okay?

Kurt lost it at those words. He began sobbing uncontrollably.  Rachel held him with a firm grip, not letting him go.

After about 45 minutes the crying stopped. 

Kurt *quietly*: I'm sorry for bothering y-

Rachel: No, h'sh. Don't apologize. You did nothing wrong. You're my friend, my best friend; I'll do anything to help you.

A small tear fell from Kurt's face. But this time it was a happy tear.

Kurt: How did I manage to get a great, but stuck-up friend?

Rachel slapped him. Kurt gave a small laugh, Rachel smiled at it.

Rachel: Now we're going to go shopping to help you feel better.

Kurt: Umm... Rachel? It's midnight...

Rachel: Oh right... Well do you want to help me pick out my outfit? 

Kurt smiled.

Kurt: Of course! 

Kurt was starting to feel better, but there's a part of him that already fell for Blaine. And when he falls, he falls hard. But the thing that bothered him the most was that Blaine left without a reason, and that makes Kurt feel like he's not even worth an explanation.

He pushed that thought out of his head, and sorted through all of Rachel's ugly sweaters. He winced when he saw a poodle. 

Kurt *thinking*: I really need to take her shopping... And burn the rest of her clothes..

After awhile Kurt finally picked out an outfit for Rachel that looked decent.

Rachel *excitedly*: Thanks Kurt! It looks amazing!

Kurt chuckled.

Kurt: No problem Rachel. Now I recall we have school tomorrow, and it's almost 1 am, soo.. Umm.. yeahh...

Rachel gasped.

Rachel: Shit... Well night!

Kurt laughed at Rachel's remark as he turned off the light and climbed back onto the bed. He stared out the window, looking at the stars. He felt as if someone was watching them too.

~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.

As Blaine stared out the window, he thought of Kurt. He wished he could just hold him one more time, stare into those beautiful blue eyes of his, and say everything would be okay.

But everything wasn’t okay... 

Kurt woke up with a groan, unaware of where he was. It took him a moment and the memories came flooding back. He knew that he had to forget about Blaine. But it’s going to be hard since he had school today. “Least it’s Friday...” he mumbled as he pushed himself off of Rachel’s bed to get ready. He’d packed an outfit for school so he wouldn’t have to go back home. “Home… Shit... I need to call Dad.” He called Burt and explained that something came up and he spent the night at Rachel’s. Burt was angry at first but he could hear the depression in his voice and just told him not to do that again. Kurt told his father that he promised and hung up. He huffed and said, “This is going to be a long day….”

He finished changing and moisturizing in Rachel’s bathroom and woke her up. She put on the outfit Kurt put together for her last night and went downstairs to eat breakfast.

“You coming?” She asked from the bottom of the stairs. He thought for a second and said yes. Why should he suffer and cry over someone who hurted him? But his heart thought differently, ’Because you care……’  He shook his head and whispered, “No I don’t…” even though he did….a lot.

                                  ~.~.~

“Blaine?” Thad asked when he awakened. Blaine looked terrible. He had dark circles under his eyes, messy and tangled curls, and you could see the dried tears on his face.

“Yes?” Blaine whispered quietly.

“You okay? You don’t look so well,” he replied.

“You don’t say?” He said with usually tone of sarcasm, although he still frowned. He sighed and said, “I didn’t sleep, Thad. Not even for a minute. I can’t. Every time I do…I-I see him! Do you know how it feels to hurt the one you love?!?!! Huh? Do you?! I just can’t do this anymore.” He looked like he was going to start crying again, but instead he climbed out the window.

“BLAINE!! WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING??? YOU COULD OF DIED!!!” Thad shouted out the window. Blaine, miraculously, landed on the windowsill of the 4 story building.

“I just need some time alone! Cover for me? Or don’t, I don’t really care. But promise not to tell anyone about this!” And with that he slide down the ladder attached to the balcony on the 4th story. He ran off pass the class buildings and the other dorms, all the way to his “hideout”. No one he knew, knew about this place. You’d have to jump the fence, run pass the Pine (or Oak, etc.) trees until you see a really big Redwood tree, then you walk for about 5 minutes to the right of the tree (the side that has the heart on it). Once you see a little stream and a broken tree, cross it. Walk for about a minute until you see a lot of leaves, push them out of the way and you’re there. His hideout has this really cool, huge lake with a small lodge that nobody uses; sometimes he just goes in there and lies down. He also leaves his back-up guitar and mini keyboard in there when he feels like singing.

He picked up his guitar and wondered what to sing. For a reason, memories of his dad came to mind. He knew just the song.

“Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time
Doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that I'm all right
And you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and we can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard just to talk to you
But you don't understand

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

       
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect”

He sighed. “Does anyone even care about me?” He spent the next few hours writing a song about generally what’s been happening, how’s he been feeling, etc. He decided that his song was finally good after awhile. He took a deep breath again and sang,

“Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever want to run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
You feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
You feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work
It was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like

To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
You feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
You feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No, you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life”

A single tear slide down his face. Blaine lied down and decided to take a little nap for awhile.

                                  ~.~.~

Blaine woke up 58 minutes later to the vibrating of his phone. Turns out A LOT of people notice he wasn’t at school today. Blaine was surprised, he ditched school a ton of times, why did his friends started caring now? He looked through his text messages:

Nick- Dudee, where r u?

Justin- hey, was gonna tell u bout a prank, but couldn’t find you.. :P

Wes- Are you okay? Did something bad happen? Does it involve Kurt? Thad won’t tell us.

Blaine gave a small chuckle at Wes’s message, he was the only person alive who used proper grammar when texting. He continued to scroll through the messages.

Thad- sorry Blaine, they sensed something was wrong, didn’t tell them anything doe.

Jeff- u there buddy? Didn’t c u @ lunch.. I probably just had my nose in a book again

Thad- Blaine? u mad bro?

David- Didn’t c u @ English 2day, where r u?

Nick- seriously dude, where r u?

Justin- Blainey! Come back 2 me!

Thad- Please?

Trent- Where were u at the Warbler’s meeting?

The texts could go on and on, but he stopped after a while. He decided to get back to the dorms before someone tells the dean that he’s missing again. He climbed up the ladder almost to the 5th story when he remembered that the ladder stops at the 4th story. Blaine notice that the window was unlocked so he just opened it and went inside.

Turns out someone did live there, or it looked like it.

“Next time sweet cheeks, knock,” a mysterious person said. It sounded weird, almost like a girl. The person walked further into the living room. Blaine smirked (obviously putting up a wall) when he saw who it was.

It was a girl...