Nov. 10, 2011, 7:28 a.m.
Goodbye My Almost Lover: Blaine's Explanation
M - Words: 670 - Last Updated: Nov 10, 2011 Story: Closed - Chapters: 4/? - Created: Aug 06, 2011 - Updated: Nov 10, 2011 376 0 0 0 0
"Blaine, don't stall… tell me why you…" Kurt felt the dramatic need to choke on the words, as Kurt does. "Why you kissed that boy." Kurt said.
"Kurt, his name is Jack." Blaine told him defensively.
"Well, why were you kissing Jack then?" Kurt asked, eagerly pressing hard to get out the information. Blaine sighed heavily.
"Where to start…" Blaine thought, looking away from Kurt to try to avoid his piercing blue eyes. "Uhh… well, I met Jack one day in a Warbler practice. We talked a little, and when he told me he was new at Dalton, like you, I asked him why he transferred." Blaine started to explain. It seemed to get harder for Blaine as he went on. "He said, he was being tortured by bullies at his old school, because he was gay." Kurt rolled his eyes.
"So? That doesn't give you any reason to kiss him! What, are you one of those Stereotype gays that wants every guy they see?" Kurt asked, glaring hard at Blaine.
"No! Kurt that conversation was over a week ago." Blaine told him.
"Then get to why you kissed him!" Kurt was getting impatient and angry, it seemed like Blaine was stalling. But he wasn't he was just trying to explain.
"Ok, well, I found him in the Warbler room again and he looked like he'd been crying. When I asked him what was wrong he just stared at me. After a minute he said, he was going to kill himself." Blaine hung his head, avoiding Kurt's gaze. Kurt was wide eyed, it wasn't like he hadn't considered it when he was being bullied by Karofsky but Dalton was a wonderful place. The work is harder but the people are nicer.
"So you kissed him?" Kurt asked calmly.
"No, I asked him why in the world he would do that, he said, it was because he had no one. Not even parental love. He said when he came out to his parents they went homophobic, they kicked him out and he transferred to Dalton so he could have a place to stay." Blaine still wasn't looking at Kurt. "He said, he didn't have friends, he didn't have parents anymore, and he had no one, no love." Blaine told him. Kurt only knew half that feeling; he couldn't imagine his dad kicking him out.
"I told him he wasn't alone, he doesn't have to kill himself, but he lashed out, he started yelling that no one cares or he'll never know what love is like. Kurt I couldn't let him do that, I couldn't let him kill himself, and it would haunt me forever, knowing that I could have stopped it. So I told him that he will, when he asked how I knew, I kissed him. I kissed him Kurt, but to save his life, I'm sorry I hurt you, I didn't mean to." Blaine started to tear but his face was down so Kurt couldn't see anyway. Kurt felt guilty; he didn't know that it was to keep Jack from killing himself.
"Blaine, I'm sorry, I-I didn't know." Kurt said putting a hand on Blaine's shoulder. Blaine quickly wiped away some tears and looked at Kurt.
"Kurt, does that mean you understand?" Blaine asked.
"Yes Blaine it does." Kurt smiled. Blaine smiled back, and they both hugged each other.
"I love you Kurt." Blaine told him.
"I love you too Blaine." Kurt replied. They hugged for a while until they both jumped from hearing a gunshot from a few dormitories down.