Chapter 9
Kurt had been told everything, from the start of Blaine's cancer to where they sat in that moment. And the one thing he still couldn't grasp was the fact that the boy in front of him was dying. Blaine didn't look like he was sick. He didn't look like he had cancer. And he didn't look like he could literally die any day now. But all of that was true and that's what was so hard to come to terms with. Not many people go in to kiss a guy and then find out the guy is terminally ill.
Even still, this didn't change the way he felt. He still liked Blaine a lot, if not more. And the fact that he would never hear him speak was heartbreaking.
Kurt held him. That's it. He never went in to try that kiss again. He never even thought about it. All he could think about was holding onto Blaine tight enough so that he couldn't ever leave. Even though Kurt knew that wasn't an actual possibility, he still tried. After he had told Kurt everything the boy completely broke down in front of him. Kurt figured Blaine held things inside a lot, possibly for the sake of preventing his family from seeing him like this. Kurt didn't object. He didn't say a word about it. He simply held Blaine and let him cry. Sometimes that's all people need, is to cry.
Kurt drove Blaine home before his dad got home that night, not wanting to force him into meeting someone new when he had just had a mental breakdown.

The next day in school the two were practically inseparable. In every class they had together the two sat next to one another, and in every class they didn't have together they would text nonstop. Lunch was uneventful. Kurt talked about glee club and tried to keep the topic of Blaine's illness at bay, for now. He didn't like to think about it and he was sure Blaine didn't like to think about it either. Gym came along and they two dressed out, like normal. But Blaine waited for Kurt to finish before leaving the locker room. Kurt had expected him to already be gone and running by now, like he always did.
But there he was. Kurt smiled softly when he saw Blaine waiting, "Don't you have something better to do? Like run around the track over and over again." He teased, lightly.
Blaine shrugged a shoulder and signed back, 'I was trying to catch a glimpse of you changing.'
Kurt laughed and tried to hold back the blush making its way over his face, "Shut up."
Blaine smiled back and reached down, taking Kurt's hand in his own. Kurt froze a bit, not expecting it and also trying to contain the excitement he felt wash over him. Once Blaine realized what he was doing he tried to pull back but Kurt made sure to hold his hand tighter so that he couldn't. Blaine looked nervously from their hands, then back up to Kurt's face. Kurt smiled softly and squeezed Blaine's hand. Blaine seemed to relax and managed to smile back as the two continued walking out to the track.
When they had walked about half way Kurt got an idea and stopped abruptly. Blaine looked back at him confused, their hands still connected. Kurt looked over to the bleachers and turned back to Blaine with a smile, "Come with me." He said before pulling Blaine along behind him. They reached the bleachers and Kurt saw that no one was behind them, thankfully. At McKinley you never knew what you could find behind the bleachers.
Blaine retracted his hand so that he could sign to Kurt, 'Is this your way of tricking me into a make out session instead of walking the track?'
Kurt rolled his eyes fondly. "You wish." Okay, so Kurt kind of wished he could make out with Blaine. Or maybe he really wished it, but that was irrelevant at the moment.
Blaine laughed a little as Kurt took a seat on the ground. Blaine quickly joined him on the floor so that the two were sitting across from each other, 'So, what are we doing here, then?'
"I just thought that it would be more fun to talk to you than to walk the track the entire time." Kurt responded.
Blaine nodded and smiled brightly, 'I agree. I am very interesting and very fun to talk to.'
Kurt ended up rolling his eyes again, "You're cocky. That's for sure."
Blaine raised his eyebrows with a small smirk and he didn't need to sign for Kurt to know what he was thinking, "God, you are such a five year old. I can't say the word cocky without your mind going straight to the gutter."
Blaine continued smiling, clearly trying to hold back a laugh, 'Maybe I just like the way the word sounds when you say it.'
Kurt shoved him lightly as he tried to keep from blushing again, "You're gross."
'Don't pretend you don't like it.' Blaine sighed back with a way too sexy wink. How was one little movement so damn sexy? Before Kurt could say anything in response, Blaine's face changed from sexy teasing to mild curiosity, 'I never asked you; how do you know how to sign?'
Kurt sighed and looked down at his hands. It wasn't that he didn't want to tell Blaine, he did. It was just a topic that he didn't really like talking about in general. But he knew that Blaine had every right to know, especially after all the boy had told him the day before. "My aunt on my mother's side of the family adopted a child from this woman. It was one of those adoptions where the girl got knocked up and needed to find a home for the baby, you know?"
Blaine sat across from him, listening with interest and nodding when appropriate.
"Well, the girl who got knocked up was kind of a drug addict, I guess. She claims she didn't use once she found out she was pregnant but Ally still didn't come out... the way she should have. She didn't really have any physical deformities or anything but she had a lot of health problems. Things like Asthma and Epilepsy. And on top of those things, she was born deaf. Most adoptive parents would be weary going into such a messy situation. You know, because of all the money and hard work you would have to put into a child with so many disabilities. But my aunt didn't think twice. She took Ally in without a second thought. To her, that was her child in every single sense of the word and she wasn't turning back. Anyways, everyone in my family learned to sign. Even my dad learned, which is saying something because he has one of the worst memories for things like that." Kurt eventually stopped talking, feeling as if he was rambling.
Blaine smiled softly and signed back, 'Your aunt sounds amazing and I can't wait to meet all of your family, including Ally.' He leaned in and gave Kurt's hand a soft squeeze when he was done.
Kurt smiled softly back, his heart skipping a beat when hearing that Blaine wanted to meet his family. However, he couldn't stop his smile from faltering ever so slightly, something that Blaine of course picked up on somehow, 'What's wrong? Do you not want me to meet your family? I didn't mean to overstep.'
Kurt shook his head and reached out to hold Blaine's hand again. "No, no. It's not that. I would love for you to meet my family. It's just... Ally passed away about a year ago."
Blaine's eyes saddened in realization and looked down at Kurt's hands that were holding his own. He gave them a light squeeze and looked back up at Kurt. Kurt understood what he was saying and squeezed back. "Don't be. You didn't know. But I'm really glad I told you." Kurt stopped talking for a moment to keep himself from crying. He hated crying in front of people. "She had a really bad seizure one day and... that was that. What sucked about it the most was that she was at school when it happened so my aunt wasn't there. I mean, she was at the hospital afterwards but by that point Ally was brain dead. They kept her on life support for a few months before my aunt decided that it was finally time to let her go."
Kurt was looking down and trying to keep himself from crying when he felt a pair of unexpected arms wrap around him. He froze at first but quickly returned the hug. It felt really nice to just be held by someone and Kurt didn't want to ever leave this moment. But he knew it obviously couldn't last forever. When Blaine eventually pulled back Kurt smiled gratefully at him, "Thanks for listening."
Blaine shook his head, 'Thank you for telling me. It means a lot.'
When the two heard the class heading back to the locker rooms they stood and followed behind everyone. They made sure they were the last ones in the group so that they could hold hands on the way back and know that no one would say anything about it.
One thing was certain, Kurt was falling for Blaine and he knew there was nothing he could do about it.