It has been three days now.

Three days, and I still haven't slept. I really, really try, but every time I close my eyes, everything comes rushing back at me.

It's like being pulled into a dark abyss, full of pain and fear and despair. And there just seems to be no way out.

It turns out that the only time I can actually relax is when I sing, but I can't really do that at school. So I keep singing in my head.

As lunch time approached today, I had mentally sung myself through my entire iPod playlist. Twice.

I only wish I could sing. Like really sing.

I play the piano pretty well, and when I'm home alone, I sometimes just sit down at the piano in the living room and sing along to some tunes that pop up in my head. I used to go to choir in junior high, but my high school doesn't have one.

It seems that music is the only thing that really keeps me going at the moment.