Blaine felt his fangs growing… and so did Kurt.

He immediately ended the kiss and stumbled backwards, one hand clasped over his mouth. Kurt stared at Blaine in shock- Burt and Carole could only see Blaine’s back but they had noticed that something was off.

Blaine fought it. He fought so hard against the monster that was trying to come out but he had to admit that he was hungry. He pressed his lips together and tried to concentrate on something else but Kurt’s scent was still in his nose and it made his mouth watering.

“Kurt… Blaine, what’s wrong?” Burt asked slowly. Blaine held back a snarl. He had to get out of here!

“Surprise!” someone shouted from the hallway and Blaine could hear Burt and Carole turn around in their seats. That was his chance.

Blaine apologetically smiled at Kurt before disappearing, leaving the room before Carole and Burt could turn around again.

Kurt stood there in shock. He couldn’t move; his body just wouldn’t do what he wanted.

Did Blaine want to attack me? Did he want to bite me?

Carole had turned around just a second after Blaine had left the room. “Honey, where did Blaine go?”

“I, erm… he went to the bathroom. He wasn’t feeling well, I guess.” He swallowed. “I’m gonna go and see, if… if he’s okay.”

At the door to the living room he ran into Finn. He didn’t even bother asking him, why he wasn’t at Rachel’s or wishing him a Merry Christmas. He just ran past him. He hoped that Blaine really had gone to the bathroom and hadn’t left the house. How would he explain that to his father?

He reached the bathroom door and tried to pull it open but it was locked. His heart made a little jump— either because of happiness that Blaine didn’t leave or because of fear that Blaine was in there. Kurt couldn’t tell.

“Blaine?” he whispered knowing that Blaine would be able to hear him. “Blaine, open the door, please.”

“No, Kurt. Just give me a second.” Blaine answered. It sounded as if he had trouble breathing.

“Blaine, please. Is everything okay?” He leaned his head against the door. “Answer me.”

“I’m fine, Kurt. I just need a minute to… to calm down.” He groaned. “Go back, okay?”

“Fine, but what should I tell them?”

“I don’t know. Tell them I got food poisoning or something like that... and that I’m going back to Dalton to recover.”

“What?” Kurt asked.

“I’m leaving. Like now. I gotta get out of here.” He coughed. Kurt was confused.

“But I thought we’d go to your house together tomorrow.” There was no answer. “Blaine?”

“Yes”, he muffled. “I know I said that. But maybe it’s better if I go alone.”

“No way. I’m coming with you! We just… I’ll just tell my dad that you’re not feeling well and that you are going to bed early and that we’ll leave tomorrow and go back to Dalton.” He didn’t wait for Blaine to answer this time. He just turned around and walked away, back to the living room.

I should be a little more shocked at what just happened. Even if he didn’t attack me, he seemed pretty close.

When he walked into the living room everybody’s eyes were on him.

“How is he?” Carole asked concerned.

“Who?!” Finn asked.

“Yeah, he literally flew out of the room. Did he throw up?” Burt added, completely ignoring Finn.

“I said: Who?” Finn repeated.

“Yes, Finn, you did. Twice! And we heard you.” Kurt glared at him. “And we’re talking about Blaine. He’s not feeling well and no, I don’t think he threw up but he’s going to sleep now and we’ll leave in the morning and go back to Dalton.” Carole nodded.

“Yeah, that’s probably the best.” She said.

“Wait. What the hell is Blaine doing here, dude?” Finn was looking from Kurt to Burt and back.

“He had Christmas dinner with us. Because you weren’t there, we thought it would be okay, if we had Kurt’s friend-- boyfriend?-- over.” Burt explained.

“Whoa, boyfriend?” Finn almost shouted.

“Yes, Finn! And that’s not your business.” Kurt clenched his fists.

“Sorry, Kurt. I didn’t mean to… it just caught me by surprise.” Finn looked ashamed. “But you… and him— how old is that guy?”

Kurt gasped and was about to shout at his step-brother but then he felt someone taking his hand.

“I’m seventeen, Finn. Kurt is older than me and…” Blaine turned to face Kurt’s father. “Burt and Carole, I would really appreciate it, if you let Kurt and me be together. We really like each other— screw that, we love each other and I would never harm Kurt in anyway.” Blaine squeezed Kurt’s hand and Kurt looked at him.

His face was pale but he seemed to be okay again. And he was talking to Kurt’s father about their relationship as if it was the most normal thing on earth. Kurt couldn’t help but blushing.

“Yes, dad.” He added. “You don’t disapprove, do you? About us being together.”

Burt shrugged. “No, I actually don’t. You know why, Kurt? Because I saw something in your eyes tonight while you two were singing. The last time I saw that spark was when you were eight.”

A tear rolled down Kurt’s cheek. “Thank you, dad. So much.” He looks at Blaine again. “We’re going upstairs and we’ll prepare the guest room for Blaine.” They turned around and left the room, their hands still clasped together.

They reached the guest room on the first floor and Blaine was about to walk in when Kurt grabbed his arm and dragged him down the hallway into his own room.

“Kurt- what?” He asked but he didn’t stop Kurt who closed the door behind them and locked it.

“You’re staying in my room. I won’t let you sleep in the guest room.”

“I don’t know, if that is such a good idea, Kurt. You know, I’m kinda… not in control right now. I would prefer the guest room.” Kurt gave him a glare that could only mean ‘Bitch, please’ and turned around to sit on the bed. Blaine stayed where he was.

“Tell me what happened.” Kurt demanded.

“What do you mean?”

“You know exactly what I mean. Did you want to bite me?” He didn’t know why but for some reason his voice cracked at the end of the question and tears started to fill his eyes.

“No, Kurt, it’s not like that. I didn’t… I didn’t want to bite you; it’s just something that happened on instinct. I was, well, I kind of am hungry and you just—“ He rubbed his forehead and then buried his face in his hands. “Kurt, I hate myself for this! I don’t want to be a threat for you. I want to be around you without being careful that I don’t rip you apart!”

Kurt shivered at his words. Suddenly it was back— the fear. The fear of Blaine sinking these sharp teeth into his skin and sucking him dry.

“Blaine?” The boy looked up and the hazel eyes met Kurt’s blue eyes and they were both lost for a moment. Not thinking about anything but each other. Kurt knew that deep inside of him he was afraid but somehow his love for this one boy was so much stronger than anything else.

“Blaine, we’ll make it through this.” He reached for Blaine’s hand.

“Through what, Kurt? This is not just something that could be solved by talking about it. This is what it will always be like if we’re together.” A tear rolled down his cheek.” Kurt, maybe we should forget about it.”

Kurt froze. “What do you mean?”

“I’m not good for you, Kurt. You should stay away from me.” He looked away because he couldn’t stand to look into Kurt’s eyes anymore. “I’ll leave and you just forget about me, live your life normally like nothing ever happened. That will be the best for you.”

“WHAT IF I DON’T WANT THE BEST FOR ME?!” Kurt screamed and Blaine flinched. “I DON’T CARE ABOUT ME! I care about you! YOU TOTAL DUMBASS!” Kurt couldn’t remember the last time he had been so angry and sad at the same time.

“You listen to me now, Blaine Anderson. We’ve been through this. I am sick of it! I made it very clear that I want to be with you forever, even though that would mean that I would never see my family again. You know, that’s kind of a big thing for me because I love my family and my friends. I don’t care about that it’s complicated and dangerous. I just want to be with you! Don’t you fucking get that?!” He took a deep breath before continuing.

“I am willing to change my whole life for you and I have the feeling that you don’t appreciate that at all! You… what am I to you? Just another human that came around? Because if that’s the case then… I don’t know what to do, if you don’t want me to be with you. I’m lost. I’m lost without you!”

Blaine didn’t react. He just looked at Kurt and did nothing but in his mind he fought a battle with himself.

I didn’t ask for him to give up his life for me. But he wants to be with me.

Just turn him, you idiot, and then you two can run away.

I can’t just rip him from his life.

Yes, you can. That’s what he’s asking for. There’s like no other way that you two can be together.

I can just give him a human life that he can spend with me. And when he dies, that’s when I will die, too.

Somehow I doubt that he would like this idea. Nice try, though.

“Kurt, I—“ He swallowed. “I am sorry. So sorry that I said that. But I would never- and I mean ever- let you throw your life away for me.” He was speaking so low that Kurt almost didn’t hear him. “It would be selfish to have you with me. And believe me, I want to be selfish.”

He turned to the door but Kurt took his arm and pulled him back.

“Stay with me. Don’t you dare walk away from me. I have nothing if I don’t have you.” He kissed Blaine softly and he held his hand tight but after only a second Blaine pulled away. It was not that he didn’t want to kiss Kurt- no, he was desperate to kiss him- but right now he couldn’t handle it.

“Kurt, please—“

“It’s fine. I get it.” He let go of Blaine’s hand. “Why don’t we just sleep, okay? We have time tomorrow.”

Blaine nodded. He got up from the bed and sat down on the floor leaning against the wall. Kurt wondered what he was doing but he didn’t ask. All he could do was staring at Blaine and Blaine stared back at him. Kurt mouthed ‘I love you’ and Blaine couldn’t help but smile.

Kurt was asleep about ten minutes later and Blaine was watching him. When he was sleeping Kurt looked so relieved. It looked like he didn’t have anything to deal with in his life. He looked… happy.

Blaine had decided not to sleep tonight. He was unsure about what he could do, if he would wake up and attack Kurt again. He was hungry and he would have to leave Kurt with Cooper for a few hours tomorrow because he had to feed.

The next morning came and Kurt woke up and the first thing he noticed was that Blaine wasn’t there. He was not in his room anymore. His first thought was that he had left him- forever. But thinking about that was way too painful.

He looked over to his alarm clock. It was 7am. Blaine wanted to leave as early as possible because he had told Kurt that it would take about four hours to get to his house. He had also told him that he would be faster, if he would go alone…

Damn him! He left without me. Great, just great. He got out of bed and got dressed. How exactly am I supposed to explain that to dad? I don’t even have a car to get back to Dalton.

He went downstairs. His father wouldn’t be up that early but Carole might. He glanced into the living room. No one there. No one in the bathroom either.

When he came to the kitchen he could smell bacon and when he walked through the door his mouth fell open. Carole was sitting in a chair reading the newspaper while Blaine was setting the table.

The curly-haired boy glanced up at Kurt and smiled. “Good morning, Kurt. I hope you’re hungry. I made pancakes, eggs, bacon- whatever you want.”

Carole laughed. “Yeah, he asked me, if he could make breakfast for everyone. I mean, it’s Christmas and we should have a huge breakfast all together. Well, that’s what he said and he was right.” She was happier than Kurt had ever seen her before.

“Yes, wow, everything smells so good.” He gave Blaine a confused look but the boy just winked and continued to make breakfast.

“Honey, if you don’t mind, you could wake Finn and your father. We want to start soon. Blaine told me you want to leave pretty early, although he’s feeling better.”

“Yes, yes, of course.” He turned around, not without glancing at Blaine once again, and left the kitchen. When he returned with Finn and Burt, Blaine and Carole were sitting at the table and were having a conversation about Dalton.

They both looked up when the three men entered. There was a long silence. No one said a word, everyone just stared at each other.

“…Happy Christmas?” Blaine said carefully and for another two seconds it was quiet in the room. Then Burt roared with laughter. Finn smiled happily at the amount of food on the table and soon the whole Hudson-Hummel family and Blaine sat at the table and enjoyed their Christmas breakfast.

“This is the best pancake I ever had!” Finn said and shoved another piece of it into his mouth. “You must be some kind of gourmet cook.” Blaine smiled.

“Thanks, Finn. My mom taught me how to cook.” Kurt frowned at Blaine but Blaine didn’t notice.

“Then I have to meet your mom. Preferably on Thanksgiving.” Finn joked.

Blaine looked around. “Uhm, my parents died when I was four. I spent my whole life in an orphanage and in boarding schools.” Finn choked on the piece of pancake and Kurt looked down on his plate.

“I’m sorry, I brought that up.” Blaine said quickly and took Kurt’s hand. “I’m sorry.”

“No, Blaine, that’s fine. Let’s just change the subject.” They did and started talking about Finn’s plans on spending this night with Rachel again.

Kurt and Blaine left as soon as they had finished their breakfast. They got into Blaine’s car and Burt and Carole were standing on the front porch waving at Kurt. They drove down the highway heading east. At least Kurt thought that it was east.

“Blaine, can we talk?” He glanced at the boy beside him but he was looking straight ahead.

“Maybe we should wait. Let’s talk later. Tonight, if that’s okay. Why don’t you just try to sleep or something?” He moved uneasily in his seat.

“…Okay, I’ll try.” He leaned his head against the window staring outside at the trees that were flying past them and soon he closed his eyes. He wasn’t really tired but somehow it was the right thing to do right now. He could hear Blaine humming a song and that was what finally put him to sleep.

He woke up when Blaine opened the car door on his side. Since Kurt was leaning against it, his head fell down when the door was pulled open. The only thing that kept him from falling out of the car was his seatbelt.

“Hey, Kurt. We’re here. You need to wake up.” Blaine gently put a hand on Kurt’s cheek and lifted his head up.

“Alright, I’m waking up. Just a minute.” He blinked into the sun and it took a few seconds before he could even see Blaine’s face clearly. Then he got out of the car and his mouth fell open.

“Is this your house?” Blaine nodded. “Oh my god, that looks pretty big.”

“It is. Especially when you’re living alone in it, which is why I don’t understand why Cooper doesn’t have a girlfriend or something like that.” He took Kurt’s hand. “Come on. I got your bag right here, so let’s just go inside.”

They stepped onto the porch and Blaine rang the doorbell. He could hear Cooper approaching and then the door opened.

Cooper looked terrible. In fact he looked like he hadn’t been sleeping for at least a week.

“What’s wrong with you, Coop?” Blaine asked concerned, not even bothering to say ‘Hello’ first.

“As if you care.” Cooper mumbled and stepped aside to let Blaine in. That was when he noticed Kurt for the first time. His eyes widened.

“Blaine?” He kept staring at Kurt. “Blaine, remember the rules from last time?” Kurt frowned. What the hell were the rules?

“Yes, I do, Cooper. What about them?” Blaine raised one eyebrow.

“What was rule number two?”

Blaine actually had to think about that for a second. He didn’t really remember.

“Um, was it the one that was about ‘no arguing’?” He asked.

“No, that was rule number three. Rule number two said that you don’t ever bring them here.” He was still staring at Kurt but now he glanced at Blaine hoping that he wouldn’t get angry.

Suddenly Blaine understood what Cooper meant. “Oh no, Cooper. He’s not… he’s not… I won’t feed on him.”

Cooper flinched at his words. “Are you saying that he knows?”

“Yes. He knows. Kurt, this is Cooper, my only relative, and Cooper this is Kurt, my boyfriend.” Cooper was definitely shocked.

“Is he a vampire, too?” he breathed.

“No, Kurt is a human.” Blaine cleared his throat. “Will you let us in now or not? I hope it is okay that we’ll stay for the night.” Blaine simply walked past Cooper before the man could even answer. Kurt, however, hesitated. The man was looking at him in shock and fear and… disgust? It scared Kurt. Cooper just wouldn’t look away and Kurt didn’t know what kept him from just walking inside the house following Blaine.

Blaine turned around when he noticed that Kurt wasn’t behind him and when he saw the expression on Cooper’s face, he simply got angry. A pretty loud growl came from his throat and Cooper shrieked before backing away from the door and from Blaine. There were tears in his eyes when he ran through the door to the living room.

Kurt watched this happen. He had to admit that he was scared, too. Blaine seemed to be very close to losing it. And now he understood what Blaine had meant when he had told Kurt that Cooper was afraid of him. He was wondering, if Blaine enjoyed it to have this power over a man.

“Come on, Kurt. Let’s go upstairs. We can have supper later.” Kurt’s eyes were lingering on the door to the living room but he followed Blaine upstairs. Blaine was unsure of what to do now. His plan had been to leave Kurt here with Cooper for the evening so that he could go and feed but now…

He couldn’t let Kurt stay here. Cooper was obviously not okay with their relationship. Blaine could understand him. He probably thought that Blaine kept Kurt as his little pet and that Kurt just let it happen, which was why Cooper had looked so disgusted when he looked at Kurt. If he had been in Kurt’s place, he wouldn’t have stayed with Blaine for a second.

“Why is he so afraid of you?” Kurt asked as soon as they had entered Blaine’s room.

“Well, there was an incident about five years ago. It was the first time we met and when he realized who I was, he was not really happy that I showed up. His whole life he believed that the story about me was, well, only a story.” He turned to face Kurt.

“And then one day, I lost control. I bit him.” Kurt swallowed nervously.

Blaine smiled sadly. “It wasn’t that bad. I didn’t drink or anything. I just bit him and then I let go immediately when I realized what I had done. But that only made it worse for him. He couldn’t stand being around me anymore. He never slept and never stayed in one room with me. He refused to talk to me and then I decided that it would be for the best, if I just left.”

“I understand.” Kurt nodded and then he sat down on the bed. Blaine looked over to the desk and was relieved to see his phone still lying there. He grabbed it and he wanted to call Damian immediately but he didn’t want to do it with Kurt listening. He sighed.

“Kurt, I was actually planning on going hunting tonight. But I kinda don’t want you to stay here alone with Cooper. “

Kurt looked up. “Oh, that would be okay. Maybe I could talk to him. Convince him that you’re not as bad as he thinks you are.”

Blaine chuckled. “Yeah, I don’t think that would help. He will keep on telling you that I’m dangerous and then he will show you the scar that I left on his neck.” He shook his head. “No, I’m staying.”

“Or I could just come with you.” The words were out before Kurt even thought about what he was saying.

“No! Kurt, are you insane? I could kill you.” He was almost yelling at Kurt. Almost.

“Sorry, I didn’t know… I thought…” Kurt stuttered.

“Kurt, when I hunt, I don’t think. I’m hungry and when I start hunting, I would hunt down the first human that I could find. I could kill you in an instant and even if I wouldn’t, I would never let you see that.”

“I’m sorry, Blaine.” Kurt said again.

Blaine let his breath out slowly in order to calm himself down. “No, no, I’m sorry, Kurt. I shouldn’t have yelled at you. You didn’t know.”

“You should go and feed. You… I can tell that you have to feed. You’ve been hungry since yesterday. We don’t want to risk anything, do we?” he joked but Blaine hardly smiled.

“So, you are okay with staying here alone?” He asked.

“Yes, of course. Just go and come back as soon as possible.” Blaine nodded.

“We will have to talk when I come back.” And with that he left leaving Kurt sitting in his room. Blaine had already left the house when Kurt started crying silently without knowing the reason.

This is all so complicated. Why can’t I just have a normal relationship or at least know what to do to survive this not normal relationship?

Whatever I do, it just pulls us more apart than we already are.