Chapter 12

Kurt swung the door open to Blaine, grinning widely. As soon as Blaine saw his face all his worries about his mother disappeared as he quickly adopted a beaming smile. Kurt took his hand and pulled him into the house and shut the door behind them. No later was the door closed that Kurt pounced on Blaine peppering every inch of his face and neck with kisses.

“I missed you.” Kurt smiled sweetly at the shorter boy in front of him as he pulled away from his neck.

“I missed you too.” Blaine replied putting his lips back to Kurt’s. The kiss was sweet with no tongue just the soft movement of lips on lips.

“Come on lets go work on the project. We can continue this later.” Blaine begun leading the way up the stairs and Kurt couldn’t resist playfully hitting his ass as he watched his hips sway from side to side causing Blaine to blush deeply.

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The boys finished their project near 7pm where, after having grabbed a bite, decided to settle in and watch at Blaine’s request Moulin Rouge. Blaine was lying on the bed propped up by two pillows with Kurt nestled in his neck, half his body on top of Blaine’s. They watched the movie quietly with a few kisses here and there and hands lightly caressing each other. By the end of the movie both boys were belting out the finishing song.

“You sound amazing!” Kurt said as the song came to a finish.

“As do you.” Blaine laughed as Kurt blushed and lightly kissed his lips.

“You know the school has a glee club. Maybe we could join? I was in the one at my old school and it was pretty fun.” Kurt smiled up to Blaine.

Blaine thought about the idea about both of them singing and dancing on stage together. He had to admit that he loved it.

“You know what that actually sounds fun!” A huge smile lit up Kurt’s face and he hungrily smacked his lips onto Blaine’s pulling back with a wet MUAH.

“Ewww Kurtt.” Blaine whined, dramatically wiping his lips with the back of his hand.

“You know you love it.” Kurt chanted, fluttering his eyelashes practically making Blaine swoon at the sight.

“So tell me about glee clubs. How do they work?” Blaine asked.

“Well pretty much you sing and dance. I’ve never been to one of the competitions though because I dropped out before we even started rehearsing the set list.” Kurt said with regret.

“Well why did you drop out? Why didn’t you keep singing?” Blaine asked.

“Um well my dad had a heart attack. And well I just went into a pretty dark place after that.” Kurt looked down ashamed.
Blaine lifted Kurt’s chin up so he was looking straight into his blue eyes.

“Kurt you don’t have to tell me this if you don’t want to. You know that I will always be here for you and I just want to know everything about you. Even the dark times. But only if you want to. I don’t want to pressure you into anything, ever.” Blaine said his voice filled with love and concern, his last words meaning more then just Kurt telling him about his past.

Kurt nodded slightly. “I want to tell you.”

Blaine smiled, kissing the tip of his nose before rubbing his hand up and down Kurt’s arm soothingly. Kurt placed his head back down onto Blaine’s chest, enjoying the sound of his heartbeat before starting.

“It all started when I came out to my dad. I was 15 years old, going into Grade 10. He was supporting but I could tell he was disappointed. Every time he looked at me I could see that small glimmer of pride in his eyes disappear. He stopped bringing me to baseball games or bringing me to see movies with him. It was sort of like he didn’t really see me as his son anymore but more as his daughter. He started working more eventually until he was working 9-hour shifts. I kind of felt abandoned; he never wanted to spend time with me anymore. Not like its changed.” Kurt laughed bitterly and Blaine placed a gentle kiss on his head.

“Well I will make sure that you never feel alone ever again. I promise.” Blaine smiled warmly.

Kurt’s heart swelled as he listened to Blaine’s words, his eyes watering. He didn’t think that Blaine comprehended just how much that he meant to him and he was determined to use the rest of his life showing him.

“Anyways a few months after beginning such long work shifts my dad had a heart attack that put him into a coma.” Kurt continued.

“He was in the hospital for a really long time and I blamed myself for it a lot. I kept saying to myself if I just hadn’t come out he wouldn’t have been so ashamed of me leading to him overworking himself practically to death. That’s when I got really depressed and starting hating myself a lot. While my dad was in the coma I started cutting.”

Blaine tightened his arms around Kurt, wanting to squeeze all the sadness and pain that he had experienced out of him.

“I cut the inside of my thighs which kept any teachers or caretakers from noticing. Whenever I cut, it would give me a sense of control. You know like I could control how much I bled or how much pain I felt. I had felt as if everything around me was falling apart and since I couldn’t control the fact that I would wake up hard with images of naked men still lingering in my head, I could control something else. There was one night that was especially hard. The doctors had called the caretaker that had been hired to take care of me while my dad was sick and said that if no signs of awakening appeared within the next week that his taking off of life support should be considered. I remember, after hearing that, locking myself into the washroom and cutting. I had felt so useless. My dad was going to die and I couldn’t do anything about it. It was the most I had ever cut and I ended up landing myself in the hospital, unconscious from loss of blood. The hospital stuck me into a rehab program after that. I spent my sixteenth birthday there. By then it had been about 3 months that my dad had his heart attack and a month that the doctors had asked me to consider taking him off life support. Since my dad had just broken a major financial deal with his shop before falling into the coma, money was no issue so I decided to keep him on life support for as long as it would take.”

Blaine looked down at the boy with disbelief. Kurt had gone through so much and yet he had still managed to pull through. He decided from then on that he would never ever let go of the boy in his arms. He never wanted him to feel what he had felt ever again.

“My dad woke up to the news of his gay son’s being in a teenage rehab institute because of a suicide attempt. It was almost enough to but him back into a coma. I wasn’t even there to see him wake up. It took a full week before I even heard of the news and finally another week before a car was sent to pick me up and bring me back to this house that my dad had just bought. I had never seen my dad cry until that very day. Not even when my mom died. When I got home he was sobbing uncontrollably and hugged me for a good 10 minutes, apologizing non stop.” Kurt smiled lightly at the fond memory. “After that we had a huge conversation and I told him everything. I fell asleep in his arms every night for a week. We then started doing everything that he had missed. We celebrated my sixteenth birthday again, watched all the episodes of Shameless that he had missed and went on huge trips together. It was like having a completely new dad. It stayed like that for a good 6 months till money was running out and he went back to working in the company. I made sure though that he wasn’t working to many big shifts. Nothing really changed though, he still works a lot, i barely see him but I feel like he accepts me more then before. I took online classes for Grade 11 and barely passed by the end of last June. Then I began attending McKinley for Grade 12. You know the rest of the story from then on.” Kurt finished feeling as if a huge weight had been lifted off his shoulders.

He heard Blaine sniffling and looked up at him, realizing that a few tears were falling down his cheeks.

“Blaine why are you crying. Don’t cry for me please. Its all good, I’m better now!” Kurt straddled Blaine grasping his face with a hand on each cheek, gazing into Blaine’s wet hazel eyes.

“Its just that you had hurt so much and I just want to be here for you. I just love you so much and I don’t ever want you to have thoughts like that again okay!? I never want you to hurt yourself because you feel useless Kurt because you mean so much to me.” Blaine started crying more and pulled Kurt to his chest hugging him tightly never wanting to let go.
“I promise I won’t.” Kurt pulled back and looked at Blaine. God he loved this boy.

He moved in and kissed Blaine passionately, lacing his hands into his hair as Blaine brought his hands to Kurt’s back. Kurt moved his hips up higher onto Blaine’s legs so that their chests were flush together. Blaine dug his hands into Kurt’s back wanting to make sure that he was still there. That he was real. He didn’t know what he would do without him.

Kurt pushed his tongue into Blaine’s mouth and let it trace over Blaine’s teeth. Blaine hummed into the kiss and flipped them over so he was on top of Kurt. He wanted to show Kurt just how much he loved him. Kurt needed him just as much a he needed Kurt. Blaine begun lightly tracing his lips over Kurt’s jawline and down to his neck, smiling as he felt Kurt’s body shiver beneath him.
Kurt’s fingers played lightly at the hem of his shirt as Blaine continued peppering his neck with kisses and murmuring sweet nothings into his ear. Kurt snuck his hands beneath Blaine’s shirt running his hands up and down his smooth back. Blaine sat up straddling Kurt smiling as he pulled his shirt off his head watching as Kurt’s eyes grew wide at the sight of him. Kurt hungrily pulled him back down and attacked his mouth. Blaine slid his hands down Kurt’s chest and stopped at his shirt’s hemline. He looked up hesitantly asking for permission. Kurt nodded a little to enthusiastically as Blaine laughed, gently pulling his shirt off.

Even though he had seen his chest many times while changing in Gym it wasn’t anything like being able to touch it. It was just as soft as it appeared Blaine discovered. He rested his chest onto Kurt’s and couldn’t help but moan as their naked chests touched.
Kurt sighed as he felt Blaine’s weight rest on him. It felt as if they were one and Kurt loved the way he could feel both of their heartbeats. They continued kissing and gently caressing each other till Blaine paused.

“Can I try something? If you want me to stop tell me and I will.” Blaine asked propped up onto his elbows and staring straight down at Kurt.

Kurt looked into Blaine’s eyes completely trusting. “Of course you can.” Kurt replied. Blaine nodded and lightly kissed Kurt’s lips before sliding his legs between Kurt’s. He began moving down Kurt’s neck and sucked lightly before tracing his beautiful skin down to his pink hard nipple.

Kurt moaned loudly as Blaine sucked and swirled his tongue around his nipple before watching his lips move to give his other nipple the same treatment. Thank goodness the maids had a day off today because Kurt was already moaning loud enough for the whole household to hear.

Blaine pulled off Kurt’s nipple and ran his tongue along his lightly defined abs and dipped his tongue into Kurt’s bellybutton.

“Holy fuck!” Kurt yelled. Blaine remembered to do that more often.

Keeping his tongue in Kurt’s bellybutton, Blaine slid his hands down to Kurt’s zipper and managed to pull his pants down to his knees while keeping his lips latched onto Kurt’s pale skin.

Blaine kissed Kurt’s stomach then sat back against his heels. He brought his hands to the hemline of Kurt’s boxers tracing his fingers back and forth right above the fabric before slowly pulling off the boxers. He watched Kurt’s face for any sign of him wanting Blaine to stop and when Kurt smiled at him sweetly he finally brought his eyes down to Kurt’s crotch.

He practically began drooling at the sight of Kurt’s hard leaking cock curved up against his stomach. And god it was long so long, and Blaine couldn’t help but think how it would feel inside him. It was then that he realized just how much he wanted his boyfriend. But right now he was focused on taking care of Kurt and making his bad memories disappear. Blaine slowly brought his lips down to the faded scars that adorned the inside of Kurt’s thighs.

“You’re so beautiful.” Blaine said as he began caressing and kissing each and every one of Kurt’s scars.
Kurt should have felt exposed and vulnerable having his scars so visible, but not with Blaine. With Blaine he felt as if he was completely accepted and that he was truly beautiful. His back arched as suddenly Blaine began sucking lightly on the tip of Kurt’s cock.

“Oh God!” Kurt practically screamed. Blaine smiled and ran his tongue across Kurt’s slit eliciting a string of moans from his boyfriend.

As Blaine began wrapping his lips around Kurt and taking him in he pushed aside his nervousness and simply did what felt right.
Blaine brought his left arm up to hold down Kurt’s thighs to stop them from thrusting upwards and kept the his other hand running up along Kurt’s thigh as he slowly sunk his mouth down around Kurt’s cock till he couldn’t go any further.

“OH GOD FUCK! Blaine!” Kurt screamed as Blaine began bobbing his head up and down. Kurt was grateful for Blaine’s hand restraining his hips because he was barely able to keep them from buckling upwards into the warm suction of Blaine’s mouth.

Blaine was surprised at how much he loved sucking cock. The taste of Kurt filled his mouth and he moaned as Kurt’s tangled his hands into Blaine’s hair. Blaine’s moan sent a vibration through Kurt’s cock making Kurt yell out. It only took a few more sucks before Kurt was at the edge.

“Shit Blaine Stop-Stop-I’m gonna come.” Kurt breathlessly panted out as he felt the familiar warm coiling sensation in the bottom of his stomach. As much as he wanted to swallow Blaine knew he wasn’t ready so he settled on giving Kurt’s cock one last hard suck before pulling off with a pop sound. As soon as Blaine’s head was free Kurt pulled him up into a hard kiss, moaning as he tasted himself on Blaine’s tongue. It was only then that Blaine began to notice just how uncomfortable his pants were. He brought his hands down to his pants and undid them pulling them off so he was left in his boxers.

“Oh God that was amazing. You’re amazing.” Kurt said as he pulled Blaine into another kiss.

“I’m not done yet baby.”” Blaine purred into his ear as he began pumping Kurt’s cock. A few strokes and Kurt came.

The orgasm washed over Kurt as he arched his back and yelled. Blaine collapsed onto him, his tired arms finally giving out. Kurt finally managed to open his eyes and looked down at the head resting on his chest. He stroked Blaine’s back softly with his hand, placing soft kisses onto the head of freed curls.

“Let me finish you off.” Kurt said squeezing Blaine tightly in his arms.

“I sorta already came. You were just so hot.” Blaine admitted sheepishly. Kurt giggled and tilted Blaine’s face so he could kiss the tip of his noise. Kurt smiled as he made his way to Blaine’s swollen lips. The kiss was soft and tender.

“I love you.” Kurt said as he pulled away from the kiss.

“I love you too.” Blaine replied, nuzzling his head into Kurt’s neck.

“We should probably clean up. Were all sticky.” Kurt said secretly hoping that Blaine wouldn’t want to.

“Mmmhh” Blaine muttered already half asleep. Kurt smiled warmly and tightened his grip around him.

“Good night Blaine. Sweet dreams.” Kurt said as he shut his eyes.

“G-night. Love you.” Blaine mumbled. Both boys fell asleep wrapped up in each other’s arms in pure bliss.