Kurt sat awake in bed that night thinking of all of the different things that he could do. He could go back to Ohio and be with the guy that he was almost certain was the love of his life, he could stay with Sebastian, who he was pretty sure he was starting to fall for, or he could move to a completely different area and start afresh.

"Sebastian?" Kurt said quietly, unsure as to whether he was awake or asleep.

A few moments passed before Sebastian turned over to face Kurt, looking up at him questioningly.

"Whats up?"

Kurt got under the covers and laid down, nervously shuffling closer to Sebastian. The older vampire was still as Kurt rested his head on his chest until he felt his shaking hand as he put his arm around Sebastians waist. Sebastian tentatively put his arm around Kurts shoulders and held him close.

"I dont know what to do." Kurt admitted.

"Even if I knew how to help you...this has to be your choice and your choice only," Sebastian said. "Otherwise there wouldve been no point in me saying it."

"Why did you say it?" Kurt asked. "Doesnt it kind of ruin your whole plan?"

"I didnt want to own you," Sebastian admitted. "Thats not fair to you."

Kurt looked up at Sebastian in surprise, slightly expecting to see a smirk on his face. Before he realised what was happening, Kurt was leaning down and pressing his lips to Sebastians, gently at first before he deepened it and moved to straddle him, keeping their lips attached the entire time.

***

"Blaine?" Mrs Anderson called, knocking on Blaines door and creaking it open a little.

Blaine was sitting on his bed in his pyjamas, his earphones in and at least five textbooks and notebooks surrounding him. He looked up and pulled his earphones out to give his mom his attention.

"Wes is here," she said. "Is it okay if he comes up?"

Blaine sighed, nodding a little. "I cant avoid him forever."

Wes was knocking on his door a couple of minutes later, making his way inside and standing by his best friends bed, unsure of what to say or do.

"Are you okay?" He finally settled on.

Blaine shrugged. "That depends on your definition of okay."

Wes sat down next to his best friend. "What happened?"

"Kurts psychotic ex-boyfriend - or whatever the hell he is - kidnapped me and tied me up until Kurt came looking for me. He made Kurt stay with him in New York in exchange for my life."

"Blaine..." Wes said. "Im sorry."

Blaine shrugged. "Its fine."

"You dont seem fine."

Blaine closed his eyes and hung his head, covering his eyes with his hands. "Im not."

"Talk to me," Wes said gently, rubbing Blaines back.

"Im terrified," Blaine said quietly. "Im terrified every single second of the day that Kurt mightve gotten away and Sebastians gonna come for me and Im scared that hes hurting Kurt or forcing him to do something he doesnt want to and I...I havent slept properly since I got home because every time I close my eyes I relive what happened and I...I need Kurt." Blaine cried, breaking out into tears as Wes took him into his arms.

Wes held him while he cried, lying down with him when he got tired from crying and continuing to hold him for hours afterwards.

***

The bed was empty when Kurt woke up late the next morning. He pulled his pyjamas back on and made his way through the house, trying to remember which room was where until he found Sebastian on a tatty sofa in the living room.

Kurt sat down next to him, pulling his knees up to his chest and wrapping his arms around his legs. "Hi," he said quietly.

"Hi," Sebastian replied, turning to face Kurt.

"You okay?"

"Shouldnt I be asking you that question?" Sebastian asked. "You were kind of a mess last night."

"I honestly dont know if Im okay," Kurt admitted. "Im just really, really confused."

"About what?"

"You...us...everything," he settled on. "I...youve gone from this monster who threated to kill the person I was in love with to this sweet, caring guy in such a short period of time that I dont know how to act around you."

"What about the us part?"

Kurt shrugged. "Is there even an us to speak of?"

Sebastian sighed, getting off the sofa. "Go back to Ohio, Kurt."

"What?" Kurt asked incredulously.

"Im not good enough for you."

"I though that was my decision to make?" Kurt questioned, a little angrily.

"Maybe being with a nicer guy is more important!" Sebastian exclaimed.

"Maybe I dont care!" Kurt all but screamed back.

Sebastian was a little taken aback by Kurts sudden exclamation as he froze, facing Kurt.

"I like you Sebastian," Kurt said, his tone softer. "I don't know why or how and I really wish I didnt because it would make my life a hell of a lot easier, but I do. And before you try to twist it and say that its only because you looked out for me yesterday, its not. Ive been feeling like this for days now, yesterday just let me believe that it was real."

"I believe you," Sebastian said, slowly walking towards Kurt. "But you love Blaine. And that doesnt change the fact that Im still the same person that I was a hundred years ago."

"But youre not," Kurt said. "That guy wanted to turn me into a monster, whether he had feelings for me or not I dont know, but this guy...Sebastian, you did everything in your power to make sure I didnt turn into a monster. You told me that you care about me - why wont you let me care about you?"

"Because Im not worth caring about."

"Thats not true, Sebastian!" Kurt cried. "Yes youve made a lot of mistakes, and youve made a lot more than most people but youve also lived longer than most people. That doesnt mean youre an awful person."

"But I am...most of the time, anyway."

"I dont understand you!" Kurt all but shouted. "You drag me here and force me to stay with you because youre in love with me but when I actually start to have feelings for you, on my own free will, you wont let me!"

Kurt stormed back to the bedroom and curled himself into a ball on the bed, his head pounding with frustration.

"Do you want to be with me?" Sebastian asked from the doorway.

Kurt lifted his head to look at him. "I..."

"I wont let you in because you have feelings for me on your own free will," Sebastian said. "Im terrified that youre going to change your mind after a while and youre going to break my heart."

"I wont," Kurt said, making his way over to Sebastian and holding his hands. "I promise you, Im not just going to get sick of you."

"Are you sure this is what you want? A few weeks ago you were practically dying without Blaine."

"Honestly? I still have insane feelings for him, but hes the only real relationship Ive been in. If I were to go back to him and still have these feelings for you...I dont know what would happen, to be honest. I need to see if we can work."

"And if we dont?"

"Then well end it on the best terms we possibly can."

Sebastian sighed. "Promise me youre certain."

"Im certain," Kurt said.

"Just know that this sweet side of me doesnt come out very often," Sebastian said as Kurt hugged him. "Im still exactly the same as before."

"I know," Kurt said, smiling. "Id be worried if you were always like this."

"Do you want to go back to Ohio and get your stuff?" Sebastian asked.

"Yeah," Kurt replied. "I dont wanna stay there too long, but theres some stuff Id like to have with me."

"Okay, we can go tomorrow."

"Okay," Kurt said, pulling back and smiling at Sebastian. "Thank you, by the way."

"For what?"

"Letting me make my own choices," Kurt replied. "It gave me a lot more respect for you than I had before."

"Just respect, huh?" Sebastian teased.

"Shut up," Kurt laughed. "Somebodys back to their old self."

"I just need to know if youre uncomfortable with me saying I love you," Sebastian said. "I wont say it if it makes you uncomfortable."

Kurt shook his head. "it doesnt...I kind of like hearing it."

"So...are we boyfriends now?"

"I didnt know if you were into labels but..."

Sebastian shook his head. "Boyfriends is...boyfriends is good."

Kurt smiled and kissed Seb- his boyfriend.