June 7, 2014, 7 p.m.
Safe & Sound: Chapter 5
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Chapter 5: last but not least.
The room was dark, my window was slightly open so the chilly summer breeze was blowing in, making some pretty scary noises for a boy my age who just had a nightmare. I was still sobbing once in a few moments, every time the memory of the nightmare found its way back to my mind. I heard my door opened quietly and jumped in terror.
"Thats okay sweetie, its Me." she said and I relaxed when I saw her face. She kneeled next to my bed and strokes my hair.
"Sorry I woke you, I tried falling back asleep but I cant…"I whispered and she sent me a smile.
"Dont be," she said "so you want me to stay here with you?" she asked and I nodded. She smiled and climbed up to my bed, I crawled into her lap and she ran her hands up and down my back.
"Did I wake daddy up too?" I asked and she chuckled.
"Nothing can wake your dad up," she said and we both laughed. I lift my head, my glasz eyes meeting hers as I said…
"Can you sing to me mommy?" I whispered, one of her hands was still stroking my hair while the other one hugged me tight.
"Of course…"she said and started singing.
I remember tears streaming down your face
When I said, "Ill never let you go" she sang softly the song I heard so many times before.
When all those shadows almost killed your light
I remember you said, "Dont leave me here alone"
But all thats dead and gone and passed tonight her voice filled the room
Just close your eyes
The sun is going down
Youll be alright
No one can hurt you now
Come morning light
You and Ill be safe, and… sound. She always that song to me when I was afraid, it always relaxed me for some reason. I felt how the sleep taking over me as she sang the second verse.
Dont you dare look out your window!
Darling everythings on fire
The war outside our door keeps raging on
Hold on to this lullaby
Even when the musics gone
Gone
Just close your eyes
The sun is going down
Youll be alright
No one can hurt you now
Come morning light
You and Ill be safe, and…sound. She finished the song and the last thing that happened before I completely drifted to sleep was he pressing a kiss to my hair and whispering.
"Good night sweetie," I heard my mothers voice but then it was gone. I couldn't feel her arms around me; I couldn't hear her heartbeats or breaths. I was back to reality, to the Gleetol, to the Glee games to the life that seemed more like a nightmare (if you forget the Blaine part of them). It was the first time I had that dream, I guess it was a memory and it did made me feel a lot better…I wish I remembered more about her. Today was my last day at the Gleetol and I had no idea what Im doing.one side of me wanted to spend the rest of the day with Blaine and enjoy our time together but I knew I couldn't Couse I had a lot of things to do, I had the interviews, Blaine and I need to find a story to tell in them, we had to find our game strategy and still looked all smiling and happy in front of the cameras. I sighed in frustration. All I want is those games to be over already. After breakfast and ignoring how excited everybody were and how much Mercedes wanted to enter the arena, I said Im going to pick an outfit for the interview and snuck into Blaines room.
Blaine wasn't there; he was probably talking to Will or eating or something so I decided to wait for him. I looked around the room until something catches my eye.it wasn't something I remembered but still it felt so familiar.it was a small photo, there was a curly haired boy who was probably Blaine, another boy with brown hair, blue eyed with freckles that was probably me, Blaine was blushing slightly, I was looking at a brown haired older boy who was obviously happy with himself. I didn't remember why but the photo made me smile.
"What are you doing?" I heard Blaine saying as he entered the room.
"Nothing!" I said innocently and Blaine smiled at me when he saw what I was looking at.
"Anything coming back?" he asked.
"no, its just give me a happy feeling;" I said and then added." who is the hottie in the picture?" I asked and Blaine chuckled.
"The hottie is my brother Cooper," he said and I could feel my ears turning red.
"Sorry,"
"Thats fine, you always thought he was attractive, I got used to it." He said simply.
"You are still my favorite," I said and he smiled.
"I better be," he warned and I chuckled." Why are you here anyway? Arent you supposed to be with your friends?"
"I was with them, and right now Im in my room planning my outfit. I came to see you of course but also so we could figure some stuff out."
"Like what?"
"What are we going to say at the interviews and what our strategy is?" I said and Blaine rolled his eyes.
"Arent you supposed to know what to do? Being a career tribute and all…"he asked and I chuckled.
"They don't teach us about this stuff, we learn how to fight and thats all. And even if I did know more about this then you, it wouldn't matter because we need to find some way to work for both of us." I said.
"You are going to stay with your friends right?" he asked and I nodded. "So nobody can know we are together,"
"Rachel, Mercedes and the entire country knows, I think its too late for that."
"but the tributes doesnt," he said." we need to do what Will and Emma said, tell Mercedes and Rachel everything was a trick to get sponsors and from what I know about Rachel and from what you told me about Mercedes they will spread the word."
"Fine, so I stay with the group and kill the other tributes, but about you?" I asked worrying.it was hard to admit it even to myself that winning the games will not be as sweet if I lose Blaine along the way.it was worthless actually, me staying alive and scarred for life, spending each day thinking how I let Blaine die…a shiver ran through my body.no way Im going to let that happen.
"I will find a way to survive, I will hide on the trees and wouldn't light fire if Im too close to wherever you and you friends are and just….I dont know," he sighed." just make sure the savages stays away from me, I will stay low and kill who I can." He said and I knew he is trying to sound as strong as possible. We both know its not gonna be easy.
"we can do this," I said and took his hand into mine." you and I, we have lots of sponsors and we are good fighters. We just need to be heartless and kill without even blinking." I said, trying to sound positive and Blaine just chuckled.
"And how are we going to do that?" He asked and raises an eyebrow.
"Mmmm….I dont really know." I admitted." We will just do it when we get there." I said and he nodded
"I guess we will," he agreed." but what about the interviews?" he asked.
"We say the truth," I said simply and Blaines eyes widen.
"What!? That Puckerman guy is going to kill both of us!" Blaine said and I shook my head.
"Its all just an act remember? To get sponsors." I said simply.
"right," he said." so we go to talk to Mercedes and Rachel and telling them everything was a plot, we tell the truth at the interviews, and kill without mercy. Right?" He asked.
"Yes, and so everything work, we cant see each other or look at each other or anything. Until we win the games we are nothing." I said, trying to sound confident even though I was dying inside. Could see it was just as hard for me to say as it was hard for Blaine to hear." So we can be focused." I tried to use it as an excuse but I couldn't even fool myself. Blaine nodded and looks down. I felt tears rising in my eyes from all the stupide thoughts that ran through my head and just pulled Blaine into my arms, burying my head in his neck. Blaine hugged me back.
"Im gonna miss you so much…"I could hear he hesitated before saying." I love you," I nodded and pulled away a little, just so I could kiss him. I felt really horrible about myself because I couldn't say it back yet but if you consider the fact we are dating for 3 days, I already felt too much for him. I tried telling him that in the kiss. It took us a while before we pulled back.
"What am I going to do without you?" I whispered, still breathless from the kiss.
"I ask myself the same question…"he whispered back, pressing our lips back to a short kiss." go…you need to talk to Mercedes and get ready. I will see you…later." I could just nod and release my hold on him, walking to the door, our eyes met for the last time. I left the room trying to fight the urge not to cry at the thought that this was the last time I see the boy I…loved.
I went to talk to Mercedes and it went pretty well, at least one thing work out for me. I went back to my room for a while, trying to get some sleep before the interviews but I ended up thinking instead. Since thinking always brought me down Couse there were not so many happy things in my life right now (besides Blaine of course),I cleared my head and took a deep breath. From now and on, all I have in my head is how to win, Blaine will find his way in this thing and win, I need to stop worrying about him and focused on myself, when we both crown as winners we can live happily ever after together, but I have to stay alive first. After dressing up, I walked up to the interviews stage, wearing my fabulous outfit, seeing people running back and forth, making sure everything was perfect for the big event and that nothing goes wrong. I saw some of the tributes getting ready from a far. I walked to where Mercedes stood but then felt someone pulling me and the next thing I heard was a door closing. I was about to scream but a hand covered my mouth.
"Be quiet, its only me!" he said and I sighed in relief when I realized it was Blaine.
"You cant scare me like that!" I said and Blaine just rolled his eyes playfully.
"Well, I couldn't just approach you in front of everybody, right?" he asked and I stuck my tongue out at him, I hated when he was right.
"Well what was so important?" I asked and looked around the room; it looked more like a closet. With mops and buckets .a janitor closet. Just perfect….
"Emma asked if we talked to Mercedes and Rachel and wanted to know how it went," he said simply.
"How did it go for you? Rachel is pretty hard to fool from what I remember…" I said and he nodded in agreement.
"She is, but I guess she bought it, I cant be a pretty good actor if I want to." he said proudly and I rolled my eyes at him, making him smile." what about you?" he asked.
"Ahhh…"
-Flashback-
I walked in the long hallway that leads to Mercedess room. I had no idea how am I going to lie to my best friend. And make her believe me. I knew it had to be done, nobody can know that Blaine and I are together, and that our relationship is real. I took a deep breath before I knocked on the door but I stopped because I heard something that…wasnt really pleasing to hear.
A moan.
I recognized it was Mercedes because all of the times I almost walked in on her and her boyfriend Shane back home. Oh god no. I didn't want to know what happened in that room so I just turned around to run away but I couldnt. I knew I had to talk to mercedes.so I turned back around and face the door, knocking twice.
"Mercedes?" I asked in the most innocence voice I could use." are you okay?" I pressed my ear against the door so I could hear what they were saying.
"Kurt?!What are you doing here?" Mercedes said in a surprisingly calm voice but I could hear her whispering." Be quiet, I will tell him to go!" She was probably talking to the other person that was with her in the room." listen Kurt, this isnt really a good time, could you come back later?" she said, this time I hear a little panic in her voice.
"We have interviews later, what happened?" I said in a worried voice, hoping Mercedes wont think I eavesdrop on her or something." Mercedes…? Thats it, Im coming in!" I threatened and Mercedes almost yelled.
"Wait! I will open up in a second!" I smiled satisfied. I heard her whisper again.
"Dress up! Quickly!"
"What should we do?!We are domed if he sees me!" I hear a male voice I didn't recognized.
"Under the bed! Dont. Make .a. sound. "She ordered and I hear her walking to the door. I stepped away, trying not to look like I just eavesdrop on my best friend having sex with some random Gleetol guy. Oh…how am I ever gonna get that out of my head?!The door opened. And there was Mercedes, blushing, messy hair, puffy lips but a smile covered her face.
"Hi," she said breathless.
"What happened to you? You look terrible…"I said and she rolled her eyes.
"It doesn't matter, what do you need?"
"I wanted to tell you how Blaine and I fooled you and the other tributes but I guess it isnt a very good time…"I said and she raised an eyebrow at me.
"What are you talking about?" she asked confused and I just had an evil smile on my face.
"Can we talk alone?" I asked politely.
"We are alone," she said in an innocence voice and flipped her hair.
"I mean without the 1993s Linda Evangelista who is hiding under your bed." I said and her eyes widen in surprise and glance under the bed at the blond boy who stared right back at her.
"How did you…?"She asked, not making eye contact with me.
"You two should be a little more quiet next time," I sent her a relaxing smile, assuring her everything was okay. She smiled back at me and turned to the other boy.
"Come on Sam, you can come out, I will see you after the interviews." she said and the boy crawled from under the bed and gave her a quick kiss on the cheek before leaving. When I looked a little bit closer at the boy I was shocked. He wasn't a random Gleetol guy, he was worse.it was the male tribute from district 5.
Mercedes waved goodbye at the boy who blow her a kiss in the air and then turned back to me, a smile still coverts her face." isnt he the cutest?" She asked dreamy. Personally I thought Blaine was much cuter.
"Would you mind explaining what that was?"
-End of flashback-
"So what did she tell you?" Blaine asked, listening carefully to the story. We both forgot what we talked about before.
"Apparently they knew each other online and fate brought them together, and she said that when he survives this thing she will break up with Shane and be with Sam." I explained and Blaine nodded.
"We have a lot of couples this year; Rachel told me there is something going on with her and the boy from district 3!"He said and my eyes widen in surprise.
"Are you serious?" I asked. We had 3 other couples already (Quinn and the boy who came with her (wonder what she is going to tell about Beth…) Rachel and the district 3 tribute and Mercedes and Sam)), 3 other love stories, and if love stories are what the sponsors like, Blaine and I need to become the cutest couple to ever walk the face of the earth.
"yep," he said." but what about Mercedes?"
"We talked and we decided that both of our secrets are safe with each other…"I said and Blaines expression changed.
"What?!"He asked, frowning.
"We both had secrets, we both promised not to tell, we are even." I said.
"I heard you the first time," he said in an angry tone and I took a step back. What was he mad about?!
"Why are you so angry? I have done nothing wrong." I said, folding my arms over my chest.
"Yeah you did," he said, looking away from me.
"And what is that exactly? Fixing everything as I was supposed to do?" I said and he rolled his eyes at me.
"You…"he took a deep breath before continuing." Why do you have to be so innocence sometimes…."he sighed and I was confused.
"I am not innocence,"
"You don't get it! You cannot trust the other tributes,"
"She is my best friend!" I defended and Blaine sighed, clearly annoyed.
"That doesn't make her different! The first chance she get she is going to stick the nearest knife in your back!"
"She wouldn't! You don't know her! Just trust me on that, I know what Im doing"
"But Will said-"he started to say but I cut him off.
"I don't care about Will; I trained for this for my entire life, unlike him."
"He won a Glee game in case you forgot," Blaine said.
"I had enough of this argument, just…do as I say and you stay alive." I said and Blaine raises an eyebrow at me.
"Fine, you are more than welcome to trust everybody and act like you know everything, I will win this by myself." he said and then I realized just how selfish, self-obsessed jerk I sounded. Blaine turned to the door and left. And I felt the most terrible feeling in the world. How could I say that, being so arrogant and making Blaine feel like he doesn't know anything and that Im superior but I tried to push away everything so I can give an amazing interview.it took me a few minutes of deep breath before I came out, hoping nobody will notice I was gone in the first place. I need to get through the evening and then fix my relationship with Blaine.
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There I was, standing at the (almost) end of the tribute line behind the stage, in front of the stairs that led up to the big stage where Rod Remington sat ,smiling to the crowd of adoring Gleetol people while the Gleetol anthem played at the background. I was trying to forget everything that happened 15 minutes ago in the janitor closet, how arrogant apparently my boyfriend was and how useless I felt. Well I can think about that later. The anthem ended and the interviews began.
First was the boy from district 1, Noah puck puckerman. He and Rod just talked about that he meant to be there and that he going to win and all that stuff….the interesting part came when….
"So puck, tell us about your relationship with Quinn Fabray, the girl who came with you here," rod asked, and Puck face expression changed even though he tried to still sound casual when he said…
"We are old friend with a long history."
"More the friends from what I heard, you two have a daughter together, is that true?" Rod asked and Puck nodded.
"Yeah, it wasnt my intention but you know, she was hot and I was hot, and thats just the way Puckerman rolls. You of all people should know," Puck said and the crowd laughed.
"Yes, yes I do." rod confirmed and winked to the audience. I started to worry. How Kurt and I, a couple of gay kids are supposed to compete against a couple with a child?! They are going to take all of our sponsors away.
The next tribute was, Quinn Fabray. She wore a long light-blue gown, and (as always) the audience was stunned from her beauty. Like a true gentleman, Rod stood up and escorted her to the chair, kissing her hand before sitting back and she thanked him with her heart melting smile.
"Before we start talking, may I just say that you are incredibly beautiful?" Rod said and Quinn smiled at him.
"Thank you," she said politely. they kept on talking about the games, and yes, Quinn was just another one who meant to be here and kill everyone so she end up being rich and famous.
"Before we let you go," Rod started saying." is there anything more you can tell us about you and Noah?" Quinns smile winked for a split second before she spoke.
"I wanted to leave it all behind when I came here, but for you and those amazing people," she said and the crowd cheered." I guess I can share some secrets." she winked and Rod smiled in satisfaction.
"Well, we cant wait to hear…"Rod said and leaned closer." Where did you and Puck met?"
"We always know each other from school, we were both very popular, but it was sophomore year when he started to be a little more…directed." she chuckled to herself was sure the by now, half of the audience was in love with her. Awesome…
"And what do you mean by that?" Rod asked the question all of us wanted to know.
"Flirty jokes, sexting, all kind of suggestive comments…I was stupid to give in to that, but I did." She said.
"And then what?"
"While I was pregnant, he can deny it all he wants, he tried to get us back together." she said and all of the tributes looked at Puck who (I didn't thought it was possible) lightly blushed and looked away. I rolled my eyes playfully and turned back to Quinn.
"I love it." Rod said and they both stood up, shaking hands." Everyone gives it up for Miss Quinn Fabray!" the crowd yelled and cheered, Quinn got off the stage, sending a smirk to puck on her way. The next tribute walked on to the stage and a smile immediately appeared on my face. I had to delete it of course, but that didn't mean I cant stare at my gorgeous boyfriend. Kurt shook Rods hand and on the chair in front of him, crossing his legs.
"For those of you, who dont know Kurt, he is our tribute from district 2 and his story touched a lot of the heart ere in the Gleetol. Would you like to tell us Kurt?" Rod asked, Kurt smiled and said.
"Ill love to," he said and the crowd went completely silence." I was born at district 10, and lived there until my mom died. Since my dad couldn't take care of me because he worked all day, I have been transferred to district 2 and got my memory deleted so I wont suffer from the whole thing." Kurt said and some of the woman in the crowed shed a tear.
"And what happened when you found out you were coming here?"
"I was scared." Kurt admitted something I toughed would never happen, Kurt was pretty sure of himself the last time we talked, what happened that now he is scared? "Mostly for my mom, we are pretty close and I didn't want her to panic." He said. If Kurt and I survive this, I really want to meet his mom.
"But when you got here, things become even more complicated." Rod said and Kurt nodded and smiled.
"Yes,"
"And why is that?" Rod asked even though everyone knew the answer.
"I met my lost love after 9 years we havent seen each other." Kurt said and I smiled when he said lost love.
"But you didn't remember him?" Rod asked and Kurt shook his head.
"I did, but I didn't remember almost anything from what we had. But we figure stuff out and we are boyfriends again."
"Oh, we know." Rod said in a sneaky voice and Kurt raised an eyebrow.
"Really? Kurt asked surprised. I forgot what a good actor he could be.
"of course, you don't know that but Blaine and you are very popular here at the Gleetol, there aren't many people who didnt watched all of your sweet moments together and almost broke the replay button." everyone chuckled in agreement but I knew that Kurt was cursing each and every person who chuckled and telling them to just mind their own business." but still, some of them think you are faking it," Rod said and Kurt smiled.
"You are doomed," Rachel said from behind me and I tried to sound nervous when I said.
"Yeah, we are."
"Why would they think that?" Kurt asked.
"Well, you knew each other for a day and then became boyfriends the next, usually it takes longer."
"I know it doesn't make sense to me either, but love will always find a way and there is no way to stop it." Kurt said and I heard all the sighs in the audience.
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After Rod and I shook hands, I went off the stage, not looking at Blaine when I passed by him, not wanting the tributes to think everything that I said on the stage was real.
I was supposed to go to my room and get a good night sleep before tomorrow but I wanted to see Blaines interview so I stayed.
Mercedes kept talking about how amazing she is with her sassy fingers in the air. She didnt mention Sam at all. Strange, I thought she will want to use it to get sponsors…
Both of the district 3 tributes weren't very intelligent, mostly the girl whose name was Brittany. The boy named Finn said he might have found love because of those games and its a bummer that they cant be together; he didn't say who she was. When he said it I could see Rod almost exploded, I forgot that Blaine and I are the only tributes who know about the two winners we can have this year.
Then came Sebastian, who-as I always knew- was a man whore, and wasn't afraid to show it. After him came Tina, shy and sweet as always, but she surprised me when she said "Im just happy that I have opportunity to shine."
The boy from district 5, Sam, had a pretty interesting story, apparently he worked for a striper in one of the clubs at district 5, since his dad got fired and he had to do it in order for his family not to starve (which sound weird to me, since district 5 is where the food comes from…)
The tribute from district 8 was very…scary. The girl, Santana, didn't stop humiliating Rod during her interview, making everyone (including me) laugh.
As the interviews came to a close, I found 5 couples, each has their own unique story, each of them is touching, each of them wants exactly what me and Blaine want and I knew they are gonna fight just as hard as us. That made me really worried.
Them, finally, Blaine walked to the stage, looking more handsome the ever, his eyes shining at the cameras flashes. The crowd cheered and Blaine waved at them, acting like a tribute. He sat in the chair in front of Rod.
"Its so nice to finally meet you in person," Rod said and Blaine had that charming smile of his, covering his face.
"You too, I still cant believe Im actually here," he said.
"Tell me Blaine, how do you feel about entering the arena tomorrow?" Rod asked.
"Mostly terrified, but Im going to do my best to win."
"I wouldn't worry if I was you," Rod said and whined, not caring exposing the fact that he have a secret nobody knows." so, we asked Kurt about your relationship, but we will like to hear your side, how does it feel finally getting him back and losing him so quickly?" nobody normal would notice except for the people who really know Blaine that Rod hit a sensitive point. I think that if Rod would have asked me that question, I would probably break down and cry.
"It feels terrible of course, but this is just how things are, whatever happens, everyone will adapt to it." Blaine said." Im just hoping Kurt and I will make the best from the few hours we left together."
"We all hope so too." Rod agreed." is there anything you would like to say to Kurt before you entering the arena?" Rod asked and I listened more carefully.
"That he needs to be even stronger than usual... that I trust him to make the right choices, and just…"Blaine bit his lower lip and then said." That I love him." He said and a lot of aw calls came from the audience, just like in the most romantic moments in life. I love you too; I thought and wished I could say it out loud. I knew it wouldn't be that easy of course, Blaine was my first everything, my first kiss, the first guy I felt something real for…I had not the slightest idea what I was doing .how do you supposed to say to a guy you love him? I knew its supposed to be the easiest thing in the world because Blaine already said it to me before but I didn't felt easy at all. While I was lost in my own thoughts, Blaine already came of the stage and disappeared out of my sight. I looked around but still couldn't see him. I wanted to leave but I didn't want people to think I stayed just to watch Blaines interview, so I stayed. Rachels interview began. I still havent decided if I hate the girl or not, considering the fact she almost got Blaine killed, if he forgave her then I should too, but maybe it would be easier to kill her if I didnt?
Thanks to the fact Rachel cant keep her mouth shut, I found out who the guy from district 3 was talking about. She was so proud to finally have a boyfriend and kept talking about it .she had to be a very lonely girl. She was very confident of course, saying she had a pretty good chance of winning, when Rod asked her what her motivation was she said that she fight hard so the world wont have to lose someone as talented as her.
When her interview was over and she walked off the stage, Rod got up from his chair to close the interviews.
"An interesting group don't you think?" He asked and the crowd approved." It seems like all of them have something they want so desperately," Rod continued and I could feel the entire country lean over in their chairscouches." and our generous president Sue Sylvester and amazing game maker Roz Washington, decided to give it to them." Rod said, and as someone who already knew it, I looked around to see everyone else face expression, most of them seen excited, some looked nervous and there was that someone (called Blaine Anderson) who wasn't even there." so, I hereby announce, that the 109th annual Glee games are going to have…two winners." Rod said calmly and everything was silence for a few moments before everyone started cheering, clapping, yelling and in Rachels case, France kissing their freakishly tall boyfriend.
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After Rod and I shook hands, I went back to my room, took a hot bath, climbed into my bed and started the tradition of trying to fall asleep unsuccessfully.as I predicted, it was even harder to fall asleep than usual. I felt terrible. Kurt had a point before, I really didn't have a clue what I was doing, the only thing I can help Kurt with is to get sponsors .that thought made me wonder what will happen if Kurt and I will win. I could think of two possibilities. The first, Kurt and I stay together, have happy life and a few kids, it doesn't matter where we live because we are together and thats all that matter to us. The second, we don't know what to do and then Kurt realized he didn't felt anything for me or that I find out that Kurt was just playing with me, then Kurt come back to district 2 and leave happily ever after with a blond guy with green eyes who is (of course) taller than me. I could feel how a tear made its way down my face. I rolled over, trying to find a more comfortable spot.
As I finally began to feel sleepy, I heard a knock on the door. I sighed and rolled over again, wishing the person who knocked will go away and leave me alone. But then I heard another knock. And another one. And another one. I sighed and walked to the door. I opened it slowly, half surprised to see Kurt standing there, wearing his pajamas, with a small smile on his face.
"I brought a peace offering," he said, rising the two coffee cups he held. I smiled and step aside, signing him to enter. I closed the door behind him and sat back down on the bed, Kurt was still standing.
"You can sit you know," I said and petted the spot next to me. Kurt decided to sit at the edge of the bed instead.
"I prepared a whole speech in my head but none of it wants to come out…"Kurt sighed and I smiled at him.
"Maybe you should try saying which coffee is mine?" I suggested and Kurt chuckled.
"Medium drip," he said and handed me one of the coffee cups. I took it.
"How did you know?" I was surprised, I didnt knew what coffee was when I was 8,how Kurt knew its my favorite?
"You told me the first day we met, at the roof." He said and I nodded. We sat there for a while in a comfortable yet awkward silence. I almost finished my coffee when Kurt spoke.
"Im sorry Blaine." Kurt said, his eyes locked with mine.
"You don't have to be-"I started to say but he cut me off.
"of course I do, I probably made you feel terrible, I-Im just….so much happened to me this week, I came here, I started training, I had to accept the fact Im being filmed 24 hours a day, I need to be perfect all the time to get sponsors ,Im about to die and…I met you. And I have all those feelings for you that came from nowhere and only become stronger with every day passing, but it all seen like nothing because I had you, I forgot about all of the sadness and confusion when you were with me and it kills me thinking I hurt you. I was an idiot, and Im sorry." By this point I already had tears in my eyes. I put my cup on the table and went to sit in front of Kurt, warping my arms around him; he buried his head in my shoulder.
"look at me," I pulled away, our faced still close." you don't have to apologize, I understand. Im surprise some of us are still sane." I said and Kurt smiled." and you were kind of right, you know what youre doing; I should have listened to you and-"apparently Kurt love cutting me of because he did it again.
"No you didn't, we are done talking about it, and Im the one who was wrong, stop arguing about it." Kurt said firmly and I laughed." Whats so funny?" He asked.
"You are doing it again." I said and Kurt sighed when he realized he is acting like a-know-it-all.
"Sorry," he said and blushed a little.
"I forgive you," I said in a fake noble voice.
"So we are okay?"
"We are okay." I confirmed and kissed him. Even though it's only been 6 hours ago, I missed it so much.
"Blaine…?"Kurt pulled away and whispered.
"Hm..?"
"I didn't come here just to apologize," he said and I raised an eyebrow." I…Im…I thought about it and…well I didn't really thought about it…Im…just…it sort of came to me…and….argh!" Kurt mumbled uncomfortably and growled in frustration. I chuckled; Kurt was the cutest thing in the world when he was nervous.
"Kurt…just tell me, "I said and Kurt looked away." you don't need to be uncomfortable around me, you can tell me anything." I said and Kurt took my hands. Kurt sighed.
"This is so dam hard…."he admitted.
"What?" I asked. Kurt took a deep breath before he spoke.
"I actually realized this afternoon, before we fought and all that…I…"Kurt stopped and I squeezed his hand, telling him to go on. He took another deep breath before saying something I waited to hear him say again for 9 years.
"I...I love you."
"What?" I said unbelievably, Kurt frowned, probably thats not the reaction he expected to but I couldn't say anything else.
"I love you…?"He said again." Im sorry it took me so lo-mff!"I cut him off by kissing him. I couldn't believe that this is really happening to me.
"Really?!"I asked in a high pitch voice, pressing thousands of short pecks on Kurts lips. Kurt was laughing but I didn't care because I was over the moon. Kurt said he loved me and then he said it again!
"Yes!" Kurt said, still laughing." I love you Blaine Anderson! Kurt yelled and I joined his laughter, not sure I could be happier.
"I love you too! So, so much!" I said and warped my arms around his shoulders, he quickly hugged me back. We pulled back, smiling ,our faces still very close.it wasn't a new thing, it didnt seemed special at all but it felt different.it felt like we were seeing each other for the very first time. If you would have asked me a week ago if this is possible I would have say you were insane, but yet, here I was.at the Gleetol, a few hours away from entering the arena and die, but I was all happy and smiling because I found Kurt again. I found the boy I loved and even thought everything, he loved me back, and everything was real.
Kurts eyes met mine before our lips met again and everything disappeared. I forgot about everything, the games, the other tributes, my impending death and all of the other stuff, there was only Kurt and me, and nothing else mattered anymore.it seemed like Kurt felt the same way because he never kissed me like that, so passionate, loving and sweet, a shiver ran troughed my body. We kissed for a long while before Kurt started kissing my neck, causing me to make noises I didn't know I could make .soon enough our shirts weren't there anymore, everything was a mix of hot kisses and touching hands, moans, groans and sighs, words of love and whispers, I never wanted it to end, feeling Kurt so close to me….but I couldnt.
"We need to stop," I manage to say after a long fight with myself. Kurt froze and pulled away as much as he could before I reached out to hold him in his place.
"Have I done something wrong?" He whispered so low I could burly hear.
"no ,no. everything was perfect I just…."here was the part where I got stuck .I couldn't tell Kurt the real reason because if I was wrong, he will never talk to me again .I couldn't give myself to Kurt completely because I was scared. Everything is too good to be true, the thoughts from before went to my mind again. I had to make sure that this was real, that it wasn't only for sponsors and all the crap, the Kurt I knew could never do this to me, he would never play with my feelings but what if he changed? Kurt is a career tribute, and they do anything to make sure they have the best chances of winning…what if Kurt was playing me? There was only one way to make sure. "I want us to wait….until we win the games." I said.
"Why?" he asked. I knew it was supposed to be the opposite, we were supposed to want to do it before the games, just in case…
"because…"I took a deep breath." I love you Kurt, I loved you for 12 years and if Ill lose you in the games ,it will be extremely hard to get over you and it will be impossible for me to get over you if we..."I explained and a small smile appeared on Kurts face.
"Okay," he said and sat down, getting his shirt from where it was on the floor.
"What are you doing?" I asked confused.
"I need to go back before someone noticed Im gone." Kurt said.
"Nobody will noticed, come here." I petted the place next to me and Kurt rolled his eyes. But he gave in and laid on the bed, I immediately snuggled closer to him and he laughed." so I like to cuddle, sue me." I said but Kurt pulled me tighter. I closed my eyes, relaxing into the touch. "Goodnight," I whispered.
"Love you," Kurt said in a sleepy voice.
"You too…" I whispered back. I fell asleep in a minute.
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I woke up by the sunlight coming from behind the close curtains; I remembered I was in the Gleetol because there were no birds singing outside. Today was the day. I looked around and was surprised to see this place wasn't my room, the sheets and the bed wasn't mine and nothing smelled like me, it had the very familiar scent called….Blaine. I smiled at last nights memories , finally becoming aware of the warm body who was lying half next to me and half on me, using my chest as a pillow .he was so beautiful, so peaceful that I almost couldn't wake him up. Almost. I ran my hand through his hair, and he hummed, smiling sleepily.
"Morning…"he said and cuddled even closer to me.
"Morning…"I agreed.
"I can get used to this,"
"So am I, but right now we have to wake up. Its a big day remember?" I said and he rolled away from me.
"I wish people will stop remind me…"he said and I chuckled.
"Well you don't have much of a choice here," I said and pulled the blacked off him and he shrank from the exposing to the chill air." Dont make me call Will," I warned and he sat up quickly.
"Im good thanks," he said and stretched out. I smiled.
"I have to go," I said and both of our smiles almost disappeared completely.
"I know." he said quietly, not being sad about the fact that I leave this room but about the fact I might be leaving forever. I sat next to him on the bed, warping my arms around him and hug him tight.
"We need to be strong you know?" I asked and he nodded against my shoulder." we cant fall apart, its too late for this now." I whispered and Blaine nodded again, tightening his hold on me. "We just need to do what we know and be the last to stand, thats it right? We can do it, cant we?" I asked and pulled away to look at Blaines eyes.
"Yeah…maybe…."he said and I smiled, nodding.
"If you ask me, we have a really good chance, if you think about how awesome we are," I said and Blaine laughed.
"I will not argue with our awesomeness," he said and hugged me again." this is not goodbye right?" he asked and I nodded.
"Im never saying goodbye to you," I whispered before our lips found their way to each other and we kissed. But as usual something had to happen; we heard a knock on the door and immediately pulled away.
"Blaine? Are you there?" It was Wills voice asking.
"Now I definitely got to go." I said and hopped of the bed, throwing Blaine his shirt as I walked to the door, opening it for Will.
"OH, hello Kurt." He was surprised to see me and I understood why. Ever since we decided to used Klaine as our way to get sponsors, we need to tell him about everything we do so he can make sure we don't do nothing exaggerated, we didn't tell him everything and what we didn't tell him he probably saw at The Glee Clubs website, but nobody needs to know that I spent the night at Blaines room. Our not-yet-existing sex life were nobodys business.
"Good morning," I said politely.
"What are you doing here?" he asked and I smiled.
"Visiting my boyfriend," I said simply." but I was just leaving so he is all yours for now. "I said and stepped out of the room while Will came in to talk to Blaine. I wasn't curious about what they will talk about because I already knew, Will will tell him all the stuff he already knows, to run away from the cornucopia, find water and don't light fire. I had the slightest feeling I was ready for this thing but then something happened that made forget all about that feeling.
I was walking back to my room, when I heard a familiar voice talk to me.
"Had a nice night Hummel?"
"Yes, thanks for asking." I said and turned around to face my best friend." how was yours?"
"Its not funny Kurt, I was worried about you." she said and walked closer to me.
"Why? You know Im not allowed to get out of the building where else was I supposed to be?"
"Not about that, we have been talking yesterday night, me, Quinn, Sebastian Tina and Puck, they are very angry Kurt." she said and I raised an eyebrow.
"Why would they be?" I asked
"Puck tried to convince us no to trust you since you want Blaine to win as well so you will kill us in our sleep, destroy our food and all that stuff." she said and I nodded slowly.
"So?"
"So?!Things looks terrible for you, especially not when Puck finds out you spent the night at Blaines room and tell everybody,"
"He cant prove it," I said quickly and Mercedes gave me her best diva look.
"He doesn't have to," she said." I would be very careful if I was you Kurt," she said and turned to walk away but turned back to add something." you know Puck aint gonna hesitate, he wouldn't blink before he kills you two."
"He wouldn't touch him, I wont let him." I said firmly.
"After they finish with Blaine they will come for you Kurt. And you know that you cant protect him." and with this she really walked away. I really hate to admit it but I knew she was right. If Puck Quinn and Sebastian will come after me, I wouldn't stand a chance; I didnt even want to think what happens to Blaine if they decide to come after him as well. And even if the others wont turn on me, how can I protect him when Im not with him? When I cant see him or talk to him? When he is far away from me in the arena?
I tried to listen to my own words, I cant fall apart now. I just had to think positive, Im going to win this games and introduce Blaine to my mother, Im going to see her again, Im going to design my own clothing line and be very famous, have everything I ever wanted and most importantly…Im going to come back home.
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I really hated needles. So when a nurse stood in front of me telling me to lend my hand forward so she can inject my tracking device in, I was terrified. We were on our way to the arena, in some sort of flying machine I never heard of, all of the tributes were sitting in two lines, back to back and I didn't even cared to look who was sitting behind me, I was too frightened from the long needle. I looked around, seeing all of the tributes wearing the hideous cloths they gave us to wear (I didn't know how Kurt could even look at them), some of them were obviously in pain, and I had a pretty good idea why. I looked again at the inpatient nurse who was still waiting for my right hand. Then, I felt a familiar hand holding my left one, squeezing slightly to let me know its okay, I let the nurse take my arm and looked away. I knew the hand because of how soft it was and how well it fitted into mine.
But a few seconds later the nurse was gone and so does Kurts hand and I looked to see the device flashing from the inside of my arm.it was about 10 minutes until we landed, tracksuit guys came into the room we were in. we got our eyes covered with blind folds and led out of there, going under the arena.
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I was (again) lost in my own thoughts when I heard the familiar voice of the speaker says: 5 minutes.
How could this moment come to so fast?
Mercedess words pierced through my head again you know you cant protect him I couldn't bury the thought, being with the Career tributes and want to kill myself every time I hear a cannon, wishing I was with Blaine so I can tell if he was alive or not.
The second this thought came into my mind I left the room, avoiding some tracksuit guys that walked in the hall, and looked for where Blaine was. I didn't really know how long it took me to reach to the door that had the number 10 followed by the word male on it. I didn't even bothered to knock, I just broke in. I saw Blaine standing back to me at first but he turned as I opened the door, surprised to see me there.
"Hey," I said.
"What are you doing here?" he asked.
"I needed to tell you about a change in plans," I said and closed the door behind me.
"4 minutes before the games begin? This is got to be good," he said and I smiled.
"It is," I confirmed." I want us to win this together," I said and he raised an eyebrow at me."I know what you think; we are already planning on wining together right?" I said and he nodded." so, I mean that we win together. Like, both of us, as a team, not me being with the killing gang but me being out there with you," I tried to explain but Blaine only stared at me. "Say something…?"
"Are you insane!?"Blaine burst out. That was not the reaction I was expecting." where is this coming from?!you cant do this!" he grabbed my shoulder and shook me dramatically showing me the fact that he watched too many movies in his life." You are not doing that!"
"Why not?!"I asked.
"Because!" he said, panic in his voice." where this idea came from?" he asked.
How was I supposed to explain that? I had too much to say, and I didn't had any time…I wasn't ready for this…I couldn't do it…why this had to happen to me?!
"Kurt…you are tearing up," Blaine said and pulled me out of thoughts, thankfully.
"I know," I said, not looking at him." I just…I don't want to feel so hopeless…"I felt Blaines hands tighten around me shoulder.
"we all feel hopeless," he said and lift my head so our eyes met." but we have to be strong, remember?"
"Im fine with the fact we all forced to enter the arena and fight to the death, I think Im ready for that," I said." I just ….Mercedes told me that you will be one of the first people Puck will kill, and I just wouldn't be able to stay with them not knowing what happens with you…I want to be able to protect you, "I admitted and Blaine face expression changed a little.
"I can take care of myself," he said and I chuckled.
"I know, "I said." but I…what if you got killed? I don't know what I will do with myself," I said.
"Youll get along…"he said in the most distanced voice I ever heard coming out from him.
"No I wont," I said before I got the chance to think about it and Blaine looked at me again in a surprised expression.
"Of course you are," he said and I shook my head.
"No…do you remember what you told me yesterday? That I will be extremely hard for you to get over me? I feel the same Blaine…I don't know how or why, but I do. I know you only 4 days and Im in love with you, I already cant imagine my life without you, I don't want to win all that money and fame if you are not there so I can share it with you, I want to introduce you to my mom, I want to meet cooper again and give him a death glare for ruining our first kiss, I want to get married one day and show all the homophobes who called us names when we were little, and I just cant handle the fact that I might not get all of that." I said quickly and finally looked at Blaines eyes which were just as wet as mine were." Im pouring my soul out and all you do is stare at me?" I said and Blaine chuckled.
"I cant let you do it, you cant risk yourself more than what you already are, "he said and I knew deep inside that he was right.
"but-"I started saying but he laid a finger above my lips.
"No buts. Now its your turn to trust Me." he whispered. "I will let you know that Im alive,"
"And you will call for help?" I asked.
"I will call for help." he said and I weakly smiled." we will be out of there before you notice, I promise." he whispered and I nodded slowly, cant control the urge to kiss him anymore. Our lips crushed together, both of us not wanting to think that despite everything we just said, this could be the last time we get to do this.
"I love you, don't you dare forget that, "I said against his lips and he nodded quickly.
"Not even if they erase my memory 1000 times," he whispered and I kissed him hard again. But as always, someone had to interfere.
"Kurt are you-oh," I heard Emmas voice as she entered the room, stopping when she saw what we were doing. She always had a problem with this stuff." well, Im sorry to interrupt you two, but you have to go back to your room, you have less than two minutes," she said and I nodded. "So I have to ask you to come with me now,"
"I know, just one second," I asked and turned to Blaine, pressing our kiss for a short kiss I wished could last forever.
"Enough with that now," Emma said uncomfortably and I walked away from Blaine, out of the door, wiping away the tears that kept appearing in my eyes. Emma escorted me back to the room and I stepped into the tube that immediate closed behind me and started going up, higher and higher until I was on surface, inside of the arena.
We were standing on platforms in a half moon shape, right in front of the cornucopia. Quinn was on my right and Mercedes to my left ,the arena was kind of normal, a forest .this one was different because it had trees I never seen before ,very high ,thin, white with orange leafs, and incredibly thin branches, climbing them wasn't an option. a part of me started to worry about Blaine but I knew I would have time to do that later .I looked at the cornucopia and immediately smiled at what I saw .a bayonet that was just calling my name, waiting for me to take it ,tons of food(which made me a little upset because I might not lose the weight I was hoping to lose),all of the other tributes were already looking at stuff they would like to have for themselves and the people they would like to kill first. Quinn was looking at the girl from district 8, she was Latin with black hair and puffy lips, I recognized her from that one time she was flirting with Puck at the training center, I knew it made Quinn upset but I didn't think it would make Quinn want to kill her. Sebastian, as Pucks new mistress, was already looking at the victim he was ordered to kill and I was half surprised to see he was looking at Blaine. Blaine wasn't even paying intention to what was going on around him; he was staring at some point in front of him, stretched out, ready to run for his life any moment now. But the point he was staring at wasn't in the woods, it was somewhere inside of the cornucopia. He was looking at something I didn't see before…a bow. I smiled, if Blaine gets to that bow, things would be a little easier .but I cant let him try to get to it! Someone would kill him before he gets the chance….well, maybe I can help him a little. I was ready to run for the bow as well, only to make sure Blaine will get it, trying not to lean forward so Puck (who was glaring at me from time to time) wouldn't notice what I wanted to do. And then the countdown from 10 began.
10
Everything looked like it was taken from a movie. The sky were dark and covered with clouds, rain had already start pouring.
9
I felt my heart starting to beat faster. The air around me was getting thicker. My breaths were heavier.
8
I felt my body tense of the thought of what was about to happen .this is what I have been training for in the last 8 years.
7
I was about to become a killing machine and not even care about it until Ill lose my sanity completely.
6
I looked at the clock and took a deep breath .I wasn't ready at all .I wondered what I did to deserve this.
5
But then I remembered that without me coming here I would have never reunited with blaine.so maybe this whole thing was for the best.
4
I had to considerate. I had to help Blaine get to the bow. And to some food. And to stop myself from wondering that much.
3
I took one last long deep breath and then everything became one big blare.
I heard a buzz and then we all flew off the platforms. All I can remember from the fight was me running towards the cornucopia, grabbing the bayonet and keep on running to the bow, grabbing it and the bag of arrows and finally looking around to find Blaine. He was running towards my direction, holding a blue bag but some tribute was chasing him too, ready to stab him with the knife he held. Oh no you wont. I waited just so he will be close enough; Blaine was already behind me before I skewered the boy right there. I turned around to look at Blaine, offering him the bow and arrows and he took them with shaking hands.
"Thanks," he whispered.
"You welcome," I whispered back and then Blaines expression change and before I even noticed he shot an arrow in something behind me. I looked over and saw another dead tribute. She was holding a sword. She was probably about to kill me.
"Thanks," I said and the smallest smile appeared on Blaines face.
"You welcome." He said. And I saw another tribute running toward us.
"Go now! You cant stay here," I said and was ready to kill someone again (okay I wasn't ready but I had to)
"Are you gonna be okay?" he asked and I almost laughed.
"Of course I will! Just leave please!" I said and Blaine nodded fast before running away. I looked as he ran deeper and deeper into the woods, turning around before completely disappearing out of my sight.
"I love you," I mouthed and I just knew in my heart he was saying it back. That picture stayed in my head for the entire fight, how terrible and hopeless I felt when I saw my love disappearing into the forest.
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I know the fight was really weird, but I just needed them to fight over something… :D