Sorry for updating so late. I just started Thesis and Finals (YES AT THE SAME TIME) so I dont really have time to write nowadays but Ill try to update as soon as possible for both of my fics!

Look on the bright side, I updated late but I didnt abandon it.. hehe... 2 more chapters to go!

I started another fic.. Please Read Wont Be Denied By You... I hope youll like it...

"... I was waiting for you..."

Blaine sobbed as he took a step closer to Kurt, but Kurt took a step back and slapped Blaines hand which was caressing his wet cheeks.

"No, no, no, no!" he repeatedly exclaimed as he shook his head frantically. "You... you-I.. what?" He settled for asking as he was confused about their situation right now.

The thought of Blaine loving him... loving ONLY him for the last five years, Blaine living a desperate and terrible life because he left him, Blaine being hung up over him and waiting for his return... just that thought was hard to grasp.

Its a whole different story when that thought became his reality. So of course, his first reaction would be anger with a splat of denial even if the evidence about Blaines feelings for him are right in front of his face.

... the divorce contract...

... the COURAGE foundation...

... the BAH puppet....

... the gifts addressed to him...

... his personal belongings ...

... the pictures...

... and of course the ipod...

The ipod that told him everything that happened to Blaine; the ipod that now he so regrets opening but spent the whole day listening to Blaines life for the past five years of their separation.

"What the fuck are you trying to get out of this?" he shoved the ipod on Blaines chest. "You planned this didnt you? You made me go inside your apartment and made me think that all this crap is real," he accused Blaine, opening his arms widely to gesture at the crap that Blaine had laid around the apartment.

"Kurt, no, I didnt plan this," Blaine begged as he nervously took a tentative step towards Kurt and grasped the pale mans shoulder. "I... Im really concerned about your health and I wasnt planning to show these to you," he confessed truthfully. Blaines concern for Kurts health is the only reason he invited him inside. It slipped his mind about what Kurt would see inside his apartment because basically he was surprised at seeing the man outside his door. After the incident with Andre earlier in the hospital, he was nervous talking to Kurt now. He had to make up a lot of things for his husband, plus seeing him suddenly without prior notice, and adding the pressure of opening a suspicious brown envelope did not go well for Blaines state of mind, and made him leave Kurt in his apartment alone.

"I... I need to go.." Kurt whispered and quickly wiped his never ending tears from his cheeks. He was angry at Blaine, but he was even more angry at himself because he swore before that he wouldnt cry over Blaine. Now here he is, still crying over the man who broke his heart over and over again, and hes sick of it. "Let me go..." Kurt said as he struggled free from Blaines grasp.

"No!" Blaine exclaimed and embraced Kurt tightly. "Please dont go... Lets talk about this please... please... I lo-"

"Dont you dare finish that!" Kurt retracted from the hug and pushed Blaine, making the tan man slam his back against the wall. "Dont you dare tell me that you love me! Save it Blaine! Because we both know that youre just lying."

"I-" Blaine started but Kurt wasnt finished yet. Kurt held his palms out, indicating that Blaine should shut up as he twisted his head and tried doing his calming breathing exercise. When he finished, he continued.

"I dont get it... I dont get you," Kurt said calmly now, staring straight at Blaines eyes. "I... What do you think will come out of all this crap you are trying to do? Why are you making life harder for me? For Andre? Please Blaine, stop all this nonsense. Stop wasting your time pretending to be a person youre not."

"And who do you think Im pretending to be?" Blaine challenged Kurt. "A person who is still hung up on his husband, someone who is desperate for the person he loves most to come back to him, a hopeless romantic who thinks that he will finally get his ever after with the love of his life, a man who can never get over his husband who he hadnt seen for five years or a guy who is willing do everything just to get his soulmate back?" He let the tears fall from his eyes as he described himself pathetically. "... because Kurt Im all of that person, if I would pretend to be another person, I would have pretended not to meet you and save myself from the heartache that you caused me."

He shook his head when he saw Kurt opened his mouth.

"But I cant... I wont," Blaine continued. "... because you are the best thing that ever happened to my life. Please Kurt, believe me that all of this is true. Please..."

Kurt, instead of feeling bad about Blaines predicament, felt annoyed. He chuckled sarcastically, producing a baffled expression from Blaine. "Believe you? More than five years ago, I innocently believed that I would be happily married to you. I thought that I finally had my knight to save me from this hellish life. I didnt know that you are hell itself!" Kurt as he poke Blaines chest.

"Stop Kurt please stop..." Blaine begged because those words surely hurt.

"... and I can Blaine, I can and I will pretend that you never existed in my life. Thats how much I dont want you," Kurt stated finally, trying to portray a strong willed person, but he knew that he was lying to himself.

"Stop, please stop, I dont want this."

Kurt snickered at Blaines response. "Funny how those words are so familiar. They are the exact words that I told you when you tried raping..." He emphasized the last word to torment Blaine more, but it didnt do any satisfaction when he saw Blaine flinch. "...me five years ago. I repeatedly begged and cried for you not to do it. I remembered how relieved I felt when you stop molesting my body, but you know what Anderson? I would have silently let you ruin my body if I knew youd say those cruel words to Pickles... to Andre... to our freaking child!" his voice getting a little higher as he recollects those certain bad memory.

"Im sorry..." was the only thing Blaine could say. "Im truly sorry... I really didnt mean it," he said ashamedly.

"You know the funny thing is..." Kurt waited for Blaine to look at him in the eyes before continuing. " I would have believed you back then. I was ready Blaine. I was ready to forgive you and come running back into your arms. I was ready to believe whatever nonsense excuse you would have said when you apologized... but you didnt. You didnt run after me when I walked out of our apartment."

"I didnt?" Blaine asked incredulously. "I didnt have the chance to tell you how much I regret saying those words, I didnt have the chance to tell you my feelings," Blaine clarified. " I didnt have the chance because you left me. If you didnt know, I was in the hospital the day of your accident-"

"I know," Kurt interjected.

"-your goof of a brother beat me to a pulp. Hell, your whole family prevented me from coming close to you..."

"I told them I didnt want to see you," he interjected again.

Blaine now felt annoyed about Kurts response. "Then how could I tell you how I felt when you were the one who took that chance away from me? I was late... I was late for just a few days, but you didnt wait for me. Youre not the only one who had his heart broken that day Kurt. I just needed time to think for myself, but you had no difficulty in leaving me behind here. All alone and trying to live a life of uncertainty. Every fucking day Kurt, I have to give myself a pep talk that maybe... maybe this will be the time you decide to come back to me. It was a drunken mistake Kurt, a mistake that I truly regret doing."

"A drunken mistake?" Now it was Kurt who asked Blaine incredulously. "What? You were drunk when you asked Sebastian to give me the abortion papers?" Kurt asked him sarcastically and thought that this argument was getting ridiculous; not wanting to relive that particular memory where he almost lost his child. He turned around, but before he could take a step forward to the door of Blaines apartment, Blaine grabbed his elbow and his body swiveled, bumping his chest into Blaines.

"What abortion papers?" Blaine demanded and grabbed both of Kurts arms. "What are you talking about?"

"Blaine youre hurting me..." Kurt said, but stopped himself from complaining more upon seeing the confusion and desperation from his husband. "... the abortion papers you made me sign." Kurt answered him unsurely.

"When did I make you sign such a thing?"

"Blaine what the fuck are you saying?"

"Answer me Kurt!" He demanded again. "Tell me when did I make you sign the abortion papers. Just please tell me..." he pleaded when he saw the hesitation in Kurt.

"Uhmm... uh... five years ago, when... uhmm... Blaine I didnt really want to..." Kurt pleaded because he really didnt want to relive his broken past again.

"Please... Kurt, please, I just want to know your perspective on this," Blaine said, tricking Kurt into telling him the matters that had kept him in the dark. He knew that if he said now that he had nothing to do with it, Kurt wont believe him, so he decided that he needed to know everything before telling Kurt the truth.

Kurt struggled out of Blaines grasp and walk around the living room to sit on the nearest couch. He needed to sit if he would tell Blaine this. Maybe telling Blaine and reliving those painful memories would give him the closure he needed.

"Uhmm... I remember... I remember talking to Rachel about us," he looked at Blaine who was now seated on the sofa adjacent to him. "It was about our fight and I remembered how glad I was after talking to her. I... I just decided to go back to New York then and talk to you when Finn told me I had a visitor. I thought... I thought it was you. I thought you told Finn that you are just a visitor to surprise me, but... but it was Sebastian who came."

Kurt closed his eyes because this was the most painful part of his story. "We went somewhere we wouldnt be disturbed. I... I apologized to him because of what we did to him, but he was so angry that I could not do anything but take all the hurtful words he said to me-" He gulped, and now tears were starting to fall from his closed eyes. "-And then... and then he gave me the abortion papers, telling me that I should sign them because thats what you wanted..." he sobbed when he felt Blaines hand cover his trembling ones. " but I didnt want to get rid of the baby...I wanted our Pickles, Blaine... I wanted to keep our baby... so I ran and ran, but he still caught me. We were on the stairs when he caught my arms, I struggled a little and ran down the stairs faster, but I tripped and fell down. I didnt know what happened after that, the next thing I knew was that I was in the hospital and my baby was struggling for his life."

Kurt finally opened his eyes to ask Blaine the question he wanted to know the most. "Why? Why did you do that to us?"

Blaine knew what Kurt was asking without further explanation, so he moved to the floor and knelt in front of his husband, still clutching the trembling hands, and looked at Kurt sincerely. "Because I didnt give Sebastian the abortion papers."

The truth finally came out. Five years of tears, heartbreaks, desperation and sadness, the truth finally came out. If this were a movie, there would have been fireworks, colorful confetti and the joyous sounds of trumpets, but shit like that doesnt happen here. The truth made their relationship more complicated than before.

"Please, Blaine, spare me your lies... Stop doing this to us," Kurt begged as he removed his hand from Blaine.

"No, Kurt, please listen to me first," Blaine was so proud of himself that he had stayed calm. He was so angry and frustrated now that he knew the truth; the truth about his cunning and manipulative ex-boyfriend who was actually the cause of all this misunderstanding. That bastard can wait, Kurt is more important here. He thought to himself before begging Kurt to stay and just listen to him.

"I never gave Sebastian the abortion papers. I never even talked to him after the day we encountered him in our apartment years ago. Kurt, Sebastian lied to you. The day you had your accident, I was on the way to Ohio then because I finally realized how much Im lost without you. I chose you, Kurt."

"I... I dont believe you..." Kurt said stubbornly, but what Blaine said made a jolt in his heart, but he cant let his heart lead his mind, he had to be cautious, he cant afford another heartbreak.

"Wasnt this enough for you?" Blaine gestured to his apartment. "Wasnt seeing me living a horrible life enough evidence for you to know that Im telling the truth. Kurt, I... I... cried when Andre asked me about Pickles because I spent the last five years in remorse about the fake death of my child," he knelt up straight and clutched Kurts face, bringing it a little closer to his, "Ive been alone for years because I only have feeling for you. I spent every day hoping that maybe this will be the day youll finally come home, dont you know how hard it is to live with that kind of uncertainty? That the only thing keeping me live is the thought of you finally forgiving me? Hell, Kurt youve heard my recordings and not once did I mentioned anything about abortion papers. I dont know what more evidence you want. I even made a foundation solely for you. And I was so desperate for your companionship that I made a puppet and pretend it was you sometimes."

"I... I...but if you didnt give me the papers, why were you apologizing?" Kurt asked a very stupid question.

"... because I hurt you by saying the words that I didnt mean, by forcing myself on you. Do you know why I stopped myself from taking advantage of you the day you stormed off from the apartment? Because I saw the tears in your eyes and I realized how much I dont want to be the cause of it... and Kurt... were still married. Doesnt that say anything about my feelings for you?" He asked and unbuttoned his dress shirt to show Kurt their wedding rings. "Ive been waiting for you for so long..."

Kurt gasped and started crying harder when he saw the rings hanging from Blaines necklace and tentatively touched it.

"I... I.." Kurt uttered, very confused. The truth had now been revealed, things now became clearer to him. He understood now, but it didnt mean that he could handle the truth. And theres only two things he can do, Fight or Flight.

"Kurt.." Blaine whispered and leaned their foreheads together. "Please believe me... I would never lie to you...."

"I... Blaine..." he looked so lost looking at his husband. "I... I need to go," he said finally and pushed Blaine, making the other man tumble to the floor. He used that advantage to exit the apartment as fast as he could.

I think all of us would understand why Kurt chose to flight than to stay with Blaine and let them talk things out.

He felt guilty. He felt that it was his entire fault that he didnt give Blaine the chance to explain himself for his mistakes. If he would have seen Blaine on that day they would have been living a happy life all this time. But he felt scared mostly, scared to open his heart to Blaine.

But then again, none if it was really their fault, but a certain meerkat who ruined their family.

"Were here," the cab driver announced.

Hours passed by since the incident in Blaines apartment. Kurt quickly took a taxi cab and made the driver meander around the city. They had been stupidly driving around New York City when Kurt decided to just go back to the hospital.

Kurt paid the driver and got out of the cab. He didnt notice the gust of the wind that sent shivers to his skin or the giggles of the patients roaming around the small park built within the hospitals premises.

If he was the one wearing the hospital gown, people would have mistaken him for a patient in the hospital, too. His hair was sticking out from everywhere, his eyes were red and swollen and he walked like the living dead.

He unconsciously took a seat on a nearby bench and rested. He wanted to go inside ad seek comfort just by seeing his child, but he couldnt go there looking like this. Kurt knew Andre would be worried and would never stop asking him what Kurts problem was.

How can you explain the problem to your child? He thought to himself. He had stopped crying just before he got out of the cab, but he could feel again his tears starting to fall from his eyes.

"Shit! Why can I not stop crying?" he complained and fiercely wiped all the tears from his cheeks. "Stop it Hummel! Stop it!" He repeated to himself but to no avail, the tears just keep on falling.

Kurt was suddenly startled by a vibration in his pocket. Kurt had forgotten his bag at Blaines, but fortunately he had spare money on his pocket to pay for the cab, he didnt know he had his phone with him all along, because If he knew, he would have called Quinn for help, but seeing the caller ID on his phone, he thought that Quinn was not really the best person to call this time.

"Adam..." was his way of answering the man on the other line. His voice was raspy from all the crying and shouting he had done a while back, so it gave Adam the clue that something was wrong with Kurt.

"Tell me everything..." Adam softly ordered Kurt.

And with that simple instruction, Kurt did tell Adam everything. Adam was his best friend, he trust him the most, he knew Adam would be able to help him out in this kind of situation.

"...I... I was scared... and I ran from him" Kurt finally finished. The story took longer than expected because Kurt needed to pause for multiple times to just let himself cry. "Adam... I... uhmm... Im sorry," he sobbed because he also told Adam what he had felt for Blaine.

"Dont be, I knew what I got into when I took you and Andre away from him." Adam understood. He wont deny he is angry and hurt, but he understood. He actually knew that this would have happened, it as just a matter of time, when, and how. "How do you feel right now?"

"I felt like I cheated..." Kurt said truthfully, pressing the tip of his fingers to his temple. "like I betrayed myself... because I promised to myself that I would never have feelings for him again, that I would be stronger and dont need him in my life... but... but I just cant stop it, especially now that I found out the truth."

"Kurt, did you know why we... us... never worked out?"

Kurt and Adam tried dating before, but Kurt was just too occupied with Andre and his new work in Porcelain that the relationship ended eventually. But even though they had broken up, they still remained friends, and Kurt promised Adam that once he got back on his feet, theyll start dating again. It had been two years since Kurt made that promise and Adam was still waiting for Kurt to be ready, but then Blaine came into their life and Adam finally knew the real reason for Kurts hesitation.

"Adam... I told you already... its not you.. Its just that with Andre and all..." Kurt repeated his reason before. He answered Adam though a little confused why the blonde man would bring that up in a situation like this.

"No, Kurt you are wrong, its not me. And its not you." By this time, he had accepted that Kurts apology earlier wasnt referring to him not fulfilling his promise that theyll be together, it was an apology for not trying to love him back. "Its Blaine."

Kurt didnt protest nor made other kind of noise, except for his continuous crying, he knew that Adam was right. It had been Blaine. It has always been Blaine. He thought it was because of the pain and trauma that he experienced from his husband that made him unable to love somebody else, but he just now realized that it was the love he had for Blaine that made him not look at somebody else.

Love, an emotion that he forcefully kept and locked at the bottom of his heart, he struggled for five years to just keep it there. He didnt know that a single appearance from Blaine was the key for it to be unlocked and burst free.

"I knew the moment I saw him in your office that you and I are really over," Adam confessed. He actually had a bad intuition about it when he and Kurt talked about Isabelle getting Andersons Corporation to partner with Porcelain, but he didnt voice his feelings, and silently hoped that he is wrong. "Youre alive again. I know you didnt notice it, but you were different when Blaine appeared in Paris. Yes... I know you were angry and worried at that time, but the way you talk about him is different. I knew then that it was time for me to give up and just watch you realize your feelings for Blaine."

"I... I... Adam, Im sorry... Im really sorry... Im so sorry," Kurt repeated over and over again. He apologize to Adam while heaving for oxygen as his heart was aching with so much pain that he had given to his best friend.

"Dont be. I should be the one who should apologize to you," Adam said, he didnt know how he did it, but he managed to continue this conversation without turning into a pile of a mess. "Im sorry because I never got to fulfill my promise to you."

"Wha-what-?"

"I knew you wouldnt remember." Adam made a small chuckle. "The night I took you from the hospital, I made a promise to you.. I... I promised that Id help you get over him, that Id help you smile like you used to. I promised that wed be our own family... but I couldnt even accomplish one promise to you."

Before Kurt could say that Adam had accomplish making him smile everyday, Adam beat him to the punch.

"But you know the worst part of it, it was just when Blaine showed up in your life again that I saw you smile real again. Kurt, dont lie to yourself anymore that you and Blaine arent meant for each other, because you are. The day that Andre passed out, you and Blaine are drawn toward each other like magnets... the way... the way you clung to him in the emergency area, Kurt, you dont know how much it hurts to see you with him like that... like a family." Adams anger and pain finally seeping from his mask and now he was starting to tell Kurt about his feelings.

"Im sorry... Im sorry..." Kurt could do nothing but apologize to Adam.

"If you are really sorry, then Kurt - stop putting all of us in this kind of misery!" Adam scolded his friend. "Youre the only who can do that, so Kurt, please... please... get your ass out there and talk to Blaine, tell him what you really feel and free us from these terrible feelings," Adam painfully begged Kurt.

"I... I... but Andre..." Kurt remembered his son. As much as he wanted to go back to Blaine and tell him everything, he needed someone to take care of his son.

"Ill ask Cooper to take care of him," Adam offered. Before, he wouldve taken Andre with him, but now he couldnt do that. How could he? There would always be a definite line between a martyr and a masochist. And taking care the child of his ex-boyfriend, while said ex is with another man? That was just way too much.

"Thank you..." Kurt sobbed and got up from the bench but before he ended the call, Adam said one more thing.

"Its time Kurt, its time to really fix this... time to be true to your feelings." Adam said one last word and ended the call.

"Its time to let you go..." Adam whispered to himself as he watched Kurt run towards the street and hail a taxi, and based from the smile that appeared on Kurts face, he was definitely going to back to his soulmate.

"Fate... why are you so cruel to me?" Adam complained to the sky and slid his body against the tree he had used to hide from Kurt during the whole conversation.

Kurt slowly opened the door to Blaines apartment. This is it he thought and walked inside the loft. He quickened his pace when he heard loud crying inside the room and saw Blaine laying on the floor, still in the spot where he had pushed him before, now in a fetal position, crying his heart out.

"Blaine..." he called out and the man on the floor whipped his head so fast, it might have broken. When Blaine saw Kurt, he frantically got up and ran towards him, engulfed him in a hug and slid his body against Kurt until he was kneeling on the floor and clutching Kurts torso like it would save him from drowning.

"Youre back... youre back.. youre back.." Blaine repeated over and over and over again. "Please, please, please dont leave me please. Do-dont leave me," he begged between hiccups. "Please, Ill do whatever you want. Ill dye my hair blonde; Ill learn Britains culture. Ill go with you to Paris, but please Kurt, please, please, please, please... Please, I beg you, dont leave me again. I-I cant live without you. Please." Blaine pathetically begged Kurt.

Kurt was startled at Blaines reaction and when he glanced back at the living area, he saw the brown envelope open and the divorce paper scattered on the coffee table, he knew why Blaine had reacted so desperately. "Blaine..." he said and touched the mans face.

Blaine covered the hand Kurt placed on his face. "Kurt, please believe me-believe me baby, that I didnt lie to you. Please... please, Ill change, Ill change.. Ill be like him... Just please dont leave me, I needed you in my life Kurt.. I need you."

"I need you too..." Kurt interjected his husband, but apparently Blaine didnt hear him as he continued on his ramblings.

"Please believe me that I didnt give you the abortion papers, please... please Kurt. Ill change, Ill change for you." Blaine beseeched. "I love you, Kurt," Blaine finally said those words to Kurt. "I love you, Kurt, I love you so much."

Kurt knew that Blaine was panicking right now, so he tried getting Blaines attention by getting on his knees and grabbing Blaines face with both of his hands. "I dont want you to change," Kurt started and looked straight at Blaine. "Dont change because I love you just the way you are," Kurt finally said to Blaine. "I love you, Blaine."

Then Kurt forcefully smashed their lips together. It was not even a second before Blaine was kissing back. It was a kiss for a million different things... a kiss for Im sorry, for I miss you, for how are you, for I need you, for dont leave me, the kiss meant a lot of things, but most importantly it meant I love you.

They kiss until their lips are swollen and they need to catch their breath.

"I love you," they say at the same time and without another second, they are passionately and desperately kissing again.

"Kurt, please..." Blaine this time is begging for another reason. He knew they were kind of rushing again if they would have sex together first but they could talk later. He needed this, he needed to feel Kurt. It had been five years since he had touched Kurt, since he had a sexual encounter, so it had put Blaine in a more desperate state to touch his husband again.

"Blaine..." Kurt rasped. Kurt also knew that they should probably talk first, but it had been five years since he had Blaine in his arms and nothing could stop him from being with his husband again. "Blaine, please."

They didnt waste their time getting up and going to the bedroom. For them every second counted, they had already wasted five years, they wouldnt waste any more seconds to not be with each other. So there and then on the stone cold floor, Kurt and Blaine began undressing each other, lapping each others mouths like they were hungry to taste every corner of their partners body.

When they were only left with their boxers, their chests up to their lips were covered with their partners saliva. Blaine slid Kurts boxers from his legs and said, "Beautiful," mesmerized by his husbands body.

"Blaine please..." Kurt begged and tugged at Blaines boxers. The other man complied and took them off and he screamed of painful joy when Kurt, who was underneath him, grabbed his erect cock, opened his legs widely and align his cock to his hole. "Honey please... I need you..." Kurt helplessly pleaded.

"But Ill hurt you..." Blaine protested because he was scared of hurting Kurt again, he didnt want to see Kurt crying again.

"No time baby, I.. need you, please Blaine, now. I want to feel you, only you," Kurt cried. "Please Blaine.."

The lube is inside Blaines bedroom, it would have taken him only five seconds just to get it, but every seconds counts for them, and leaving Kurt for a few seconds is a total waste of time. So Blaine moved back and lifted Kurts legs so he could bury his face on his husbands butt cheeks and used his tongue to lick Kurts hole open. He then stretched his palm out to his husbands face so that Kurt could lick it. It had been too engrossed into tasting Kurt that he only stopped when Kurt is shouting that he is almost close. He knelt back and pumped his cock with his wet hand, so that it would be slicker when he entered Kurt.

"Just tell me if it hurts okay..." Blaine warned him and entered Kurt as slowly as possible. "Aghh... So tight baby... I love you... I love you..."

"Blaine... ahhh.. ah... ah...More Blaine... more... I l-ahh... there baby.. there baby... I love you so much!" Kurt screamed as Blaine thrust his cock in his entrance.

"I love you!" Blaine screamed and found his release inside his husband. It didnt take too long for Kurt to follow Blaine.

The sex was fast, rough and dirty, but for them its not just another fuck, its making love.

"I love you..." Blaine repeated again as he pushed Kurts bangs that were obstructing the pale mans eyes. "I love you so much."

After Kurt said I love you back, he giggled. "You know that its funny that weve been married for more than five years and its the first time we said I love you to each other," Kurt thought aloud.

"Then let me make it up to you," Blaine said sincerely.

"Well both make it up to each other," Kurt corrected him and kissed him again. Kurt tried moving so he could pull Blaines cock from his hole.

"No, please... dont... not yet... I need to feel you... dont go yet," Blaine begged and thrusted his softened dick back at Kurt.

Kurt smiled at that, but he still moved so he could reverse their position, so it was him on the top this time, but he didnt dare get Blaines cock off of him. It was kind of hot... to have sex, without really having sex.

"I love you," Kurt said while his lips were still on Blaines mouth.

"I love you so much.." Blaine was glad that Kurt complied to his wish, so he knew he is cockblocking himself but he needed an answer to his another problem. "How about Adam?" Blaine couldnt help but ask. Before they started their relationship or whatever this is, he needed to know that Kurt was his and only his.

"Were not really together," Kurt answered him between kisses. "We tried dating before but it never really worked out for us."

"... but... but you still kiss each other..." Blaine said but still reciprocated the kiss.

"Yeah... we live in France, Blaine, its not unusual for us to do that," he said nonchalantly, now kissing Blaines neck. "And I didnt tell you because I want to assume that... well... I wanted you to think that he is Andres father." He separated his lips from his husbands skin and looked in his eyes again. "Im so sorry baby."

"No no... shh... I love you... Im sorry, too..." he said and pressed their lips together again. When they separated for air again, Blaine asked the question he was most nervous of. "How about Andre? Should we... uhmm.. should we tell him about us?"

Kurt knew that this is not a question but it was Blaines way of begging to be finally introduced to his son.

"I think its time for Jean Andre to know his dad," Kurt said and kissed Blaine again, and cherished the moment they had now because they would have to face another storm later. But thankfully, this time they are together.

"Ready?" Kurt asked as they exited the elevator and walked towards Cooper and Jennas apartment.

Just as Adam promised, Cooper texted Blaine last night that Andre was staying with them for the night to give Blaine and Kurt time to talk, which of course they did, well after they ravished each other on the living room floor, the bedroom, the bathroom and on the couch. They couldnt believe how sex-starved they were, trying to compensate by having so much sex in less than 12 hours, but can you blame them? They were separated for five years and talking just wasnt enough to satisfy their desire for each other, they needed to touch each other to express the desperations for each others love.

So after devouring each other at the kitchen table, they decided to go to Coopers and tell Andre about Blaine.

"No... Im scared Kurt..." Blaine said the truth. He told Kurt about what Andre thought of his dad because of what Finn had said to him. Thankfully, this time Kurt was on his side and cursed Finn and reassured Blaine that Andre will love him, which Blaine had truly believed. But now they are in front of Coopers house and he was having second thoughts about telling Andre about their relationship. Of course, he wanted to be known as Andres father, but Andre had clearly told him yesterday that he didnt like his dad and he didnt want to meet him because his dad was hurting his papa.

"Shit! Kurt Im going to screw this up! I dont know how to become a dad," Blaine panicked.

Kurt then placed his palms on his husbands cheeks and squeezed to calm Blaine from panicking. "Blaine, look at me okay..." It took Blaine a moment to even his breathing before looking at Kurt straight in the eye.

"Youre going to be a great dad. You cannot learn how to be a father from books, it... it just comes naturally."

"But what if he hates me?"

"He wont... Look, we dont need to tell him right away, we could go back home first, so you could have more time to relax your mind, okay?" Kurt gave him a chaste kiss. "Come on, honey, I need to see my baby, I missed him so much and I know you miss him, too." Kurt smiled and because he couldnt help it, he leaned again to peck Blaines lips.

He smiled when Blaine followed his lips when he separated from him. "Later, I promise," he said to Blaine and raised his arm to ring the doorbell on the apartment door, but the buzz of the doorbell sound havent even finished yet when the door open widely and a very giddy Cooper showed up.

"Welcome back brother-in-law!" Cooper exclaimed and gave Kurt a bone crushing hug. "Thank you Kurt, thank you for coming back to this family again..." Cooper whispered to his ears only.

"Thanks, Cooper, for taking care of him while I was gone," Kurt replied and returned the hug Cooper gave him.

Cooper sniffed and kept his tears away because this was not a moment of tears but a joyous celebration for his brother because finally his brother had gained love, his brother is finally free from the chains of his past.

Cooper entangled their hug and immediately embraced Blaine. "Finally Blaine... finally," he said with so much pride in his voice.

"Finally..." Blaine agreed and thanked his brother again.

"Come in.. come in..." Cooper invited them inside after congratulating the reunited couple. "Jenna theyre here!" Cooper shouted and directed the couple to the kitchen where Jenna was preparing their meal.

Jenna wiped her hands on her apron and run around the kitchen counter to hug his favorite couple. "Oh... oh... congratulations for the both of you!" She said enthusiastically. "Im so happy that you are finally together."

"Were happy too," Kurt replied and winked at Blaine.

"Very happy at that," Blaine replied and grabbed Kurts hand to kiss it.

"Awww... Coop look at that..." Jenna directed and rested her temple on her husbands shoulder.

"Thats not what they were doing in front of our door earlier..." Cooper said, but Kurt and Blaine werent embarrassed to be seen being intimate with each other; they were even proud actually. They wanted the whole world to know that they were in love and together.

Cooper definitely wouldnt get sick of seeing Blaine like this: light, happy and in love. He was just so happy for his brother that he didnt interrupt the couples moment of just staring into each others eyes until they asked where the kids were.

"Theyre upstairs, playing. Do you want to get Andre now?" Cooper asked.

"No... no.. let him play a little more first," Kurt answered and squeezed Blaines trembling hand.

"So everything is great with you two?" Cooper asked as he grabbed two mugs from the cupboard. "Coffee?" He offered and started preparing it when both men nod.

"Were... we are working on it..." Kurt stated.

"We talked about it what we should do, we have so many things to make up for..." Blaine continued.

"But well be okay, since we have each other now," Kurt interrupted him. "We have so many things to fix, but right now, we just needed each other."

Blaine leaned forward to peck Kurts kiss and whispered. "I need you..." And then he turned to Cooper and continued his explanation, "so we decided to just take it one step at a time, mend things one at a time."

"So Andre is your first hurdle?" Cooper guessed as to how he had seen Blaine react when he heard his sons name and then placed the coffee mugs in front of Kurt and Blaine.

"Yeah.." They both answered.

"Im just so scared that hell hate me..." Blaine said worriedly.

"Baby, I told you before, he wont hate you... we can do this at another time okay? When you are finally assured that whatever Andre discovers about the truth, he will never hate you, not because youre related to him, but because the love Andre has for you has grown because you are with him," Kurt tried assuring Blaine.

"Fuck, baby... I love you so much... I dont even know how I managed to live five years without you," Blaine said and kissed Kurt fiercely; thanking him for forgiving him, coming back to him and loving him despite all of his mistakes.

"I love you so so much, too," Kurt managed to reply and crashed their lips together. Unlike their kisses before, where they only separated because of lack of oxygen, this time they separated because of a small voice they heard from the doorway.

"Papa? Bowties?" Andre asked, sounding very confused; wondering why Papa and Bowties were kissing.

Shit Blaine cursed in his mind. He glanced at Kurt to ask him what they should do, but his husband just whispered to him "Im ready when you are," and that is what Blaine needed in order to have the courage to tell his son the truth.

He slid from the stool, walked towards the confused boy and knelt in front of him. "Andre..."

"Why did Papa kiss you?" Andre asked and clutched the toy he was playing with earlier to his chest.

"Baby... listen to me, okay?" Blaine only continued when Andre gave him a nod. "Uhmm... ah... do you know what a family is? Its like.. uhmm... its like Cooper, Jenna and Keya. They are a family, it has a father, a mother and a child. Do you understand what Im trying to say here?" He groaned when Andre shook his head.

"Papa?"

"Kurt?"

Both boys turned to Kurt for help.

Kurt smiled at how their reactions were so similar to each other and he copied Blaines pose and took a spot beside him.

"Andre, remember in school, when your classmates always bring two people to school? A mommy and a daddy or two mommies or two daddies, do you remember that, baby?" Kurt smiled when Andre nodded and continued. "Do you not want to have two daddies like them? Because Dre, baby, you have two daddies. Im Papa and Blaine is your other daddy." Kurt made a small mistake; he should have taken more little steps because the silent response that Andre gave him made him nervous as to how Andre was reacting to the news.

Andre glanced back and forth to his Papa and Bowties and then suddenly he just started crying wildly. "No, no,no,no," the four year old sobbed.

Blaine, heartbroken at his sons response, still tried to help Kurt calm Andre down. "Shh... sh..."

"I love... I love Bowties... Bowties is not my daddy, I love Blaine..." Andre cried and looked at his papa. "Unc Finn... Unc Finn said that I should hate my daddy, but I dont want to hate Bowties, I love him," Andre rasped between his cries.

Blaine and Kurt were instantly relieved at the boys reason for crying and immediately hugged Andre. "No baby, Daddy isnt a bad person.. Daddy is the nicest person in the whole world." Kurt assured him while rubbing Andres back, meeting Blaines face at the back of Andres head.

"But... but Unc Finn said that Daddy makes Papa sad. Andre doesnt want Papa sad..." Andre protested, but nevertheless, put either arm on his parents shoulders.

"Have you seen Bowties make me cry?" Kurt questioned him. "Never, right? Because Bowties makes me happy, your daddy makes me happy."

"And... Unc Finn said that you hate Daddy, so Andre should hate Daddy, too," Andre said to Kurt.

Kurt then separated their bodies and looked at Andre. "No baby, Uncle Finn is wrong. I love Blaine, I love your daddy. I wouldnt kiss him if I didnt love him, right?"

Andre seems satisfied with Kurts explanation, but he still had a question that was bugging him, so he turned to Blaine and asked his daddy. "Do you love Papa?"

"I love him so, so much..." Blaine said, full of sincerity that their audience, Cooper and Jenna, thought that no one could say that the man was lying.

"Youll make Papa smile?"

"Everyday..." Blaines smile was starting to show because he knew that Andre was accepting him and this is just how the little boy was trying to protect his father, probably it had something to do with spending so much time with Finn.

"Youll sing him the birdie song again?"

"Ill sing to the both of you..." Blaine chuckled.

"Do you love Andre?" Andre asked, but this time it was in a hesitation, thinking that Bowties only loved Papa and not him.

"I love you, Andre! I love you so, so much..." he said and hugged his son back.

"I love you too, Daddy." And it was as easy as that, that Andre call him Daddy. It was a child for fuck sake, when he said someone is his teacher, he will call him teacher, someone introduced him as his doctor he will address him as doctor. So of course when his papa said that Bowties is his daddy, he will call him Daddy. To Andre, calling Blaine Daddy is nothing to him, but it was a big deal for Kurt and Blaine. It even made Cooper and Jenna tear up when Andre said that and Kurt joined the group and the family just stayed on the kitchen floor, cherishing the memory that they are finally together.

At last, their family is complete.

"Were here," Blaine said as he welcomed the addition to his apartment. It was almost night time when they left the Coopers apartment. Blaine and Kurt, together with Andre, had talked about some simple things, but they managed to forget to discuss the sleeping arrangements.

Blaine kept on thinking how he could ask Kurt about that when they entered their buildings elevator, but Kurt answered him when he pressed Blaines floor button and not his. He glanced at Blaine and nonchalantly said "Its a given..." like he had been reading Blaines mind.

And now as he opened the door, he ushered both of them inside, and Andre, being in a new place, had rushed off to the living room and admired the gigantic photo of his parents wedding.

Blaine smiled at hearing Andres amazement about his apartment. He shut the door behind him and out of habit, he hung the keys on the rack and said, "Im home."

He let out a choked sob when he heard Kurt reply, "Welcome home," and Blaine lean his forehead on the door and start silently crying, not wanting to get his kids attention on him.

Kurt then hugged Blaine from the back and rested his chin on his husbands shoulders.

"You didnt know how much Ive long to hear you say that..." Blaine rasped his confession.

"You didnt know how long Ive wanted to say that..." Kurt playfully replied and kissed Blaines neck. "I love you."

"I love you too..."

FINALLY! I hope I wrote their reconciliation well.

Read my second Fanfiction:Wont Be Denied By You.

Title Reference: "Firsts" - Kurt and Blaines first time saying and hearing I love you from each other, them being the first time to be a family, Andre first time Andre address Blaine as "Dad"

Story Reference:

-"First of many"- uncut Christmas episode from season 3

-French do casually kiss each other (thats why I chose Paris for them to live with to trick you for thinking that they are together)

Story Outline:

-Blaine and Kurt Reconcile

-Abortion Revelation

-Domestic Family

Scenes Included:

-First "I love you"

-Blaine begging

-Jean Andre calling Blaine dad

-Andre hating Blaine for hurting Kurt

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