Broken hearts felt like death. 

What kills you more is when you fall in love. 

Kurt Hummel wanted a broken heart, because in order to have a broken heart, you had to care about a person too much to let them go. 

If he had to lie through his teeth about being fine, he would, but in all honesty, he was lonely. 

Blaine Anderson somewhat fixed that. 

Their relationship was odd in the beginning, if you could call it that back then. They kissed once in awhile, Kurt never allowed himself to touch Blaine without Blaine starting it, and Blaine just didn't feel anything. 

Kurt started off as Blaine's sexuality experiment. Kurt knew this, but he was hopelessly blinded by the thought of there being a boy that could be there for him whenever, someone to hold him, surprise him with kisses. He didn't expect a distant boy that never wanted to hold his hand in public, that only kissed him for less than a few seconds. 

"I-I um... I love you," Kurt whispered to Blaine nervously once when they were watching a movie. 

"Oh. I guess I love you, too?" Blaine's reply came out as a question, never realizing how much it hurt Kurt to think about it being a lie. 

Kurt looked down at his hands, his chest aching. He knew he made a mistake once the words left his mouth, the mouth that Blaine really liked kissing, but would never admit that to anyone. 

-xXx-

Don't think that Blaine was a heartless, cruel sociopath. He honestly didn't know what he was doing to Kurt, and was struggling with figuring out his sexuality, and Kurt was a fallen angel that he wanted to fix, to love, to save, but he didn't know how. 

All Blaine wanted was a way to stop the incomplete feeling inside of him, so he took in Kurt, noticing how lonely the porcelain boy was, hoping he would somehow fill the void until someone came along, never stopping to note the fact that Kurt could be that person. 

Every time Blaine told Kurt he loved him, every time he kissed him, Kurt broke a little more, but Kurt stayed by Blaine's side, because he was genuinely falling for Blaine, and the pain somehow made him smile, because he finally found someone that he cared enough about for them to hurt him. 

-xXx-

What made Blaine finally fall for Kurt was the day Kurt went over to his house, sobbing and holding his bruised cheek. His crystalline eyes were glittering with tears as he explained everything that happened. Blaine just pulled him closer and lightly kissed all of Kurt's bruises. 

"Tell me you love me. Lie to me," Kurt whimpered as Blaine pulled him closer, laying in Blaine's bed. 

"I love you," Blaine softly whispered in his ear, making Kurt sob harder. 

"I love you, too." Kurt pressed his lips shakily to Blaine's, hating the lies that flew around them in shards of broken glass, but couldn't think of any other way he could possibly want things to be. 

You might think that this would be the end, but it's actually the beginning. The beginning of everything that made Kurt and Blaine who they are. This is how they based everything on a lie, how it killed them, and how it all ends up.