“Chandler, I.. I don’t know what to say,” Kurt stuttered after he had watched Blaine walking away. He wanted run after him, but he couldn’t. His legs just didn’t move.                          

“Don’t say anything,” Chandler answered and Kurt could hear a pain in other boy’s voice. With slow moves, Kurt sat down on the street and leaned by the house’s wall, like a homeless person. He started crying , he cried so much it hurt and he felt like he didn’t want to live anymore.

“I’m so sorry,” he cried. Bitter tears ran down his cheeks. “I’m so sorry,” he said again.

“No, come on,” Chandler sighed and fell down to his knees next to Kurt too. “It’s okay.”

“I’m so sorry,” Kurt repeated again, his crying turned even worse. A few people, who passed them, glanced curiously.

“Hey, shh.” With that, he was on Chandler’s chest as the boy pressed him closer and rocked him. Chandler knew. Chandler knew that it wasn’t him, who Kurt said sorry to.

“Let’s get you home,” Chandler finally said when Kurt’s cries calmed down a little. He stood up and pulled Kurt with him.

They walked in silence to Kurt’s car by the cinema. Neither of them didn’t say a word. The atmosphere between them was tensed, unlike before. They both held their distance.

“Why are you so nice to me?” Kurt inquired later into the silence. “I mean, I.. we were on a.. uhm.. date and my boyfr- Blaine showed up and..”

“Do you remember the day when I first saw you guys in the shop?” Chandler asked him.

Kurt swallowed and nodded.

“From that day on, I’ve known that he loves you very, very deeply,” the boy stated. “And I also knew from the start that you love him back just as dearly. And he’s lucky, I’m jealous of him but he is so lucky to have you. And so are you.”

“Then why.. why are we even here?” Kurt hesitated but questioned.

“Because you two are the first couple I’ve met with so much love. And I admire it. But when you came back to the store, I just knew.. that there was  something off. I guess I was right, wasn’t I?”

Kurt was about to open his mouth to say anything but he couldn’t. He simply couldn’t find anything to say.

“When I texted you for the first time.. I guess I hoped I was right. I hoped that you and Blaine aren’t so in love and I figured that it at least it’s okay to get to know you little better. But when I first called you, I could hear that things weren’t the same. So I guess I just made myself forget and ignore the fact that the last time I saw you, you had a boyfriend and asked you out, hoping that whatever heartbreak or pain you’re going through, I can at least make it a little better.”

Kurt smiled weakly. “It worked a little, if it makes you feel any better. At least before.. before you know what.”

“Kurt,” Chandler said then with his lowest voice and stopped walking. It was then when Kurt noticed that they had made it back to his car. “I don’t know what it is between you two exactly, but there’s one thing I know: you two are made for each other. You two deserve eternity.”

Another tear came out of the corner of Kurt’s eyes.

“You deserve the best guy in New York,” Kurt uttered. Chandler smiled weakly.

“I’m pretty  sure you already have him.”

Kurt sighed.

“I’m not so sure anymore,” he said quietly before sitting into his car. “Thank you Chandler.”

“You are very welcome.”

With that, Kurt started the engine of his car and drove home.

Kurt didn’t know what to do. He was helplessly stuck in that whole and he couldn’t get out of there anymore. He could see his father’s frustration and worry and he wanted to explain him everything, he did, but he couldn’t. At least not now. His father had too many questions that Kurt didn’t know the answer for.

What does he planning to do with his future? What’s going on with Blaine? Why is Kurt hiding in his room again, just like the last summer?

“That’s it, Kurt!” Burt spurted one night when Kurt refused to come out of his room for dinner. “I know that you’re going to through something bad again and if you’re not telling me what it is, I’m going to Blaine’s.”

Kurt sighed heavily as his father sat down to the edge of his bed. He didn’t have much choice and the last thing he needed now was a conversation between his father and his.. ex-boyfriend. So he told him. He told him everything starting from the NYADA letter and ending with the date with Chandler. His father listened him carefully and didn’t cut him off, just let him talk.

“Then why the hell have you been in your bed for the whole week?!” Burt asked once Kurt finished talking “Why aren’t you at Blaine’s house, glaring up this mess?!”

“And tell him what? ‘Sorry I went to date with another guy while we were still technically together’?”

“Yes!”

“Dad,” Kurt groaned. “It’s not that simple.”

“Well it certainly wouldn’t hurt!”

Kurt went silent. He knew that his dad was right, but no, he couldn’t just do it.

“I can’t do it,” he confessed quietly. “I can’t do this because what if we do get together again? What if we get together and then we break up again? He’s going to New York, I’m stuck in here!”

“Then you go with him! Just like you guys planned at the first place!” his dad said. God, Kurt thought, they were both so stubborn.

“This is crazy!”

“Love is crazy!”

“What if love isn’t enough?” Kurt spurt out then, feeling frustrated himself. He stopped for a second and thought about his question. The question that made him act the way he did at the first place. Burt stared at him with confusion. “What if love isn’t enough, dad? I mean, what if it’s supposed to be a high school thing? We’re going to break up eventually, it’s not like we’re going to marry with each other, we’re too young for that. And then I will be broken and alone again and I don’t want to go through that again. I don’t want to stay hanging there, with him, waiting the time when things go south.”

“Oh my god,” Burt groaned after a second. “I should’ve seen it coming when you told us about Finn and Rachel’s engagement.”

“What?” Kurt was the one confused now.

“Look, kiddo, there’s one thing that Finn and Rachel understood better than you do: it’s the crazy things that love makes you do. You’re supposed to act on those crazy things. You’re young and in love and it’s not something that you can just throw away.”

“I don’t follow.”

“Do you know how old I was when I first met your mother?”

Kurt did know, he realized then. He just hadn’t thought about it.

“Eighteen,” Burt continued. “I was eighteen and your mother was seventeen. We got married few years later and we didn’t regret a thing.”

Kurt didn’t say anything, Burt stopped talking for second, letting his son think about what he had just said to him.

“Kurt, you need stop this crazy wreck thing. You love Blaine, I can see it. And I also know for sure that Blaine loves you, don’t ruin this.”

“That doesn’t mean anything,” Kurt mumbled, trying to hold back his tears. “Just because it worked out for you and mom, doesn’t mean it will work out for me and Blaine.”

Burt didn’t answer immediately.

“That boy made you smile after all that crap you went through after that year,” Burt mumbled thoughtfully. “That boy was there for you for the crap you went through this year. And still, every time I saw him, I could see in his eyes, how his love to you grows. It’s powerful and real. Believe me when I say that it’s not just the high school fling. This is something so much bigger. And I can’t think of anyone else who deserves it more than you do.”

Kurt cried again, he cried in his father’s arms because now it felt even worse. He wanted to believe him, but now it was ruined anyway.

“I don’t know what to do,” he cried while his father was the one to rock him this time. “I really screwed it up.”

Blaine was sorting out his things for New York, when his father stepped into his room.

“Blaine what are you doing?” he asked with a serious tone and frowned. It was actually a little unusual of him to come to Blaine’s room.

“Planning my move, I told you guys two weeks ago.”

Mr. Anderson stared at his son blankly for a moment before opening his mouth again. “Oh god I didn’t even understood that you were serious,” he mumbled then and took a step closer to Blaine.

“Well, I got into the Acting Studio, that was the plan, wasn’t it? Me going to New York after the graduation.”

“Yes, but what about Kurt?”

Blaine stopped the sorting and blinked at the man. He wasn’t sure if he had heard correctly “You really haven’t been listening what I’ve said to you, have you? We broke up.”

“Really, so you’re just going to let things stay like this?” his father spoke in.. shock?

“Dad, please, it’s not like you care anyway,” Blaine answered and turned his back to him again. His dad had never shown up much interest to his and Kurt’s relationship and Blaine was used with it. He didn’t even miss it.

“Of course I care! You’re my son!” his father exhaled to that.

“Your gay son,” Blaine corrected stolidly.

His father went silent for a second, before groaning and burying his face into his hands.

“Blaine, look at me,” he said then. His father made him turn back around as he grabbed Blaine’s shoulders. “I know that I haven’t been the perfect father to you since you came out and I’m sorry, but that doesn’t mean that I stopped loving you, stopped caring about.”

“I don’t want to make you feel uncomfortable,” Blaine confessed.

“You’re not. You’re making feel sad, because you are sad and I don’t know what to do.”

Blaine swallowed and bit his lip, feeling more confused about his father than ever.

“I just.. need to sort my stuff for New York,” he uttered reluctantly and pulled away from his father’s arms.

“No, Blaine, don’t push me away, tell me what is going on,” his father begged.

Blaine shrugged. He had been crying so much that he was out of tears for now and he couldn’t feel anything. He just existed without feelings, just with bittersweet and painful memories.

“We didn’t talk for weeks and then I saw him walking down the street holding hands with another guy. So here I am. I really don’t want talk about this.”

“Oh,” his father sighed.

Blaine continued with going through his shelves while his dad let the information sink in. He could see some kind of worry in his father’s eyes; he wasn’t sure what kind of.

“Have you talked with him?”

“Why the hell do you care?!” Blaine spurted out angrily then. “Just two weeks ago you were telling me that I should let this go and move on and now.. now you’re so surprised to see me packing up my stuff without Kurt?! What the hell dad?”

“I didn’t realize how much you love this boy!”

Blaine took a step back and looked directly into his father’s eyes. It took a moment, before he realized that his father was telling the truth.

“I didn’t realize how serious you guys were. I just.. thought that maybe you were together because of the loneliness and I’m sorry.”

“So you thought that I was dating because he’s the only gay guy in the town?” Blaine asked, still feeling quite angry. “I hate to break this is a really naïve thing to believe in.”

“I wasn’t exactly thinking, okay?!  I haven’t been exactly the biggest part of your life for a while now and I’m sorry but I’m trying to make it right.”

Blaine sighed. God, he wanted to box, he wanted to ramble and hit something. His sadness had turned into an anger that he couldn’t control.

“I’m sorry too,” he finally said, trying to calm down. Maybe it was time to make peace with his father, he figured. “I hadn’t let you in my life neither, so it’s not entirely your fault.”

It wasn’t until then when Blaine realized that that’s how Kurt had probably felt the whole year. That’s how Kurt had felt when they first met and that’s how hard it was to make things okay again. Except, Blaine only had his father to make things okay to, Kurt had a lot more people. Kurt had to let everyone else in again, he had to deal with the life that he hated and he had to figure out his future. It wasn’t until then when Blaine truly understood how hard it must have been for Kurt. And he, Blaine, had made it worse with NYADA. Kurt just wasn’t ready to figure every out yet. He was still making peace with everything else in his life.

It wasn’t just Kurt’s fault that they were what they were now. Although Blaine still couldn’t understand why Kurt would go on a date with another guy, he realized that it wasn’t Kurt’s fault.

A pain of guilt ached in his heart. What was he supposed to do now?

Kurt couldn’t make himself to call to Blaine. All he knew was that he was still in town, but planning his move to New York. He knew it because of Tina. Weeks went by and Kurt just did nothing, trying to figure something out. Suddenly he realized that there had been exactly a year since the day that Blaine had kissed him in the Lima Bean. It was just another beautiful morning, just like it had been a year ago.

Kurt hesitated, but decided to get out of the house then. He found himself in the coffee shop, unable to remember how he got there. He stood there, in the middle of the Lima Bean and watched how the morning crowd formed a line. He watched how Blaine Anderson stepped inside with puppy kind of sad eyes and looked around the shop.

Their eyes met.

Blaine wasn’t sure if he saw correctly or if it was just his imagination. He had to convince himself that it wasn’t just an hallucination.

“Hi,” he said, stepping closer to Kurt. He looked so tired, so fragile and thin like hadn’t been eating for months.

“Hey,” Kurt said back. For a second it seemed to Blaine that the corners of his mouth twisted up a little. It was weird, seeing him after so many weeks he couldn’t even count.

“How are you?” Blaine asked awkwardly, trying to make at least some kind of conversation.

“I.. uhm,” Kurt swallowed. He was nervous for some reason, Blaine could see. “I’ve been wanting to call you, but.. I couldn’t,” he rambled. “I miss you,” sighed then, his eyes tearing up. “I miss you and I’m sorry, I know it’s my fault and I understand that you probably don’t want to do anything to do with me, but I miss you.”

Kurt went silent again; Blaine didn’t say anything for while neither.

“You miss me?” Blaine broke the silence then, feeling his heartbeat quickening to that, his voice breaking. It felt too good to be true.

“Yeah,” Kurt answered with some kind of hope his eyes. That made Blaine think about hope. “I’m sorry, it’s okay if you just want to leave. It’s not your fault.”

Blaine shook his head.

“Kurt, do you know what day it is?” he asked then. “Do you know what happened, right here, exactly a year ago.”

Blaine could’ve sworn that he saw a light blush on Kurt’s pale cheeks.

“You kissed me,” Kurt uttered and nodded. “I remember, that’s why I’m here.”

Blaine smiled lightly. That’s why he’s here. Yes, hope was something that Blaine had for the first time after those miserable weeks. That hope grew bigger and bigger and Blaine could feel the unfamiliar warmth inside of him that was only there when Kurt was around.

“Me too,” he confessed then and with that he decided to do the same thing he did exactly a year ago.

He stepped closer to Kurt, filled the gap between them and pressed his lips lightly onto Kurt’s. Tears started to fall down of his cheeks because it felt so good and he had missed it so much and he just didn’t want this to end.

“I miss you too,” he said then when their lips were still against each other but technically they weren’t kissing anymore. “God, I miss you so much, Kurt.” Their hands linked and Kurt let out a sharp cry of relief.

They walked, hand in hand in the same park where they had continued their kissing exactly a year ago. They walked in silence because just being there together, was enough for now. They needed to talk, Kurt knew that, but it seemed like neither of them couldn’t get himself to start that conversation. That conversation could’ve meant something really good or the exact opposite. It either they’ll get back together or they break things off for good.

God knew that Kurt wanted to be with that boy.

“I’m sorry,” he said into the silence although he had probably used that phrase for too many times for now.

“I’m sorry too,” Blaine answered but that made Kurt frown.

“For what?” he couldn’t understand.

Blaine stopped walking and turned to face Kurt completely. He took Kurt’s hands safely between his own and for a second all Kurt could think about was how soft and warm Blaine’s hands felt.

“I’m sorry for making you go through what you did because of me. I didn’t even realize how hard it could’ve been for you deal with NYADA and that stupid election and god.. Sebastian. I didn’t even realize until couple weeks back after this.. talk with my father and I wanted to call you or something, but I couldn’t.”

“Oh, Blaine..” Kurt forgot New York, he forgot the reason why he still should be afraid.

“You had so much in your plate because of your past and you were still healing from the wounds.”

“Blaine, it’s okay,” Kurt tried to say, but Blaine cut him off.

“No, don’t say that it’s okay, because it’s not! It was selfish of me and I’m so sorry.”

“I’m the one who’s supposed to be sorry!” Kurt hailed. “I’m the one who cut you off and went on that stupid date with Chandler, I’m not even sure why I did it, god, I’m such a mess.”

“Honey, it’s okay, relax,” Blaine mumbled at kissed Kurt’s lips gently. “You’ll be alright, you’ll see.”

Kurt closed his eyes and took a deep breath, then nodded. All he wanted to do, was trust Blaine and that actually came quite easily for him.

“Why don’t we go to my house?” Blaine suggested then. “My parents aren’t home, we can just sit and talk, okay?”

“Okay,” Kurt nodded and let Blaine tug him closer.

They drove to Blaine’s house separately because of the cars. Blaine found that maybe it was good thing: he needed this time to order his thoughts, questions and feelings. Once they both stepped out of their cars, they headed inside and without a question the walked to Blaine’s room. He didn’t realize that maybe it wasn’t the greatest idea before they both got in and Kurt’s eyes grew wide with fear because of the mess. It wasn’t just a mess – it was Blaine packing up his stuff for New York.

“So, you’re going,” Kurt said without any significant emotions in his voice.

“Yeah,” Blaine swallowed but didn’t have chance to explain the whole situation.

“When?” Kurt inquired.

“Next week,” Blaine answered and he could see something dying in Kurt. “I didn’t want to leave before today,” he quickly added. Kurt looked up at him with confusion. “Kurt, I want you to come with me.”

“Blaine,” Kurt groaned, but Blaine didn’t let him talk.

“Listen to me, I love you, okay? I love you and I want you to come to New York with me so you could keep following your dreams, but I swear that I’m not going to push you like this anymore. We’ll figure something out, I promise. Kurt, please,” Blaine was begging so badly that he didn’t even realize that that was what he wanted the most: to be in New York with Kurt. The acting wasn’t his dream, being with Kurt was.

“Blaine,” Kurt groaned again, another tears running down his cheeks. God, they both had been crying so much that day but it still broke Blaine’s heart to see Kurt crying and weeping. “You don’t understand why I shut down at the first place. It’s not that I don’t love you, I do. And I do want to come with you, but I don’t know if I can believe in the future. I know that we’re stronger than just a high school fling, my dad told me this, but I don’t know if love can still be forever? Is love enough? I can’t bare another break up, Blaine but I need you. I mean, I think that that was the reason why I went out with Chandler at the first place, so that somebody would hold my hand, like you do.”

“Oh, Kurt.” It made sense now. Now Blaine could see everything much more clearly.

“And I’m still such a wreck and I’m broken. You shouldn’t be with someone who’s like this, you deserve so much more.”

“Don’t you get it?” Blaine cut him off then and stepped closer to take Kurt’s face between his hands, just like he always did to look directly into Kurt’s eyes and make him believe something deeper. “Don’t you get it, Kurt? You’re the love of my life and I couldn’t love anybody else. You’re not the one who’s broken. Your wings are.”

“What?” Kurt spurted in confusion like he couldn’t believe that he heard correctly.

“Yes, Kurt, your wings. I know it sounds.. cheesy, but that’s what it is. You have to take your broken wings and learn to fly and I want to help you. But you can’t do it here, in Ohio. There’s not enough room for that, that’s why you should come to New York too, not just because of me.”

Blaine wept away Kurt’s tears from his cheek.

“You still love me?” Kurt asked then with a shivering voice.

“Of course I love you, I never stopped loving you,” Blaine answered with a smile and kissed the corner of his mouth. “You’re the love of my life, Kurt Hummel and I want to spend it with you. Love can be forever and even though I know that this won’t always be easy, I also know that we’ll make it Love maybe won’t be enough but it’s all we’ll need.”

“I love you too,” Kurt sighed and smiled back. “I’ll love you too.”

With that, Kurt agreed on going to New York with Blaine. With that, Kurt stated that he’ll love Blaine forever.