Dear Kurt,
         

Five years ago we met in that little pub. Do you remember that? Because I do. It was the best day of my life. I never knew my life could change in one short day, but it did. Every day, I think of that day and I don’t feel scared anymore.

However, tomorrow we go over the top of the trenches, and fight. Kurt, I’m shaking so much and not just from the cold. I know I’m not going to make it and I think by the time this letter reaches you; I will no longer be around. The sun is setting and my fear is rising. It may be cold, but I don’t care. I’m looking at that beautiful sky above me as I know tomorrow I will be up there to. As I write this, tears run down my cheeks as I remember the memories we shared during the past five years.

Thursday June 21, 1934 at 8:20pm was the date and time when I met you. We danced all night and didn’t care what people because even though we just met, we was young and in love.

I remember when we got in trouble for disturbing the neighborhood, and the police were called and we ran from then nonstop for about 20 minutes whilst holding each other’s hands tightly ; We hid in small narrow alleyway and we started kissing each other, it was our first kiss. It wasn’t in the most romantic place but I didn’t care, I was with you and that’s what made it so perfect.

One of my favorite moments was when you told me “It’s ok to be scared. I would never have been brave enough to go to war. Just remember even though I’m not going to be there with you, I’m always going to be thinking about you, every second of everyday. You are the love of my life and you’re my hero. Words can’t express how proud of you I am. I love you forever and eternity and don’t you ever forget that. Promise me.”

I kept your promise, Kurt. I remembered it. That was the last thing you said me before I left. Those are the words that keep me calm when I have nightmares in trenches and can’t sleep. I haven’t seen your face in years. Every day, I look at the photo you gave me of us and I kiss you goodnight. I tell you how I feel, and it’s heartbreaking knowing you won’t talk back to me.

We only get one life and we can choose what do with it. All I can say is, this is not how I planned it. We would spend our lives loving each other fearlessly and forever. And when we were ready, we would have started a family of our own. Oh, I forgot something.

I was going to propose to you when I got back, but we both know we are never going to see each other again or talk to each other again. I’m crying even more now. Anyway, there is a ring in my bedroom top drawer. I would like you to have it. True love never dies even though people do. That is your ring. Kurt; you keep it because I still have your pin that you gave me to remember you by. It hasn’t left my jacket once and I’m pretty sure it’s what has kept me safe all this time. I have faced death more than once already; each time I wore that pin I have survive. It’s because a part of you is with me.

I maybe the one fighting for this country, but you are MY hero. You are the one who saved me from a terrible place. I had a rubbish life until I met you, there were days when I wanted to die, but you stopped me and that’s why I love you.

We sang a lot when we was together. But since arriving here, I have not sang once. This place changes you physically and emotionally, but the thing that won’t change is my love for you. I know that sounds a bit cheesy but it’s true. I might not sing anymore, but here are a few lines from a song that I love:

I’ll see you again, you never really left, I’ll feel you walk beside me I know I’ll see you again. When I’m lost, and I’m missing you like crazy, And I tell myself I’m so blessed, To have had you in my life, my life.

Thank you for being a part of my life. You are the best thing that happened to me. I’ve had the time of my life and I owe it all to you.

Fearlessly forever and eternity yours,

Blaine Anderson