Kurt

When Kurt woke the next morning he couldn’t help but feel a little giddy, the night before he and Blaine had admitted to having feelings for one another. Now while Kurt wasn’t entirely sure what that meant on Blaine’s end he had kissed him, and it was nice more than nice. But it couldn’t happen again, no matter how much he wants to, at lest not while they both have boyfriends. And Kurt had every intention to go see Sebastian today and break up with him. He and Sebastian haven’t been getting along lately and it only seems to be getting worse, so Kurt decided it was time, but first he needed to talk to Rachel.

Kurt looked over to Blaine’s bed but it was empty, before he even had time to dwell on that their dorm room door was opened and Blaine walked in carrying two coffee cups.

“Hey you’re awake” he said

Kurt smiled “Morning, what time did you wake up?”

“I didn’t, you have to sleep first. Coffee?” Blaine asked handing over one of the cups he was holding. Kurt accepted it with a thank-you and a small smile. And then something Blaine said registered

“Wait… you didn’t sleep?” He asked

“Nope couldn’t seem to shut my brain off long enough to sleep, so when it was light enough I went and got coffee which is really good by the way you should drink it before it gets cold. Did you know that the bakery across the road is like open 24 hours, and they have really good pies and bread and they have like awesome coffee, I’m serious you really should drink that coffee before it gets cold, it really is good coffee, oh and here” he said handing over a paper bag “I got you croissants they have really good croissants, did I mention they have really good coffee?” He stopped when he saw the shocked look on Kurt’s face “What?” he asked

“Exactly how much coffee did you have this morning?” he asked taking a mouthful “Oh my god this is a mocha”

“Yeah, you drink mochas right?”
“You know my coffee order?”

“Of cause I do” he said a little confused “You only order it like every time we get coffee, you should drink it before it gets cold” he said taking a drink of his own only to come up empty, and throw the cup in the bin. “We should totally go over there and get more coffee” he went for the door but Kurt stopped him

“Oh no you don’t I think you have had enough caffeine for one day, anymore and you will wind up with a coffee hangover and they’re almost as bad as an alcohol induced one. Lets try some juice instead shall we” he went over to the mini fridge and pulled out a small bottle of orange juice and handed it to him. “This will make you feel better”

“Ok” Blaine managed to drink it down in one mouthful “Oh wow that’s good juice, do we have more of that?” Kurt just laughed and got him another before finishing his own coffee and croissants then getting ready to start the day.

*****

“Wait…what?” Rachel asked two hours later

“Ok Hummel start from the beginning we want to get all this” Harmony said.
Kurt sighed and looked between the two girls, since the bar he and Blaine weren’t the only ones getting friendly, you know minus the whole being gay thing, Rachel was very happy with Finn thank you very much, and Harmony never heard from that guy she went to the bar with but she had been talking about Puck a lot, go figure.

“Yes Harms’ is right you have to tell us everything”

“Ok fine, but don’t judge me ok?”

“Wouldn’t dream of it” Rachel assured him

“So yesterday I was with Sebastian,” Rachel made a sound between a growl and a huff “And he was just being an ass as usual and it got bad. I was kind of upset, and Blaine came back to the dorm to find me tearing pages from my notebook…”

“Wait the one with the script?” Rachel asked Kurt nodded

“Great now we are going to be stuck with some lame play from some lame try hard, what were you thinking Kurt? That play was awesome, I wanted to play Mira”

“And I totally wanted to play Vala” Rachel said

“Girls can I get back to the story or did you two want to continue mourning that damned play?”

“Sorry Kurt… Please continue” Rachel said and Harmony made like zipping shut her mouth

“Ok, so Blaine shows up and finds me…”

“Destroying your future”

“Not helping Rachel…anyway he stopped me, wanted to know why I was destroying…”

“Your future?” Kurt glared at Rachel and she just chuckled

“My book…so I told him that Sebastian said that I wasn’t a very good performer and pretty much said I was a crap writer and I was wasting my time being here”

“Sebastian said that to you” Harmony asked and Kurt nodded

“What did he say when you mentioned Sebastian’s name?”

“I don’t think I did come to think of it huh… any way he just told me that it wasn’t true and that I did deserve to be here”

“Of cause you do sweetie” Rachel said

“Ok so how did it go from that to him kissing you” Harmony asked

“I’m getting there, so after that he took me to dinner, he has a really nice car by the way it’s a…”
“Kurt, the kissing” interrupted Rachel

“Right, when we got back from dinner we started to watch The Sound of Music, that’s when I told him I was going to break up with my boyfriend”

“You’re going to break up with Sebastian?”

“You are far too gleeful about that Rachel”

“Hey you know how I feel about that ass, besides you get rid of Sebastian you can get with Blaine”

“That’s if he breaks up with his boyfriend too”

“You don’t think he will?” Harmony asked Kurt shrugged

“He said he was going to”

“Then he will, ok so you both said you were going to break it off with your boyfriend and then he kissed you?” Rachel asked

“Well we talked about why we were doing it, and he said he had feelings for me and he was only truly happy when he was with me”

“Awe” the girls said together

“That’s so sweet”

“What did you say” Harmony asked

“I told him I felt the same”

“You did? You do?” Rachel asked Kurt smiled and nodded “Oh my god I knew it, so are you two going to date when your both single?”

“I don’t know would it be weird to date someone as soon as you break up with someone else? Maybe we should wait you know? Just hang out as friends for a while first; I don’t want him to be a rebound or anything”

“But you like him right?” Kurt nodded “And you are breaking up with Seb to be with Blaine right?” Kurt nodded again “Then it shouldn’t matter” Rachel said

“You don’t think people will think its weird?”

“Who cares if they do? As long as you and that cute roomy of yours are happy it doesn’t matter what others think” Harmony argued

*****

Blaine

“I think I’m falling for Kurt” Blaine said out of nowhere

Blaine had gone over to see Nick and Jeff not long after Kurt had left to see Rachel. He had told Blaine he needed to talk to the girls before he did anything but as soon as he was done he was going to go and end things with his boyfriend. Blaine had every intention of doing the same but first he had to talk to Nick and Jeff.

“Well I can’t say I didn’t see this coming” Jeff said.

“Was it that obvious?”

“You could say that, you just seemed happy all the time when you were with him.” Nick said

“And your eyes would light up when you talked about him. So what are you going to do?”

Well here goes nothing, time to tell them everything. “I talked to Kurt last night and told him how I felt, he told me he was going to break up with his boyfriend. If I am to stand any chance at all I have to do the same.” Nick and Jeff shared a look Blaine didn’t quite understand it but he let it go.

“So you are going to end things with Sebastian? When?” Nick asked

“I was thinking of going over to NYU today to do it, oh and he likes my car” Blaine smirked

“Ok random, what does him liking your car have to do with anything?”

“I love my car and he actually knew what kind of car it was”

“Um shiny” Jeff said Blaine frowned

“Don’t be a jackass, He knew it was a GT 350 Shelby he even knew the year, how cool is that?” Nick and Jeff just looked at him, Blaine could tell they thought he had lost his mind but the fact that Kurt liked his car was a good thing to him, not exactly a deal breaker if he didn’t, but it was nice just the same.

“Um very… but still don’t know what it has to do with anything” Nick said

“Nothing I guess.”

“Ok so about Sebastian, when today do you plan on doing this and do you want us to come with?” Jeff asked

Blaine smiled “I think I will be fine, I’m going as soon as I leave here. I just wanted to let you guys know what I was doing. You guys really don’t like Sebastian do you?”

“Nope” Nick said

“What about Kurt? How do you feel about him?”

“You made a good choice, we like him, he is good to you and makes you smile and we just want to see you happy”

“Yeah Seb never did that, you always seemed sad unless you was faking happiness” Nick said

Blaine got up from his old bed and pulled his friends into a hug “You know I love you guys’ right?”

“Yeah, yeah, now go ditch that loser so you can have something good in your life”

*****

Blaine arrived at NYU at about Twelve o’clock and headed into the dorm area he had to make a quick stop before he did anything. He had the number of the room written down and was heading there when he ran into someone a very tall someone he almost feel back but was caught by the arms.

“Careful there dude… hey your Kurt’s friend, Blaine right?” the guy said Blaine looked at the guy and realized who it was.

“And you’re Finn I was just coming to see you, I wanted to talk to you about something”

“Sure thing dude, we can go to my dorm if you like” The two of them walk up the hall about four doors and Finn stopped and opened one and stepped aside to let him in, once they were both seated Finn spoke up “So what brings you here?”

“I came to um…well I came for two reasons actually, I came to talk to you about Kurt”

“Kurt… what’s wrong with Kurt?” Finn seemed panicked “Did something happen to Kurt? Is he ok”

“His fine really I just wanted to talk to you about something is all. You’re his brother and your opinion means a lot to him. I want…well um…I want to date Kurt”

“Wait…you want to what?”

“Date your brother; I came to you because… well I don’t really know why I just felt like I should tell you”

“But you have a boyfriend”

“That’s the second reason I am here, I’m going over there next to end things with him,”

“You’re breaking up with Sebastian... for Kurt?” Blaine nodded

“I’ve never known anyone like him Finn, wait how did you know my boyfriends name was Sebastian?”

“Um…Nick and Jeff…Wow does Kurt know”

“Yeah we talked about it last night and a little this morning his breaking up with his boyfriend too, don’t warn the guy though will you I think Kurt wants to let him down gently or something”

“Don’t worry I hate the guy, he is an ass to my brother”

“I know, he seemed bad last night, something the guy said really hurt him. He was thinking of leaving NYADA”

“He what?”

“Don’t worry I managed to talk him out of it”

“That’s good, although I did hear that Sebastian treats you bad too” Blaine looked at him confused for a moment, then thought Nick and Jeff must have talk to him about that too.

“I guess so but I won’t have to worry for long”

Finn smiled “Well dude as long as you get rid of the other guy I can’t see why Kurt wouldn’t say yes”

“Are you ok with it, with me?”

“As long as you treat him right we won’t have a problem, besides Rachel loves you guys and is already planning the wedding so that is a good sign”

“Thanks Finn, well I guess I should go and talk to Sebastian” Blaine got up and headed to the door

“Hey dude?” Blaine turned to face Finn

“…Yeah?”

“Did you really come here to ask me if you could date Kurt?”

“Well his dad is in Ohio, you were the next best thing so yeah I guess I did”

“Cool, Burt would love that” Finn grinned and Blaine returned it before opening the door

“Thanks Finn” he said before he left.

Blaine continued on to Sebastian’s dorm room it was time, he needed to get this done, needed to break away from Sebastian and his hurtful ways in hopes to begin something better, something real he didn’t know how he was going to do it he just knew it had to be done. If he was serious about Kurt and he was sure he was it was the only way.

When he reached the door he paused and took a deep breath before he reached out and opened it.

*****

Kurt

Kurt had been in his dorm ever since he left Rachel and Harmony, he had been trying to contact Sebastian all day but he hasn’t been answering his phone. If he doesn’t contact him soon Kurt was going to go over there, he had told Blaine he would break up with Sebastian today and he was going to do it.

He picked up his I-phone from next to him and checked the messages he had none, it was 1:30 and he still hadn’t heard from him, and he had been trying to call Sebastian since ten this morning, and he had either forgot his phone, was busy or he had be ignoring him. Normally this wouldn’t bother him but as he was trying to get him to meet up so he could join the rest of the singles in New York it was a little frustrating. How can he be with Blaine if he was still with Sebastian?

Just then his door opened to show a smiling Blaine, he closed it behind him.

“Hey Kurt, how did it go?”

Kurt sighed “I haven’t been able to get in contact with him he wont return my calls, how did it go for you?” Kurt asked Blaine just laughed

“You are so not going to believe me, I went to NYU to see him and I was a little worried you know? I mean the two of us haven’t been getting along that well lately and it was getting too much so the only way it could go was for one of us to end it right?”

“That makes sense yes” Kurt agreed

“Yeah well I got to his dorm and I know I should have knocked first but I just figure if his room mate was with his girlfriend then he would have locked the door”

“You walked in on his room mate and girlfriend?” Kurt asked shocked

“Um no, I walked in on him and his room mate,” Kurt just looked at him wide eyed
“And they were totally going at it; it was like freaking animal planet or something”

“Blaine!” Kurt reprimanded “You can’t say things like that”

“I’m serious Kurt; I mean they were rather surprised to get caught and then of cause he was trying to tell me it wasn’t what it looked like…”

“So he wasn’t just fucking his room mate then”

“That’s what I said, but anyway, I was standing there and I realized that it didn’t bother me Kurt, I didn’t care that I had walked in on him having sex with someone else, I just felt relieved, it made it much easier to go through with ending things with him, I didn’t have to explain myself because I had caught him in the act.”

“Wow that’s just wow, what did his room mate say”

“Darnel? He just thought it was…” Blaine stopped at the look on Kurt’s face “What is it?”

“Did you say Darnel was his room mate?”

“Yeah why?”

“It’s not really that unusual of a name right I mean there could be more then one at NYU right” Kurt asked

“I haven’t really heard it that much but sure I guess there could be why do you ask? Wait your boyfriends name isn’t Darnel is it?” Blaine asked

“No my boyfriends name isn’t”

“Then what…”

“His room mate’s name is Darnel” Kurt said as he just watched Blaine for a moment fidgeting

“Kurt what is your boyfriend’s name? I just realized that we have never really mentioned names before” Blaine was sure he knew even before the words left his mouth

“Sebastian, Sebastian Smythe”

Blaine just started to laugh, Kurt was a little shocked to say the least, but Blaine just continued to laugh and all Kurt could do was stare at him eyes wide mouth open. Then Blaine finally settled down.

“Sorry, it’s just that I think we have been dating the same guy, I know it’s not really funny but sometime if you don’t laugh you cry, you know what I mean?”

“I don’t understand, what do you mean you think we have been dating the same guy?” Kurt asked.

“Just that my ex’s name is Sebastian Smythe, wow ex that sounds good” Blaine smiled

Kurt just watched as he walked across the room and fell back onto his bed hands behind his head, Kurt shook his.

“I don’t understand, you’re not angry that for the past year he has been seeing me behind your back”

“And me behind yours, and we can’t forget Darnel, don’t really know what’s up with him is he gay playing straight or is he Bi or something else completely? Still he is a cheater they both are”

Kurt lay back on his own bed, hands on his stomach, fingers intertwined and legs crossed at the ankles looking up at the ceiling. He was trying to wrap his head around this, why would Sebastian try so hard to get Kurt to date him if he already had a boyfriend. It made no sense at all to Kurt.

“Kurt? Are you ok?” Blaine’s voice pulled him from his thoughts and Kurt turned to him with a smile

“Yeah I’m fine, I just…” he stopped and bit his bottom lip and turned away from Blaine

“You just what? You can tell me Kurt, you can tell me anything. I won’t judge you” Kurt could feel Blaine’s eyes on him but he suddenly became very interested in the water stain in the corner of the room to avoid eye contact.

“I feel used, you know? Not heartbroken or sad or anything like that just angry and used. But more angry at myself for letting this happen, but I also feel like a hypocrite because I sort of used him too. I never loved him but I was so desperate to not be alone that I went for the first guy to show any interest in me, and even though he treated me like crap I stayed. And then after a while I did the same to him, but he got so much worse. It got to the point where I hated him and the very thought of him touching me made me ill but I stayed still” he turned to Blaine

“You know I haven’t slept with him since two months before I started here. And going on dates and spending time with him seemed more like a chore, I went from liking him to hating him, I have been dreading his calls and wishing he would just leave me alone, and now…” he said picking up his phone staring at the screen “I would give anything just to have him call so I can get him to meet me, just so I can tell him to take a hike. Does that make me a bad person?” Kurt finished sitting up to look back to Blaine whose eyes hadn’t left him the whole time he was talking.

Kurt couldn’t decipher the look in Blaine’s eyes was it sadness, pity, understanding, he didn’t know or care he just wanted Blaine to hold him but he couldn’t allow it because Kurt would want more and right now he couldn’t give Blaine what he deserved, not with everything that has been said and done, that’s even if Blaine still wants him after he has heard all of that.

Kurt wrapped his arms around his middle eyes falling to the ground but he didn’t cry he refused to cry, it wasn’t long before he felt the bed beside him sink and warm arms pulled him into a hug, Kurt sighed in relief and buried his face in Blaine’s neck.

“It’s ok Kurt, you are so not a bad person, and you couldn’t be farther form being a bad person if you tried, you are the most caring and compassionate person I have ever met”
Blaine pulled back a little so he could look in his eyes and smiled “Now I want to be very clear about something, I really, really care about you Kurt, and I don’t want to do anything that might screw this up, so if you will let me I would still like to give us a try”

Kurt was just about to answer when there was a knock at the door, Kurt pulled away from Blaine and walk to the door to open it.

“Can’t be Nick and Jeff they just walk in” Blaine said

Kurt shrugged and opened the door a little to see Sebastian standing there with a bunch of daisies in his hand and a surprised look on his face.

“Judging by the look on your face those aren’t for me” Kurt said in this time Sebastian was able to put on a fake smile, Kurt could see right through it.

“Who else would they before?” Sebastian asked in faux innocence

“Oh I don’t know?” said Kurt opening the door wider to reveal Blaine sitting on the bed in their room “Him maybe, since he did just walk in on you with another guy, so how many of us are there or have been?”

Kurt watched Sebastian look between them “Come on guys I’m sure we can work this out to benefit the three of us”

Kurt turned to look at Blaine who shook his head and Kurt turned back to Sebastian,

“I don’t think so” Kurt said

“Well what about you Kurt, Blaine and I are obviously over, what do you say to just the two of us working this out”

Kurt shook his head “I don’t think so”

Sebastian sighed “Well can I at least call you guys for a booty call you know the three of us hooking up could be fun”

Kurt looked back to Blaine and smiled Blaine smiling back both turning to Sebastian

“I don’t think so” they said together Kurt taking the flowers and closing the door in his face. He turned to see the looked on Blaine’s face.

“What? I can’t keep the flowers because they come from a jerk? If that was the case I would never have flowers. Besides they’re pretty.” He said with a smile walking into the bathroom to fill a jar to put them in. he took them back into the room placing them on the bed side table between both beds, noting Blaine watching him the whole time with a big grin on his face.
“Does that mean you are single now?” he asked Kurt looked at him stunned for a moment

“Oh my god, you’re right, what now?”

“You still haven’t answered my question yet, would you like to give us a try?”