Its been four days, since burt had his heat attack, four days since the stroke. Four days since he’s been in a coma. A week since i last saw kurt smile. Four days since kurt has got any proper sleep. He lost his mum when he was only eight. Was he about to loose his dad to at seventeen? God i hope not. Im not religious but if there is anyone out there i hope that they give us burt back. Kurt needs his dad. His dad is his rock.

“im so dissapointed in you kurt.”

The last words burt said to kurt before any of this happened. I know that they were eating away at him before his dads heart attack, but now they must be killing him. I walk back into burts hospital room holding out a coffee for kurt. He hasnt been sleeping and he needs something. “kurt?” he lifts his head and looks at me. “ive got you a coffee.” The half smile he returned was enough to make me want to cry. Its not fair on the poor boy he been thhrough so much already.

“thanks.” He croakes

“kurt. Look at me.” He does, “you need to get some sleep...you killing yourself.” I regret saying those words as soon as they are outside my mouth. He flinches. Looking at him his pale skin has some how got paler. His bags under his eyes are getting darker. He is in the same position he has been in for four days. Sat next to his dad gripping his hand trying to look for any kind of life. A twitch of an eyes. Wiggle of a finger? Nothing so far. Burts not been responding to anything the doctors are doing. Its hurts to see him like this but i dont know what to do.

“blaine?” i look at him.

“yea?”

“do you think he meant what he said. About him being dissapointed in me?”

I try to think how to phrase this. “i dont think he meant them no kurt. When people are uncomfortable or upset or angrey they say things which they dont mean. I think this was one of those moments.” I see a tear fall down his face.

“you know he been trying to call me.” I look at him “yea. But me being the stupid stubborn idiot i am kept ignoring his calls and deleted his texts. I didnt want to hear what he wanted to say and now look. He could die blaine! And i never even got to say goodbye.” The tears were falling freely now i stood up and pulled him into an embrace.

“shhh, oh kurt i know this is hard, yes your stubborn but that what make you so amazing and brilliant and perfect. It means your dedicated. As bad as it sounds, i dont think answering your dads texts would have stopped this from happening. Im sorry this has happened to you kurt. Its not fair how someone as beautiful and as talented as you should have this happen to you.” Tears were falling down my face, what is wrong with me i cant confess my feelings for him. With his dad in a coma, and whats to say that he hasnt changed his mind about being in love with me. Oh fuck why did i have to get drunk and make out with rachel i camt stand the girl sober. Yes she talented but she nothing compared to kurt. My grip on him tightened slightly slowly sliding down the floor until i was sitting and his head was resting on my should i let him cry and he fell asleep. The first time he has slept in four days, im hoping that things will get better.

“i love you kurt. So much, sometimes it hurts,” i whisper into his sleeping head.

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Carol stood outside her finaces’ hospital room. She smiled slightly to her self to see the sight infront of her. She gasped when she heard blaine speak:

“i love you kurt. So much, sometimes it hurts,” the sight almost brought tears to her eyes kurt needs something good in his life. He been through so much. Walking in the room she smiles at blaine who looks at her with uncertincy. She just realised they have never met.

“are you the nurse?” he asked cautiously,

I smile at him, “no im carrol. Burts finace.” He starts to look paniced

“sorry il just go then,” i saw him look down at the sleeping boy beneath him. He questioning whethere to go and try not to wake him or to just stay there. He didnt really have a choice because everytime he moved kurt grasp on his shirt got tighter.

“dont worry,” i said. “he needs his sleep and i know your good for him. Your both good foreachother. Its about time something good happens to kurt.” He looked up and smiled

“thanks.”

“you love him dont you.”it was more of a statement than a question. I watched as blaine half smiled.

“am i that obvious?”

“from what i heard of you he pretty crazy about you to. Also i happened to hear your little comment what you said to him while he was sleeping just now. I see the ways you look at eachother when im doing my nursing duities here. Its love. You both love eachother.” I shrug my shoulders and smile at his blushing.

“he doesnt like me like that though carol.” Blaine shook his head sadly.

“has he ever given you reason for that?” i look at him seriously, “has even given you reason to think that he might love you?”

“yea once. We were arguing last week. And he just blurted it out. Said he was inlove with me. I didnt know if he meant it or not.”

“from his late night phone calls to rachel” i see him flinch at the name “and mercedes, its obvious he likes you.”

“nows not the right time. Not with burt and everything.”

“and everything?”

Blaine didnt know if he should tell her about the nightmares kurt has been getting “blaine.” He looks up “i wont tell anyone.”

“since the attack, he been having nightmares. I wake up in the night and rush to his room because he screaming. Its horrible to watch to know that i cant do anything about them. When he with me, he doesnt seem to have them as much. But when he on his own they get so bad its horrible you have to physically shake him quite hard to wake him up.”

Carol reaches down and strokes the boys cheek. Kurt snuggles more into blaines chest and sighes. Blaine blushes looks down and smiles at him.

“he feels safer around you thats why.”

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(kurts dream)

The sun was shining. Thats how he knows he is dreaming. Back in lima. Back in reality its raining. Looking to his side he realises that he leaning on someone . its blaine.

“heya sleeping beauty” blaines reaches out and strokes away a piece of stray hair from kurts forehead. I smile at him. A blush forming gently at my cheeks. He smiles at this and he kisses the top of my forehead. “kurt?” i look up at him.

“yea?”

“can i sing to you?” i nodded my head grinning so big my cheeks start to hurt. Blaine pulled out his guitar. Wait where did that come from? I didnt even know he could play.

He strums out the first chords

If i should die before i wake

It cuz you took my breath away

Loosing you is like living in a worldwith no air

Im here alone didnt want to leave

My heart wont move its incomplete

Wish there was a way

That i can make you understand

But how

Cant you exspect me

To live alone with just me

Cause my world resolves around you

Its hard to breathe

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air?
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
There's no air, no air

Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gon' be without me?
If you ain't here I just can't breathe
There's no air, no air

No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air

I walk, I ran, I jump, I flew
Right off the ground to float to you
With no gravity to hold me down for real

But somehow I'm still alive inside
You took my breath but I survived
I don't how but I don't even care

So how do you expect me
To live alone with just me?
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air?
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
There's no air, no air

Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gon' be without me?
If you ain't here I just can't breathe
There's no air, no air

No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air

No more
Baby
There's no air, no air
No air, oh!

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air?
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
There's no air, no air

Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gon' be without me?
If you ain't here I just can't breathe
There's no air, no air

(No air)
(No air)
(No air)
(No air)

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air?
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
There's no air, no air

Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gon' be without me?
If you ain't here I just can't breathe
There's no air, no air

No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air

Blaine finnishes the last chords. He looks at,

“i love you kurt. So much.” And suddenly the gap between our lips were closed and he was kissing me gently i kissed back. He cupped my face with his hands and rested his forhear against mine.

“i love you too blaine.”

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“kurt honey wake up.” I look around me to see that im still in blaines arms. And carrols there looking at me.

“what time is is?”

“half 6” blaine replies smiling at me. “You been asleep for a good 6 hours”

“what?” sitting up quickly i banged my head against the chair we were leaning on. “ow fuck.” Looking around, “wait. Is dad okay? Has he woken up? Anything happen?”

“no kurt sorry. If something does you’ll be the first one to know. Anyway i brought you some dinner blankets and 2 pillows.”

“thanks.” Still realising i was between blaines knees resting on him,i went to sit up.

“no no. Your fine there.” He put a pillow on his stomach so that i couldlean back and eat my food and he put a pillow behind his head. Loosinging his grasp around my waist so that i could move slightly to get more comfortable.

“okay well il leave you guys alone to eat.” Smiling she left the room.

“no air. Thats the song.” Blaine said absontmindidly. I looked at him in confusion.

“its the son you were humming in your sleep. Must have been a good dream huh.” I nodded

“for once. Its kind of sucked that i woke up. Think its the best dream i have ever had.”

“oh yea what happened?” blaine asked me

I took a deep breath, “this” and with that i closed the gap between us and kissed him. It was better than the kiss in the dream. More real. It got better when he started kiss back. I absontmindidly licked his lip and he let my tounge in. I felt a moan from the back of his throat and we both pulled appart for more air.

“omg im so sorry i didnt know what came over me.” Putting my head in my hands, i hid my face.

Blaine was having none of this.

“he no no. None of that.” Pulling my face out of my hands he kissed me. “you have no idea how badly ive wanted to do that for goodness knows how long.” We kissed again but only gently this time. “i love you kurt.” He whispered.

“i love you too blaine.” I replied. “so much.”

“k...ku...kurt?” croaked a noise from the bed.

“DAD!”