The Truth Always Comes Out

                     Chapter 4: I'm Sorry

Blaine gets restless and wakes from his sleep. He feels numb and at a loss for words to describe how he feels. He wishes he was in the middle of a nightmare, then would be able to wake up and everything would be back to normal, but he knows that will never happen. The truth is he doesn't know who he is or what he is. He turns on to his stomach and covers his head with his pillow trying to delay facing the real world.

Downstairs his parents are in the living room sharing their concerns for Blaine. “He is shutting us out and he is shutting down.” Angela tells Tom. “You know what he is going to do. He is going to stay in his room hoping this will all go away. Then he will come down and act like he is fine and nothing is bothering him, all the while his anger and feelings are eating him up inside. Finally it will gnaw at him until he does something dumb or his anger explodes.” Tom walks to the stairs to see if he can hear any noise from Blaine's room but it is silent. He returns to the living room and asks Angela, “What should we do? I know he is probably disappointed in us and is not going to come to us for help.” Angela suggests, “Let's give him some more time to get a grasp around what he has learned today. If he doesn't come down in an hour we will go up and talk to him.” Tom embraces Angela and tells her, “We will get through this, no matter what it takes. I promise you.”

Blaine is awakened by a bleeping sound coming from his laptop. Blaine looks at the clock and realizes it must be Kurt calling since they skype every night about this time. Blaine panics because he doesn't want Kurt to see him like this. He quickly comes with an idea. “I'll call Kurt on the phone and tell him I can't talk right now. It won't be a total lie,” Blaine thought. Ignoring his laptop Blaine grabs his phone and calls Kurt. “Hey Kurt, I was going to call you earlier and tell you I can't skype tonight. I'm fine but something has come up and I need to go right now. I'll talk to you later. Love you Kurt, Bye.” Blaine quickly pushes the end button not sure Kurt believed him.

A knock on the door startles Blaine and he drops his phone. “Blaine can we come in, I think we need to talk,” said his Mom. “I'm not ready,” replied Blaine. “I am going to take a shower now. I'll talk to you when I am done,” he says. “Okay, you have 30 minutes and then I expect to see you downstairs ready for dinner and a conversation.” his Mother says “I'll be there,” was Blaine's reply.

Blaine turned on the shower and felt the hot water falling over his body. His head though is spinning with confusing thoughts. “I don't want to talk to them, can't they understand that. What do they want me to say, that I am fine. I'm not fine though. I'm hurt that they lied to me to me for 18 years. How can I trust them now? Do they have more secrets? Maybe they hate me because I am a reminder of what happened, that would explain a lot. They can't love me, I don't love me. They want to know how I feel and I am so confused. I shouldn't be alive. I am a terrible mistake. I need time to think. I need some time!

Blaine begins to panic while showering. He rubs his arms with soap trying to get clean, but even though he is scrubbing his arms he doesn't feel like he's getting clean. He keeps scrubbing his arms even harder as they begin to hurt. Blaine thinks, “I am always going to be dirty now. I'll never be clean again.” He decides he needs to get away. He needs some space to breathe and think. A few seconds later Blaine made the decision. He dries himself off and gets dressed quickly because he has to get out of this house. He packs a small bag with clothes then grabs his keys, wallet, and some hidden cash. He is leaving the world of Blaine Anderson behind because he feels that person no longer exists. He can't go down the stairs because his parents are waiting for him. He opens up his bedroom window. He drops his bag to the ground. “It's not too far,” Blaine hopes as he puts one leg out the window. He grabs the window sill tightly as he pulls his second leg out the window. He hangs for a brief second before he lets go and drops to the ground with a thud. “I'm alive,” he says. Then he immediately feels severe pain coming from his right ankle. “I must have twisted it when I landed on my bag. Man it hurts. I hope it's only a sprain.” Blaine thought.

Angela looked at the clock on the wall. She had given Blaine more than 30 minutes to get down here so she decided to go up and check on him. As she walked up the stairs she called his name but there was no answer. She knocked on his door again and called his name. Again there was no answer. She opened the door and there was no sign of Blaine as she called his name. She noticed his his phone on his night stand and finally saw an open window. Knowing instantly what has happened she screams, “BLLAAAAAIINNE!” She looks out the window and she sees Blaine as he nears his car. She runs after him calling his name.

Blaine was hobbling as fast as he could down the driveway. His ankle was throbbing with each step. He was almost to his car when he heard his Mother's scream. He quickly got in his car and started the engine. He put it in reverse and was out of the driveway heading to who knows where within seconds. He turned his head and looked at his home. He heard and saw his Mother yelling his name, sobbing, and running after him. In his review mirror he saw her stop and drop to the ground. His heart breaking at the sight, “I'm sorry,” he utters as tears roll down his face.

Tom finally catches up with her and wraps his loving arms around her holding her tight. “We'll find him. We'll get him back. He just needs time.” He promises her over and over.