The Consequences of Your Choices

              Chapter 8 – Facing the Past

Blaine is frozen as he sits on the grass under a tree staring at a man who just called him by name.  “Blaine,” the man says again walking a little closer. A startled Blaine quickly gets up and walks backwards until he hits the tree trunk. The other kids move to stand in between the two as one kid says. “Mister, you'd better leave. We don't want any trouble.” Kurt tries to explain. “No, you don't understand, I'm a friend of Blaine's. I came all the way from New York to talk to him. Blaine, say something. Tell them you know me.” Kurt begs Blaine. “Let's go guys. Come on Blaine we need to rehearse before we call it a night.” The leader of the group says as the boys start picking up their things and pulling Blaine with them. They start walking out of the park when Kurt begs one last time. “Blaine, I need to talk to you. I've wanted to talk to you since you were in the hospital. I waited and waited but they wouldn't let me see you.” Blaine looks back at Kurt but keeps walking.

Kurt opens the door to his hotel room and plops down on the bed. His head is spinning as recalls the evening's events. He saw Blaine, he couldn't believe it, but unfortunately Blaine wouldn't talk to him. Kurt stared at the ceiling wondering what to do now. He had flown all the way from New York to talk to Blaine. He thought, “I can't just go back. I came here to talk to Blaine and I am not giving up. Blaine may not want to talk to me but I am going to talk to him whether he likes it or not. A Hummel doesn't give up.” Kurt decides he will write Blaine a letter, that he will hand deliver to Blaine tomorrow. “If Blaine reads the letter then maybe he will finally sit down and talk to me. If he doesn't read it I figure I will at least have some type of closure and I can move on with my life because I will know I tried to fix things.” Kurt thought to himself as he found some paper and a pen and began to write.

Blaine,

   I have tried since the moment I found out you had been injured and were in the hospital in serious condition to get in contact with you. I apologized to you in your hospital room but you probably didn't hear me because you were unconscious. I need to tell you the following …

          After writing the letter Kurt read it three times making sure he included everything he wanted to say to Blaine. He folded the letter and put it inside an envelope. On the outside he wrote Blaine. He kissed Blaine's name before setting it down on the table. Kurt got into bed and went to sleep knowing tomorrow was going to be a very stressful day, the day that would decide his future.

          The Pioneers finished their last rehearsal and Blaine had gone up to his room to think about seeing Kurt. Something Kurt said has been bothering him all evening. “I have wanted to talk to you since you were in the hospital. I waited and waited but they wouldn't let me see you.” Blaine's brain has been spinning in circles trying to decide what these statements mean. Blaine wondered. “Did Kurt really want to talk to me? Who wouldn't let Kurt see me? My Dad told me that Kurt wanted to leave things as they were. I asked my Dad to talk to Kurt for me. He knew I wanted to see Kurt, I needed to see Kurt. My Mom knew I wanted to talk to Kurt. My Mom and Dad wouldn't lie to me, would they? Kurt wouldn't lie to me either, besides he is here and said he wants to talk to me. Sam said he came to my house but my Dad never told me that. Dad kept telling me that the New Directions weren't my friends and I should leave and go to another school. Dad told me to trust him. He told me that he and Mom loved me and would take care of me. Have they been lying to me about everything? Is that why I couldn't get a new phone? They didn't want people to talk to me or me to call them. My parents wouldn't do that. What kind of parents would isolate their child from his friends? They've accepted who I am and my friends. At least they said they did. Did they really though?” Blaine can't think about his parents like this anymore because he knows if it is true his world would shatter into a million pieces and everything that he believes would be a lie. He stands up and starts to walk around the room trying to calm his emotions. “I need to find out the truth.”

A few minutes later Blaine lies back down on the bed and closes his eyes. He tries to get some sleep but his brain won't shut off and the memories of that night in New York start rushing back. He remembers telling Kurt the truth and Kurt telling him to leave. He remembers roses being tossed in his face and walking into a small food store where he felt scared, hurt, and in a lot of pain. Those are the memories he wants to forget but then he remembers something that startles him. It's a foggy memory but he remembers being in a state sleep but wanting to wake up because he hears a voice. It's his Mom's voice telling him to wake up because my friends were coming to see me. I then hear the most beautiful voice float through my head. It's Kurt's voice and he's telling me he's sorry and begging me to wake up so we could talk. He sounds so sad and says it's his fault. Then I feel him touch my hand and I feel at home. I try so hard to wake up because I want to talk to Kurt so much. I want to tell him I‘ll be okay and not to be sad. I try to open my eyes but they are so heavy and my head hurt so badly. Then I hear someone shout. It's my Dad. He's yelling at Kurt and telling him to get out. “No!” I'm screaming so loud my head is about to explode but no one hears me. “Don't go Kurt, I'm here. Don't leave me Kurt.” Finally, I force my eyes to open, but only by a sliver and I see Kurt walk out of the room before the weight of my eyes forces them closed again.

Blaine sits up quickly, breathing deeply, with tears in his eyes. The reality of the truth is hitting Blaine like a brick wall. His parents did keep Kurt away from him. He looks at his watch and sees that it is 6:00 am. He decides to get up and shower because he wants to be ready to go to the auditorium for the Pioneers performance after the phone call he knows he needs to make. An hour later Blaine is dressed, his hair combed and he is ready to go when it's time to leave. He looks at the hotel phone on the night stand and walks over to the bed and sits down. He dials a number he has known for years. It starts to ring and he anxiously waits for the phone to be answered.

“Mom, I have a question I need to ask you and I want you to be honest with me because I need to know the truth.” Blaine tells his Mom. “Blaine, you are making me worry. What is going on?” She asks. “Mom, did Kurt come to see me at the hospital when I was in New York?” Blaine firmly asks. “Blaine, what are you talking about? I don't remember seeing Kurt. When do you go on stage?” She asks trying to change the subject. “Mom, answer my question.” Blaine shouts at his Mother. “Did you know that Kurt came to the hospital to see me when I was hurt? Did you and Dad keep Kurt from seeing me even though you knew I needed to see him, and before you answer you might like to know that I have remembered some things that happened at the hospital?” Blaine says strongly. “Blaine, we only did what we thought was best for you. We needed to get you away from that life style. We are afraid it is going to kill you. We lov…” Blaine slams the phone down not wanting to hear any more. He doesn't need to hear any more because his world has just been shattered into a million pieces that he knows can never be put back together. He simply puts his head in his hands and cries.