It was now late September and Kurt was desperate to hear back from anyone about a role. Soon, he will have been auditioning for three entire months and Kurt just wanted something to show for it. But, there was nothing he could do except continue to show up to auditions. Kurt knew the risks associated with this type of career, such as auditioning for long periods of time and never getting anything or actually getting cast in a show that ends up flopping, but that wasn't going to stop him. Because really, if Kurt had let everything that frustrated him, stop him, Kurt would still be in high school. That's the best thing about Kurt; he will keep working despite all of the bad and negative things that are thrown his way.

Kurt couldn't deny the fact that it got harder when September came. Blaine had to go back to school, so the amount of time the two got to talk had dramatically decreased because Blaine was not able to talk at any time of the day. It was difficult, but they were making it work by texting, calling, and Skyping whenever they had time, no matter how brief the conversation ended up being.

Kurt was spending his night rewatching some of his favorite musicals on his computer. It was rare that Kurt had time for himself due to auditions and work. And when he wasn't doing those, Kurt was trying to talk to Blaine, his dad, Carole, or some of the members of New Directions. The night was very peaceful and relaxing, but half way through "Rent" his phone vibrated.

As Kurt got up to grab it, he wondered who would be texting him. He had just talked to both Burt and Carole last night. Blaine, as well as the current members of New Directions, had rehearsal for the musical. That significantly narrowed down the amount of people that would be texting him.

When Kurt got to his phone, he was surprised to see Rachel was the one texting him.

Hey! I was wondering if you wanted to meet up tomorrow. Maybe we could get something to eat? –R

Well, this certainly came out of nowhere. Kurt hadn't talked to Rachel in several weeks. It wasn't Kurt's intention, but life got in the way. Plus, he didn't want to push things and have Rachel hate him again. Sure, Rachel had gotten made before, but it had never gotten this bad. But now it looked like Rachel had finally come around. Well that, or Rachel had done something so awesome that Kurt could never beat and now she had to rub it in. Although, Kurt was definitely hoping that it was the first option.

I would love to go. Could we meet earlier in the day though? I have to work at 3. –K

That's fine. Do you want to meet me for lunch at noon? –R

Sounds great! –K

Kurt and Rachel agreed on a restaurant before Kurt put his phone away. He tried to focus on the movie again, but he couldn't. Kurt couldn't stop thinking about his lunch with Rachel tomorrow, mostly because he was so unsure about what would happen.

Eventually, Kurt went to bed and fell asleep. The next morning came and Kurt got up and got ready for his lunch with Rachel. Before he left, Kurt also grabbed a bag with his clothes and things for work because he really had no idea how long this lunch was supposed to last. However, Kurt figured that the length would depend on Rachel, what she had to say, and how she decided to react to anything Kurt said. Although, it shouldn't be too bad, unless Rachel was still bitter about Kurt having Catherine. Nothing else exciting had happened. It wasn't as if Kurt had a leading role on Broadway.

After one final look in the mirror, Kurt left his apartment and made his way over to the diner. Just like the last time they met, Rachel was already there waiting for Kurt.

"Kurt!" Rachel said as she got up to give him a hug.

"Hey, Rachel. How are you doing?"

"I'm doing well. Just keeping busy with everything at NYADA. What about you?" Rachel asked politely.

"Just insanely busy and trying to keep myself sane. But NYADA's going well?" Kurt decided that he would rather keep the conversation about Rachel and NYADA for as long as possible in an attempt to avoid Rachel getting made at him again.

"NYADA is good, just a lot of work, but its absolutely incredible. The classes, the professors, just everything."

"Sounds like you are having a great time."

"For the most part, definitely."

"For the most part?" Kurt asked. Hadn't Rachel just said how absolutely amazing NYADA was?

Before Rachel could explain anything, the waiter came by and took their orders. When he left, Kurt asked again, "What do you mean for the most part?"

"Well school and NYADA is great. It's just my living situation."

"I thought that you said that you liked your roommates."

"But then I actually had Tiffany in class."

Kurt was definitely confused now. "I'm not following, Rachel."

"Tiffany is not what I expected. Seriously, she is all of the professor's clear favorite and that gives her a huge advantage," Rachel explained.

"How so?"

"Professors do all of the casting and then there's class itself. Do you have any idea how difficult it is to be in class when the same person gets solos every week?" Rachel asked.

Of course I do, Kurt thought. Kurt was in New Directions with Rachel for three years. Sure, she didn't get every solo, but still, Rachel had an outrageous amount of solos especially if you looked at the amount of solos by the rest of the group.

So now the question was how to tell Rachel that."I can imagine that that would be frustrating."

"It's just that there are other people there in class. We should get a chance to sing something too."

"It will all work out somehow. They wouldn't have accepted you if they didn't think you were talented."

"I know that." Rachel sighed."It's just unbelievably frustrating."

Before Kurt said something he knew he would regret, he changed the subject. "What about your other roommates? How are they?"

"They are fine. It's strange though. Like we live together, but we don't hang out all the time or anything."

"Aren't you all at NYADA?" Kurt asked.

"Yeah, that's part of why we don't spend a ton of time together at home. Everyone is always rehearsing for something, so it's really hard for us to find a time when everyone can do something."

"I would imagine that would be difficult. But how are the classes themselves?" Kurt was curious. He had worked his entire senior year towards NYADA. Now he just wanted to know what the course load was like.

"It's a lot of work, but it's all singing, dancing, and performing. So it always feels like a lot because you have to do so much outside of class. But it is completely worth it."

"Well it sounds like you are having a fantastic time."

"It is. The only thing that would make it better is having Finn here with me."

How was Kurt supposed to respond to that? "Well I can't do anything about that."

Rachel sighed. "I know. And now its been almost four months and nothing has changed. I know I should move on from him, but I just can't. We were supposed to get married! And then he just left me."

"I know and you do have to know that I never supported his decision."

"I know that, Kurt. But its just hard. It's not like he has even made an effort to change things at all. I realize he wanted to do what he thought was right, but I just want to talk to him again. We could have made it work."

Kurt wasn't sure what to say. Could Rachel and Finn have made it? It was a possibility but not a certainty. Rachel and Finn would have had to learn what Kurt and Blaine were still learning. Long distance relationships sound hard, but once you are actually in one, they prove to be even more difficult than you could have ever imagined. "So what are you going to do?"

"I really don't know. My head says leave him and move on, but my heart says wait. I just don't know what to do, Kurt." Rachel looked life she was ready to cry. This was definitely not good.

"Rachel, take a deep breath." Rachel did as Kurt asked. "I can't tell you what to do, but I can give you my advice. If you really think it's meant to be, call him. Contact him in some way. Even if you don't get back together with him, you will at least be talking with him again. If you don't think it's going to work out between the two of you, you are in New York City. There are plenty of other guys. Either way, you will find the right person, Rachel."

Rachel took another deep breath. "You're right, Kurt. I'll try and call him tonight. I'm not ready to give up on him quite yet."

"I understand." Finn and Rachel had been so infatuated with each other that it was almost sickening. Kurt would have been surprised if she would have given up on him so quickly.

"So, what about you?" Rachel asked.

"What about me?"

"What have you been up to?" She really must have been desperate to change the subject, because Rachel was not one to talk about other people, unless she and her life were directly involved. And if they weren't directly involved, she would find a way to make them involved.

"Nothing much. Just work and auditions," Kurt responded simply. He didn't want to make Rachel upset, so simple answers were probably the best way to go.

"Oh. Well I'm sure they are doing great," Rachel said.

Kurt wasn't sure what to make of that reaction. Was Rachel still upset and disappointed that it was Kurt doing auditions and not her? Or was Rachel happy for him but not showing it? Before Kurt could dwell on it too much, Rachel spoke up.

"Look, Kurt. I'm sorry. I really am happy for you. I just didn't really know how to react to the news initially. And it really took awhile for me to understand it and come to terms with it," Rachel said.

Kurt couldn't believe what he was hearing. Rachel was apologizing and it actually sounded sincere. "It's ok, Rachel," Kurt said. "I'm pretty sure I wouldn't have known what to say if I was in your situation."

"But, you're not in this position. Look, I just really miss my best friend. Finn left me. I left you. New Directions all went our separate ways, so we don't all really talk like we used to. I'm here in a city with all these new people and all these new experiences. And really, I just miss all of you guys."

"I miss you too, Rachel."

"And we were supposed to do all of this together. We were supposed to move in to an apartment and go to school together. And now, that's not happening. I'm still happy for you, but I was still supposed to be sharing these New York experiences with my best friend."

"Well," Kurt said. "We can't really go back and change it, but I'm definitely ready to start being friends again if you are."

"Definitely," Rachel said.

"Can I just ask one thing?"

"Sure."

"What brought all of this on?" Kurt asked. "I mean, like why now all of the sudden?"

"I've just been thinking a lot lately. And with all the competition and stuff with Tiffany, it just gets frustrated and I feel like I don't really have anyone to talk to about it. The people I live with are all busy with their NYADA things, so I really don't have anyone. I guess I just realized that I really missed having you around."

"Thanks. I missed having you around too," Kurt said.

Before Kurt or Rachel could say anything else, the waiter brought their food. The two enjoyed the rest of their meal and made conversation just like they used to before all of Rachel's hostility started.

Kurt was definitely happy now seeing as he didn't really have to watch what he was saying around Rachel. She actually seemed to be supportive and questioned him about the auditions, while also asking for advice. Because according to her, if Kurt was talented enough to not get into NYADA, he had to be able to give performing advice that would help her eventually be better than Tiffany.

The meal was great and Rachel and Kurt were friends again. It was almost upsetting for the two when Kurt had to cut their afternoon short so he could get to work on time. It definitely was not fun leaving Rachel now that they were actually getting along again, but Kurt needed rent money until he could actually land a role on Broadway.