Four months. Four months of counseling. Four months of blind journal writing. Four months of Kurt helping Blaine get through his depression. Not one of those months were easy. Not one of those months were fun. Blaine had hurt everyone around him when he had to tell, cooper never knew but he knew his little brother needed more help then he could provide. Lydia understood, she accepted that it wasn't a good time for him to be active in his life. She and him wrote letters every week sent him pictures made sure he knew that despite the past she loved him and wanted to love him more.
Cooper was a different story, he flew Kurt and Blaine to New York every three-day weekend. He was too protective of Blaine, Blaine thought it was annoying but sweet. Every hug was three seconds longer and every word was a compliment. Blaine missed his brother teasing him and calling him a dumb ass. He really wanted to go back to those days but understood why he couldn't.
Kurt was the best boyfriend even when Blaine tried to push him away and just shut down he was always right there. Blaine would try and try, he did everything to stop the feeling and the urges. He snapped a rubber band for a day before deciding that was the stupidest thing in he world. Then he and Kurt drew butterflies, Kurt even made a poster hanging above their room that said ' Just when the caterpillar thought the world was over it became a butterfly.'
Blaine looked at it and kept it in mind every time he saw he butterflies. He wasn't that caterpillar anymore he had a new life. Despite all the hard work Kurt still has Blaine crawling into his bed at night when he can't sleep or is crying. Kurt just holds him whispers how much he loves him and how beautiful he is.
The time passed, some weeks dragged like months and some went by like days. Someday Blaine is singing lead at warbler practice happy laughing with the boys and ignoring Sebastian with sarcastic dignity. Then there were the days that Blaine stayed locked in his room or hid in the weight room working out and boxing his anger and pain away.
The first two months he saw the Dalton counselor every week. He knew Dr Reece last year when they talked about colleges and the future with the junior class. Dr. Reece actually love the warbler and would sneak out of his office to see Blaine perform but everything was so awkward when he had to see him. Blaine felt like he disappointed Reece by not being the boy everyone thought he was. He wasn't good at the whole talking about his feeling to adults, they seemed so certain on thing but didn't know much of anything. Dr. Reece sent Blaine to group therapy twice but it didn't work out eventually Blaine just stopped everything therapy wise.
In four months Blaine was able to get a handle on things his senior year was coming to an end and finally it was as good as it started.

April 7, 2010.
Blaine was studying in the senior Commons when Kurt walked in with a cheerful smile. "Hey boyfriend!" Kurt walked over and sat across from Blaine. Blaine smiled and pulled his attention up to Kurt. "I have a surprise for you," Kurt said taking Blaine’s hand, and leading him down the hall.
"why do I get a surprise today? " Blaine asked nervously.
" well I guess it's more of a awesome boyfriend moment. " Kurt said smiling as he opened the door to the warbler practice room.
Blaine gasped as he saw his best friend Wes standing around with all his other team members. Blaine looked at Kurt, asking how?
" its spring break, and I just asked him to swing by. " Kurt said," go say hi. "
Blaine walked over and Wes looked up smiling wide at his little brother," Blaine I was wondering when you'd make you appearance. " Wes wrapped Blaine in a tight hug and patted his shoulder, " you look good. Is Sebastian around I want to get a picture before time runs away from us. "
" I'm right here. " Sebastian said walking through the door. Blaine hadn't talked to Sebastian since that holiday party unless it was business. With Wes there Blaine actually felt like lying to Wes about them.
Wes patted his pocket for his phone and passed it to Jeff. " do you mind Jeff, " Wes stood in he middle and smiled proud of his bros on his side. The picture was taken and the conversations began.
" so regional is this weekend then spring break what songs are you all singing? " Wes asked Sebastian.
" well we haven't picked a ballad but we are singing okay, it's alright with me, as the big group number. " Sebastian said. Kurt walked over and took Blaine’s side holding his hand.
"Oh come one Seb, give me some details." Wes laughed looking over at Blaine, " will you give me some more."
"I have til this afternoon to pick my ballad and Seb is singing okay, it's alright with me, in a six part harmony. " Blaine said shrugging.
Wes looked between Sebastian and Blaine sensing something was wrong, but didn't say anything.
" do you have any thing now, Blaine? " Sebastian asked.
Wes looked over excited hoping to hear Blaine, " yeah but it's not good enough for regional. " Blaine said. He walked over to the piano and sat his finger melting over the keys with a lengthy introduction. Kurt sat diagonal Blaine as he began to sing..
" I was nurtured I was sheltered, I was curious and young. I was searching for that something is trying to find it on the run Oh and just when I stopped looking I saw just how far I'd come. In this life. "
Kurt Smiled at Blaine, things the last three months were hard. Countless night spent holding Each other crying. Kurt loved this song and for Blaine to sing it made Kurt love it more.
" I have faltered I have stumbled I have found my feet again I've been angry and I've been shaken Found a new place to begin My persistence to make a difference Has led me safe into your hands In this life. " Blaine sung. He changed the tempo of the song bringing it down and looking at Kurt as he sung the last part.
"You give me love You give me light Show me everything that's been happening I've opened up my eyes I'm following Three steps fight and honest fight Two hearts that can start a fire One love is all I need In this Life. " Blaine closed with a strong piano melody before getting around of applause from the room.
" I've missed this. "Wes said mostly to himself.
Sebastian simply shook his head no," its not right for regional, do you have any thing else? "
Blaine locked his jaw and took a breath, " What do you want me to sing Mr. president? "
" not that." Sebastian said. Kurt knew it was coming. Blaine barley showed up to rehearsal as it was and he and Sebastian fought thorough out the meeting.
"why not. I thing it's perfect,"
"its not, the theme this year is connecting with the audience, that doesn't. " Sebastian said. Kurt stood up as Blaine kicked his feet over the piano.
" it speaks directly to the audience your selection doesn't. " Blaine said curtly.
" go to your room and pick another song, rehearsal is at 5. If you don't have one I will pick. " Sebastian said as a final authority.
" you know what. I screw this. I quit. Good luck winning regionals without me. " Blaine walked out of the room followed closely by Wes and Kurt.
" Blaine wait up. "Wes called.
Blaine turned to Wes, "I'm sorry Wes but Sebastian and I aren’t friends anymore and I can't stand to be in a room with him without just wanting to punch his stupid smirking face. "
Wes put his hand on Blaine's shoulders," Did you take it to the basement? When I ran the club that's how every conflict was handled. "
Blaine shook his head, " I'm not in the basement anymore. As far as I know neither is he. " Blaine said.
Wes was shocked, " why? " He asked, but it was him and Blaine who stared it after boxing club got cut, the basement had more members then the new revived boxing club yet Blaine wasn't in either.
" Kurt doesn't want me to, and I don't need to. I'm out of here in two months. Then I've been accepted everywhere I've applied but NYU rumor has it those go out next month. Warblers haven’t been fun since you left. I don't want to waste my time in a place that I'm not appreciated. " Blaine said shrugging. Kurt caught the last half of a Blaine’s rant.
"I get it Blaine, I always have. Personally I loved the performance and think it would be a perfect addition to the set list. This war you and Sebastian are battling in won't last long, and have you sat down and talked to him. " Wes asked.
"no, I haven't and I don't want to. " Blaine said." let's just drop it Wes. I missed you, let's grab lunch and I want to hear all about Harvard."
" alright I'll let it go but I'm going to ask him what happened. " Wes said then looked at Kurt, "you coming as well? I mean it might cut into practice. "
" as much as I would love to go I have homework and Blaine needs some big brother time, and he's cooped up with me all day. " Kurt said smiling. Blaine gave him a hug and a kiss on his cheek, muttering sees you tonight in Kurt’s ear.
Blaine and Wes ate at Wes favorite restaurant conversations flowing between how fun college was and how amazing Kurt is.
Blaine never realized how much he missed Wes, mostly his missed his advice." Sebastian and I haven't talked since December, he um, gave Kurt illegal drugs. I've had that kind of fun with him but Kurt didn't even know. Ever since I haven't talked to him for real or tried to let him apologize. " Blaine took a breath, " am I wrong. Did I overreact? "
" holy shit, Blaine that is so serious, but you didn't tell anyone he can be expected for that. " Wes informed Blaine.
" that's just the thing, as mad as I am at him, I don't want to ruin his future and his life. I don't know. It's frustrating. " Blaine said.
" I understand but if quitting is what keeps you sane then it's the best choice. You have what 37 days til graduation. " at Blaine’s nod Wes continued. "then you face this choice you can try to be Sebastian’s friend again, go home today and talk it out. Or you can leave him out for good and move on to your life with Kurt. "
" thanks Wes. I'm growing up and while Seb is going one direction that I'm just now. Maybe while he is at Columbia and I'm at NYU we'll bump into each other and I will forgive him then but I need my time now. " Blaine said.
" I understand Blaine, " Wes said, " let's get some cheesecake. "
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Kurt was in the room when Blaine came home from dinner with Wes. Blaine lied down right next to Kurt and asked," how was the meeting? "
" sad, boring, lots of yelling and ways to bring you back and to impeach Sebastian. I spent my time studying and thinking about you. " Kurt’s placed a kiss to Blaine tender lips." how was dinner? "
" it was nice, thanks for getting him to come out."
" well I am only the best boyfriend ever." Kurt laughed before Blaine rolled over to get a better angle on him as he kisses him.
Kurt melted away as Blaine’s hands traveled down and around his hips.
Blaine squeezed Kurt’s hip, pulling closer feeling his erection through the thin uniform dress pants. " let's sneak out tonight. Go get a hotel somewhere." Kurt whispered sending shivers down Blaine’s back.
" What about class in the morning? " Blaine pulled away enough to look at Kurt
" screw class I want to make love to you. " Kurt replied. Blaine returned to kissing him while thinking about the offer.
There was a sudden knock at the door making both Kurt and Blaine jump." were you expecting anyone? " Kurt whispered. Blaine shook his head, " who is it? " Kurt called.
" Sebastian, is Blaine there? " both boys grown silently as a Blaine rolled off Kurt and muttered go away under his breath.
" hold on. " Kurt shouted, " Blaine talk to him, I might hate him but you two were good friends before me. Hear him out, I'm going to finish myself off in the bathroom. " Kurt kissed Blaine interrupting Blaine’s protests.
Kurt opened the door," keep it short we were studying. " Kurt said walking out of the room. Sebastian walked in looking at Blaine lying on the bed.
" Hey, "He said Awkwardly breaking the tension in the room.
" what's up Seb? " Blaine asked, the words feeling foreign to Blaine’s mouth.
" Wes being here today reminded me of the good ol' days. I just wanted to talk to you. See how things were. " Sebastian said sitting at the desk.
Blaine sat up and stared at Sebastian, " things have been better, but they have been worse too. "
" I know what you mean, I got a d on that math test yesterday. I lost my tutor and just gave up on studying. " Sebastian said.
" What are you doing Sebastian? " Blaine asked bluntly.
" I fucked up, I get that. Not talking to you is like being in prison. All I do is think about my mistakes and if I could just talk to you I would change everything but instead I tried to be the mad one. I wanted to be the victim Blaine, forgive me. I've been an ignorant douche bag these last four months and that's not what I had in mind for our senior year. " Sebastian said honestly.
" I didn't have this in mind either but you really hurt me. Kurt tells me everything and I was oblivious to us. I thought you were just my best friend I never saw the relationship blooming between us. I now know why you were so upset when Kurt came. If it were the other way around I'd be pretty pissed too. " Blaine sighed, " but I'd get over it. And I eventually become his friends."
" is it too late? I mean, I want to try again. Two months is enough time.. " Sebastian saw the blank look on Blaine's face and new it was too late.
" Did you get accepted into Columbia or Yale yet? "Blaine asked changing the subject.
" just Columbia, you? "
" not Columbia, but I got accepted into, OSU, IU, Chicago Penn State, waiting on NYU though, I hear they come out last. Maybe it's not too late for us. " Blaine said. " there's always New York. "
" new York it is." Sebastian stood up, "so does this mean I'll see you tomorrow at warbler practice? "
" only if I see you at lunch with your math tutor. " Blaine smiled.
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Blaine was wide awake in bed staring at the ceiling, Kurt must have know Blaine was awake because he rolled over in the tiny bed and placed his hand over Blaine’s abdomen. " why are you still up?" Kurt asked sleepily.
" I have a lot on my mind, I can't seem to fall asleep. " Blaine said taking Kurt’s hand in his. "You go to sleep though, I don't want to keep you up."
"tell me what's on your mind, maybe if you get it out you will fall asleep. " Kurt said ignoring Blaine’s previous comment.
" high school is just about over what happens next? I'm kind of afraid. " Blaine mumbled.
"You're brilliant Blaine," Kurt said. " college is going to be the most fun of your life. You will fit into well."
"that's not what I'm afraid of, I'm afraid of us. What if we get to New York and you meet someone new. I've never loved someone else before. "
" doesn't mean you have to start. Blaine, just because high school is over doesn't mean our relationship is as well. "Kurt said. He rubbed Blaine’s chest absently and spoke," I think about what will happen in five years and I just see us. It doesn't matter if we are homeless or presenting awards at the Tony's. We will be together, that's all that matters to me. Besides I've never loved anyone else either and I don't want to start. "
Blaine hugged Kurt closer to him and kissed his forehead. " I think I can sleep now. "
" good, "Kurt muttered and closed his eyes falling asleep minutes later.