Nov. 7, 2012, 2:49 p.m.
Kill My Darling: The Pages Of My Letters
M - Words: 843 - Last Updated: Nov 07, 2012 Story: Closed - Chapters: 19/? - Created: Mar 27, 2012 - Updated: Apr 13, 2022 459 0 4 0 0
My best man. You're the reason for my success and failure. We have been through a lot, and above all you have always been there for me. You have been a great friend, but I have priorities, it wasn't until I saw Kurt in that hospital room I realized that he and I haven't lived the way we should have, or at least planned to. I will put this album out through gncecco but after that I'm retiring. Its time that Kurt and I started a family. You won’t see me for a while which is really shity on my part especially with all I have already done and what I'm ready to record. Put out Coming Clean as is, and I want it to be you to confirm the fact that I am in rehab; here are my room recording of other songs for the album. I'm sorry man, but this is the right choice.
Blaine
Burt
You are right, you always have been. If I really love Kurt I wouldn't put him through all this. But you have to believe me I wasn't thinking about anyone else but my self. Kurt and I do talk about my problems and he always said We will get through this, but he has nothing to get through. Its all me. I am on my way to rehab right now. So when I come back I would love to marry Kurt if he'd still want that. But more, I want you to give him away. I have made a lot of mistakes in my life but none of them were deliberately to hurt Kurt. Please forgive me.
Blaine.
Rachel
Hiya big sister... I have messed up so much in the last few years. But you are always on my side. I remember when Mercedes said you and I were secretly brother and sister. It was a joke that turned into a reality after Coop died. You saved me from myself so many times and I'm sorry that this isn't in person but I know if I don't leave for rehab now I will ruin things and make it so much worse then it already is. I know you will be waiting for me to come home with a wide smiling face and something yummy in the oven. Speaking of in the oven you should get pregnant. Her name will be Lindsey, but the small chance it’s a boy name him Damien. But I'm sure you will have the girl, Quinn will have the boy. I will see you soon sissy. Take care of Kurt. And every day remind him that I love him.
Blaine
Carol.
I remember being in and out of the hospital when I was in middle school for my mom’s breast cancer. It was hard to see her like that and senior year doing it all over again with my dad was too much. I watched my parents die in the hospital. Now I feel like I'm there all the time and now I'm just waiting for someone to leave me again. I was almost sure it would be Kurt; I couldn't watch the light fade out of his eyes... Please forgive me. You have been here for me for far too long to not see any change in me. You're hard work was not in vain, I'm checking myself into a rehab in Ann Arbor. You were right to want to protect Kurt, especially from me but I'm going to comeback a changed man. And I only beg that you can forgive me and we can restore the relationship I broke. You truly are a mother to me. I will see you soon.
Blaine.
Darling,
Do you remember how we decided that meant I love you? You were talking about old couples and after 50 years everything becomes dear or darling. I laughed and said after so many years of I love you darling is just enough to explain you love. A lot has changed since that day. I have changed. I haven't been worthy of your love and walking away from you this morning was the hardest thing to do in my life. I knew if I stayed I would disappoint you, and our family, mom and dad included. Don't be mad at them for telling us the truth. I'm going to rehab. I have been thinking about going all year. I never did because I can't phantom living without you. But seeing you there, I worried that if I didn't get my self together, you would leave me, or I would leave you. They always say absence makes the heart grow stronger. I won’t be mad if you cheat on me; Things happen... but know I'm doing this for us. Because when I return everything will be better. Let’s get a new house, on a new side of town. After Coming Clean, I'll retire the music biz, become a piano teacher. Details don't matter now. I can't wait to see you again. We are going to be amazing, Kurt. I just have to fix myself first.
Darling I'll never let you go.
Blaine
Comments
I may have cried a little. I'm so glad he's getting help. I love this
I cried a little while writing this...
My oh my... I've just read the whole story, although it's late and I should be sleeping right now...I love your drug-addict Blaine ;) You described it so well. But I'm hoping he'll get through rehab. Kurt will help him. And I also think if he shows that he is willing to change, Burt and Carol will help him, too.I was angry when they wanted to throw him out of the room an - well out of Kurt's life, but wel.. it helped a lot or at least it seem to be helping.Go on!!
Ive been there, "3 in the morning, Fanfiction is way more important then school or work, plus there are only three more chapters to read." Im glad you enjoyed this so much. and i will update soon i just write a lot of stories at once and forget about others. but I am very very happy that this made you.... emotional. Thank you.