Feb. 12, 2012, 10:10 a.m.
In Another Life: In Another Life
K - Words: 2,334 - Last Updated: Feb 12, 2012 Story: Complete - Chapters: 2/2 - Created: Feb 10, 2012 - Updated: Feb 12, 2012 1,026 0 2 0 0
“Quinn can you listen and not interrupt because I need to say this all together.” Blaine took her hand in his and pressed a soft kiss to her for hand. She put her hand on his face and gazed into his eyes.
“Of course Blaine tell me what’s wrong.” Quinn looked at him. He took a second to gather his wits. Just looking at the way their hands folded over each other made him regret this.
“I love you and I’ve never loved a girl the way I love you. But I’m not in love with you.” Quinn's face fell as she let go of Blaine's hand. He took a deep breath and turned away from her face, he could literally see her heart break in the soft green tint on her eyes. “And I think its because ... I’m gay.” Blaine's voice broke and he sniffled before continuing, he found focus on the chipped tile in the floor and spoke to Quinn, trying not to lose all composure. “Its not your fault, I think I have always felt this way but it wasn’t until I met Kurt I realized it. I spent the last few days thinking of a way to tell you this without breaking your heart. And I decided the truth is the best way to go. Quinn I am doing this to set you free. You deserve the best because you are the best. I wish I could explain my feeling to you but it's all so confusing. I promised you when we started dating last year that I would never cheat on you the way Finn did. And that is why I’m also doing this. Kurt and I get coffee every day and I just got feeling for him suddenly. I don’t know if this makes me gay or bi but you will always have a place in my heart." Blaine looked up at her and saw she too was staring at the tile, her cheeks were streaked with mascara runs, she turned himself to face her, "You can talk now.” Blaine whipped the tear that was frozen on her cheek. Her mouth parted then closed. She licked her lips and turned to face Blaine.
“I need to think about this. It's overwhelming.” Quinn stood grabbing her bag and running out the room.
Quinn got home and ran to her room. She stayed locked up in her bedroom all night crying her mother knocked for her twice, both times Quinn ignored her. She laid fighting a battle with in herself. She and Blaine have known each other since they were kids and she never thought of him as being gay. Sure, he played Barbie's with her while their mothers held purse parties. As they grew up Blaine never made the first move to do anything. And he was never into the sports the way Quinn was. They stayed friends for so long Quinn doesn’t want to believe it. Quinn can still smell Blaine on her pillow when he was here the day before. The tears didn’t stop when she wondered if that was why they never had sex. She some how fell asleep through all the sobbing and woke up the next morning exhausted.
Quinn got dressed swiftly for work, and ran out of the house before her mother could ask any questions. As she drove down he street to a Lima Animal Shelter she began to get angry, she wanted to yell to the world that her boyfriend left her for another man. She felt like a Politician's wife. Than then it clicked. She and Blaine don’t have to break up. She will be his beard for the rest of senior year. She won't lose an amazing friend; and she will still win Prom Queen as most popular and prettiest girl in school, dating head Thespian. She pulled into the shelter and froze when she saw Kurt. She was glad she didn’t pick up Breakfast because she would have thrown it all up. she completely forgot that they work together. She couldn’t stand to look at him, because she felt guilty. Guilty that she wanted to keep Blaine from him. Hide Blaine from the world because he was hers. Not Kurt's, not the NYU theater recruiter who want to take him away from her and Yale, not Rachel's no matter how many plays they did together or duets they received.
Quinn walked into the kitten room and began to feed the little ones. Kurt walked into the small room and smiled at Quinn, she turned her direction to the kitten and prayed that he wouldn’t say anything.
"Hey Quinn, I was wondering if you wanted anything for lunch?" he asked very softly, she saw him in the reflection his hands tucked into his back pockets looking as confused as possible. Quinn turned around and stared at him. Kurt was Rachel's theater friend that joined glee this year. He ruined her whole life because he was beautiful as she was. It was uncomfortable to look at him.
"No, I'm not feeling well," Quinn spit out trying to sound nice but sounding more like she was in pain. She squatted down to place the kitten back in her cage and picked up her twin brother then sat to feed him. Kurt turned around to opened the door but before he did he turned back to Quinn.
"Did I do something wrong?"
Quinn pondered this question for a moment. Of course not. Kurt is the nicest boy she has ever met aside from Blaine. He never says a mean thing to any member in the New Directions. He was bullied so bad freshmen and sophomore year for being gay and she would stand up for him when the opportunity showed itself but she never bothered to get to know him. Partly because he was Rachel's GBF, and Quinn hated the man steal hobbit. That gave her no reason to hate Kurt. It just gave her no reason to befriend him either.
And now Blaine is getting to know him, and Quinn didn't like that, because it's like everyone she loves leaves her for someone else. She wanted to hate him but looking up at those blue eyes she saw what Blaine saw in him, "No. Kurt, you didn’t, I'm just not doing well today."
Kurt gave Quinn an apologetic smile, "I hope things change for you. If you need to vent I'm in the grooming room after lunch." With that in the air he left.
It was always harder to hate some one when they were as nice as Kurt.
Sunday was a dull day, it went by so fast Quinn was shocked when the sun was setting and she hadn't even bothered with her Calculus homework.
It was late when Blaine called. “Hi Quinny,” Blaine said softly.
“Hey,” she said weakly. Quinn didn't want to talk to him just hearing his voice was making her crumble.
“I’m sorry,” Blaine started.
“No Blaine don’t,” Quinn cuts him off. “I love you and I saw Kurt yesterday and things were weird because I am jealous because he will be loved more then me.... By you. I want to fight for you because you're worth it. But Kurt deserves you because I will find love again but Blaine, I watched Kurt go through hell last year. And I need him to happy,”
“Thank you Quinn.” Blaine said. He didn’t understand where that cam from but he was grateful she said it.
“I’m going to bed. Night Blaine,” Quinn hung up and began to cry again.
The school day was strenuous. Quinn skipped her History class that she shared with Blaine and sat in the library thinking of a way to talk to him and Kurt without outing them. She had a change of heart last night and she knew that she didn’t want to throw the boys under the bus and that is exactly what glee will do. She knew she had to take the blame for the break up, and without realizing it she found the perfect song to reflect her feeling about the situation.
The dismissal bell queued the New Directions into the choir room for practice at nationals. Blaine walked in when Quinn was already there, he looked at her hoping to get some kind of reaction he smiled at her, she was sitting memorizing lines and didn’t even notice him walk in. His face fell as he took the seat on the top row and watched couple by couple float into the room. Whispers and murmurs filled the room when they saw that Quinn and Blaine were sitting quite a distance apart. Kurt came in last and took the seat diagonal from Blaine. He kept giving wishful glances up to Blaine but they were wasted. Blaine didn’t even want to be there anymore.
Mr. Schuester walked in with his bag slung over in his shoulder and he stopped at the piano to get situated. Quinn stood and patted her white dress down taking cautious steps to Will and asked if she could sing a song before assignment is given. Will approves and he steps into his office as Quinn talks. “I have a song to sing to...” Quinn took a breath and shook her head, "I'll sing it then address the topic its concerning."
She turned to the band and nodded to them as Brad began to play the piano softly. Quinn looked up at Blaine and started, "I have known you my whole life, When you were ten, you said you’d make me your wife," her voice cracked as a guitar began to play with the piano. " Eight years later you won me over. Just as I took the world on my shoulders."
"I got used to living without you, Endless phone calls and dreaming about you. Always said that you were my man to be. But I guess I was in love with your memory." The cymbals cling together and Quinn takes a ragged breath. "You know I love you, " she stared directly at Blaine, his mouth fell open and he was on the verge of tears. " I really do," Quinn ended on a high note.
She then traced her eyes down a step and looked at Kurt, "But I can’t fight anymore for you, And I don’t know, maybe we’ll be together again" she looked back to Blaine, " Sometime, in another life. In another life."
The glee kids began to look at Blaine and Quinn with confusing looks. Tina even found tears brewing at the brim of her eyes. The drums began to play softly keeping a beat with Quinn who turned her face from Blaine to stop the sadness from effecting her performance. " I know I said that I would keep my word. I wished that I could save you from the hurt, But things will never go back to how we were." Quinn held her note, she shook her head, " I’m sorry I can’t be your world."
"You know I love you, I really do," she showed all her emotions in her face, her eye brows crinkled up and her eyes shut trying to keep a steady voice to hold the not. the whole band continued giving the song a rock edge. "But I can’t fight anymore for you. And I don’t know, maybe we’ll be together again Sometime, in another life In another life. Another life " The electric guitar and the drums collaborated to as Quinn looked at Finn and Rachel then back up to Kurt and Blaine.
"The way you’re holding on to me, Makes me feel like I can’t breathe. Just let me go, just let me go. It just won’t feel right inside. God knows I’ve tried." She paused as brad played the piano undisturbed.
"You know I love you, you know I do," she sucked a breath in, "But I can’t fight anymore for you. And I don’t know, maybe we’ll be together again, Sometime, in another life." The band played again and Quinn sung hard. "In another life, in another life In another life." The band stopped one instrument at a time leaving the piano to play softly as everyone in the room was confused or in tears.
Blaine stood up and stepped down from his chair and embraced her in a tight hug. Quinn forced her self to stop crying, she cried all weekend. It was done. This song was a way to prove it. Blaine let her go; he returned to his seat, Kurt grabbing his hand and giving him a squeeze of reassurance.
“You two broke up?” Rachel said slightly confused about their sudden embrace and Quinn's song. Which was more confusing then the hug in the end.
“Yes Blaine and I broke up. But I don’t want anyone to worry about us because it was what I wanted and Blaine let me go so please respect my wishes and don’t question us.” Quinn moved her seat up one row to sit by Kurt his eyes were wide and worried some she gave him a soft hug and a kiss on his cheek then whispered very softly. “Protect him.”
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I really love this :) A follow up would be awesome! *hint hint* (; xxx
I'm glad you liked it! I will get started on the follow up for it right away(: