"Kurt? Are you okay?"

Blaine is only half awake, but he got woken up by a soft sobbing sound. He blinks and forces himself awake, rubbing his eyes and turning to lay on his side. The small figure next to him is shaking slightly. Sobs are muffled in the pillow.

"Kurt? Babe, look at me."

This is the first night that Kurt is back from the hospital. Blaine promised he could sleep one night with him in his own bed, before he starts at the clinic they picked. That way, Kurt can also help pick the stuff he wants to take with him the next morning. Blaine is a bit unsure about it all, but he promised himself he won't let Kurt talk him out of it.

The fragile boy lifts his head slightly and turns it to look at Blaine. Even in the dark, Blaine can see the blue eyes are a bit red and watery. He reaches for Kurt's face and wipes the tears from the soft, pale cheeks. Once again, Kurt reminds him of a beautiful, porcelain doll. With his pale skin and bright eyes, slightly flushed cheeks and flawless features.

Blaine leans in and presses a soft, loving kiss on Kurt's lips. The boy whimpers softly and closes his eyes.

"Talk to me, Kurt. Are you scared?"

The boy nods and bows his head. Blaine smiles slightly and brushes his fingers through the soft, chestnut hair. He's trying to teach himself to touch Kurt in ways that don't make him too uncomfortable. He only hugs the boy if Kurt comes to him first. He doesn't want to do anything that might make it worse.

"I don't want to go, Blaine. They'll make me eat. What if I get fatter? You'll never want to pick me up again."

Blaine blinks and shakes his head, fighting hard against the urge to wrap Kurt up in his arms. He reminds himself that Kurt has to hug him first. Only then he's allowed to touch him like that. It's hard and takes a lot of self-control, though.

"No, baby. Look at me. Good. Now, listen to me. You're going there for yourself, okay? Not for me, for you. Because you deserve so much more than this and I want you to be happy. I know it might never go away for a hundred percent, but every step is progress and we need to start right now, okay?"

He lifts Kurt's chin and kisses his lips, staying there a bit longer than he planned. God, it had been months. His eyes widen slightly. No, no, why is he getting hard?

"Blaine.. Are you okay?"

"Yeah. Yeah, I'm fine. Just try to sleep, alright?"

"Okay.. Will you.. hold me?"

Bad timing, Kurt. How is he going to get out of this?

"I think that.. might get a bit awkward, babe.."

Kurt's eyes widen and there's a hint of hurt in the bright blue.

"You don't want to hold me?"

Blaine groans and closes his eyes for a second. Then he shakes his head and carefully wraps his arms around the thin boy. Kurt snuggles up against his body, even though he keeps his arms wrapped around himself. It takes a moment, until Kurt feels it.

"Blaine.. Are you..?"

"Yeah.. So.. I understand if you-"

"Do I have to.. help you?"

Blaine blinks and blushes, his body already reacting eagerly.

"Kurt.. That's not necessary.."

Kurt looks away for a moment, before looking into Blaine's eyes again.

"I think I want to.."

"O-Okay.."

Blaine feels both excited and confused. He hadn't expected Kurt to want anything sexual for a long time. Then again, he was just offering to help get Blaine off now, so that wouldn't be very different from before. He tries to relax as he lays down on his back, Kurt's hands slipping underneath his T-shirt and stroking his stomach, before moving down and pushing down his underwear.

Suddenly, the long, thin, cold fingers are wrapped around his erection. A soft moan escapes his lips. It really has been too long. Kurt's mouth is somewhere at his hip, kissing, licking and nuzzling the skin. Blaine is torn between closing his eyes for more sensation and keeping them open to watch Kurt. Those images might be useful to remember for while Kurt is away.

Kurt starts to move his hand, softly pumping his cock, driving Blaine insane.

"Oh God.. Kurt.. Don't.. Don't tease me like that.."

There's a mischievous smile on Kurt's lips when the boy looks up at his blushing boyfriend. For just a moment, everything feels like before. Before Kurt got sick, before there were issues with body contact. When they had sex almost every day, because they were finally alone and no parents could come home or walk in. The only thing holding them back being the fact they liked being able to walk normally. Blaine misses that time.

He doesn't get much time to think, though. Because Kurt's touch is getting more secure and serious and Blaine has to close his eyes, while the pleasure rushes through his body. It feels so good to be with Kurt like this. To be touched by the only person who's allowed to see and touch him.

It's as if Kurt can read his mind.

"Don't cheat on me, while I'm gone.. Please.. Don't be with someone else."

Blaine has to think hard to come up with correct sentences, while his breathing turns into needy panting.

"I won't.. I don't.. Ah.. I don't want anyone else.. Nh! Kurt.. I want for you to.. - Fuck.. - get better.. Because I.. love you.."

There's lips on his belly, then in his neck, soft breaths being breathed out against his hot skin. Kurt's mouth is hungrily marking his body, teeth are sinking playfully into his skin, not deep enough to hurt. Blaine feels like he's in Heaven. And he's so, soclose.

"Fuck.. Kurt.. I'm close.. Feels so good.."

The hand speeds up again and within a seconds, his vision goes white. He can barely breathe, but it feels so good. Hot, sticky fluid ends up on his stomach, chest and shirt. Some even hits his face. Kurt slips out of bed and returns with some tissues. He lovingly cleans Blaine up, who's still out of breath. He's also really tired.

"You okay?"

"Hmm.. Kurt.."

He's half asleep again, when he notices the shifting next to him. He forces his eyes open and watches Kurt, who's rubbing himself against the mattress, moaning softly. Blaine curses inwardly, because 1) it's hot 2) he feels selfish now and 3) he's not sure if he's allowed to touch Kurt right now. He decides to just break his own rule and climbs on top of Kurt, after turning him around. The boy stares at Blaine with wide, blue eyes.

"Let me take care of you, beautiful. I want you to remember me and how much I love you, while you're there, okay?"

Kurt nods, his body trembling slightly, his arms still wrapped around his body.

"Can you let go, baby?"

Kurt blinks and looks at his arms. He bites his lip, but then slowly removes his arms from around his stomach. He's trembling.

Blaine softly takes Kurt's thin wrists in his hands and lays his arms down, softly stroking the skin. Then he lifts up Kurt's shirt a bit. The boy freezes underneath him.

"Breathe, baby. It's just me. It's just Blaine."

He presses a soft kiss on the naked skin of Kurt's exposed stomach. The boy still isn't relaxed.

"Do you want me to stop?"

Kurt shakes his head.

"No.. Can I just.. keep my sweater on?"

"Sure.. Sure, baby.."

Blaine turns to the boy's pyjama pants, slowly sliding them down, revealing the long, thin, pale legs. Kurt pulls them up a bit, but relaxes again when Blaine moves up to kiss his lips. He slips down Kurt's boxers without looking at the area at all, to make his boyfriend feel more comfortable. Kurt smiles weakly, thankful.

Blaine continues kissing Kurt, who luckily responds and returns the kiss, whimpering softly when their tongues meet. When he pulls away, Kurt's eyes are slightly blown with lust. It's the hottest thing in the world. Apart from seeing Kurt coming undone underneath or above him. And Kurt taking care of him. If you know what I mean.

He pulls up the blankets, covering both of them, while he moves down, pulling the blankets over his head. Kurt shifts a bit uncomfortably, but instantly reacts when Blaine takes him in his mouth. He can hear Kurt moaning softly, so he continues to lick and suck, while Kurt's legs start to tremble uncontrollably. Thin fingers tangle themselves up in his curls, pulling his hair slightly.

"Blaine.. Blaine.."

Blaine pulls back for a second, to ask if it's okay, but Kurt's fingers push him back down.

"M-More.."

Kurt sounds so needy and breathless, Blaine is scared he might get a problem again. He decides to just try to finish it quickly, to make things less awkward for himself. So he starts to suck harder, flicking his tongue around the head of Kurt's cock, taking him in deeper.

"Blaine.. Blaine.. I'm gonna.. Nh.."

Blaine smiles, not pulling back, but stroking Kurt's thighs along with his sucking. This seems to work perfectly, because within a few seconds, Kurt is coming in his mouth. Blaine swallows it all and moves back up to kiss Kurt. The boy makes a soft noise that is a mixture between disgust and surprise. Blaine ends the kiss and looks into Kurt's misty, blue eyes.

"I love you, Kurt."

"Love you, too.. Blaine.."

Blaine smiles and presses a kiss on Kurt's forehead. Then he helps the boy back into his underwear and pants, before putting his own underwear back on. He wraps his arms around Kurt again and falls asleep with Kurt pressed tightly against his body for the last time in the coming few months.