Parker trudged through the cold, opening the hospital door slightly. It was the middle of the night and the moon shone beautifully in the November sky. He had just been kicked out of his house by his husband, or ex-husband. He couldn't really understand why he was so mad, it wasn't like him and Blaine had actually had sex, and it didn't mean anything to Parker, absolutely nothing. The doctor slipped behind the front desk and grabbed his card. The hospital was very empty, most of the doctor's slept in apartments supplied by hospital itself, the only place he knew he could go was to Blaine's room; the place that held the one thing that had made him homeless in the first place, still, it was a place, with a bed and someone to talk to.

The doctor opened the door slightly and looked in. Blaine was laying on his back, left hand under his head, and his other one dipping under the waistband of his very loose looking jumpsuit pants. Parker sighed in pleasure and Blaine looked up, shocked, a blush spreading across his face and he stopped the motion and glared in the doctor's direction. He slid his hand out of his underwear and got up, greeting the doctor; he was in a very good mood tonight and Parker noticed.

"What are you doing here?" He asked lowly. "I'm not imagining things right?" He sighed, poking Parker's chest and giggling. For some reason the touch that wasn't supposed to feel intimate made Parker's chest and space in his jeans tighten. Parker couldn't speak when he leaned down and captured the patients dry and shocked lips into his own. The doctor knew this would just make things worse with Sebastian but they were getting divorced right? and he needed someone tonight, more than he ever had and Blaine had just been there at the moment his heart had given out on him. Blaine held the kiss for a few moments before feeling absolutely guilty.

"Dr. Smythe....." Parker looked at Blaine in surprise, he didn't know if Blaine had called him anything from the beginning except for his actual name and the sudden change tone scared him a bit. Blaine pressed their chests together and chuckled lightly and Parker kissed his forehead. He couldn't do this to his brother but he was extremely lonely and it was getting to him, so he let go, let go of anyone else's feelings but his own; it was about time he started living for himself and no one else; because everyone else would just hurt him like his family did. Blaine pushed Parker against the wall, kissing the soft, cold flesh under his jawline. The doctor made a noise of pleasure and Blaine continued, grabbing the back of Parker's sweater and leading him over to the bed and pulling him ontop of him. It happened fast, Parker slid off his sweater, then his shirt and Blaine followed, slipping out of his jumpsuit and kicking it down to the bottom of the bed. Parker palmed Blaine's erection through the soft fabric of his boxers.

"Parker......" he breathed, bucking his hips forward, wanting it more and more each time Parker dragged his hand along the needy ache of Blaine's penis. Parker bent down and captured Blaine's lips before moving his mouth slowly over his cheek and down along his neck and shoulder, kissing long wet kisses against the soft skin of Blaine's chest. He let out a loud moaned when Parker licked his erection slowly and lovingly. It had never occured to Blaine how good it felt or how lonely he actually was until they were both nude and wanting.

"Are you sure?" Parker asked, pushing the head of his erection close to Blaine's ass. He smiled gently and shook his head and remembered Kurt's words.

-Flashback-

"Blaine I feel horribe, your laying here almost dead and today I ate like a pig and laughed... I feel like it's my fault, you looked so upset when I told you I was getting married to Sam that it hurt so badly. My heart ached so badly for you because I missed you so much, I still miss you, and I want to be with you I do...so badly but Sam was here first ya' know? you've always been the fair player and you've settled for so much Blaine... I hate that your father never visits you and I hate that you can't hear this... but that's probably why I'm unloading on you, because you can't hear me... Remember when we sang that Christmas duet in the senior commons the first Christmas we spent together?" Kurt smiled and laughed. "You were in the christmas special, and you said that I was better than that girl was going to be? or when we saw R.E.N.T together? that meant the world to be Blaine and I would give anything for you to be awake right now so I could tell you all this and we could run into each other's arms again..." he laughs but doesn't notice Blaine's eye open and a small smile spread across his lips. "I love you Blaine, I just ... this is hard for m-" Kurt looked up and saw it; Blaine's eyes were shut, and the smile evidant on his face. He smiled at Blaine and debated on kissing him at that moment but refrained; he was still with Sam.

-end-

"No... I don't want this...." Blaine said, looking up sadly at Parker who nodded in understnading. He knew that Blaine would back out at the last minute; virgins always did, especially when they weren't in love with the person that was about to take something precious from them. He forced a smiled, and flopped down beside Blaine. He pulled up his underwear and smiled at Parker. He was still aching to be touched but he couldn't do it to Kurt, even if there wasn't any hope for the two of them getting back together. He curled up on his side and Parker pulled him close their bodies touching together slightly and making both boys shiver.

"So why did you come here?"

"Sebastian and I got into an argument.... he wants a divorce...." Parker's laugh was bitter, he knew that his brother meant the world to Parker and now he just felt like an even bigger idiot for telling Sebastian about them.

"I'm sorry Parker.... I told him...." Parker smiled slightly, he had figured that Blaine had told Sebastian and to be honest, he was more proud and content with Blaine telling him than he should have been.

"It's okay sweetheart..... this week has been super hard on you....with Kurt and everything, you should just rest, don't worry about me..." Blaine gave a smile before cuddling closer to Parker's chest and clutching onto his shirt before he fell asleep silently, dreaming of Kurt. Parker followed shortly behind, falling into a deep, restless sleep.

The next day went by quickly, as soon as Parker was in it seemed he had to leave and he was completely exhausted from both fighting with the office on getting him an apartment, and his thought bugging him and nagging him to go home to Sebastian and make up and apologize but his Hummel pride wouldn't let him, he knew that he should but he just couldn't. He was too embarassed in himself for doing what he had done. Parker got up from the chair beside Blaine's bed and didn't notice his card fall out of his pocket as he got up, he also didn't notice how he forgot to shut the door on his way out. Blaine sighed and got up, picking up his blanket and shaking it out, something fell to the ground.

"What the hell....?" Blaine said outloud, bending over and picking up the small card in his hands. It was Parker's clocking card; Blaine smiled slightly and made a decision he would probably regret, but the ache in his heart couldn't care less, he knew he just needed to see him and prove to him he was better than Sam.

Parker laid down on his cot and sighed slightly, remembering everything that had happened in the last few hours. He and Blaine had talked about him and Kurt, they had almost made love, and Sebastian wasn't answering his phone calls. He turned over slightly and looked at the clock. It was around eight on Sunday and he felt like complete crap. He debated a few time during the day to take a day or two off because he needed the sleep and time to clear his head. Suddently his phone buzzed and the hospital's number showed up, followed by his pager going off. He flipped his phone open and answered it. A distressed voice came over the phone, the other doctor was terrified and it showed in his voice.

"Chase! Calm down! What's wrong?" He said, putting on his shoes and running out the door. He knew something bad had happened but he didn't know exactly what.

"It's Blaine..." Parker's heart sunk; another suicide attempt? " He ran away, or something, he's not in his room Parker.....He could be dead right now for all we know!" Parker ran faster, swining open the hospital doors and running up to Chase who closed the call and led him down to Blaine's room. Parker peered in, Blaine was no where to be seen. He walked further into the room and noticed his drawers had been empty and he started to panic; how did he even get out? The doors in the hospital didn't open from the inside. He ran his hands through his hair and ordered Chase to call their families; they had to find him quickly.

Blaine limped down the street; his first time was not supposed to be like that. It wasn't supposed to be forced on his by some drunk guy just wanting to get off, but unfortunately, that's how it happened. Blaine was having another episode and was curled up in the corner of a dark parking lot when it happened, the guy came closer and forced it on him. He cried harder and fell down, unable to walk anymore when he saw his own blood dripping down his leg; he didn't know if that was even normal for him to bleed that much. He caught himself by the palms and looked at them with blurry vision. After he had calmed he got up and walked a little faster, hoping to get out of the cold. His shirt was thin and striped in black and white, he was only wearing a small pair of capri pants that he had in his drawer back at the hospital from a summer visit to his family's summer house in North Carolina. He needed to get away from the cold nipping and trying tp peirce his own skin. When he limped into a familiar place, he smiled a bit, looking over the stage and the rows of chair; the place that Kurt performed in their sectional competition and won.

Kurt searched frantically for Blaine, he was worried to the point of tears and just wanted to hold his ex-boyfriend close and let him cry or better yet, have his ex-boyfriend hold him while he cried. Kurt hadn't realized how much he missed the boy until he couldn't have him anymore. He sat down on the bench outside the hospital, waiting for his older brother and the rest of the Hummel-Anderson Union to get back from their searches.

"Did you find him?" Parker asked out of breath.

"Nope....How about you Mr. Anderson? Mrs. Anderson?" Kurt asked as the couple and their children walked up with them. They all shook their heads no and sighed. This was going to be a long night and when Kurt's parents rolled up in their car, Kurt finally knew where Blaine would be. Without asking he grabbed his father's keys, got into the car and drove away, ignoring the protests of his father. Kurt blasted the music and sung along for the long, two hour dirve back to Lima to keep the butterflies in his stomach away and out of trouble. He needed to stop worrying, Blaine was a grown boy and he would be fine when Kurt found him. He parked his car and got out, looking at the opened door and smile slightly as he heard feet banging against the stage in the auditorium followed by Blaine's amazing singing voice. He felt a tear drip down his cheek as he walked in and watched his ex for a moment before making his presence known, Blaine looked behind him shocked to see Kurt.

" Hey...."

"I...Kurt.. how'd you find me?" He asked, eyes glistening with emotion.

" I know you Blaine "

" I know you do...." Blaine said, walking up to Kurt and hugging him tightly, starting to cry as he held onto Kurt as if his knees were about to give out on him and Kurt was the only one that could keep him upright.

"It wasn't supposed to happen like that Kurt..... he wasn't supposed to take my innocense you were...." Kurt looked confused at the shorter boy and kissed the top of his head; what kind of nonsense was he on about?

"What's wrong Blaine?"

"I....I was raped Kurt...... I'm sorry for letting you down, you were supposed to be my first and I...i..." He sobbed loudly into Kurt's chest for awhile, letting the closeness of Kurt calm him down when his body was ready. When he had calmed down and let go of Kurt he looked deep into blue and lost it again, wanting so badly to kiss him passionately and let him take the pain away.

" Do you feel it in there Kurt? about Sam...." He asked, placing his hand on Kurt's and putting it next to his heart.

" Do I love him?"

" Yes....do you?...."

" Yes Blaine, I do love him... I'm sorry"

" it's okay... I "

" but I'm not inlove with him..." Kurt said, smiling and bit and bringing the younger boy closer to his body.

" What does that mean Kurt....?" Blaine asked confused at what the difference between loving and in love with a person meant.

" It means I'm in love with you and wanna be with you smartass..." Blaine laughed, his head dropping slightly. Before he could respond Blaine did what both had been craving since they had met again at the Anderson's house. He closed his lips gently against Kurt's and sighed into the kiss, Kurt pulled away slightly and let out a breathy sentence.

" You take my breath away" Blaine cried softly into his shoulder, kissing his neck lovingly and not letting go of Kurt. They both smiled, letting their heads press together as they kissed again, still with the same passion and look in their eyes. Kurt looked into Blaine's eyes, the dark hazel was now shining and looked more like the Blaine he used to know. He smiled and kissed him again, knowing he couldn't get enough of this, he would never get enough of this.

"Come on we should go to your house or something, your parents and Parker are worried sick....." Blaine's eyes adverted and he nodded.

"We should probably go to the hospital....." He said, and Kurt noticed the sad undertone in Blaine's voice. He smiled and captured his lips again, letting him know that he was his. The shorter boy looked up at Kurt with wide eyes.

"What....happened?....." He stuttered. Kurt laughed humourlessly like it was the most obvious thing in the world.

"You....You happened and I finally remembered why we went out in the first place.... your amazing Blaine..... so I broke up with Sam..... you need me more and to be honest.... I need you too...." Blaine's eyes glazed over slightly as Kurt kissed him again.

"I think we should let you stay out....for a night.... you need the fresh air.... and hell I need you right now......"

"What do you mean...?" The taller boy leaned down and kissed him hard and hot and Blaine knew exactly what Kurt meant in a matter of seconds.