Kurt decided to try and think nothing more of his encounter with Blaine. About a week later he was in his office back at his apartment writing an article on some new designer when Adam came in bringing with him some hot chocolate.
"Hey babes" Adam said as he crept in, shutting the door behind him.
"Hey" Kurt replied as he removed his glasses and placed them down on his desk.
"I've brought you some coco" Adam said as he put the steaming mug of hot chocolate onto the desk next to the glasses and sat on Kurt's lap.
"Oh goody" Kurt replied.
"Kurt, can I ask you something?" Adam asked as he turned his head to look at Kurt.
"Sure"
"Do you think we will ever get married I mean we've been discussing it for 3 years and the most planning we've ever done is...actually I don't think we've done any. You're not getting cold feet are you?" Adam asked with worry in his voice. Kurt took his hand and pulled it up to his mouth and gently kissed it.
"I'm not getting cold feet. Weddings take time and well it needs to be just right." Kurt said as he kissed each finger with Adam laughing at the touch. Kurt felt a tiny bit guilty, he did have cold feet. Ever since Adam asked one winters night 3 years ago on a roof top in snowy Manhattan, Kurt was in shock and well he did love him and well it seemed like the next step the two of them should take as a couple but something inside of him was telling him no. He didn't know what it was so he decided to ignore it and now Adam asking him he had to lie because he didn't want to tell him the real reason, the reason he just found out himself in that very moment, he was still in love with Blaine. He hated himself for it. But the feelings he had all those years ago rushed back to him. Kurt spoke again.
"You know what I don't fancy a big posh wedding anymore. I want it to be just us and our family. Maybe we could just go the registry office and get married."
"But I thought?"
"No your right 3 years is to long" Kurt said as he hugged Adam tightly. What had Kurt just done? Why did he just say all these things? He wasn't ready for a wedding? He wasn't sure he wanted to marry Adam.

Kurt walked to work a few days later. He walked pasted the coffee shop he was in just a few weeks ago and he decided to go in. Unsure why he just had a coffee before leaving but something was telling him to go there.

He walked up to the bar where Frank was serving.
"Your back" Frank said as he greeted him with a hand shake.
"Actually I'm here to see Blaine Anderson?" Kurt asked. God why was he doing this?
"His not here hasn't been all week." Frank said with some sadness in his voice.
"Oh, we'll do you know where I can find him, a home address maybe?" Kurt asked as he looked around.
"Listen son I can't give out that kind of information"
"So do you know when he'll be next in?" Kurt asked. Frank sighed as he lent over the counter.
"Blaine has some issues and well something set him off last week and I don't want to cause him anymore grief" Frank sighed. There was something in his eyes that told Kurt he loved that boy like he was his own son.
"I think that may have been me" Kurt said as he hung his head down in shame. Frank pointed to a table the other side of the room and went and joined Kurt the other side of the counter.
"I guessed you would be" Frank said as he pulled out his seat and sat down. He sighed as he watched Kurt sit down.
"Listen Kurt, whatever happened between you guys is none of my business but I don't want to see him hurt again."
"Please I just need to speak to him" Kurt pledged.
"Fine he lives two blocks from here. Don't tell him I told you." Frank said as he looked up praying. Kurt quickly noted down the address and thanked Frank once again.

After Frank had left him he decided to get a coffee to calm his nerves as he did he brought up the phone numbers of all his ex-glee club friends. He dialled the first one on the list which just so happened to be Artie's.
"Kurt? Hi" the person on the other link spoke.
"Hi Artie" Kurt replied, unsure of the last time they spoke.
"Dude, how are you?" Artie laughed.
"I'm good. This actually needs to be quick I've just got to ask you a few questions...."
"Sure, about what?"
"Blaine" Kurt said and suddenly the line went silent as Artie silently cursed.
"Artie? I need to know what happened after him and I broke up" Kurt asked.
"Are you sure?"
"Yes please"
"Fine. God we were so horrible to him after what he did to you. We hated him Kurt, hated him for hurting you and well we all kind of stopped talking. I mean he got a bit friendly with Sam but something in him changed. He wasn't that outgoing, cheerful, happy go lucky guy anymore he kind of went depressed. I feel so bad now, we could have helped him. He went back to Dalton and well when we meet them at regional's he wasn't there and when I asked him why they said he dropped out of school and nobody had heard from him since. There were rumours that he was now drinking and doing drugs or whatever but none of us knew if they were true." Artie sighed as he waited for Kurt's response. Kurt felt a gasp leave his mouth. He was shaking.
"I have to go" Kurt said as he switched the phone off and threw it in his jacket pocket.

Kurt ran the two blocks to find an old building that was barley standing on its own. He looked up to see the scaffolding placed there just to keep the front from falling over. How could anybody live here? Kurt found the number for Blaine which was a door just below street level. He walked down the steps. He counted to five before he knocked on the door.

After a few minutes and no reply he tried again but this time he shouted.
"Blaine? Are you in there? It's....it's Kurt" Kurt sighed as he heard a thud and some swearing behind the door.
Kurt watches as the handle slowly turns in its socket. It felt like forever before the door opened to reveal the guy Kurt had seen a week ago only now his hair was more messy and the guy was half naked. He watched the other boys eyes light up.
"K...Kurt?" Blaine stuttered.
"Yes, Blaine" Kurt smiled. Suddenly the whole door banged opened and Blaine rushed to the side.
"C....c....come in" Blaine said. Kurt did as he was told and blushed when he saw Blaine was actually only in his boxers. Kurt walked into a messy room, cans of empty red bull littered the place. The sofa was half broken and there was no TV. Kurt felt a chill run down his spin as he looked around.

Blaine spoke up again as he messed with his hair.
"I was right it was you?" He said.
"What happened Blaine?" Was Kurt's only reply as he found a pile of handwritten music on the coffee table. Blaine shrugged as he wondered off to the bedroom to put on some trousers. Kurt watched the other boy leave as he noticed that the tattoos that went up and down his arms speared up onto his lower back.

After 5 minutes Blaine walked back in carrying a little box.
"10 years" Blaine choked as he sat down on the sofa next to Kurt.
"Yeah it's been a long time" Kurt replied as he sat trying to read the music before giving and turning to look at Blaine but instead started looking at his tattoos.
"I had my first one done not long after...." Blaine stopped as he turned his arm over to reveal his wrist. He looked at it for two seconds.
"We'll you know." Blaine said as he pointed to a word. 'Courage' it read. Blaine sighed.
"Fat lot of good that gave me" Blaine said as he opened the box he had in his hand. Kurt watched as he pulled out a little silver pocket watch and passed it to Kurt. Kurt looked at it for a second and turned it over to find an engraving on the back of it. 'To Kurt, may all your dreams come true. Love Blaine.' Kurt looked up to Blaine who was now messing with his hands.
"I brought it for our anniversary but it never happened. I didn't have the heart to throw it away" Blaine said as he got up off the sofa. Kurt looked at it again. The polished silver still shinning bright in the poorly lit of the room. Kurt placed it on the table before getting up. God he was mad. What was he doing? He finally made it to Blaine whose eyes we're still pretty like the day they first met. Kurt grabbed Blaine by the waist and pulled him round to face him. Their faces only inches apart.
"I forgive you" Kurt whispered. Blaine would have fallen to the floor if Kurt wasn't holding him up.
"I forgive you." Kurt said again as he moved in closer.
"You don't know how long I've been waiting for you to say that" Blaine cried as he lent his head on Kurt's shoulder. Kurt wrapped his arms around tightly never wanting to let go. Blaine's face rose back up. Kurt moved forward leaning his forehead against Blaine's, he sighed for a second before he let his lips kiss Blaine's. Kurt swore he could see fireworks around him as they deepened the kiss. Both crying slightly as they finally broke away. Their foreheads still touching as Kurt let Blaine mess with his hair.
"I've missed you so much. I missed us." Kurt said as threw off his jacket then started to unbutton his shirt.
"I...I...can't" Blaine said as he sighed and walked away from Kurt who gasped for air. Blaine looked at Kurt then at himself in the mirror.
"I'm not the boy you remember look at me" he sighed as pulled at his own hair. Kurt walked up behind him throwing his arms around him and letting his head rest on his shoulders.
"Yes you are. We just got a little older that's all." Kurt said as he kissed up and down Blaine's neck. Blaine moaned as he turned himself around and caught Kurt's lips with his own.

Kurt woke up. His arms wrapped around a naked Blaine in bed. His head was on his stomach rising up and down every time Blaine breathed in and out. Kurt sighed as he adjusted the blankets to cover their lower half's as he snuggled back into Blaine and let his mind wonder back into sleep.

He woke up again as he felt Blaine playing with his now messy hair.
"Hey" Kurt said in the middle of a yarn. He adjusted himself to let Blaine move down next to him and lie on his side.
"Hi" Blaine said as he smiled. His face had gone red as he was slightly embarrassed. Kurt pulled one of Blaine's arms closer and inspected the tattoos as Blaine watched. There were music notes and song lyrics but there was one that caught his eye. He looked at it closer 'failure' it read and it sent shivers down his spine. Blaine yanked back his arm as he tried to hide the word that Kurt had just read.
"Why do you have failure on your arm?" Kurt asked. Blaine sighed as he let himself fall back onto his back.
"Because I am, I failed you, I failed school, I failed everyone. I'm a big, massive failure." Blaine cried. Kurt jumped up his eyes tearful.
"No, no you're not." Kurt said as he pulled Blaine's face to look at him. Kurt kissed him again.
"Kurt. I never went out with anyone after you." Blaine said against his lips.
"What?"
"You were the only person I ever loved and after well I just never could. To think about dating someone else it made me feel sick so I swore to never ever again"
"So you never?"
"Not in the 10 years, no"

Kurt sat up after thinking of what Blaine had just been saying suddenly he could hear ringing. Crap his phone was out somewhere in Blaine's living room. He jumped up and ran out and grabbed it. Adam's face was the first thing to greet him when he picked it up.