“Where is your boyfriend?” Nick asked Lucas when they met in the bar on Thursday evening.

“Don`t have a boyfriend.” Lucas answered firmly. He wasn`t expecting Blaine to be here. He was still mad at him for what had happened on Monday.

“What?” Blaine couldn`t stop himself from asking the question.

“We broke up.”

“Shit! Luke could you be more specific?” Nick was impatient. Blaine had already told them he had broken up with Tom on Monday and it couldn`t be coincidence.

“I think it`s specific enough. We broke up. What else do you want to know?”

“But why? You two were definition of perfect couple.”

“Exactly. We were too perfect. And apparently we lacked chemistry.”

“What do you mean?” Mathew didn`t understand. Lack of chemistry with the guy like Kurt? That`s impossible.

“Let`s just say that there wasn`t any chemistry between us and there is someone else.”

“Someone else? Are you kidding me? You were single for months and when you finally got yourself a boyfriend there is someone else?”

“Not on my side, Mathew. There is someone else for Kurt.” Lucas answered Mathew but he focused his gaze on Blaine who was shifting on his chair.

“Ok. I`m getting us some beer.” Nick went straight to the bar and Mathew followed him aware of the tension between Blaine and Lucas. He really didn`t want to stay on a battle field.

“Blaine, Kurt told me you had kissed him on Monday.” Lucas started conversation with soft voice catching Blaine out of guard. Blaine was prepared for yelling, accusing and maybe punching but he definitely didn`t think Lucas might be so calm.

“I`m so sorry…” Blaine whispered, his head hung down.

“Blaine, it was wrong and I know you realize that. He had a boyfriend then. You have a boyfriend…”

“I broke up with him on Monday.” Blaine interrupted him with barely audible voice.

“Well, it was the best thing you could do after you forced yourself on Kurt…” Lucas halted and stopped speaking as he saw Blaine going pale, his eyes opening wide, panic expression on his face.

“Oh God!” He screamed and stood up. “Tell guys I have to go. Oh my God. Fuck!” He turned around and headed to the door ignoring Luke`s callings for him. He thought things couldn`t get worse but obviously they could. You should think first before you do something, Anderson. He`s gonna hate you for the rest of his life. If there had been a little chance for forgiveness you had burnt it. How could you not realize this sooner? It`s been three days… Thoughts were running through Blaine`s head, each one of them reminding him how horrible person he was. Not that he minded. After all, they were right.

Kurt didn`t feel like going to the bar with guys tonight. Facing Blaine would be even more awkward and although he didn`t really know if Blaine was about to show up there still was a chance he would and Kurt wasn`t pushing his luck. Movie night with Leah was much better idea than pool game. Sound of a bell ringing surprised him. Leah was yet to come home and she had her keys. He opened the door and before he could respond stream of words floated him.

“Kurt, I`m so sorry. So sorry. Oh my God. I didn`t mean to…you just…were there…and that cologne…and…shit. I`m so sorry. I swear, I`m not a violent person. I know I was acting like douchebag…jerk…the biggest moron on the world, but I`m not…I wasn`t thinking…and it can be qualified as an assault…” Blaine stood there, his hands in his hair, speaking but not making any sense to Kurt.

“Blaine, calm down. You are rambling.”

“Kurt, please, forgive me. I`m not a violent person. I swear. I didn`t mean that…I know I hurt Tom, I broke up with him and he was so sad and he didn`t understand why I had lied to him and yeah…I sort of am emotional violent person. But I would never hurt someone physically.” Tears were streaming down his face and Kurt was confused even more.

“Come in. Go to my room so we can talk. Leah is going to be home any minute. We will have more privacy there. I`ll be there in a sec, okay? Just, please, calm down.” Blaine blinked few times, nodded and with whispered “Thank you” went to the direction of Kurt`s room. Kurt grabbed his phone and sent Leah text explaining why their movie night was canceled, then took two bottles of water from fridge and went to his room.

Blaine was sitting on a carpet, legs crossed, his head in his hands, breathing uneven. Kurt`s heart broke at the sight of him.

“You know I have a chair here that is pretty comfortable. And my loveseat in front of you is made for sitting on it.” Kurt tried to ease the mood but didn`t succeed. Blaine looked at him with painful expression, tears filling his eyes but he didn`t move from his original position on the carpet so Kurt sat next to him.

“I`m so sorry, Kurt. I didn`t mean to…the assault. God, I`m horrible person. How could I do that?” Blaine was panicking again and Kurt started freaking out himself. What the hell happened? He was determined not to let Blaine ramble once again.

“Blaine, calm down. I have no idea what you are talking about. I`m going to ask you some question, just answer yes or no or just nod or shake your head, okay?” Blaine nodded and took a deep breath. Well, Kurt thought, that`s the progress.    

“So…were you at the bar tonight?” Nod.

“Great. With guys?” Nod.

“You got to some fight?” Shake.

“Did you punch someone?”

“What?! No. No! Why would you think that?” Kurt confusion was still there. Blaine didn`t get him much to work with.

“I don`t know. I mean, you told me about being a founder of Dalton fight club so you are probably good at punching…and you were rambling about violence and assault.” It wasn`t until now that Blaine realized his apology wasn`t coherent at all and Kurt misinterpretation was understandable.

“Kurt, I didn`t get into a fight. I was talking about Monday. The kiss. I know what happened to you when you were at high school and I sort of did the same thing. I went to the bar tonight because I hoped you would be there and I planned to apologize but you didn`t come and Lucas told us you two had broken up and then he was talking to me and I was feeling bad for kissing his boyfriend and then he said I had forced myself on you and then I realized what I had done and I swear Kurt I`m not like your bully from high school…I didn`t mean to hurt you. I wasn`t thinking at that moment…” Kurt was listening to him, pieces of story getting together. He tried to let Blaine get all of it from his system but he couldn`t help it and started to laugh.

“Jesus Blaine. You scared the shit out of me when you came here.” He said when he calmed down a little. “In my wildest dreams I wouldn`t associate your kiss with an assault.”

“No? I mean, you slapped me after…”

“Yeah, I did. And there were two reasons. The first we both were in relationship so it was inappropriate and the second one in those few seconds you made me feel more than five minute kissing with Lucas and I was pissed off that I couldn`t have this kind of chemistry with my boyfriend and took it on you.”

“You sure? What was the difference? We both kissed you and you didn`t want it…” Kurt could see Blaine didn`t believe him. It seemed as he needed to bring himself down for what had happened. So Kurt decided to show him instead explaining. He leaned to him and connected their lips. When he pulled back he looked Blaine in the eyes.

“Was that an assault?” Blaine, still in shock from unexpected kiss, shook his head.

“Good. Because I`m about to do it again.” And Kurt pressed their lips together once more, his right hand fisting Blaine`s curls, his left hand cupping Blaine`s cheek. Blaine was sitting there slowly moving his lips against Kurt`s, afraid of touching him he let his hands rest in his lap. At first their kissing was just tender touching of their lips, sweet and soft and everything that was Kurt if you asked Blaine. When Kurt sucked on Blaine`s bottom lip, Blaine whimpered a little and sound encouraged Kurt to go further. He licked Blaine`s lips asking for entrance and Blaine immediately opened his mouth and softly touched top of Kurt`s tongue with his own. Since then tender kissing changed to passionate one accompanied by occasional moans and sights, their heads moving from side to side in effort of finding the best angle for exploring each other`s mouths but it still wasn`t enough for Kurt. He found his way to Blaine`s lap and Blaine finally wrapped his arms around him. They continued kissing like their life depended on it. Blaine didn`t care about the lack of breathing. He was pretty sure that by this point his lungs were full of Kurt and he was so okay with it. There was no need for oxygen when Kurt was kissing him. Suddenly Kurt pulled the hem of Blaine`s shirt and took it off which meant there was no kissing for a brief seconds so Blaine could refill his oxygen resources and he finally realized what was happening. He threw his head back to Kurt`s bed in attempt to stop but Kurt found another part of his body to lavish with kisses and it cost Blaine lot of power to actually say something.

“Kurt. Stop.” He whispered but Kurt either didn`t hear him or didn`t want to hear him because Blaine`s throat and collarbone was still under the attack of Kurt`s mouth.

“Kurt, please, stop.” Blaine said again, this time louder. Kurt looked at him and with hurt expression got out of his lap. He sat on the carpet, his arms wrapped around his knees as he was pushing them to his chest. Blaine knew he had made another mistake.

“Kurt, please, look at me.” But Kurt`s gaze was fixed on the wall.

“Kurt, I want to do this right. If we had continued I wouldn`t have been able to stop and I don`t want it to happen this way. I screwed up a lot with you and I know I`m going to regret for the rest of my life that I didn`t do anything to make you mine back then. I should have forgotten about my insecurities. I should have… I should have tried to show you that maybe I`m not good enough for you but that I`m definitely trying to be. I should have fought for you. But I didn`t. Instead I turned into selfish prick that thought only about himself and hurt you and Tom in the process. I am so sorry. I wanna be with you, Kurt. I can`t stop thinking of you. You are permanently on my mind. I tried to convince myself the feelings I have for you would go away if I stayed with Tom. I didn`t want to be the second one for you but I made Tom be the second one for me. It was horrible thing to do and I knew it from the beginning but I couldn`t stop it. Tom was a good guy and I really believed one day he would become the first one for me. But the truth is there was never a chance for him. I realized it on Monday and I broke up with him. I wouldn`t do anything now if you still were with Lucas, but you`re not so if you decide to give me one more chance I`ll show you how much I care about you. I want to take you on a date. And I want to take you on a date every day and maybe I`ll convince you to agree to be my boyfriend. I want everything with you but I want it in relationship. I know I deserve your rejection after what I did but I want you to know I won`t give up on us this time. There is something and I`m willing to spent every single minute of my life to make my bad treatment up to you. Basically, that`s what I wanted to tell you. So, I`m gonna ask you something and if your answer is a no I`ll ask you the same question every day till I get a yes from you.” Blaine felt like he could breath again. He said what had been bothering him over a month.

“Kurt, will you go out with me tomorrow?” Kurt turned his head and found Blaine looking anxiously at him, sincerity and a little bit of fear in his eyes.

“I`m moving to New York in four weeks.”