Kurt was sitting in the loveseat with warm blanket trough his legs. He was looking at few suitcases full of his clothes, three big boxes with books, four smaller boxes with cups, glasses and other breakable things and five bags with rest of his belongings as kitchen supplies, sheets or useless things, which he kept from nostalgia. He could feel tears in his eyes and few moments later they were streaming down his face. As soon as he heard keys in the lock, he wiped them up, took remote control and turned the TV on. Mathew entered the room and with unreadable face expression scanned place full of Kurt`s stuff.

„What the hell does this mean? “He asked, but he had already known the answer. Kurt was moving out.

„Lucas is coming for me in two hours...“

„You don`t have to go. You could have told me you wanted to move out.“ Mathew was confused. He didn`t know what to do or say.

„We broke up a week ago. I have to get out of here. I spent last night at Leah so you could have figured out I was not staying here for long. “Mathew didn`t get why Kurt didn`t want to stay. After all, they had rented the apartment together. Surely, the situation was very tense since the break up, but they could have made it work.

„Are you sure? “Mathew had to ask. He knew very well why he didn`t want Kurt to go. The moment Kurt would be out the door, the break up would be official. They both knew. Kurt gave their relationship one more week, but it didn`t help and he didn`t want to squint his eyes anymore. There had been breaking up situation before. They had got together several times because there always had been hope things would have eventually become better. But they never had. Mathew and Kurt couldn`t live together. The doubts had been there long before they moved in. The whole apartment renting thing was just a last try to stay a couple. Love between them didn`t matter anymore. Last year was an illustration of what they had in front of them in their life and neither of them liked it.

“I have to go.” Kurt`s voice was calm and determined.

“Where are you going to stay? “ Mathew was so mad at Kurt. Why hadn`t he told him? Well, Kurt tried to talk to him the day after break up and he didn`t seem to care, but it had always been that way and despite of that they had managed to work things out. Mathew seemed not to realize the fact that Kurt was tired of fighting for something that didn`t make sense anymore. The fights were more common, they rather spent time outside with friends in order to avoid each other and time they actually did spend together was filled with even more problems. They had been coming back like boomerang. The more they tried to ignore them, the worst problems got.

„I`m moving in with Leah. She has one empty room. I`m going to tell my family tomorrow.“ It was hard to speak for him. He tried to be strong and not to cry. He knew he had to do it. If he stayed, they`d get together and it`d be another start of ending.

„Okay. “ It was all Mathew said. He sat next to him and couldn`t remember last time they had been in the same room and hadn`t been fighting. It was nice for a change. He took Kurt`s hand and they watched TV together, each of them deep in their own thoughts. Finally, Kurt felt better. He got rid of the problem he`d been ignoring for last two years. He didn`t know what was waiting for him, but he did know his decision was right. The door bell rang. Lucas was there.

The room full of his stuff was cleared very fast. In 15 minutes everything that was on the floor in the apartment which was Kurt`s home for the last year found its place in Lucas`s minivan. Mathew hugged Kurt tight, kissed the top of his head and whisper. ”Goodbye, sweetheart. I`ll call you.” Kurt gave him a weak smile and got to the car. As soon as Mathew couldn`t see them, Kurt started to cry. Lucas hated it when someone was crying. He never knew what to do in situation like that. He cursed in silence and sent some “love” to Mathew. He had no idea what Kurt might have needed in that moment. The only thing he could think of was not to say anything but do something. All of the sudden he changed the direction of their way and turned to the shopping centre.

Lucas parked his car and said: “Stay here, I`ll be right back.” Kurt nodded in silence. His head was aching. The good feeling of finishing bad relationship was replaced by uncertainty. He had been in relationship for almost six years, since his senior year at high school. He had his life planned. He was supposed to get married and have children. Will he ever get married? Will he ever have children? What if nobody wanted him? Mathew wasn`t the one. He knew that now. But does he have a chance to find the one? Thoughts ran through his brain so quick he was barely aware of them. That was the reason of his crying. Kurt didn`t miss Mathew. He missed the life he was supposed to live, the life he had dreamt of, the very same life – as he realized now – that was unreal with Mathew.

Lucas came back and gave him box full of tissues. Kurt smiled at him and stopped crying. He wiped up his tears for what seemed like hundredth time a day. 

“There was no reason for buying the whole box of tissues, you know.”Lucas looked at him with playfulness in his eyes. “Don`t worry. Until tomorrow morning the box will be empty. You need to get it out of you and I really don`t know how to help you. I can only buy a lot of chocolate, popcorn, wine and cola. It always works with my sister when she is upset. And before you say anything. No, I don`t care how many calories it contains. You are going to eat that. Here, this one is for now.”He gave him chocolate and Kurt for once didn`t care about calories. Till they got in front of Leah`s apartment building, chocolate was gone. Kurt`s stuff were in the apartment in the similar amount of time as they had been out of the previous one. Kurt felt confused. His life could be moved from one place to another in few minutes. Is it good or bad? He couldn`t decide… 

 “Okay. I`m going. Here`s your first aid.”Leah`s took the bag Lucas was holding in his hand. She opened it and went through it with expectations. She really liked what she saw. Lucas embraced Kurt in tight hug.

“Thank you so much, Luke.”He almost missed words Kurt whispered.

“Don`t. It`s the least I can do for you. I`ll call you tomorrow. And be careful with alcohol tonight.” He winked at them and closed the door behind him.