PART 1: Questions:

If anyone had told seventeen year old Blaine Anderson exactly what were about to happen in his young life, he wouldn't have believed you. He would have shaken his head, and scrunched his nose, because it sounded far too good and far too bad at the same time. Just the fact that something would happen sounded unbelievable because this far, nothing had.

Blaine would describe himself as ordinary, he did have his talent, but since no one seemed to appreciate it (it might have helped if he told anyone he could actually sing) he didn't see it as an improvement. He was the only out gay person at McKinley High which, he guessed, made him a little bit different from the other students, but still not exciting in any way.
It was because of his sexuality that Blaine didn't have many friends, he had Rachel, and sometimes Brittany would speak to him, but that was about it.
Sometimes he wished things were different for him, He sometimes even wished he was straight, then maybe the girls would like him and the guys would accept him. Most of Blaine's life were built on wishes like that, whishes for changes and something new.

He had a mother who loved him, a father who didn't, and a brother who live in Los Angeles who followed his dream of becoming a movie star. See, his brother was someone worth mentioning, he was in commercials and movies, people recognized him. Blaine was merely Cooper Andersons' little brother when put in comparison. He would never reach the same status in the eyes of his family, even less the entire world.

Even his father was known, at least in Lima, he owned a great law firm, and was the type of person who hid his money away from the world. Blaine sometimes wondered if he took some of them out of his safety box from time to other, just to look at them, that would very much be like him. People looked up to him and feared him. Blaine used to think he was a great man.

Blaine didn't consider his life a complete fiasco, but he didn't see himself as widely successful either, he was plain, boarding on dull, and he didn't really mind being unseen, until one day he got a new neighbor and all of that changed.

***

It was spring when things started to change for Blaine, he would soon be done with his junior year of High School, and the summer break was growing visible in the nearer future, something Blaine was both looking forwards to, and dreading. He wouldn't see his tormentors for the entire break, but it might get extremely boring since Rachel was travelling to Europe to visit some family there.
Not that he wanted to spend his entire summer with Rachel Berry, but it would have been nice to say he hadn't been alone the entire time. His parent's were not the cheeriest company, and he'd just received the news that cooper had work to do, and wouldn't be coming home before Christmas.

On one hand, Blaine wanted more friends. Friends he could go to the amusement park with or eat ice cream with, to share their summer. But on the other, he didn't have the slightest idea how and where to find any. Almost everyone at McKinley either hated him or ignored him, and he didn't do any sports or other spare time activities, maybe he should, get out there a little, take up boxing again? He loved reading, but he couldn't do that for an entire summer.

His thoughts were cut off by the sound of a car door slamming and Blaine moved to stand by his window.

A huge truck was parked outside the house next to theirs, and three men had started pulling things out, first a cupboard, a sofa and a table, then a weird looking lamp.
No one had told him that he would be getting a new neighbor, or maybe his parents didn't know either? But now there were definitely people moving in just beside them, and Blaine hoped that they were nice, and that he's parents wouldn't be complete idiots to them like they were with their last neighbors.

Blaine knew his parents wouldn't want to go and greet them, and Blaine knew too, that he was too shy to do it alone, so he watched from his window as they carried in the furniture and boxes, and wondered who they were.

***

Blaine was having a hard time concentrating in school the next morning. He'd asked his mother about their new neighbor the evening before;

''Yes, we're getting new neighbors, exciting huh?''

''You knew?''

''Well, yes. We didn't think it was important, honey.''

That was the problem with his parents, they didn't think anything but money and success was important enough to talk, or even think, about. They never wondered why they did what they did, or if there would ever happen something new and exciting to them. As long as they had money then nothing else mattered.

When Blaine returned from school, after escaping Rachel's endless talk about how Finn hadn't complimented her new dress, he walked past the newcomer's house, noticing the mail box now said 'Hummel' instead of 'Johnson.'
He was so curious, that he almost walked straight up there to say hi, but he didn't, because the Hummel's could be anyone, sure it was a nice neighborhood, but still, they could be really weird or scary, so he decided not to.

Instead he went home, dropped his bag just inside the door, got himself a glass of lemonade and placed himself in the front lawn, reading one of his books. It was a warm day, and the sun was burning hot on his skin.

It was when he was sitting there he heard footsteps on the grass beside him. Thinking it was his mother, Blaine didn't look up, not until the shadow of the person fell over him, it didn't move or speak, and he lowered his book

What Blaine saw was no ordinary human, that he was sure of, because ordinary humans, if they even existed though, didn't look like the boy before him. He was lovely pale in the sunlight, and his brown hair was gently styled and pushed back on his forehead, he was wearing a dark waistcoat over a T-shirt, and light, slim-fitting jeans. It all looked luxurious and perfect on him. He was smiling curiously down at Blaine in a flash of white teeth, and his eyes glistening playfully. The entire image was overwhelming.

''Um, hi.'' Blaine managed to say, cursing himself for sounding out of breath.

''Hello,'' the boy said in a high voice, he sounded happy Blaine thought, though he didn't know why, ''what are you reading?''

Blaine couldn't help but smile a little too because people didn't just walk into other people's front lawn asking what they're reading like it's a normal thing to do, at least not in their neighborhood.

''uh, To Kill a Mockingbird, it's for school.'' Blaine responded.

''You go to McKinley?'' The boy asked eyes still wide and wonderful.

''Yeah.''

The boy nodded quickly, ''I will too, I'm starting tomorrow you see.''

Blaine looked away from those blue eyes, ''I'm sorry, but who are you?'' Blaine felt dumb for asking, but he was really confused by the stranger.

Kurt's smile faltered a bit, ''oh, I'm so sorry, I forgot to introduce myself, I do that sometimes. I'm Kurt Hummel, with a K.''

Blaine's head shot up ''Hummel? You're my new Neighbor?''

''The one and only, well, I guess I'm not your only neighbor, but I am the only Kurt Hummel I know of.''

Blaine frowned at that, but couldn't help but grin either, ''I saw you move in yesterday.'' He said lightly.

''Yes, I would have come and said hello, but my father insisted on me waiting, don't scare them away he says, like I'm that scary. So I snuck out, and here I am, in your front lawn.''

Blaine laughed, because he was pretty sure Kurt was the least scary thing he'd ever seen, and also the prettiest, Blaine wondered if he knew that. He probably did.

''So, my turn to ask, who are you.''

Blaine moved to shake his new neighbor's hand, ''Blaine Anderson.''

''Ah, Blaine, that's a wonderful name.'' Kurt simply said, and Blaine wondered if Kurt could see him blush. People didn't just say such things, but it sounded so right when Kurt did.

''Well, Kurt is pretty unique too.'' Blaine said quietly.

''You think so? It's German, it means brave but I don't know if my parents knew that when they gave it to me, or if they just thought it sounded pretty.'' Kurt sounded proud. If it was because of his name or his parents, Blaine didn't know.

''it does sound pretty though,'' Blaine quietly mentioned, not quite sure why he'd said it, but the smile on Kurt's face showed he had done something right.

''Thank you,'' Kurt smiled, ''now tell me Blaine Anderson, what are your dreams? I'm very interested in those, and I don't mean dreams that you have when you're asleep, I mean those you have when you're awake.''

Blaine thought about that question for a second, did he have any dreams? When he was little he wanted to be a professional boxer, but he was far too short for that now, then, for a while, he wanted to go to law school to impress his father, but that dream ended quickly when he learned that it was exactly what his father expected of him.

''I don't know.'' Blaine confessed.

Kurt's eyebrows shot upwards on his forehead, ''you don't know? I though everyone had dreams... How come you don't know?''

Blaine moved a little in his chair, ''I guess I haven't really thought about it, my father wants me to take over his firm when I'm old enough, go to a fancy college and all that, but I'm just not sure.''

Kurt looked like he was thinking really hard ''If you don't want it one hundred percent, If it doesn't feel like the most right thing in the world, then you shouldn't go for it.''

Blaine locked eyes with him, boldly, ''what's your dream,'' he asked.

Kurt smiled brightly once again, '' New York's my dream. Always has, and always will be, the city that never sleeps they say, sounds right for me.''

Blaine wanted to ask why, but didn't. Kurt looked like he was truly dreaming, eyes far gone and a slight smile on his lips.

''Have you been there before?'' Blaine then asked.

Kurt was shaken out of it and suddenly looked a bit sad, Blaine wished he hadn't asked, ''no, I haven't, me and my dad don't have the money at the moment, but I'll move there myself after I graduate, I hope.''

''I hope you will too.'' Blaine said, because watching someone wanting something so bad, made him wish he had such a dream too, something in life to look forward to instead of taking over some stupid family business.

Then he came to think of something, he loved singing. Even though it scared him, performing in front of a huge crowd had always sounded powerful to him, seeing how loved famous performers were.

''I do like to sing,'' Blaine then said, ''maybe I could do something about that.''

Kurt gasped, ''you sing!? I do too, that's why I want to go to New York, to be on Broadway. We should sing together sometime.''

Blaine grinned up at him, ''we should, but I bet you're better than me.''

''How would you know?'' Kurt wondered out loud.

Luckily, before Blaine could say something completely stupid, they were interrupted by Blaine's mother, who wanted to know who the nice boy in her front lawn were. Kurt presented himself like he'd done with Blaine, and shook her hand.
She told him it was nice to have new neighbors, Blaine knew better though, because he knew his mother wished to live in an even better neighborhood with rich people, tall hedges separating the lawns, and expensive cars in the driveways.

''I've got to go Blaine, but it was really nice meeting you.'' Then he added; ''I'm glad you're my new neighbor.''

Blaine nodded, ''yeah, you too, see you at school tomorrow?''

Kurt smiled and nodded, then he turned away and walked back towards his new home. Blaine would have asked where he'd come from, or how he felt about moving. He'd have asked what Kurt's favorite color was, or his favorite music. Blaine wondered if he had a boyfriend, or if he was even gay and he wondered if maybe, just maybe, they could become friends.

***

Walking into McKinley High the next morning felt different, and Blaine new why. It was because today, there would be a new student among them and Blaine knew him better than the other students. He wondered if Kurt would see him differently when he found out about Blaine's status at the school, or if he'd even talk to him anymore if he knew. Maybe yesterday, Kurt had just been friendly because his father had asked him to be, because they were neighbors now. He hadn't even thought about these possibilities.

The thought that he might get to see Kurt every day from now on made him both really happy and really nervous, but hHe'd promised himself he wouldn't screw this up. His head was spinning with those thoughts just as an ice cold drink hit him in the face, and stopped them abruptly.

His skin burned, and the green fluid was running down his face, onto his new polo shirt. Blaine would have sighed deeply if he hadn't been shaking so bad.

''Oh sorry loser, you had some fag on you!'' The jock yelled, gaining high fives and applause from his friends.

Then a high voice sounded behind him, ''what is your problem!?''

Blaine spun around to see Kurt standing there, clenching the strap of his bag angrily, eyes looking absolutely furious.

The previous owner of the slushie, eyed Kurt with an amused smile, ''and what do we have here, is this your little boyfriend Anderson?''

Kurt took a bold step closer, ''what does this give you huh? Picking on nice people, just because you are too stupid to be like them? I've only just met you and I already dislike you, so congrats, I bet you are going to make it really far in life!''

''Shut up lady-boy, or I'll punch you in the face.'' The jock sneered.

''That's very creative of you, but I think I'll pass. Have a horrible day.'' And with that Kurt linked his arm with Blaine, dragging him down the hallway.

''where's the men's room?'' Kurt asked voice much softer than just seconds ago.

''down to the right,'' Blaine quipped, no one had ever stood up to him at this school, not even Rachel, and he barely knew Kurt. Maybe Kurt was just an overall nice person, Blaine probably shouldn't get his hopes up.

Luckily the restroom was empty, and Blaine went straight to the sinks to clean up his face. He always brought extra shirts in his bag, in case of slushie-attacks.

He damned himself for letting Kurt see him so weak, see him suffer under the weight of bullies. He wished he could have said something back too.

''Here, let me help.''

Soft hands were running through his hair, down his face. Blaine drew in a sharp breath; no one ever touched him, not like this, never like this. Kurt's hands silently worked on his hair, and Blaine let him do it, praying that no one would enter the room while he did.

Blaine fetched the towel from his bag, and a clean shirt, he searched Kurt's face while drying his hair, but found nothing but sadness and sincerity.

''Does this happen often?'' Kurt spoke softly.

Blaine looked down, ''unfortunately, yes,'' he asmitted, there were no use of hiding anything now.

Kurt nodded, Blaine wanted to ask if he was ever bullied too wherever he came from, but couldn't bring himself to say it. He didn't want to hurt him, and Blaine knew very well how much it hurt.

''You'll be okay,'' Kurt simply said. It wasn't a question, and for some odd reason, Blaine believed him. Now, things would be okay, because Blaine had Kurt. It might be brand new and unstable, he was uncertain about who Kurt really was, but he seemed to care that Blaine was hurting, he actually wanted to listen, and that was enough.

***

They only had one class together; advanced English. They sat together in the back of the room, Blaine usually sat in the front to avoid the jocks, but Kurt had insisted, ''how will we be able to make conversation, if the teachers is hovering over us constantly?'' He'd said, and Blaine didn't understand why they'd have to talk when they were being lectured, but agreed anyway.

It turned out to be one of the most pleasant classes of the day, Kurt had sent him notes, asking him random questions, and complaining about how bored he was. Blaine was almost never bored in class, he was either occupied by learning or keeping the bullies from throwing things at him, but now Kurt was there, he was having a hard time concentrating; he could almost hear his mother's voice complaining about how Kurt was a bad influence.

But Kurt was smart; he was really smart and funny, even if he didn't listen to their teacher. Blaine wondered how that could be, he didn't have any trouble answering the teachers questions, and his answers were both correct, clever and witty.

Blaine was completely intrigued by the end of the day, he felt like he needed to know everything about Kurt Hummel, every little detail of his life, because it seemed like an adventure, like some fairytale he hadn't heard of yet. The prince from a foreign land, sweeping Blaine's feet away under him and saving him from the bullies and boring days.

But Blaine knew that stuff like that didn't happen, it never did. He felt like he was waiting for some catch, like maybe Kurt would only live here temporarily, or he would grow bored with Blaine when he found out he was a completely unexciting person. Maybe Kurt would even join the bullies and pick on him to become popular.

Anything could go wrong, there were so many possibilities. Blaine would just have to wait and enjoy it while it lasted, while he could still call Kurt Hummel his friend, if that was even what they were, Blaine hadn't made new friends in years so he couldn't really tell.

It did scare him though; he'd grown used to having Rachel as his only friend. She'd been a good friend but she'd never spoken to him about the bullying, not really. He knew she was picked on too, she did get a slushie now and then, and sometimes he felt like they only talked about her, her talent, her upcoming NYADA audition and her boyfriend; Finn Hudson. Finn didn't speak to Blaine though Rachel tried to make him sometimes. She had this idea that Blaine might become popular if someone from the football-team spoke to him.

Both Finn and Rachel were in the McKinley High Glee Club, Blaine had wanted to try out, but had chickened out. He'd never even sung for Rachel because if she knew he could sing, she'd push him to audition, so he'd lied, told her he couldn't sing to save his life and she'd let it go.

But why had he told Kurt then? Rachel was his best friend, and he barely knew Kurt, he didn't know if Kurt would tell anyone, oh god what if he did? Blaine thought.

''Um, Kurt,'' Blaine gently asked on their way home.

Kurt had looked distant on their walk, like he was deep in thought, ''yes Blaine?''

''You can't tell anyone that I sing, okay?''

Kurt looked at him, frowning, ''why?'' he asked carefully.

''Because then Rachel will want me to join Glee club, and I can't do that.''

Kurt looked even more confused, ''why not?''

Blaine thought it was obvious, ''because I'd have to sing before a hundred people who hate me, and they will all be thinking bad things about me, them all at once. I can't- I can't take it.''

Kurt stopped walking, laying a hand on Blaine's arm, it seemed casual to him, but Blaine's skin burned under the touch, ''why would they hate you, I don't think everybody hates someone like you.''

Blaine felt like he could cry and he only said it because he felt like he had to ''I'm gay.''

Blaine had expected Kurt's eyes to widen, maybe his mouth to twitch, maybe he'd just walk away, disgusted. First nothing happened, then he smiled kindly, ''oh.''

Oh? Blaine couldn't breathe, he didn't dare. What sis oh even mean.

Kurt spoke, ''well, I for one don't hate you. I can't speak for the rest of this small-minded world, but always remember, wherever you are Blaine Anderson, I will be somewhere not hating you. And I bet there's a lot of other people in your future who won't hate you either. I know, things are hard right now, but I promise you they'll be better. Even if it's the last thing I promise you. Not only because I like you but also because there are people who feel the hate too. And Blaine, you are a good person, and I appreciate that, even if those dumbasses at school doesn't.''

Blaine looked at him, stunned, then he cleared his throat, ''how do you know all that?''

Kurt smiled softly ''my father, he raised me to be a good human being, so I am doing my best.''

''no one's ever been so nice to me.'' Blaine whispered.

Kurt blinked, ''what about your parents?''

Blaine both didn't want to talk about them, but he wanted Kurt to know, ''he doesn't like me much, my father. He's always disappointed in me. I know he's stressed a lot but sometimes I'd wish he would at least care a little about me. My mother's nice enough, but I know she prefers my brother over me.''

Kurt looked genuinely sad as he started walking again, ''I'm sorry.''

They went silent again for a moment.

''I wish every parent were more like my dad.'' Kurt then said.

''would you tell me about him?'' Blaine asked, feeling the curiosity return.

''Well, when I was little he would do all kind of things with me, take me to the playground, teach me how to ride a bike, make tea parties with me, and when I got older he thought me other things like how to treat people and how not to, how the world is outside our home. I always thought he was the wisest man on the planet, I know now he isn't because if he were he wouldn't be a mechanic, but he is very smart and he always gives the best advice. I do love him very much.''

''He sounds wonderful'' Blaine breathed when Kurt stopped, and he too wished all parents were like Kurt's dad.

They parted at Kurt's house with a promise of meeting there the following morning. Blaine went inside to do his homework. It made him feel weird knowing that Kurt was only a few feet away all the time and he could just go over there and talk to him. He knew though that he couldn't do that, it would be too much, but he wanted to, it seemed like it was all he wanted all the time.

***

''You're not really talking to him are you?'' Rachel whispered angrily in the McKinley hallway the following morning, ''I heard that he transferred here without anyone knowing why, he could have killed someone for all we know.''

Blaine resisted the urge to roll his eyes at the tiny brunette ''Rachel, he hasn't killed anyone, he's nice actually.''

Rachel sighed, ''you just say that because he's obviously gay.''

Blaine stopped walking and turned to looked at her ''What? Why would I only like him because of that?''

''Blaine, I get it, you're lonely. You don't have a boyfriend or a big talent like me to keep you happy, but you don't have to do something reckless.''

''Like talking to new people?'' Blaine asked with raised eyebrows.

Rachel nodded enthusiastically ''yes, that's exactly what I mean.''

''Rachel you're acting crazy, he's my neighbor of course I have to be nice to him, and that involves talking to him, and I like that, I think we could become friends.''

Rachel sighed dramatically ''all right, just promise you won't become serial killers together, and be careful, I don't want him breaking your heart.''

''god, Rachel, We aren't even...'' But the girl was already gone down the hallway, and Blaine was in a sudden hurry to avoid being slushied when he realized he was an easy target standing there by himself.

***

Math class went by slowly, and lunch came around. Blaine noticed Kurt sitting alone by a table in the far corner, and moved to go sit with him, when a hand grabbed his arm.

''Don't you dare Anderson,'' Rachel shrieked, ''we always sit together, it's our secret way of surviving this place, remember, no one ever hits a girl!''

Blaine shot a look at Kurt, ''come on Rachel, he's sitting by himself, remember what that's like? Be nice.''

Rachel sighed dramatically and kept herself behind Blaine as they moved towards the corner; Kurt's eyes lit up as he noticed Blaine and removed his feet from the chair beside him.

''Hello Blaine.''

''Hi, um, meet Rachel.'' Blaine made a awkward gesture toward his friend who eyed Kurt suspiciously. Eventually she did extend her hand to shake Kurt's.

''I'm Rachel Berry, leader of the glee club, and you are?''

Blaine actually did roll his eyes this time, Rachel knew exactly who Kurt were, everyone knew when new students arrived.

''Kurt Hummel, I'm not leader of anything, but I do sing.''

At that Rachel's eyes widened just a little, and she sat down beside Kurt, ''you simply have to audition for glee then, it's lovely.''

They slipped into an easy conversation about what music Kurt liked to sing, and which songs he and Rachel should sing together. Rachel actually squealed when Kurt admitted he loved Wicked and was dying to sing defying gravity. Blaine guessed she had dropped her suspicion of Kurt being a murderer, and actually liked him. That was the great thing about Rachel; she never hated anyone for long. Blaine thought that was why her relationship with Finn worked out so well.

Blaine wished he could talk more freely about what music he'd like to sing, but with Rachel there he just nodded along and smiled apologizing as if to say he didn't know which performance they were referring to.

''Oh, that would be so much fun! Blaine here doesn't sing at all, but the two of us could do some killer duets.''

Kurt gave Blaine a knowing smile, ''that's a shame really.''

Blaine felt himself blush as he looked down, ''yeah,'' he said quietly.

***

That evening Blaine couldn't sleep, he felt like everything was changing for him. Could one person do that? He wanted to ask his parents but he'd never talked to them about boys, and he simply had no idea how they would react. He was pretty sure though, that his father would become silent or even excuse himself if he brought up the topic, and his mother probably wouldn't know what to say, or try to set him up with a nice girl so he kept it to himself.

Blaine started collecting things in his mind, the things he knew and things he didn't know. He knew Kurt was wonderful and really nice to him, and he was pretty and smart and everything Blaine had always wished for, but he didn't know how Kurt saw him, or if he was even gay as Rachel had claimed. Blaine didn't think he had a boyfriend though, if he had he'd never mentioned him, and that would be weird. Blaine suddenly realized what he was doing, he was spinning his mind around the idea of Kurt being his boyfriend, and that seemed pretty scary and far too soon to be thinking like that.

He got out of bed and pushed his curtain to the side, he didn't know why it made him feel so weird knowing Kurt was asleep so close to him, but it did, and he kind of wanted to go over there just to see if he was there. Then Blaine noticed a shadow moving by outside, it was definitely a person he concluded as his heartbeat steadily grew faster.

He did his best not to panic, it was too early to lose his new friend when they'd only just started something that Blaine felt could grow so much bigger. Then Blaine recognized the hair, then the gait.

The shadow was Kurt, and it was currently crawling inside the window to what Blaine could only resume was his room. What was Kurt doing out in the middle of the night? Being a criminal? Smoking behind the gas station with the Skank's? Sneaking out to meet his secret lover? Blaine didn't feel like any of the above fit Kurt in any way, but then again, he clearly didn't know him well.

Blaine got back into bed, and turned to face against the wall. Kurt was great, but Blaine couldn't help feeling like he was keeping something from him, something important, and Blaine had the tendency to spill out all his deepest secrets to him, even if he felt like he shouldn't. He thought that maybe it wasn't safe, that Kurt might hurt him in the end. Right now Kurt was a mystery, Blaine's mystery, and it was intriguing, so Blaine wanted to go with it as long as he could. Even if it all would fall to pieces later.

***

Blaine met Kurt in front of the Hummel's house the following morning. He shot a quick glance towards the window. It looked normal, like no one had climbed neither in nor out of it the night before, and Blaine had a weird feeling that he wouldn't get an answer about it unless he asked.

''Did you sleep well?'' Blaine asked in what he hoped sounded like a casual tone.

''Like a rock,'' Kurt replied, looking sincere enough. Blaine wished he wouldn't lie to him like this, feeling kind of let down that Kurt didn't trust him enough to tell him the truth. Hadn't he been the perfect friend to him up till now? Answered all of his questions?

''Okay, yeah, me too.''

Kurt send him a smile, not one of those I-know-you-just-lied-to-me smile, but a real one, that Blaine didn't really understand because he hadn't said anything funny or complimented him or anything, but he smiled back at him because how could he not?

Blaine knew it's way too early, he knew it's unrealistic and impossible and way out of reach, but he had a feeling, a hope inside, that maybe this wasn't just some temporary thing, maybe this was something deeper, and as Kurt smiled at him, he swore he saw something like hope in his eyes too, something perfect and long lasting, Blaine thought he saw his own future in all the blue, and he smiled even wider himself.

***

''What are you thinking?'' Kurt asked during lunch, as he slowly chewed his sandwich, eyeing Blaine curiously.

''Nothing,''

Kurt swallowed and furrowed his brow ''no one's ever thinking 'nothing' unless you are actually thinking the word 'nothing' which I doubt you did, or it's something you don't want me to know, which is alright by the way.''

Blaine smiled at Kurt's act of playing hurt, and he did want to tell Kurt what he was thinking, but he really couldn't.

''I was thinking,'' Blaine then lied, ''if you wanted to do something after school, the weather's nice so we could stay in my lawn and do homework or whatever.'' It was really just an excuse to see Kurt more, to get to know him better.

''yeah, I'd love that.'' Kurt said, as he took a sip of his water. It didn't seem like something he had to think about, which was both good and bad. Good, because it meant they were comfortable with each other. Bad, because Kurt didn't put anything more into it then. Blaine needed to stop thinking like that or he would drive himself crazy.

***

They didn't end up doing homework, Kurt seemed to have a lot of questions instead. They were never-ending, and Blaine enjoyed each end every one of them. Right from favorite band, to questions about his parents and brother cooper. Kurt then asked him about his first kiss, and Blaine blushed and looked down. ''Well...'' he swallowed hard, he was never embarrassed about haven't been kissed before, not before he met Kurt, it hadn't really mattered. Sure he had wanted to kiss someone someday, someone important, now, with the person he wanted to kiss so badly right there before him, asking him if he'd ever kissed anyone, it seemed too much. ''I- I haven't really...''

''Oh, never mind then.'' Kurt said, looking a little sorry for asking, and Blaine kept his head down until the next question saved him.

***

That night Blaine felt exhausted from all the talking he'd done in one day, but forced himself to stay awake, he needed to know if Kurt would sneak out again tonight.

***

One week and a half went by in a blur. Blaine saw Kurt every day, they walked together to school, they ate lunch together, and they spend time together after that. Blaine almost felt bad for abandoning Rachel sometimes, but as she said, it was just more time to work on her battle of becoming class president, getting solos in Glee club and her NYADA audition.

Blaine kept a little note over his bed; Kurt had snuck out every night since Blaine had started staying up to check. He was exhausted from staying up so late, and he knew he should just ask about it, but feared Kurt's reaction more than anything.

He had a plan though, sort of.

He had decided to do it tonight, so when he got home from school and had promised Kurt to see him tomorrow morning.

He went inside to sleep, he really needed the extra nap, even if his mother looked at him suspiciously that evening when Blaine told her he had slept since he came home.

''Are you all right honey? You have been looking so tired lately, and pale too.''

''I'm fine, school's just rough.''

Blaine's father eyed him in a way so Blaine knew the question was coming. ''Are you doing okay in school?''

Blaine resisted a sigh, ''yes dad, straight A's.''

His father just nodded and returned his attention to his steak and salad.

Blaine silently wished his father would care about something else than his grades, that he would teach him things like Kurt's dad, or talk to him about little unimportant things, even if it seemed too late.

***

That night Blaine waited till his parent's were asleep, and checked the clock, it was only eleven, but Blaine moved silently out the front door anyway, he didn't want to miss it, he read in a book in the porch light, and waited patiently.

An hour later he heard the sound of footsteps moving over the lawn beside him, he duck under the fence and waited till Kurt had begun walking down the street, Blaine followed silently.

Kurt turned onto new streets four times, till he reached the local cemetery, then he stopped and went inside the little gate, and Blaine waited a couple of seconds before following. The walls around the cemetery were tall and dark, and Blaine couldn't see Kurt anywhere, he spun around when something hit him in the face.

''Ow!'' he yelled, and his hands flew to his cheek where the fist had hit him.

''...Blaine?''

Blaine froze. It was Kurt. Kurt had just noticed him being there and hit him in the face.

''Have you been following me the entire way?''

Blaine rubbed his face, ''kind of.''

''Why?''

For once Blaine whished Kurt wouldn't ask, but he decided the truth would be the easiest. ''I saw you sneak out two weeks ago, and I- I kind of saw you sneak out every night since then, and I got so curious, but I couldn't ask.''

''Why? Why couldn't you ask?'' Kurt demanded to know.

Kurt was mad at him and Blaine felt like crying, ''because I knew you wouldn't tell me the truth.''

Something in Kurt's eyes softened in the dim light from the street lamps, like Blaine had said something that had touched him. He started to walk ''come then,'' he sighed.

Blaine followed him willingly.

''I haven't been completely honest with you Blaine, but I haven't exactly lied either, I have just been keeping some things to myself. I have lived in Lima before, and I didn't feel like telling you, because I didn't remember if we'd met, I didn't want you to remember. I didn't want to remember.''

Kurt stopped walking and looked down; Blaine followed his gaze and tried to hold back his gasp. Elizabeth Hummel the stone said, Blaine had thought about Kurt never mentioning a mother in his tales of the Hummel's, only his father Burt, but he'd never asked, now he hated himself for it.

''your mother?'' Blaine asked stunned, and Kurt nodded.

''Kurt, I'm so...''

''Please don't say you're sorry, everyone does that. I don't want you to be like everyone.''

After a while Blaine cleared his throat, ''you go here every night?''

''Yes.''

Blaine might not understand, but he wanted to, he wanted to ask why and how she died, for how long she'd been gone, the questions whirling in his head, but he kept them inside, now wasn't the moment. Instead he said, ''I'm sorry I followed you Kurt.''

A pause.

''It's okay, I'm not mad at you, but you should have asked.''

''I should.''

The walk back was quiet, only the sound of some distant cars was heard, and Blaine wondered what people was doing up now, and if Kurt was thinking the same thing or if he's still thinking of his mother.

Blaine was also thinking that he wanted to hug Kurt, not because he liked him, or because he was inhumanly pretty, but because he felt bad for him. He didn't though, because he knew Kurt didn't want anyone feeling bad for him, he wanted to appear strong and independent, and he did, but Blaine wondered if he was lonely sometimes, and he never wanted Kurt to be lonely. Mostly because he's been there himself, before he met Rachel.

Kurt bid him a small goodbye in his front lawn, and that was it. Blaine was afraid he might have ruined everything, that Kurt might not want to speak to him the next day, he had gotten what he had hoped for, but he'd also hurt his friend, and in the end, it hadn't been worth it.

***

Days went by where Kurt seemed to act like he didn't remember the night. The morning after he'd greeted Blaine the same way he did every morning, and Blaine, confused as he was, almost forgot to say hi back. He wanted to ask. He wanted to ask so badly but it was kind of his fault Kurt had gotten upset last time, and he didn't want to make him sad again. So Blaine decided to be patient, let Kurt come to him if he wanted, and if he never wanted to talk about it again, that was okay too. Blaine wasn't going to push, he'd promised himself he wouldn't jeopardize this.

They spent more time together, they met up with Rachel at Breadstix, they went to the mall to shop for clothes, they stayed home in Blaine's front lawn to read, and Blaine even met Burt Hummel who was both really nice and a bit scary. Everything was okay between them, so Blaine didn't ask Kurt about his mother. He didn't feel like it was appropriate, and honestly, he was afraid Kurt would push him away.

The following weeks, Blaine just went to bed instead of waiting up, he worried about Kurt, but he also felt some of his energy return.

But one night a sound woke him up. Half asleep, Blaine stumbled to his window and almost got hit by a piece of gravel as he opened it. It was so dark, but the voice was easily recognizable.

''You coming down Juliet?''

'Kurt?''

''Yeah, come on, I want to show you something.''

''I-''

Kurt sighed dramatically ''I know, I know, it's late, and you think I'm still mad at you for last time you followed me, and you have been debating whether to bring it up or not, but listen, I'm not mad I just needed time to think about it, so are you coming.''

Blaine gaped at him for a second before answering, ''okay.''

He went down as quietly as he could, the whole way begging his parents wouldn't wake up, it all would be a little hard to explain to them.

***

Easy.

That was Blaine's thoughts right now. It was so easy to be with Kurt, to forget that they weren't more than friends because his thoughts were pure love, it was easy to forget his mother was dead and it was hurting him even if he clearly couldn't admit it, it was easy for Blaine to forget his parents when he looked into those eyes and saw that smile.

Kurt was walking beside him, not smiling, not looking sad either, just looking like Kurt, a face Blaine had gotten so familiar with for staring at it too much. And his body moved under his clothes as he walked, muscles tightening in his arms as he lifted himself over a fence, Blaine knew he should stop staring like that, he was a teenager and all, but he felt like he was invading Kurt's privacy, like it was somehow forbidden to have those thoughts about him. Blaine didn't know if Kurt wanted it, hell, he didn't even know which gender Kurt preferred.

He was pretty sure though, that Kurt was just his friend, no matter how much he wanted it to be otherwise, no matter how many scenarios he made up in his head of them confessing their love in long, sappy-romantic conversations and sweet kisses.

Then the question hits again, ''what are you thinking?''

Blaine almost stopped walking, ''I, um, I was thinking about you.''

''Me?''

''Yeah.''

Blaine felt his heart speed up, please don't ask, please.

''Okay.''

Blaine could cry with relief, Kurt must have caught up on Blaine's nerves and let it go, he probably already knew how Blaine felt from all of Blaine's creepy staring, and staying up looking after him. If Kurt didn't know he would have asked, Blaine concluded, and felt embarrassed.

Blaine wanted to tell him everything he felt, he wanted it out, but he couldn't, not yet. He needed time to construct the right sentences, find the perfect words. Was this so hard for everyone? Falling in love? It looked so easy in the books.

''We're here now.'' Kurt whispered as they entered... the school football field.

''what are we doing here?'' Blaine asked as he looked around for other people who might be there, he didn't find any.

Kurt spun around, the smile back on, and pointed towards the sky ''look up Blaine Anderson.''

Blaine couldn't help but laugh out loud; the sky was covered with millions of stars, not a cloud in sight. It was almost too cliché, and for some reason it gave Blaine hope that one day Kurt might feel a fraction of what he felt in that moment. It was weird that stars could make you feel that way.

Kurt threw himself on the ground, reaching out for Blaine to do the same. The grass were slightly damp, but it didn't matter, the stars did though, so did Kurt. The many suns glistened in the night sky and it was then, in their silent stargazing, the final question was asked.

''Blaine?''

''Yeah?''

''I need to ask you something.''

Blaine looked over at him, ''anything,'' he whispered.

A pause, Blaine held his breath.

''If I asked you, would you run away with me?''