Blaine's mother was undeniably beautiful. The mother and son were a lot alike, so Kurt thought.

Both had the same dark curly hair, although Blaine's moms flowed in long ringlets down past her shoulders.

They both had the same smile, and affectionate energy that made Kurt want to keep a constant grin on his pale features.

The only difference being their eyes, although both were breathtakingly stunning. Blaine's were a dark brown, with specks on green and yellow, Kurt often got lost in those eyes.

His moms were the opposite, a piercing crystal blue that glistened with enthusiasm. 

Blaine's mother insisted Kurt call her Alison.
The two got on like a house on fire, just as Blaine had reassured Kurt they would.

Kurt also found out where Blaine got his open mindedness from, especially about sex when his mother asked...

"So, how far have you boys gotten" This reduced Kurt to a coughing fit, making the pale boy a new shade of red

The subject was dropped the moment Alison realized Kurt was uncomfortable with the topic. 

The three chatted for hours, talking about Fashion, the camp, Kurt's family and whatever else flooded their eager minds.

But finally it was time to bid their goodbyes...

It was half twelve by the time Blaine placed his laptop back under his bed.
Kurt yawned and gratefully snuggled into Blaine's arms.

"Your mom is amazing" He muttered against the crook of his neck.

"I know"

Kurt yawned and snuggled further into the crook of Blaine's neck. "Hmm, comfy" Blaine grinned, taking the chance to press kisses down Kurt's neck.

Kurt thought nothing of it to start with, smiling as Blaine's lips pressed sweet butterfly kisses against his skin.
Blaine smiled and sucked harder, pinning the boy against the bed.

"Baby, I-I'm kind of tired, do we have to?" Blaine pulled away. 

"You said we could, I want to" Blaine pouted.

"I never realized it would be so late by time we finished skyping, Blaine, I'll make it up to you...okay?" Kurt reasoned.

"No Kurt, I want you, I need you...look!" Blaine grabbed Kurts hand and pressed it against the bulge in his pants.

Blaine! What the hell!" 

Kurt pulled his hand away in shock and anger. "What happened to 'I wont make you do anything you're uncomfortable with'"

"or was that a big fat lie!" Kurt shouted.

"God Kurt, no need to be such a fucking prude!" Blaine snapped.

Kurt tried hard to calm down, he knew this wasn't his Blaine. He knew he couldn't control it, but it all seemed so real!

"Come on Baby, I'll make you feel really good" Blaine said, lips roughly finding Kurt's again.

"No, Blaine!"

"Why? ...Dont you love me!" Blaine was slowly getting hysterical. "Or was that just a 'BIG FAT LIE'"

Kurt took deep breaths and said camly.
"I do love you, I love you so, so much"

LIAR!"

Blaine launched forward, lips crushing Kurts
Kurt struggled pushing against his chest, tears rolling down his cheeks.

"N-No stop! Blaine!" He shoved hard against the boys chest.

Blaine's head was racing, heart beating fast.
His eyes flashed...Sad, anger, confusion...desire.

"No! Let me make you feel good Kurt!"

Kurt tried so hard to calm down, wiping his eyes...This wasn't His Blaine..

"Tomorrow baby, okay?"

But Blaine was still fighting the war going on inside his head, the want...the need...He couldn't think straight...

He pushed himself back against Kurt, Kurt squirmed under him, he pushed hard against him, sending him off rolling of off him.

"STOP IT!" Kurt screamed.

Neither boy could have foreshadowed what happened next.

Blaine's hand collided with the side of Kurt's cheek, the sickening sound of Kurt's cry of pain and flesh hitting flesh surrounding them. Kurt's head jerking to the side.

Blaine froze. eyes going wide.
"Shit, Kurt!"

He reached out a hand to Kurt who flinched away from him.

"I-I can't you-...I"
He clutched his stinging cheek and shot up from the bed, tears streaming.

He made his way out the bedroom.

If he would have looked back to see his boyfriends eyes he would have found a man....a lost...broken man...staring after him with wide, scared pleading eyes as the love of his life left him alone.

His face crumpled and he let out an agonized sob, clutching and tugging at the curls on his head, biting his lip so hard he drew blood.

The door shut with a soft click...

 Kurt woke up on Katie's couch the following morning. Cheeks stained with tear streaks and bags under his eyes from the little sleep he had managed to get.

Another tear rolled slowly down his cheek, landing on his bottom lip and then proceeding to fall on the blanket silently.

The pink mark on his cheek a visual reminder of the events of the night before.

He didn't know what to do...

He knew that last night was not the man he loved. The Blaine he loved would never ever hit him.

But on the other hand last night had brought back so many memories of that day in the locker room.

Karofsky's rough lips pressed against his..

He shook his head once again in attempt to rid himself from the vile thoughts...


 He knew Blaine would be beating himself up right now. The thought made his chest ache and another round of tears fill his eyes.

In the back of his mind he felt Katie's hand rub soothing circles on his back.

"Kurt" She spoke finally..."You need to talk to him"

"I-I know"

"Go take a shower, okay? and get changed...but you have to talk to him Kurt...He loves you, and you love him...You'd be blind to be unable to see that"

"I-I love him so much! K-Katie! So m-much"
Kurt sobbed.

"I know sweetie...I know...Go shower okay?"

Kurt nodded walking to the bathroom to take his shower, the hot water doing nothing to relax him.

He showered until the water turned cold and he was forced to get out.
He changed back into his clothes and ran a shaky hand through his hair.

He let out a breath, refusing to check his reflection in the mirror, knowing he would look awful.

He made his way back to the living room and met Katie's eye.
She gave a slow nod to Kurt who kept on walking, hand finding the door handle and twisting.

He walked down the hall way.
there was no turning back.

He took a deep breath as he came face to face with the door to their apartment.

He raised a trembling hand, forming a fist and knocked. 

A few moments later the door swung open, revealing a man Kurt hardly recognized.

The happy glimmer in Blaine's eyes had gone. Now, they held no emotion, staring blankly straight through the boy in front of him.

Deep purple bags sat under his eyes, cheeks stained with tears.
He was clad in the same clothes as the day before.

"Oh Blaine" 

Blaine burst into sobs, the bruise on Kurts cheek proving to much for him.

"I-I'm so- s-so sorry Kurt! I'm so s-s-sorry!"

"Shhh, Baby"

Blaine shook his head.

"Don't call me that- I-I don't deserve to be called that!"

"Yes, yes you do Blaine!"

"No Kurt, I c-can't!"

The door shut behind Kurt as he walked in attempting to wrap his arms around Blaine.

"D-Don't..we can't..we can't be together"

Tears slid down Kurts face

"Don't say that, I love you so much!"

"I can't I hurt you!" Blaine cried, backing away.

"No, that wasn't you baby!"

"It was...It was the other me, y-you shouldn't have to deal with this K-Kurt. It's not fair on you!"

"I knew what I was doing Blaine, W-when I agreed to be your boyfriend. I knew this would happen!"

Kurt said stepping closer.

"It broke me Kurt! I hurt you!" He sobbed.

"It's okay"

"IT'S NOT OKAY KURT"

Blaine bit his lip hard once again, reopening the cut that he had produced last night.

"Blaine" Kurt whispered, reaching out to glide a thumb over the cut, wiping the blood off his lip.

Blaine closed his eyes, body leaning into the touch, his breathing labored.

"I Can't...We can't" He breathed.

"Remember what you told me? We are Kurt and Blaine...nothing is going to change that"

"B-But I can't control myself Kurt"

"It's okay...I love you"

"You can't ...Im a monster" He whispered.

"You're beautiful, kind caring....I. Love. You... Even your other side"

"Impossible" Blaine shook his head.


"let me show you" Kurt stroked Blaines cheek.

"I'm going to give you something no one else can. I love you Blaine Anderson"
Blaine opened his eyes, meeting Kurts.

"I love you too...I n-need to tell you something...before we..."

Kurt nodded.
"Anything"

Blaine took a deep breath.
"Y-You are it for me Kurt, the one I've been looking for forever, a-and one day K-Kurt...I'm...I'm going to m-m-marry y-you.." His voice broke, tears falling freely.

Kurt's breath hitched.
"I would like n-nothing more"

Kurt closed the gap between them, sighing in relief as his lips met Blaine's.
He felt Blaine relax in his arms instantly.

"K-Kurt...I love you"

"I know baby, I love you too"

He grabbed Blaine's hand and led them to the bedroom.

He pushed Blaine down gently on the bed, his head resting on the soft pillows. 

for a moment they just stared, eyes fixed on each others. The atmosphere calm and sweet and loving.

It's like Kurt was blind and now he could see...Every sense  was heightened.

Every ragged breath Blaine took Kurt could hear, every flutter of those black lush lashes he saw.

"You're perfect" Kurt said before he could stop himself.

He climbed onto the bed, hovering over Blaine who was looking at the younger boy, his eyebrows pulled together like he was trying to solve a tricky math problem.

Blaine raised a hand, It settling on the back of Kurt's neck.
"K-Kiss me" He breathed.

Kurt ducked his head, lips pressing softly against his boyfriends.
Blaine's fingers weaved into Kurt's damp locks from the shower he had just taken.
Blaine's lips parted against Kurt's, eyes fluttering closed.

Just allowing himself to feel..

Kurt's knees were either side of Blaine's hips, one hand supporting his weight while the other cupped Blaine's cheek lovingly.

His lips moving against Blaine's slowly.

Blaine suddenly whimpered, and Kurt pulled back to see Blaine crying gently. Large salty tears were tumbling down his face in a waterfall.

Hey, hey what's wrong?" Kurt frowned, his thumb moving back and forth against Blaine's cheek comfortingly. 
"We don't have to do this baby"

"I-I can't, I can't live with out you Kurt, please, please just..."

"Just what?" Kurt asked kissing Blaine's forehead. 

"I just need you," Blaine breathed.

Kurt smiled, "You have me," He whispered. He kissed Blaine's lips again slowly, Blaine's lips slightly drier against his own.


Blaine took his hands from Kurt's hair and tugged gently as his shirt, "Kurt...please?" He mumbled looking up with hopeful eyes.


Kurt nodded, nerves settling in his stomach. He lifted his arms as Blaine pulled his shirt up over his head. "You're beautiful" he breathed.

Kurt smiled a soft Blush on his cheeks. "Can I?" He gestured to Blaine's shirt.

Blaine nodded. "P-Please Baby"

Kurt unbuttoned the three buttons on his polo shirt before pulling it over his head. Kurt traced a finger down the slightly defined abs.

Blaine shivered at the touch. "Please" He whimpered.

Kurt chuckled slightly, "What do you want?" 

"Anything, Kurt I just, just need to feel...loved," Blaine blushed.

Kurt's heart melted slightly, "you're loved...I'm going to make you feel good," He promised gently, he kissed Blaine again, his hands hard on Blaine's chest.

He pressed his lips harder against Blaine's, pushing him further back into the soft pillows. Blaine gasped a bit, his hand locking on Kurt's waist.

Blaine's hands slid further down to rest on the buckle of Kurt's designer belt. "Kurt...Can I? "

Kurt hesitated for a split second before nodding, "of course".
His eyes locked on the boy below him. Blaine smiled, ghosting his fingers up and down Kurt's stomach before undoing his belt revealing his silky black boxer briefs, his hard on evident against the thin material. 

Undoing his belt revealing his silky black boxer briefs, his hard on evident against the thin material. 

 Blaine sighed at the sight, licking his lips without realizing,
Kurt blushed slightly, his cheeks growing warm.

Blaine looked up at him, his eyes a lot darker than they were before but still that beautiful shade of Hazel.

Kurt took a deep, nervous breath, biting his bottom lip.
His heart pounding so loudly he was almost sure Blaine could hear it, suddenly realizing, this was it...

And... that he was ready, he felt it, deep in his stomach. A sense of belonging, love and trust.

"I'm so in love with you," He breathed gently.

Blaine smiled at him, his eyes brightening slightly. He leant up on his elbows and kissed Kurt's forehead, down the bridge of his nose, and then finally his lips.

"I'm so in love with you t-too."

The amount of love flowing through his body for the boy above him that he could barley handle It.

Kurt bit his lip and hesitated before whispering, "I-I'm scared"

...Kurt was sure about this, he loved Blaine so much, but the nerves in his stomach were getting worse every second.

Blaine nodded in understanding, "Me too" he admitted, "But we're in this together."

Kurt nodded, intertwining their fingers, letting out a long breath..."how are we...I mean...Who?" Kurt trailed of blushing.

"Are you 100 percent sure?" Blaine asked gently, he squeezed Kurt's hand and smiled at him.

Kurt nodded again, his throat feeling slightly dry, he knew he wouldn't sound confident if he spoke...

Blaine reached up, tracing Kurt's cheek with a calloused finger gently.

"I don't mind who tops or who bottoms" He blushed slightly.

"I-Um...I want you t-to" Kurt blushed, ducking his head and hiding his face.

Blaine cupped Kurt's face making him look up at him, "Okay."


Kurt bit his lip, meeting Blaine's eyes..."D-Does it hurt?"

"Well...yes but..." Kurt's eyes turned panicked. "We'll go slowly, we can stop at anytime. You trust me right?


"I-I yes...B-But" Kurt breathed heavily. "S-scared Blaine"

"I know...we don't have to Kurt, I love you, you love me. That's all I need."
Blaine's eyes were kind.

"I-I don't know what to s-say or do...I want...I can't" Kurt panicked.

"Okay, okay that's fine. Kurt calm down, sweetie," Blaine comforted him, tracing a small pattern down his chest of love hearts.

"I-Im sorry...I really, really want to B-Blaine" Kurt sniffed.

Blaine sighed, "Baby you have nothing to be sorry for."

Kurt curled up against his boyfriend. "Blaine...I really do want to...I-im just scared and..." Kurt sighed.

"I know, I want to as well but, I'm not pushing you into anything, not again." Blaine said, his voice darkening slighting at the memory.

"No...Don't think about that...Okay? That wasn't you"

"It was, this thing, it's a part of me." Blaine muttered sadly.

Kurt sighed. "How many times do I have to tell you it doesn't bother me? That I love you either way?"

Blaine just shrugged sadly, burying his nose in Kurt's hair and breathing in deeply, he loved Kurt's scent.

Kurt slid an arm around his waist.
"Well, I'll tell you every day, if that's what it takes"

"You'll be with me every day?" Blaine whispered, his eyes closing.

"If that's what it takes" Kurt repeated.

Blaine smiled, his eyes still closed, listening to Kurt's even breathing.

Blaine's eyes remained squeezed shut. "Baby are you okay?"

 "Hmm...Headache" Blaine mumbled..."Come closer Kurrrrtt"

"Maybe because you're tired", Kurt frowned. He ran his hair through Blaine's curls, "Maybe we should sleep."

"We can work this all out later," Kurt whispered, "I'm going to love you till the end of time Blaine, we have forever to work this out."


"Yeah sweetie?" Kurt replied, smiling softly, his blue eyes sparkling.

"W-when I hit you...I-I thought I'd never see you again...I love you so, so much Kurt...don't leave me" Blaine whispered.

"Never." Kurt promised, he sat up and kissed Blaine's lips gently "Never, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, and ever."

Blaine smiled, eyes still closed..."never ever?"

"Never ever," Kurt repeated gently, his hand tracing over Blaine's lips gently. Blaine kissed them, his eyes still closed.

 "I love you just the way you are Blaine Anderson. You're perfect."

Kurt whispered, his pressed a sweet kiss to Blaine forehead before snuggling beside him with a sigh.
Blaine stirred next to him.

"I-I love yo- Kurt...I-I feel sick" Blaine whispered.



Kurt frowned, sitting up again, "What's wrong?"

"I-Im really hot...can you ta-take my shorts off" A quiver in his voice.

Kurt gulped, "Umm...yeah, sure," He sat up and undid the button and zip of Blaine's shorts

Blaine kicked them off immediately "Baby, are you okay?" Kurt asked, voice filled with worry.

"I...I think so," Blaine said wiping his forehead.

"Do you want me to sleep on the other bed?" Kurt asked gently.

"What!? Why?" Blaine asked, his voice raising. "So we don't share body heat," Kurt explained.

"N-No....I'm going for a shower...I need to go for a shower" Blaine said, getting up. Kurt bit his lip, not wanting to leave him alone in such a state.

"Mind if I join you?" He asked.

Blaine froze, "Really?"

"I...I don't want to leave you," Kurt explained blushing.

Blaine held out a slightly sweaty palm that Kurt took quickly, Blaine offering him a weak smile.

"Are we....do you mean..." Kurt bit his lip to stop himself, "Never mind."

Blaine raised an eyebrow..."Tell me...Please?" 

Kurt blushed, "I just don't want to leave you alone, if you feel ill, this doesn't mean..." He trailed off.

"baby...I'm not trying to be bitchy, but my head hurts and I'm tired...so please don't speak in riddles..Just tell me" Blaine said, rubbing his eyes.

Kurt looked up at him, "Just because we're showering together doesn't mean that I'm...that I want to...to have sex."

Blaine let out a whimper, holding his head. "I know baby, we won't...I just need to cool down, and sleep....I'm sorry...This happens

sometimes, if my medicine mixes with something it disagrees with"


"Okay," Kurt agreed, "Come on sweetie."

They walked into the over sized bathroom, Kurt kissing Blaine's forehead before turning his attention onto the shower.

He quickly turned it on, standing awkwardly before remembering they had seen each other naked, and bathed together. Kurt kicked of his shorts and boxers before turning back to his boyfriend. "Come on sweetie, you look really ill are you sure this is normal?"

Blaine looked up from where his head had been dropping on his chest as though he was dozing in and out of sleep, "Um, yeah..."

"What does that mean?" Kurt asked a slight panic in his voice.

"It happens, just...not this bad," Blaine explained, "...can you help me up?"

Kurt helped Blaine to his feet. "I think you should just go to sleep Blaine"...

"I...I don't know," Blaine said looking at the water that was tumbling from the shower.

"Blaine, I'm worried....should I get someone?" Kurt asked, his hand wrapped around Blaine' waist.

"n-no...I just want you...Kurt, I'm so t-tired".

"Okay, come on, let's just get you laid down," Kurt sighed. He helped Blaine back to the bedroom, laying him down gently on bed before kissing his forehead and moving to walk out of the room again.

"Kurt no! No where are you going?" Blaine panicked.

"I'll be right back," Kurt promised him gently.

He returned a minute later with a small bag full of ice, wrapped in a cloth in his hand.

Blaine nodded sleepily with a small smile, "What would I do without you?" He yawned, adorable crinkles apreaing around the corners of his eyes

"God knows" Kurt joked, lying beside him.
"Go to sleep beautiful, I will still be here when you wake up...I love you"

Kurt smiled as he heard Blaine mumble something that sounded like...'I love you more'...