June 2, 2012, 2:49 a.m.
Klaine In Love
I Will Always Love You: Motives pt. 2
E - Words: 1,488 - Last Updated: Jun 02, 2012 Story: Complete - Chapters: 22/22 - Created: Oct 14, 2011 - Updated: Jun 02, 2012 550 0 2 0 0
"Y-you what?" Kurt was stunned. He must have heard incorrectly.
"I am so sorry." Blaine was crying. He reached to hold Kurt's hand, but Kurt pulled away from him.
"It's been two weeks Blaine. Two weeks. And if I remember correctly, a week ago, you were crying on the bathroom floor begging me to take you back. So in the span of one week you, what, got over me and met and fucked some guy?" Kurt felt like the room was spinning.
"Kurt, I am so sorry. It's just; I was so hurt by the break up. And then you told me to move on and that you were having these doubts. I was so mad and I just wanted to find a way to make all that pain and hurt go away. So I did something really stupid. I contacted… a guy I know from Dalton and I went to his house… and we hooked up." Blaine tried his best to explain himself through his tears. "But it didn't work because I called him Kurt. But I'm sure he was just using me to get off so he didn't really care."
"Was it more than once?" Kurt was trying his best to listen and understand.
"Not really. At first it was just frotting, but the last time we together, he wanted to do it naked and then he wanted more… and I just let him…" Blaine stared at his hands, ashamed of himself.
"Why?" Kurt hesitated before placing his hand gently on Blaine's shoulder. Blaine felt himself shatter at the small gesture. He knew Kurt shouldn't be this caring.
"I was feeling so numb about everything and I just didn't care about me anymore" Blaine reasoned.
"Did you want it?" Kurt was almost afraid of the answer. When he saw Blaine's shake his head slowly. "Oh, Blaine… even if you saw yes, it can still be a no." Kurt pulled Blaine into his arms.
"Please don't hate me. I already hate myself. Kurt please don't hate me." Blaine sobbed into Kurt's shoulder. "I love you. Please don't hate me."
Kurt rubbed reassuring circles onto Blaine's back. "I could never hate you. I love you too."
Blaine pulled Kurt tighter. They heard the choir room door open. "What are you guys doing in here?" They looked up to see Mr. Schuester in the doorway.
"Sorry Mr. Shue. Blaine and I were just talking about something really private. I guess we missed homeroom. We're actually gonna go to Miss Pillsbury's office right now." Kurt grabbed Blaine's arm and pulled him out of the room. Blaine kept his head down as they walked down hall to the guidance councilor's office.
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Emma Pillsbury looked up from her desk as the two boys walked in. "Oh hi Kurt, what can I do for you?" She gestured to the chairs in front of her.
"Miss Pillsbury, Blaine and I were wondering if you could give us some couples counseling." Kurt sat a very distraught Blaine in one of the chairs.
"Of course! What seems to be the problem?" She leaned forward, her eyes boring into them unblinkingly.
"Well, we broke up, and now we want to get back together, but some events during the interim may inhibit doing just that." Kurt said matter-of-factly.
"Oh, well why don't you start from the beginning." And so Kurt retold the story of their relationship. He talked about how he fell for Blaine the second he saw him, the way he felt with the Jeremiah incident, about how he confessed his feelings and how they got together. Kurt mentioned how he feared that they had moved too fast. The issues they had about when to have sex and how Blaine had lied about his virginity. He told her about their jealousy issues and the fight over Sebastian. When Kurt got to the past couple days, Blaine broke down into tears again. Miss Pillsbury turned her attention to him. "Blaine? Would you like to talk about how upset you're getting?"
"It's just… I never knew you thought we moved too fast. And that you were having all these doubts and I'm so stupid and selfish!" Blaine practically fell off the chair and into the fetal position. "I'm so stupid."
"Aw, sweetie, you're not stupid. You're a teenage boy." Kurt reached over and stroked his hair. "Everyone makes mistakes. So what? You slept with someone during our break up, it's ok. You said yourself that you didn't really want to, but you just did."
"No Kurt, you don't get it! You'll hate me." Blaine snapped.
"I already told you, I could never hate you. I love you." Kurt pulled back. He had never seen Blaine so on edge.
"Yes, you will." Blaine glared at the floor, he took a few deep breaths. "It was Sebastian, I had sex with Sebastian." With that, he got up and stormed out of the office. Kurt sat frozen. He wasn't sure how he felt. He didn't hate Blaine but he felt like his heart was shattered into a thousand pieces. Blaine was trying to hurt him. There are a ton of gay guys at Dalton and some of the other schools in the tri-county area, but he choose the one guy he knew Kurt would be upset about. Slowly, Kurt stood and bid Miss Pillsbury farewell. It wasn't until he was in the hallway when he ran towards the parking lot.
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"Blaine?" Finn walked in to the locker room and was surprised to find the boy in there and crying. "Dude, what are you doing in here? You're not in weight training."
"I'm hiding from Kurt, I figured he'd never come in here." Blaine stood and turned his back to Finn.
"Right. So can I ask why you're hiding from my brother?" Finn had never felt more awkward, but he liked Blaine. He felt like Blaine was Kurt's perfect match.
"I had sex with someone while we broke up. He told me he wanted to get back together and I told him I had sex with someone. No. Not just someone, Sebastian. I am so stupid!" Blaine turned quickly and punched at the bright red lockers.
"Wait, Sebastian? Isn't that the guy from…"
"Yep."
"And then Kurt…"
"Yep."
"So you…."
"Yep."
"Why?"
Blaine sighed. He was almost embarrassed as to why he went after Sebastian. " after the whole Karofsky coming out to the Glee club thing, I felt like shit. Then Kurt came to find me and told me I should just move on. I felt pathetic and I was so mad at him for leaving me and never really explaining why that I just kind of wanted to hook up with someone else. I wanted him to see why he was so dumb to leave me. But then everything got out of hand and I… it's stupid, I know."
"It's not stupid. We all do dumb things in the name of love. Besides, it's kind of human nature to fuck up." Finn gave him a reassuring pat on the shoulder. "And trust me, Kurt's not perfect. Nor does he expect you to be."
"Thanks Finn, Kurt's lucky to have you as a brother." Blaine gave a small smile.
"Anytime man." Finn went to walk Blaine out back to the hallway.
"When did you get so intuitive?"
Finn laughed. "Rachel makes me watch Dr. Phil."
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Kurt pulled into the Dalton parking lot. He was seeing red as he made his way to the Warbler's choir room. He barged in and everyone turned to look at him.
"Kurt!" Nick went to go hug him but sensed the negative energy and backed away.
Kurt made his way to Sebastian. "You! Stand up!"
Sebastian complied with a smirk. "What? Did your ex-boyfriend tell you how good of a lay I am, and now you want some? You're not my usual type but I can make due."
Kurt had never hated someone so much in his life. He pulled his arm back, made a fist, and slammed it into Sebastian's jaw. The other boy fell back slightly. He went to return the blow but Kurt was too fast and hit him again. This time, Sebastian fell to the ground, clutching his face. "That was for taking advantage of Blaine!" Kurt then kicked him in the hip, "And that was for thinking I would ever want you to touch me." Sebastian cowered in pain. Kurt kicked him again in the stomach. "And that was just because I felt like it!" Kurt turned on his heel and left the room. Every last Warbler was frozen in shock. No one ran after Kurt and no one went to help Sebastian, who was now crawling around asking for someone to take him to a nurse.
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Blaine was sitting at lunch with Brittany, Justin, and Katie when he realized that Kurt wasn't anywhere to be found. Guilt washed over him as he gave up on trying to eat his macaroni. His phone then buzzed with a text.
I'm not mad. I still love you. Come over tonight, I really do want to try us again. –K
Blaine's heart warmed. This was exactly what they needed. A new start.
Comments
No. Not just you. He needs a punch. Except for the fact that he has quite a pretty face... Glad Klaine is back on though. Yay.
mmmm, Grant does have a very pretty face......