June 2, 2012, 2:49 a.m.
Klaine In Love
I Will Always Love You: The Five Stages of Grief
E - Words: 1,586 - Last Updated: Jun 02, 2012 Story: Complete - Chapters: 22/22 - Created: Oct 14, 2011 - Updated: Jun 02, 2012 555 0 2 0 0
Kurt attended all his classes the rest of the week, skillfully avoiding Blaine. He had yet to return to Glee. The weekend brought a much needed break for Kurt. He spent most of the time helping his dad in the shop, Carole with the meals, and Finn with his homework.
"Dude, are you ever coming back to Glee?" Finn asked, looking up from his history paper. They were studying at the kitchen table on Sunday.
"Maybe, I just need some time." Kurt hoped that it would be the end of the discussion. No such luck.
"We all miss you. You shouldn't let some fight with Blaine stop you. I thought Glee was really important to you."
"It is. And it was more than a fight, Finn. Blaine and I broke up."
"I know. But you'll get back together, cause you're meant to be together." Finn said bluntly. He then packed up his books and headed up to his room, leaving Kurt to sit alone.
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Blaine hadn't been himself for the past week. He spent his time in school either moping around or attached to Brittany's side and crying. She tried to get him to come over to her house after school a few times, but he only wanted to go home. Blaine had barely eaten or slept the whole week, and it was starting to get to him. His face was splotchy and sunken in, his hair was dry and brittle, he wore only sweats and Pjs, and he was very irritable.
On Saturday he was sulking in his room when there was a knock on the door. "Go away!" He yelled at who ever it was.
"Not gonna happen." He looked up to see Katie in the doorway. "You know if you really wanted to be left alone you would have used that fancy lock you have."
"Seriously Katie, I am not in the mood."
"Look, I'm sorry. Do you want to talk about it?" Katie approached the bed. Blaine just rolled away from her and shook his head. "Fine. But you can't sulk in here all your life. If you won't listen to me, I know someone you can't ignore." She turned and left the room.
Blaine laid in silence for a minute or two before he heard the stampede of small feet. Suddenly a tiny mass jumped up on to his bed. "Blainey, you get out of this bed right now!" Anna glared at him.
"Anna, you don't get it."
"Don't get what? That you were dumped? Yea, I get that. But honestly Blaine, you smell. You need a shower and to brush your teeth." Anna was so matter-of-fact, that Blaine let out a small laugh.
"Ok fine. I'm getting up."
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Monday was the first day Kurt felt somewhat normal. He was still upset over the break up, but he was beginning to accept it. He decided to return to Glee that day. When he walked into the choir room, he sat between Mercedes and Puck. It was where he used to sit before he transferred to Dalton. Blaine was the last to enter the room. He sat next to Brittany and Justin. Kurt could help but feel a pain in his chest when he saw how broken Blaine looked.
Kurt drowned out most of Mr. Shue's lecture. Then there was a knock at the door. Everyone looked over to see Dave Karofsky standing there awkwardly. "How can I help you David?" Mr. Shue asked.
"Uhm, I was wondering if I could talk to everyone about something?" Karofsky shuffled slowly into the room.
"Oh ok. The floor is yours."
"Well, uhm. First of all, I really want to apologize to any of you that I was a bully to. It's just that I was so angry. I was angry at myself, my situation, and just the world I guess and I took it out on the wrong people. I know that's not really much of an excuse, but it's true. The reason I was angry was cause I was afraid." Karofsky hesitated. "Look, I'm only saying this to you guys cause you'll understand and stuff. And I know I can trust some of you." He glanced quickly at Kurt, Blaine, and Santana. "But the truth is, I was afraid of who I am. I was afraid because I'm…I'm gay. You the only ones who know."
The room was silent. Kurt smiled at him warmly at him. Mike, Artie, Finn, and Puck looked like deer caught in headlights. Mercedes and Tina looked confused. Blaine avoided eye contact. It was Brittany who broke the tension. "Wait? You're a dolphin too?"
"It's about damn time!" Santana laughed. "I wasn't sure how much longer I could keep that secret!"
"You knew?" Quinn asked.
"Well, I for one would like to congratulate you on coming out. If you ever need council, my two gay dads would be more than happy to advise you!" Rachel added.
"Is that why you were mean to my Kurty?" Brittany looked really sad.
"Kind of, I guess… I don't know." Karofsky was staring at his feet.
"So what? Are you hot for Hummel and so you went all elementary school boy crush on him?" Puck joked.
"I…uhm…well…" Karofsky was blushing.
"Oh my god! You like Hummel!" Santana deduced.
Karofsky looked apologetically at Kurt before slowly nodding. There were a series of 'aww's and cat calls from the group.
"Get some Hummel." Puck cheered.
"Wanky." Santana said with a wink.
There was a sudden bang. Everyone's attention went to the side of the room. Blaine's chair was thrown to the ground and Blaine, himself, was running out of the room. A wave of guilt spread over the room.
"Wow, really nice guys." Justin shook his head at the group, "Way to have tact." He turned and followed Blaine out of the room.
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"Blaine?" Justin followed Blaine into the bathroom. "Blaine, are you in here?"
A choked sob came from one of the stalls. "Justin, just leave me alone. I should have known. They're Kurt's friends, they don't care about me."
"That's not true. They just reacted inappropriately. Besides Puck and Santana are always crude." Justin said through the door. The bathroom door opened again. Blaine heard a muffled argument between Justin and an unknown person. "Fine. But I doubt he wants to talk to you!"
"Blaine?" It was Kurt. "Can you come out? Or at least let me in?"
Blaine opened the stall door and allowed Kurt to slip in. "what do you want, Kurt?"
"Look about Dave, I had no idea he was going to say that, any of it. I'm sorry if everyone upset you."
"Just tell me answer me something. Is he why you left me?" Blaine's eye were rimmed with a fresh set of tears.
"What? No." Kurt sighed. "Blaine, maybe we should have talked about this. I didn't break up with you because of anyone but myself. My whole life was becoming my boyfriend. I missed my friends, my family, my independence, and my space. You were my first boyfriend. You were the first guy to even show interest in me. But the fact that we were so serious so fast, it's not normal. I just think we need to take this time to really grow up. And then, if it's meant to be, we can go back to being us. But please, do us both a favor and try and move past this. I know it hurts and I know it's hard but it's for the best."
"But I love you. I love you so much. Why can't you just love me back?" Blaine pleaded through his tears.
"I love you, too." Blaine leaned forward to hold him, but Kurt stopped him. "But, it wouldn't be fair for me to be with you when I am having doubts and jealousy issues. I'm just…. Sorry." Kurt placed his hand on his shoulder before getting up and walking out of the bathroom.
Fine, Blaine thought, if Kurt wants me to move on, I'll do just that. Blaine then went to his locker to grab his stuff and headed off to his car.
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"Kurt?" Kurt turned around to see Karofsky running up to him. "Uhm, about the whole liking you thing…"
"Save it. It was said and you can't take back the past." Kurt reasoned.
"I'm sorry about the Blaine thing too."
Kurt looked at Karofsky. If you ignored his angry past, he wasn't that bad looking. And without the stress of being in the closet, his eyes were warm and kind. "It's fine. He'll be fine."
"As long as you're not mad…"
"Dave? Would you like to go get some coffee with me?" Kurt surprised himself, but maybe it was a good blurt.
"Yea, I'd love that!" Karofsky's face lit up and his smile stayed as they made the short trip to the Lima Bean.
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Blaine sat on his bed with his laptop open. After stalking around Facebook for an hour, he found the profile he was looking for and luckily it had an AIM screen name viewable to the public.
BlaineASinger: Hey, idk if you remember me, but we met at Jeff's Halloween party.
BlaineASinger: It's Blaine.
SebTheHottie: Oh I remember you, sexy.
BlaineASinger: cool. So what's up?
SebTheHottie: Not much. You get rid of that uppity boyfriend?
BlaineASinger: yea he dumped me…. That night actually.
SebTheHottie: Good. Now I can ask you out.
SebTheHottie: How about tonight? Come up to my house for a movie night?
BlaineASinger: Movie night? Seems tame for you :-P
SebTheHottie: Depends on the movie we watch ;)
BlaineASinger: 6pm?
SebTheHottie: Jeff's giving me your number right now. I'll text you the address. See ya in a few sexy ;)
BlaineASinger: ok. Later
Blaine took a deep breath and started digging for the perfect outfit. He was going to move on and it was going to be tonight.
Comments
Ah. No! Freaking no! Too much angst.
I'm trying to get the next chapter within 48 hours. But the happy will be back eventually.....