The Nightmares Return

"I'm so glad to be back in our room..." Blaine groaned as he sat his basket down at the end of his bed and slid off his shoes. All Blaine wanted to do was get ready for bed and spend the time with Kurt in bed watching movies or Gilmore Girl's and of course kissing him. "Do you want to shower first or do you want me too..."

Kurt bit his bottom lip to refrain himself from saying what he really wanted to say out loud but it didn't stop him from thinking it to himself. Why don't we take one together...Kurt you are not at that point in the relationship yet... Kurt let out a sigh and turned around so he was facing Blaine, who was looking at him with an eyebrow raised and his head tilted to the side.

"What is that look for...you want to say something..." Blaine sat down on the edge of his bed watching Kurt's face, he was chewing on his bottom lip and his eyebrows were both quirked, he was thinking about something and Blaine knew it.

"I..." Kurt shook his head, Blaine wasn't ready for that and he didn't want to say it and freak him out. "It's nothing bad, don't worry..." Kurt let out a small chuckle when Blaine's dark eyebrows rose. He was so cute when he did that. Kurt crossed the room and sat down beside Blaine. "Really it's just my brain doing its normal thinking..." Kurt laughed again when Blaine's eyebrow's knitted together causing crease lines in his forehead. Kurt ran his thumb across Blaine's forehead.

"All I did was ask..." Blaine stopped talking and pulled his bottom lip between his teeth. He felt the blush come on his face even though he was hoping that it wouldn't. "You want to shower together don't you?" Blaine knew this was what Kurt was thinking.

Kurt let out a sigh; he should have known that Blaine would put it together. "I told you it was nothing bad...I just didn't want to say it and freak you out...because I know..." Kurt was silenced by Blaine's fingers coming up and pressing against his lips.

Blaine lowered his hand and placed them on Kurt's thighs and then stared at his hands. "I'll shower with you..." Blaine waited for a few minutes thinking he was going to get a response from Kurt but when he said nothing he looked up at his face, Kurt looked like he was going to pass out. Blaine cupped Kurt's jaw and ran his thumb over his cheekbone. "Baby did you hear me?"

Kurt nodded slowly and then pulled Blaine too him wrapping his arms tight around him, successfully pulling Blaine into his lap. "Say it again though..." Kurt whispered against Blaine's ear, causing Blaine to shiver.

"I'll shower with you..."

Kurt couldn't help the groan that escaped his lips at Blaine's words and at the movement Blaine was currently making trying to get into a more comfortable position and he urged his body to control itself. Kurt nodded again but kept his arms tight around Blaine's waist, as eager as he was to take a shower with Blaine he wasn't going to rush this and would do it how Blaine wanted to. Kurt felt Blaine try to move away from him so he loosened his arms and let Blaine move freely.

Blaine slid back some so he could look at Kurt better. He wanted to talk to him but was nervous. "I will shower with you...but..."

"I know its just showering nothing more..." Kurt interrupted Blaine because he already knew what he was going to say and he wanted Blaine to know that he already knew that nothing was going to happen and that he was perfectly fine with it.

Blaine nodded. "I'm not there yet..." Blaine wanted to say this because he wanted Kurt to know that he would get there he just wasn't yet. "If it's okay, I will go in first and then you can join me after I'm in..." Blaine really hoped Kurt would be okay with this because he didn't know if he could get undressed with Kurt watching him, not yet.

"That's more than okay baby..." Kurt leaned up some and pressed his lips against Blaine's...

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Blaine let out a long breath he hadn't realized he had been holding as he closed the bathroom door behind him feeling his heart pounding in his chest. He had told Kurt that once he was ready to get into the shower, he would leave the bathroom door opened just a crack for him. Blaine couldn't believe that he was going to see his beautiful Kurt naked, sure he had had dreams about it already, and it was only natural, right? He is a fifteen year old teenage boy after all, but he didn't think he would be seeing Kurt naked this soon in their relationship. Was it too soon? Blaine found himself doubting it was the right thing to do as he walked over to the shower and turned on the water adjusting the temperature and closing the curtain to let it heat up. He quickly stripped out of his shirt and then his jeans and underwear. He grabbed two towels and laid them out onto the toilet, one for him and one for Kurt. God he was nervous and it showed in his hands that had begun to tremble. Though he was nervous and doubting, he would not back out on this, he would not do that to Kurt. He trusted Kurt wholeheartedly.

Blaine let out another long breath and then walked to the door cracking it open just a little bit and then he made his way to the shower, slipping in past the curtain and under the water and couldn't help but wonder if the water was too hot for Kurt...

Kurt watched as Blaine disappeared into the bathroom, he was really shocked that he had agreed to let him shower with him but also overwhelmed that Blaine trusted him that much. It meant a lot to him. More than words could express. Kurt took a few deep breaths and then made his way to the door when he saw it crack open. He waited a few more seconds giving Blaine plenty of time to get into the shower before he entered the bathroom himself. Kurt took one more deep breath and then walked into the now warm and steamy bathroom closing the door all the way behind him.

He slipped out of his clothes faster than he usually would have, almost tripping when he got his jeans and underwear to his stuck on his long feet, he desperately tried to pull the pants off, failing miserably. He heard Blaine snicker and he looked up at him through the clear top of the shower curtain, he wasn't watching Kurt but he must have known what was going on by the grunt noise Kurt had made when he almost fell on his face on the tile floor. Kurt finally freed himself of the frustrating fabric with a groan and just dropped them on the floor in a pile. He would deal with them later. Kurt bit his bottom lip as he made his way to the curtain, gripping it, slid it aside and then stepped in, keeping his eyes trained on Blaine's upper body.

Blaine opened his eyes when he heard the crinkle of the heavy plastic as Kurt open the shower curtain and then close it. He looked back over his shoulder at him. Kurt's eyes were trained on his face now. Blaine smiled. "Hi..." It was a whisper but he knew Kurt heard him.

"Hey you..." Kurt responded and stepped a little closer to his boyfriend. If Blaine was nervous he was hiding it well. "Can I help?" Kurt motioned to the light blue shower loofah in Blaine's hand that he had just poured body wash onto. He watched Blaine's Adam's apple bob as he swallowed and then he nodded, holding the loofah out towards Kurt. Kurt smiled at him and then took the now foamy loofah; he was surprised that his hands were not shaking violently. Blaine had turned back to him again. Kurt placed the loofah on the back of Blaine's neck, as he moved the loofah down he noticed the birthmark at the base of Blaine's neck, right where his right shoulder dips towards his spine. Kurt ran the pad of his finger gently over the mark that was darker than Blaine's skin tone. It was sexy, he had noticed it before but this was the first time he had really enjoyed just looking at it. Kurt smiled and then moved the soapy loofah to Blaine's shoulders, moving it in small circles.

Blaine had tipped his head forward, relaxing into the touches; this made Kurt smile even more. The kind of smile that made your cheeks hurt. Kurt was going to enjoy taking care of Blaine like this. Kurt started to slide the loofah back to the center of Blaine's back, where he ran his fingers over the birthmark again and then he started moving the loofah down Blaine's back washing the soft skin. When he got to the dimples on his lower back just before his swell of Blaine's butt Kurt stopped. God he loved these dimples they were super sexy and Kurt let out a sigh and had to remind himself not to let his eyes travel with the loofah in his hands.

Blaine turned his head to look back at Kurt when he heard him let out a sigh and his hand had stopped washing his skin. It had felt good and he wasn't sure what Kurt had stopped for. "What's wrong?" He dared to ask.

Kurt smiled at Blaine before he started moving the loofah back up over his back towards his shoulders again. He wasn't going to let Blaine know that he really wanted to just stand there and stare at him and all of his wondrous glorious nakedness. "Can you turn around for me?" Kurt asked when he reached the top of Blaine's left shoulder. Blaine nodded at him and turned around so he was facing him. Kurt smiled and then started washing down Blaine's chest, he may or may not have purposely ran his thumb over Blaine's nipple, causing them to become firm under the loofah. Blaine had let out a moan but stifled most of it by biting his bottom lip. When Kurt got to Blaine's bellybutton he stopped the movement of the loofah but let his fingers slide against the dark hair just below said bellybutton. Blaine shivered at this and Kurt started chewing on his bottom lip. "I think I better give this back to you, before I am tempted to..." Kurt smiled when he saw Blaine blush and nod.

Blaine took the loofah back from Kurt and quickly washed his lower half trying to ignore the thoughts of Kurt's hands doing it. He glanced at Kurt; he was watching the water behind Blaine's head. He was trying hard not to make Blaine uncomfortable. This made Blaine smile. Blaine liked the idea of Kurt's hands on him washing him all over but that was something he knew he wasn't ready for, not yet anyways. When he was done he stepped under the water and started washing the soapy lather from his body, washing the loofah as he did so. He glanced to the shelves in the corner of the shower and saw Kurt's spongy loofah and his body wash. Blaine hung his own loofah back on the hook and then picked up Kurt's bottle of body wash looking at what it said. He had never heard of the brand before and wondered where Kurt got it from, but it was all natural, oatmeal, lavender and honey scent. Blaine popped the cap and sniffed it, it smelt really good and it was one of the smells Blaine could pick up on when him and Kurt where cuddling and watching movies at night. He closed the cap and picked the sponge up and then turned towards Kurt holding both out to him.

Kurt smiled and took them both from Blaine. He opened his body wash and poured the amount he wanted on to the sponge and then sat the bottle down on the self behind him. He ran his hands over the sponge, getting the soap to lather up. "Would you like to help me or shall I do it?" The smile never left Kurt's face. 

Blaine blushed at the thought of being able to have his hands on Kurt like that, regardless of the sponge in his hand. "Maybe you should do it..." Blaine did really want to help Kurt but he was nervous to do so. Kurt just smiled at him and started washing his own body and Blaine couldn't help but stare at him. Blaine soon found his eyes following the movement of Kurt's hands and he let out a small whimper and snapped his eyes back up to Kurt's face, who was still smiling at him. He quickly turned away when Kurt tilted his head at him a questioning look on his face, he knew he was blushing more than he had been before. He had just seen Kurt fully naked and Blaine's body had reacted accordingly, causing the blush to deepen on his cheeks and he was pretty sure his ears were red now too. He knew he wouldn't be able to hide his arousal from Kurt should Kurt decide to look. Blaine was also blushing because he had looked without asking first and he was afraid Kurt would be mad at him.

"Sweetie what's wrong?" Kurt hung the sponge on the hook and then placed his still soapy hands on Blaine's shoulders. He had been aware of Blaine watching him but he wasn't sure what had happened and Blaine seemed upset now. He stepped a little closer, still minding the closeness of their lower half's because Blaine was back to him again. "Honey, talk to me..."

Blaine let his shoulders slump slightly when Kurt's warm hands rested on them. He watched as the soap from Kurt's long fingers started too slide down his chest and then he let out a long sigh. "I'm sorry..."

Kurt tightened his fingers slightly against Blaine's smooth skin and gently tried to coax Blaine into turning around by pulling backwards slightly. He didn't want to force Blaine to do anything but he really wanted to look at Blaine's face. "Honey, what are you apologizing for?"

Blaine closed his eyes, he knew that Kurt wanted him to turn around to face him and he wasn't going to do it with his eyes open and them cast downward. He turned around and just stood with his eyes closed.

"Honey, please talk to me..." Kurt put his fingers on Blaine's chin and tried to get him to look at him. Kurt smiled when Blaine let him guide his face up but his eyes were still closed.

"I'm sorry I looked..." Blaine whispered, he still wasn't sure if Kurt knew he had looked or not. Blaine instantly opened his eyes when he heard a breathless laugh escape his boyfriend's mouth. He opened his mouth to say sorry again when Kurt placed a finger over his lips, successfully keeping him silent.

"Sweetie, out of all the things that I thought was wrong, that you could be apologizing for, I didn't think it was because you looked at me..." Kurt let out another chuckle and the smile grew on his face. "I mean we are naked together...one of us was bound to look..." He silently wondered if Blaine was thinking he was mad at him for seeing him naked. Kurt placed his hands on both of Blaine's cheeks and leaned in and kissed him lightly on the lips. "You have nothing to apologize for and I am not mad at you!" Kurt added once their lips separated and watched as Blaine let out a sigh clearly of relief. Kurt had been right Blaine thought he was going to be mad at him for looking.

"I know, but I should have asked first..." Blaine began but was silenced with Kurt's lips against his again.

Kurt pulled back and smiled again. "We didn't say we weren't going to look at each other, we just said nothing was going to happen, right?" Blaine nodded, his eyes staring into Kurt's. "Then you have nothing to worry about..." Kurt kissed him again and smiled when he Blaine's hands came up to rest on Kurt's shoulders. "So you are okay?"

Blaine nodded. "Yes I'm okay...and..." Blaine pulled his bottom lip between his teeth and felt the blush creep into his cheeks once again. Blaine focused on Kurt's eyes again when Kurt ran his thumb over Blaine's bottom lip below where his teeth were worrying the soft skin. Blaine released his lip and then let out a huff of air that blew on Kurt's face causing him to blink at Blaine. "You are really breath-taking..." Blaine didn't think it was possible but the smile grew on his boyfriend's face.

Kurt felt silly saying thank-you for a compliment like that so he leaned in and kissed Blaine again. Blaine moaned into the kiss and Kurt pulled away, feeling his control over his hormones wavering. He let out a chuckle and then stepped backwards placing his hands on Blaine's sides over his ribs. Blaine squirmed slightly and Kurt knew he had tickled him. "Let's switch sides so I can be under the water..." Kurt moved them carefully he didn't want Blaine to fall. Kurt let go of Blaine and then stepped under the water, washing all of the soap from his body.

Kurt and Blaine took turns under the water washing their hair. When Kurt was rinsing out his conditioner he heard Blaine let out a loud yawn. Kurt smiled and then turned off the water. He knew they had to go start their movie soon if he was going to get time to kiss and cuddle with his extremely sexy boyfriend. "Let's go you..." Kurt motioned for Blaine to open the curtain and he did so with a shy smile in Kurt's direction. Kurt kept his eyes averted so that he could give Blaine some privacy to get the towel wrapped around him at least.

Blaine knew Kurt was waiting for him to get covered up and he glanced back at Kurt, this time making sure his eyes didn't wander, even though Kurt said he hadn't minded. If Kurt was behaving Blaine would too it was only fair. Blaine cleared his throat at Kurt and held the white towel out to him. "I'll go...umm get clothes...umm unless of course you wanted to first..." Blaine said when Kurt took the towel from him and wrapped it around his waist and then stepped out of the shower with a smile at Blaine. Blaine didn't know why he seemed unable to make complete sentences right now.

"Let me go grab my pajamas and then I'll finish up in here, while you get dressed out in the room. I still have to moisturize my face..." Kurt let out a chuckle and then walked out through the door that Blaine had opened while he was talking. The cool air of the bedroom was in quite a contrast from the steamy bathroom.

Blaine walked over to the end of his bed where he had left his laundry basket and took out his Polo Ralph Lauren, blue plaid woven pajama shorts and a white rib knit cotton tank. He turned around just in time to see what Kurt had in his hands for pajamas; he was holding what looked like silk top and bottoms. Blaine smiled about this he would love running his hands over the soft material tonight. Kurt gave him a small smile before he slipped back into the bathroom closing the door behind him. Blaine let out a small sigh and then closed his eyes. The image of Kurt's naked body was still to the forefront of his mind and he smiled about this, Kurt was absolutely stunning, whether he had clothes on or not.

Blaine quickly dried off but was still a little damp when he slid into his clothes. He ran the towel through his curls not to roughly he didn't want to make his hair frizz up. He knew Kurt would be rushing through his moisturizing routine and he wanted to get the TV set up and a movie picked out before Kurt got back out into the room. Blaine let out a small sigh as he laid the wet towel on the edge of his hamper so it would dry. He walked to the closet and took out the TV and quickly set it up, well as fast as his tired limbs would allow him too. He was getting really tired and he was feeling it in all of his body. He let out a another sigh and climbed up on the bed grabbing the DVD he was looking for and then climbed back off the bed and placed it into the side of the TV, watching the tray close and the tiny light come on as the disc started to get read.

Blaine grabbed the control and then folded his blankets down and then climbed into the bed lying on the outside edge, he had come to realize that Kurt liked sleeping on the right hand side of the bed. Blaine snuggled in and waited for his man to come join him.

Kurt finished putting his lotion back into the draw and then slid on his white v-neck t-shirt, he had planned on putting on his silk button-down pajama shirt but he was too hot right now for long sleeves so he just decided on the t-shirt. He hung the towel onto the metal bar beside the sink and then picked up his shirt and headed to the door, he didn't want to keep Blaine waiting any more than he already had...

Kurt let out a groan as he was woke from his very peaceful sleep. It took him a minute to realize what was going on. The words... ‘Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming'... filled his ears as he felt something struggling against his side. Blaine was thrashing beside him, whimpering, and was cold, a cold sweat had broken out on his body, and he was shivering. Kurt forced the rest of the sleep that was addling his mind to the back and moved quickly, pulling Blaine on top of him and wrapping his arms around him. Kurt had figured Blaine would yelp, he was ready for it but he didn't like hearing it regardless. Blaine's head shot up and he braced his hands against Kurt's chest pushing his body straight backwards. "Honey its okay, it's just me!" Kurt had loosened his arms from around Blaine's back and Blaine had stopped moving at his words.

Blaine gripped the fabric of Kurt's soft t-shirt with his trembling hands and then brought his knees up under him so he was straddling Kurt's hips. He was trying to get his breathing and heart rate back under control. He collapsed against Kurt pinning his own arms between his and Kurt's chests. He could hear Dory and Marlin's voices coming out of the TV beside him and the let out a shuddering breath. "I'm sorry..." Blaine whispered and then buried his face in Kurt's neck. The smell of Kurt's lotion flooded his nostrils and calmed him considerably.

"The nightmares returned, didn't they?" Kurt had feared they would be back in full force after seeing Jeremiah at his house early and all the comments his uncle had made, so he wasn't really surprised when Blaine nodded his head, confirming it. "And you don't have to be sorry. I am always going to be here for you. I love you so very much?" Kurt placed his lips against Blaine's jaw. He love Blaine so much it hurt. Kurt knew that was kind of a clique thing but it was true.   

"I love you too!" Blaine kissed Kurt's neck and then rubbed his nose on the soft skin. He moved his arms so they were wrapped under Kurt's arms and his hands rested on his shoulders. "Can I stay right here?" Blaine could feel the silky fabric of Kurt's pants against his legs and feet and couldn't help but move his feet against the fabric. Kurt made a humming noise so Blaine figured he didn't really mind all that much.  

"As long as you are comfortable..." Kurt was comfy so he didn't mind in the least.