June 18, 2013, 9:28 p.m.
Love Amongst the Ruins: Physical Attraction
E - Words: 3,127 - Last Updated: Jun 18, 2013 Story: Closed - Chapters: 33/? - Created: Nov 19, 2012 - Updated: Jun 18, 2013 855 0 0 0 0
Physical Attraction
The week was going great for Kurt so far, he was really happy when he found out on his first day of classes that he and Blaine had classes together. Also over the week Kurt and Blaine had gotten even closer to each other. Kurt found that Blaine was starting to be comfortable enough around him that he started telling more things about himself (although Kurt was hoping Blaine would tell him what had happened to him, it never came.) Kurt found himself passing out on hanging with the other guys, for a French Study lesson or movie night with Blaine. Kurt could tell that Blaine was getting better at French and he was happy that his teaching skills were paying off.
Kurt knew that his attraction for Blaine was growing and that it was probably going to be hard to hide from Blaine. He thought Blaine might be starting to like him in return. Blaine was smiling more and would complement Kurt a lot. Kurt was finding it harder not to flirt with him like he would with any other boy he liked. He didn't want to make Blaine scared of him, having him think he too only wanted Blaine for sex, it was far from that, Kurt just wanted him any way he could have him.
Kurt had finally gotten Blaine to go back to the cafeteria but refused to sit with the Warbler's despite their protests. It got so Nick, Jeff, Wes and David soon followed by Trent and Thad would leave the Warbler table and come eat with them. This only seemed to make Sebastian madder, but he hadn't stepped a foot near Blaine.
Over the short time that Kurt had been there at school all the students at Dalton started to realize that he had become sort of a protector for Blaine and the small groups of boys that would hit on Blaine seemed to disappear. Kurt didn't notice Blaine's ‘fan club' hanging around near him anymore. He was glad of this because it had made Blaine uncomfortable. Kurt had gone out a couple days with Nick, Jeff, and Trent to the mall, which Blaine had passed up on; he still didn't feel comfortable about going out many places. Kurt thought it was probably because he was scared he might run into Jeremiah. Kurt would always come back to his and Blaine's room and tell Blaine everything that had happened. Blaine's face was so expressive when he was listening to Kurt; it made Kurt love talking to him.
It had gotten so that Blaine was touching Kurt a lot more. Holding hands had become a constant thing with them. They had gotten good at reading each other too; they knew when the other was in a bad mood and just wanted to be left alone or when they both needed comfort from the other, although it was never more than a hug or hand holding. Kurt was just happy he was allowed to do that.
"Hey you...are you okay?" Kurt asked as he walked into the room and found Blaine sitting in the window seat staring out the window. It was completely dark out so Kurt wasn't sure what he was looking at.
Blaine turned his head towards Kurt and nodded as he watched Kurt cross the room.
"Are you sure?" Kurt sat down on the seat with him. Blaine smiled at him and Kurt felt his stomach flutter. He absolutely loved Blaine's smile.
Blaine's smile left his face and he shrugged about what Kurt had asked him and then reached out for Kurt's hand playing with his fingers, as he did so often lately. "Just tired I think..."
Kurt laughed to himself, "You think you're tired?"
Blaine nodded but smiled again. "Where were you?"
Kurt sighed. "The library, I was working on that stupid paper with my group..." Today was one of the first day's they hadn't spend most of the afternoon together. "Did you work with your group on your paper?" It was for their AP US History class, which Blaine was in because almost all of his classes were advanced. They were currently studying English Colonies, 1600-1650, and they had been put into groups to do a project, Kurt wasn't very happy that he and Blaine were in different groups. Blaine was one of the youngest in the class and from what Kurt had figured he was one of the smartest and he was worried that the guys in his group would take advantage of him.
"Yeah we got it done..." Blaine motioned to the laptop sitting on his bed.
"Blaine did you do the whole thing on your own?" Kurt felt his anger rise.
Blaine shrugged. "I'd rather do it myself and get a good grade, then fight with them to do any of the work..."
Kurt didn't like that Blaine let them get away with that, he was getting them grades they didn't deserve but he also understood where Blaine was coming from. "I just wish you wouldn't let them do that though..." Kurt sighed when Blaine just shrugged again. "So, do you want to watch Harry Potter tonight?"
Blaine smiled again and Kurt's heart omitted a loud thud he was sure Blaine could hear it. His body didn't seem to want to cooperate; he had a hard time looking away from Blaine. When he was able to get up he hopped up on the bed and grabbed the third Harry Potter movie and then climbed back off the bed. Blaine crossed the distance and climbed on the bed propping himself on his pillows leaning on the wall. Kurt popped the movie in and sat next to Blaine, their shoulders touching. He crossed his legs, getting comfortable.
Blaine took Kurt's hand in his as the Warner Brothers logo showed on the screen, he could tell that Kurt was watching him and he smiled.
Kurt couldn't help but watch Blaine who was staring intently at the screen looking absolutely adorable, with a smile on his face. He suddenly turned his gaze on Kurt. Kurt blushed and then stared at the screen. Kurt felt Blaine shift his weight on the bed beside him and then was surprised when he slid a little closer to him. Kurt glanced down at their bodies, their legs were touching, and their feet were touching. Kurt smiled about Blaine's bare feet. Their arms were linked with their connected hand resting on the bed between their legs where they weren't touching.
"Have you found anyone you want as a boyfriend?" Blaine decided to ask. Blaine bit his lip as Kurt raised an eyebrow at him.
Kurt was surprised by this question, "What made you ask that?"
"You said back when we first met you wanted a boyfriend, so I guess I was just curious..." Blaine was still chewing on his lip.
"No Blaine I haven't found anyone I'm interested in..." Kurt was still watching Blaine, that expressive face of his showing his relief. Kurt smiled. He didn't think he would tell Blaine the real reason he hadn't found a boyfriend. It's because I want you...
Blaine blushed, he was really happy that Kurt hadn't found anyone, but he was also wondering if he was being selfish. Because he knew Kurt spent most of his time with him and not hanging with the other guys. Am I keeping him from getting the boyfriend, like he wants? Blaine let out a long slow breath. He was just about ready to say something to Kurt about what he was thinking when he heard a knock on the door and a voice soon followed causing him to jump.
"Kurt..." Kurt squeezed Blaine's hand and then climbed off the bed.
"Yeah..." He opened the door and found three faces smiling at him. It was Wes, David and Thad. "Hey guys what's up?" Kurt backed into the room letting them in.
When they came into the room they all smiled and waved to Blaine who stayed on the bed just looking at them. "So we have been talking all week and we have come to a decision..." Wes said as he leaned against the wall with a smile on his face.
Kurt raised an eyebrow. What in the hell were they up too.
David smiled at Kurt's expression. "So, how would you like to audition to join the Warbler's?"
"Well it wouldn't really be an audition but we want you to sing in front of the other guys before we tell them you are going to join us..." Thad told Kurt a huge smile on his face.
Kurt sighed but couldn't help but smile at the three of them. The Warbler's were amazing, and he really did miss singing and it meant he could just spend more time with Blaine, but having Sebastian there was really going to test his temper. After thinking it over in his head he sighed again. "Sure..." He knew that he could handle the work load here so it only seemed like the obvious thing for him to do.
"Cool..." David patted Kurt on the shoulder.
"Show up tomorrow after classes let out, in the common room on the first level." Wes told him and patted Kurt on the shoulder.
"Don't blow it..." Thad had a smirk on his face and then winked at Kurt.
Kurt swatted his hand at Thad but he had moved to fast so Kurt got nothing but air.
"Unless of course you want to blow it..." Thad laughed at the look on Kurt's face and then ran out of the room.
Wes and David both smirked and then left too, waving and saying bye to Blaine.
Kurt closed his mouth it had fallen open at Thad's words. He could feel the blush in his cheeks and his whole body felt really hot. He turned around so he was looking at Blaine he had a slight rosy blush covering his cheeks which made him look...irresistible. "I should beat him up..." Kurt said with a huff as he climbed back onto the bed.
Blaine was still blushing and wouldn't look at Kurt.
Kurt knew Blaine was blushing about what Thad had said. "They interrupted Harry Potter..." Kurt smiled at Blaine but he still wasn't looking at him he was looking down at his hands that were folded and rest on his lap. Kurt didn't really think before he did it, he placed his hand on Blaine's thigh and started rubbing it, similar to what he would do to Blaine's arm. Blaine snapped his head up and looked at Kurt his eyes wide with a look of...Kurt wasn't sure what that look was and then he shook his head and scrambled away from Kurt, backing up against the headboard.
Kurt knew he had gone too far, but he couldn't help the feeling of annoyance that crept in on him. "Blaine...I'm not going to hurt you..."
Blaine grabbed the pillow clutching it to his chest like it was a shield.
This seemed to push Kurt's temper to its end and he soon found himself yelling at Blaine, the one person he didn't ever want to get mad at. "God damn it Blaine don't fucking act like I'm about to rape you..." Kurt let his words fall off at the look on Blaine's face.
Blaine jumped up off the bed pushing Kurt when he tried to grab his hand and ran towards the bathroom door, his pillow still clutched to his chest, there were tears running down his face. He struggled with the door for a few minutes but slipped in, slamming it before Kurt could reach him. He locked the door and then climbed into the bathtub and sat down, it was cool against his bare feet and arms and it gave him the goose bumps.
"Blaine..." Kurt knocked on the door. "Please, I'm so sorry...open the door..." I'm such a fucking idiot, idiot beyond idiots! Kurt sighed of course Blaine would freak out about that kind of touch, he was barely okay last week with them holding hands, let alone the hugging...god I'm such an idiot...and you told him if he was uncomfortable with any touch you gave him to just tell you, god he did tell you with his eyes, and you go and flip out on him... Kurt slid down so he was sitting with his back against the door. "Blaine, I'm so sorry, please, will you open the door..." Kurt sighed he still got no answer but he thought he could hear Blaine crying. He sat there for awhile longer and then got up and walked over and turned off the movie. He put everything away and then climbed on his bed and grabbed his I-pod and started flicking through the songs, looking for something he could use to sing tomorrow. He couldn't help but keep glancing at the door though, he knew that Blaine was probably in there crying still and he could do nothing about it unless Blaine let him.
Kurt held his breath as he heard the door open, he got up off his bed when he saw Blaine come out his eyes were really red and he was still clutching the pillow. Kurt stopped when Blaine held his hand up at him. "Blaine I'm so sorry..."
Blaine blinked at him his eyes were blurry from the crying he had done. "I'm tired..." His voice sounded so weak even to him.
It hadn't dawned on Kurt earlier that Blaine was already in his pajamas and that surprised him because he usually found himself staring at Blaine's curls wanting to run his fingers through them. "Blaine, I'm sorry," Kurt crossed the short distance between them, but Blaine put his hand out putting it on Kurt's chest stopping him from getting any closer. Kurt tried to take Blaine's hand in his, but Blaine pulled it away.
"Blaine I told you to tell me if I ever touched you and you didn't want it and you did with your eyes and then...I...exploded on you, I'm sorry, it wasn't right..." Kurt said softly.
Blaine didn't say anything he walked over to the bed and picked up Kurt's pillows and turned around and handed them too him.
Kurt sighed and took them as he watched Blaine climb into bed. Just give him time Kurt he's upset... Kurt threw his pillows onto his bed and then grabbed his pajamas. "I'm going to go take a shower..." Kurt walked into the bathroom and stripped out of his clothes and then adjusted the water. He climbed in and stood under the water his arm rested against the tile wall. He was still berating himself. Why couldn't I have just done that to his arm again, he was okay with that, why did I have to go to the leg...god Kurt now he thinks you want sex from him... Kurt put his face under the water and stayed that way until he had to let out his breath and he sighed. If there was one thing Kurt wished he could have it would be Hermione Granger's time-turning device, so he could go back and redo what had happened.
Kurt finished washing up and then climbed out. The room felt really cold, he quickly dried off and then slid his clothes on and got to work with his skin care. When he was done he came out into the room, Blaine had his light turned off so the only one that was on was Kurt's. All Kurt could see of Blaine was the back of his head; he had the blankets wrapped tight around him. He climbed in his own bed and then grabbed his I-pod again and then put the ear buds into his ears, he knew he had to find the song he needed for tomorrow before he went to sleep.
It took him awhile because he kept looking over at Blaine hoping that he would turn around and at least tell him to shut the light out and go to bed, but he never did. Kurt really didn't know why his temper got the best of him earlier with Blaine, he thought it might have something to do with the fact that he was frustrated that he couldn't tell Blaine the way he felt, but it was still no excuse for it, not towards Blaine. Kurt was watching Blaine again when he saw him sit bolt upright, he jumped off the bed and rushed across the short distance. "Blaine..."
Blaine was staring at Kurt as he sat down on the edge of his bed. He was holding his hand out to him, Blaine looked down at Kurt's hand and then shook his head, he didn't want to make Kurt angry for not wanting to hold hands right now but he needed a little time to get over the shock of Kurt's reaction and what he had said. Blaine watched Kurt sigh and then stand back up. "I just...need time..." Kurt looked down at him and Blaine could tell that he was beating himself up over it, but Kurt nodded and headed back to his bed.
"Are you okay though?" Kurt asked when he climbed back into his bed.
Blaine realized he must be talking about how he sat up so fast. "Just..." Blaine sighed. "Yeah I'm okay..."
"Okay, I am so sorry about what I did and said... I hope you know that..." Kurt knew he had said it over and over again but Blaine still hadn't said anything back in response to it.
"I know you are Kurt..." Blaine slid back down so he was lying on his side, this time facing Kurt's bed.
"I hope you will forgive me..." Kurt was laying the same way. He was staring at Blaine hoping he would see it in his face if he was going to forgive him. He didn't see anything that gave him hope so he sighed and rolled over onto his back. "Goodnight, Blaine..." Kurt turned off his light casting the room into darkness.
"Night, Kurt..." Blaine rolled onto his back and stared up at the dark ceiling.
Kurt heard Blaine's bed creak when he moved and sighed. He got to thinking back to everything that had happened. Blaine was fine when he had just sat his hand on his thigh but when he started rubbing his hand up and down Blaine started to get uncomfortable, Blaine was already in his pajamas, so that means he didn't have underwear on...Kurt had realized that Blaine slept in just his pajama pants one night last week when Blaine had bent over doing something and Kurt couldn't help but stare, he couldn't see any lines that indicated he had underwear on. This must have been what freaked him out...Kurt let out a small groan as he felt his pants grow tighter, he couldn't help it the thought of Blaine without underwear on always got to him. Not now... Kurt rolled over so he was facing the wall, he didn't want to take a chance of Blaine seeing even though the room was almost completely dark...