June 18, 2013, 9:28 p.m.
Love Amongst the Ruins: Don't Tell Anyone
E - Words: 3,372 - Last Updated: Jun 18, 2013 Story: Closed - Chapters: 33/? - Created: Nov 19, 2012 - Updated: Jun 18, 2013 734 0 2 0 0
Don't Tell Anyone
Kurt couldn't believe what he had just heard. He had sat for he didn't know how long listening to his beautiful, gorgeous, sexy, talented boyfriend tell him what had really happened with him and Jeremiah. Kurt felt his whole body shaking as he watched the tears roll down Blaine's cheeks and drip onto their intertwined hands. He felt like he couldn't breathe, he had thought it was something like this but not this horrible, yes that was the word for it horrible, but does horrible really put the true word to what it really was? Blaine had been... raped, Oh my God this beautiful boy was raped... and the part that scared Kurt was the fact that Blaine had blacked out so who knows what happened in that time. He felt like he was going to puke. He let out a shuddering breath as he watched Blaine wipe the back of his hand over his eyes, trying to get rid of the tears.
"I didn't tell anyone but my dad and aunt..." Blaine's breathing was erratic he didn't know how Kurt was going to respond to everything.
"And they didn't do anything?" Kurt snapped, but mentally slapped himself when he saw Blaine flinch. "I'm sorry baby, I'm not mad at you..." He pulled Blaine into his arms and gave him a tight hug. Blaine shook his head. "Why didn't they do anything?"
"My aunt tried, but my dad..." Blaine nuzzled his face into Kurt's neck. Blaine didn't really want to talk about his dad right now, it was a very sensitive subject for him, had his dad been behind him about the ‘whole being gay thing' he would have handled everything so much better. He felt Kurt clench his jaw so he picked his head up and looked at him. He looked so pissed. Blaine was really starting to wonder if he should have told him. "Maybe I shou..."
"Don't you even finish that statement..." Kurt cut Blaine off he knew what he was going to say. "Yes I am pissed but honey it is not at you!" Kurt kissed him on the forehead and then smiled at him. He wasn't really in the mood to smile but he had too when he looked at Blaine.
"I know you're not mad at me, but..." Blaine didn't know what he wanted to say, he didn't want Kurt to do anything that would get him in trouble. Blaine flopped back on the bed and let out a huff of air. He looked up when he felt the weight on the bed disappear. Kurt was now standing up, pacing the room. Blaine was sure the carpet was going to catch fire under his feet.
"That's it I'm going to go rally the guys and we are going to beat the shit out of them..." Kurt could hear the venom in his own voice as he said the last word. He headed for the door when he felt Blaine grab his arm.
"NO!" Blaine practically screeched at Kurt. "Don't tell anyone you, you can't tell anyone..."
Kurt turned so he was facing his almost hysterical boyfriend and pulled him into a hug. "Shh, baby..." He ran his fingers through Blaine's curls.
"Please, Kurt you can't tell anyone..." Blaine looked up at him with watery eyes, gripping the material of Kurt's shirt in his hands that were shaking.
Kurt closed his eyes and then sighed. He didn't know if he could promise that to Blaine. "Sweetie I don't know if I can promise I won't tell anyone..." Kurt felt the anger rise in him again. "I mean these assholes are running around Dalton like nothing ever happened and they are getting away with it." Kurt had never felt this angry before and he didn't know what to do about it.
"Kurt..." Blaine was crying again. "I only told you because I love you and you needed to know if our relationship was going to work..." Blaine was so scared. The truth was he didn't know what Jeremiah would do to Kurt if he was confronted about it and that scared him.
"Oh, Baby I love you too...shh...stop crying..." Kurt ran his hands across Blaine's pink cheeks trying to wipe away the tears but new ones kept falling. Kurt didn't like seeing him cry. Kurt didn't know what he was going to do, he hated feeling this way. He placed a kiss to the top of Blaine's head; his curls were so soft against his lips. "And our relationship is going to work Baby..."
Blaine nodded and stepped back for Kurt so he was looking up at him again. He rubbed at his eyes again. "I just don't think I can handle anyone else knowing right now..." Blaine knew he couldn't handle anyone else knowing right now. Blaine jumped when he heard his phone's ringtone start blaring out of the phone; it seemed really loud right now, in the intense atmosphere that filled the room. He rushed over to his nightstand, slightly stumbling over his own feet as he did, he knew Kurt was following him but still jumped when he placed a hand on his hips trying to steady him. Blaine grabbed his phone and glanced at it. He let out a sigh and tried to make his voice more even by clearing his throat and then he answered the phone.
"Little Bee, what took you so long to answer?" A soft, loving woman's voiced asked when the call had been accepted.
"Hi, Auntie Lil..." Blaine glanced up at Kurt and blushed slightly. "Sorry I was having a heart-to-heart with my..." Blaine paused. He didn't know if he wanted to tell her that he had a boyfriend yet, but he didn't want to lie about Kurt either.
"Little Bee?" His Aunt Lil asked when he went quiet.
"With my boyfriend..."
"You have a boyfriend?" She asked a there was a surprised quality to her voice.
"Yes, he's my roommate..." Blaine mumbled he thought he knew what she was going to say about that.
"You got a roommate?" His aunt didn't seem to please by this.
"Yes, he just transferred to Dalton..."
"And they couldn't have put him with someone else?"
"I don't think there were any other rooms available and they said I could only keep the room for myself until someone needed it." Blaine let out a sigh, he knew his aunt wasn't pleased that he had a new roommate.
"Well I wish they would have contacted me before they had put him in with you." She said simply. "Blaine you know what happened last time when you liked your roommate..." She turned the conversation back to the fact that the new roommate was Blaine's boyfriend.
Blaine shrugged about the first part but then remembered she couldn't see him. "Guess they didn't think they needed too..." Blaine wasn't surprised that they hadn't contacted her. "And Kurt is nothing like him..."
"Well let's hope not..." Blaine could hear the disapproval in her voice. "Have you been talking to this Kurt about what happened then?"
Blaine loved his aunt Lillian but she could be very pushy sometimes. She was his dad's younger sister and about the only one in the family that accepted him as he was, not who they wanted him to be. "I've told him some of it...please don't tell dad about him yet." Blaine didn't want his dad to know about Kurt yet because he knew he would cause problems. And he didn't want problems this early in their relationship, not any more than what he thought telling Kurt all about what happened to him would cause.
"Okay, I won't tell your dad, but you need to be careful okay?"
"Kurt won't hurt me." Blaine looked up at Kurt when he put a hand on his side, he was watching Blaine closely.
"You should tell Kurt everything and if you need me I'm here you know that."
"I know that thanks, I'll call you later. Bye, Yeah I love you too..." Blaine ended the call and turned so he was facing Kurt. "Sorry that was my aunt..." Blaine tried to give Kurt a smile, but then he remembered what he still had to do, there was more to this story.
"It's fine, come here..." Kurt pulled Blaine into his arms and against his chest. From what Kurt had gotten from what Blaine was saying on his end, his aunt didn't seem to like that he said he had a boyfriend and that the said boyfriend was his new roommate. "Guess she's not to thrilled about me is she?"
"She just worries about me..." Blaine buried his face in Kurt's neck.
"I don't blame her. I worry about you too." Kurt kissed the side of Blaine's head.
"Can we watch a movie until I fall asleep?" Blaine asked nuzzling his nose against the soft skin of Kurt's neck. He knew Kurt needed to hear the rest of what had happened but he was really tired of talking about it right now. "I promise to tell you the rest tomorrow." Blaine picked his head up off Kurt's shoulder and looked him in the eyes, they were so blue-green right now, and Blaine loved that color.
"Of course we can. Can I still talk to you about what you've already told me?" Blaine nodded his response and Kurt watched him walk to his bed and climb on it. Kurt got out the TV and watched Blaine stand up on the bed to look for a movie. Kurt smiled at him when he sat down on the bed and held out the DVD to him. It was My Girl; Kurt liked this movie but hadn't watched it in awhile. Kurt put the movie in and then climbed on the bed. He pulled Blaine's pillows away from him and Blaine pouted at him. Kurt placed them on his lap again and patted his hand on them. "Come here..."
Blaine laid down placing his head on the pillows looking up at Kurt. Kurt looked a little calmer but Blaine could still tell by the look in his eyes that he wanted to do something to hurt Jeremiah and the others. Blaine turned his head towards the TV and watched as the movie came to life. He was waiting for Kurt's questions to come.
"So the bullying your eight grade year is why you thought about cutting off all your curls?" Kurt wanted to start with what Blaine had first told him.
"Yeah, I didn't use to gel it and they would always pull my hair or stick things in it, flush my head in the toilet..." Blaine looked back up at Kurt he looked angry.
"I don't understand people..." Kurt growled out through clenched teeth. "Your hair is amazing, why would someone pick on you about it?" Kurt ran his fingers through Blaine's curls.
"Because I wasn't popular and they were..." Blaine shrugged a bit.
"That still doesn't explain it because curly hair isn't something to pick on someone about..." Kurt wrapped one of the curls around his finger and smiled at the way it sprung away from his hand as he pulled away from it. "So do you still wear bowties?" Kurt was curious because he hadn't seen Blaine wearing any.
"I haven't worn any since after the dance..." Blaine told him. Kurt ran his fingers around the neck of Blaine's shirt causing Blaine to shiver.
"Well I think you would look cute in them." Kurt continued running his fingers gently over the bare skin of Blaine's neck. "Do you still keep a journal?" Kurt hadn't seen him writing in it since he had been here, but maybe Blaine did it while Kurt was in showering.
"Yeah I do, is that weird?" Blaine bit his bottom lip.
"No it's not weird." Kurt was looking at his fingers as he continued to make small patterns on his skin and noticed the purple hickey. He ran a finger lightly over it. Blaine let out a tiny whimper. "Sorry..."
"It's okay..." This time Blaine smiled, he couldn't believe he had his first hickey. "I don't mind you can..." Blaine blushed.
Kurt felt the smile come onto his own lips. "I can what?"
"Do that whenever you want too..." Blaine felt like hiding.
"I think I can manage that..." Kurt smirked, Blaine was so cute. Kurt started watching the movie thinking about what he wanted to ask next. "So when you told your dad that you were gay...he..."
"He was so mad...I had never seen him so mad before." Blaine felt his body shiver at the thought of it. Kurt placed a hand on Blaine chest rubbing small soothing circles. "He started yelling at me, saying that I wasn't going to be..." Blaine hesitated he didn't like repeating what his dad had said. "He said I wasn't going to be a fag, because no son of his was going to act that way..." Blaine gave Kurt an apologetic look at his words. Kurt just nodded. "And then I told him that I wasn't trying to be that way it was just who I was..." Blaine sighed. "He didn't like that so he grabbed me by the shirt and started shaking me, screaming and then he back handed me and then threw me sending falling to the floor, my arm smacked against the piano and I felt it snap..."
Kurt didn't say anything for a few minutes. "Did he do anything else?" Blaine just shook his head. "So you said that when you went back to school everyone seemed to know you were gay, how?"
"I think it was my dad's girlfriend's daughter that let it slip...she was a grade younger than me. I didn't think much of it at the time."
"Well she didn't have the right to do that..." Kurt growled.
Blaine just nodded, he agreed with Kurt, it's not right to out someone. "She wasn't the brightest of people..." Blaine told Kurt.
"Still..." Kurt didn't find that a good enough excuse for outing someone. Kurt sighed and started running his fingers through Blaine's curls again. "I can't believe no one asked you to the dance..." Kurt shook his head. Blaine was so gorgeous how someone could not want him was beyond comprehension to Kurt. Blaine looked this good know, Kurt could wrap his brain around how gorgeous Blaine would be when he got older.
"Because I wasn't popular and I don't think there was any other gay guys at my school or at least they were still in the closet. And I think the girls were afraid to ask me because they might be deemed just as unpopular as I was."
"Baby you are so gorgeous..." Kurt said it before he could really think about not saying it.
Blaine whimpered slightly and then blushed. "You're the most beautiful person I've ever seen." Blaine smiled when he saw Kurt smile at him. Blaine loved everything about the way Kurt looked and found him completely... "Sexy..." Blaine blushed more and then hid his face in Kurt's stomach he couldn't believe he blurted that out.
"You find me beautiful and sexy?" Kurt ran both hands through Blaine's curls as he buried his face in Kurt's stomach. Blaine just nodded but didn't look up at him. Kurt thought he was so cute. Kurt knew Blaine was starting to get tired but he wanted to talk more until he couldn't stay awake anymore. "Why was your dad late picking you up?"
Blaine pulled back from Kurt's stomach and finally looked up at him. "He was working like always..."
"And your aunt couldn't come pick you up?"
"She was out of town all day and wasn't supposed to be back until the next day. Cooper was at school." Blaine knew he probably could have called Cooper but he thought it would have happened whether he had called him or not.
"Were the boys in your class the ones that mostly bullied you?" Kurt was watching Blaine's face, his gaze seemed distant right now.
"Yes one of them I used to have a crush on too...he was really cute and one of the most popular boys in the class." Blaine shook his head and let out a small chuckle. "Maybe that's why he bullied me, maybe he knew..."
Kurt shook his head. He didn't want to think that Blaine's first crush bullied him because of that, but he knew it was probably the reason for it. Kurt sighed and continued to stroke Blaine's curls. "Which arm was broken?" Kurt ran a hand down the soft skin of Blaine's arm; the tiny black hairs were soft under his fingers. Kurt smiled when he felt the goose bumps form on Blaine's arm under his fingers.
Blaine looked down at Kurt's hand, he was running his fingers very lightly over his skin and it tickled but felt good all at the same time. The touch was filled with love and gentleness, Blaine loved it. "You're already touching it..." Blaine smiled at Kurt. Kurt ran his hand fingers down the rest of Blaine's right arm and onto his fingers, Blaine couldn't help but flinch slightly at the electric feel he got when Kurt touched him. He wondered if that would ever not happen and wondered if Kurt felt it too.
Kurt laced his fingers in Blaine's and let out another sigh, he didn't like thinking of Blaine being broken. "Your, other injuries..."
"Right shoulder, left knee...but all my injuries are better now, although I still have Blaine in my knee sometimes." Blaine remembered one time he was dancing and he got a pain in his knee and it almost gave out on him. "With like sports and dancing and stuff..."
Kurt just nodded about this. "Did you ever find your sunglasses?" Blaine shook his head and had a sad look on his face. Kurt sat in quietness for awhile just watching the TV screen thinking about what else he wanted to ask. He looked down at Blaine's face, he had his eyes closed but he was still awake, Kurt could always tell when he was asleep. "Blaine, why didn't you tell anyone who attacked you..."
"I really don't know who did what just who was there." Blaine admitted. He wished he could have told who really hurt him but the truth was he didn't and it sucked.
Kurt was lost in his thoughts again that he jumped when Blaine snuggled his face into his stomach again. He smiled when he looked down at him he was too damn cute for his own good. "I really wish I had been your first kiss..."
Blaine pulled his head back and looked up at Kurt. "You are the best kiss I've ever had..." He couldn't help the blush that spread across his cheeks. Kurt twisted his body slightly and leaned down and kissed him on the lips. Blaine let out a tiny moan and then Kurt pulled back. "I'll never get tired of you kissing me." Blaine pulled his bottom lip into his mouth he could taste Kurt as he did. Blaine closed his eyes and sighed. "You know I never let him touch me..." Blaine told Kurt, he wasn't sure if this was what Kurt was thinking about or not. "Below the waist that is..." Kurt looked really pissed again. Blaine knew the conversation was coming back to the part that really bothered Kurt.
"He had no right to take that from you..." Kurt growled out. "Your first time shouldn't have been like that...they need to pay for what they did..."
Blaine groaned and nuzzled his nose into the soft skin his face rested on. He didn't know what time it was but he knew whose arms he was wrapped in and this made him smile, despite what today was going to hold. He still had a lot more to tell Kurt. He lifted his head up when he felt Kurt shift his weight and then he opened his eyes and was looking at Blaine, he looked so tired still. "I'm sorry you didn't sleep well." Blaine sat up slightly propping himself up on his elbow.
"It's fine; it's not your fault..." Kurt leaned up and placed a soft kiss against Blaine's lips. "Did you sleep okay?" He asked when he pulled away from the kiss.
"Surprisingly yes..." Blaine thought it was because he was sleeping in Kurt's arms all night. "Do you want me to tell you the rest of what happened?" Kurt nodded at him and Blaine exhale noisily as the words Don't Tell Anyone ran through his mind again, but he had to tell Kurt...
Comments
How the heck did I miss this chapter??? So happy to have 2 chapters to read though!! :) So said for Blaine but man I love this story!
Haha Idk But I'm glad you found it =) I will always post two chapters to read in one time. Yes It is very sucky for Blaine, just give him big hugs. And thanks I'm glad you love it. =) Thanks again for the reads and reviews.