God-chocolate! Kurt muttered under his breath while rustling through his files to find the right document he needed for the next meeting. Since Blaine used that word last week Kurt started using it too because he had to admit that he swore way to much in his daily life.

Kurt sighed when his phone rang, again. It wasnt even lunchtime yet and he already got six calls from boring people who just wasted his time. He picked up without even looking at the caller ID. What? he spat.

K-Kurt? Blaines shaky voice asked. Kurts heart fell at Blaines tone, he sounded so... sad. He could hear Ella crying in the distance and figured she was the cause of Blaines distress.

Blaine? Oh honey Im sorry, I didnt mean to snap at you. Is everyth-

C-can you come home? Please? I-I cant... Blaine interrupted and Kurt instantly knew there was something terribly wrong.

Ill be home in 15 minutes, okay? Kurt said, clamping his phone between his shoulder and his ear while putting on his coat.

O-okay, Blaine answered and Kurt hung up. He stuffed all the things he needed for the next meeting in his shoulder bag and walked out of his office without looking back.

Kurt? Isabelles assistant, Kayleigh, asked, Where are you going?

Gotta go, Blaine needs me at home! Tell Isabelle Ill call her! he said while running to the elevator.

‘Good luck!, Kayleigh said right before Kurt was out of sight.

Kurt raised his hand to let Kayleigh know he heard what she said, he frantically pushed the button on the elevator and he was 100% sure he was annoying the crap out of the guy standing next to him but that didnt matter, what mattered was that he had to get to Blaine and Ella as soon as he could.

He never shouldve left Blaine alone with Ella. Coming to work today was a stupid idea. They shouldve "practiced" this first, they both needed to get used to taking care of Ella on their own. Kurt was there with Blaine the whole week and when they needed to go shopping they took Ella with them. They didnt leave her out of their sight for a second and the reason Kurt was ten minutes late this morning was because he didnt want to leave Blaine alone and he kept saying ‘If you need me, call me until Blaine had to push him out of the house.

‘Come on, come on, Kurt muttered when the door of the elevator slowly opened. He jumped in before the other people could get out of the elevator and pushed the button to the lobby. He didnt listen to the other peoples curses, he just had to get to the main floor of the building.

He started tapping his foot on the carpeted elevator floor and bit his nail. He thought that Blaine maybe couldve handled Ella on his own but Blaines voice told him quite the opposite.

He speeded out of the elevator as soon as he could squeeze himself through the opening doors. He rushed past the lobby and out the door onto the parking lot where his car was. He got in, started his engine and drove off the parking lot, not caring about the speed limits; his family was way more important.

*****

‘Blaine? Kurt asked when he pushed the door open, ‘Blaine, where are you? He heard Ella crying pretty close to him so he walked into the living room and there was Blaine, sitting on the floor with his back against the couch and with a crying Ella in his arms.

‘P-please, El, stop crying. Please, please, please! W-what do you want from me? Blaine cried, he obviously didnt hear Kurt come in. ‘I-I did everything!

Kurt dropped his bag by the coat rack and rushed to Blaine. He crouched down next to him and carefully wrapped his arms around his husband. ‘Sweetie? Are you okay?

Blaine shook his head without looking up at Kurt. ‘C-can you take El? Blaine asked and Kurt could hear the hurt in his voice, ‘Please?

‘Sure, sure, Kurt reached out his arms and Blaine carefully handed Ella over before getting up and speeding to the bedroom. Kurt looked at Ella after Blaine closed the door. ‘What did you do? Im gone for four hours and papas completely upset.

He got up, walked to the bedroom and knocked on it. ‘Blaine, sweetie? Can I come in?

‘W-would you mind g-giving me some space? Blaine answered.

‘Of course not, Kurt said and walked back to the couch where he sat down. ‘I hope you have a good reason for making papa feel like this, El. He kissed the top of Ellas head and sighed.

*****

Blaine sat down on Kurts side of the bed, facing Ellas crib. Four hours. He had to call Kurt after only four hours. He was a loser. A complete loser who doesnt deserve to be called a father. He let the tears roll freely down his cheeks. A loser.

Ella started crying ten minutes after Kurt left and she hadnt stopped for a second since. He did everything: checked her diaper, fed her, sang to her, played with her, checked if she had a fever but nothing helped and Blaine was completely hopeless. He was tired, Ella had those days where nothing would please her and then Kurt would tell him everythings okay but Kurt wasnt there when he needed him the most. He was desperate and he missed Kurt and now Kurt was here, taking care of their daughter which he should be doing right now while Kurt was at the Vogue office.

Suddenly there was a knock on the door. ‘Blaine? Its been half an hour, can I come in now? Please? Kurt asked.

Blaine wiped his tears away, got up and walked to the door. ‘Hey, he said when he opened the door.

‘Hey, Kurt answered, not knowing what else to say.

‘Sorry for, Blaine took a deep breath, ‘for what happened before. He walked back to the bed and ran a hand through his curls.

Kurt looked at Ella in his arms and then back at Blaine. ‘Dont worry ‘bout it, he said.

Blaine sighed and sat back down on the bed. ‘Im a loser.

‘Blaine, would you stop? Kurt said, ‘You. Are. Not. A. Loser. End of story!

‘But four hours-

‘End of story, Blaine! Kurt said, looking stern at Blaine, ‘Its my fault youre feeling this way, darling, dont blame it on yourself.

‘How in the world could this be your fault? Blaine asked.

Kurt looked at the floor, unable to look at Blaines face right now. I was the one who left you here on your own, he whispered.

You had to go to work, Blaine said, Thats different than "leaving me", Kurt.

But still, we shouldve made sure that both you and me are able to take care of El while were alone, Kurt said, I know you think that youre going to be a bad father so I should be here for you, not take off to work. He sat down next to his husband, wrapped one arm around him and smiled when Blaine nuzzled his face into the crook of his neck.

‘You arent mad at me for calling you at work, are you? Blaine asked.

Kurt rubbed over Blaines back. ‘No, no its okay. I missed you guys so actually Im glad you called. You can always call me, Blaine, Id never hang up on you.

‘I just dont understand what Im doing wrong, I even laid in the same position you laid in last week. You know, the one where Els laying on your chest? It doesnt work with me, Blaine murmured.

‘Of course it works with you! Here, Kurt handed Ella to Blaine and got up from the bed, ‘lay down and gently lay El on your chest just like you did before.

Blaine did what he was told and laid sprawled out on the bed with Ella on top of him. ‘Like this?

‘Exactly, Kurt agreed, ‘and now you take your hand and support her so she doesnt fall off of you and then you can rub her back or play with her hair or something, just make her feel comfortable.

‘I tried that before but it didnt work, Blaine pouted.

Kurt smiled sympathetically at his husband. ‘Sweetie, calm down. Youre stressed, your heartbeat needs to be slow and steady for her to calm down too. Just take deep breaths and focus on our happy family, okay?

Blaine closed his eyes and smiled lazily. ‘Okay, he smiled. He slowly breathed in and out and traveled his hand up and down Ellas back. ‘Shh, El, its okay. Daddy and papa are both here, dont cry, he whispered.

But Ella didnt stop, in fact, she started crying louder. ‘No, no, no, no, no, Blaine cooed, ‘Shh, come on, sleepy sleep. Do it for daddy, do it for papa...

Kurt chuckled and sat down on the edge of the bed again, close to Blaines feet. He started rubbing them and every once in a while his hands roamed over Blaines legs. ‘Relax, babe, dont rush it. She needs some time.

‘I just thought it would be easy, you know? Blaine asked, ‘I thought shed sleepy sleep every couple of hours, eat without spitting it back out... Okay, Ill admit, theres nothing we can do about the stinky diapers but I thought the rest was just going to be... Easy.

‘Nobody told us it was going to be easy, darling. But hey, well make it.

‘Yeah, but nobody told us it would be this hard either, Blaine breathed out.

‘Youre right, nobody did, Kurt agreed.

‘The relax-thing does work with me, Blaine said after a minute or two, Im much more relaxed than before. Thank you for doing this, and moaned when Kurts hands kept making their way up and down his feet, ‘God, Kurt, that feels a-mazing.

‘I know, Kurt snickered.

‘Mmm, Im as relaxed as I can be. Why is El still crying? Blaine asked, ‘Im not even a good pillow for my daughter.

‘Thats weird, it works with me after a short while. Maybe shes just being stubborn, Kurt said.

Blaine felt tears prickling in his eyes. ‘I suck at this, he whispered, ‘I cant even make my own daughter fall asleep on my own chest which is apparently so easy with you.

‘Dont say those things, Blaine, Kurt said and leaned over to wipe one of Blaines tears away, ‘I had to figure it out myself too. Just take it easy.

‘Okay, Blaine replied, ‘Lay with me? Please?

‘Of course, Kurt said and laid down next to Blaine.

Kurt curled into Blaines side and kissed his shoulder. All he wanted to do was stay like this forever, together with his family.

*****

After a while, Kurt started wiggling his fingers in front of her face, hoping that the dancing phalanges would please Ella but nothing happened. You know what? he asked eventually.

‘What? Blaine mumbled. ‘Something wrong?

No, everythings okay I just need my phone. I think its on the counter in the kitchen.

Okay, hold on, Blaine said, ‘Can you take El?

‘Of course, Kurt said before talking to Ella, ‘Come here, sweetie. Youre in a real crying mood today huh? When Kurt looked up, Blaine was already gone.

It only took a few seconds before the door opened again and Blaine shuffled in. Here it is, he said as he handed Kurt his phone.

Thanks honey, Kurt smiled.

Youre welcome. Who are you going to call? Blaine asked and sat down on the edge of the bed.

My dad, Kurt said and held the phone to his ear after choosing his dads number. Sorry babe but are you okay enough to take El back to the living room?

Kurt caught Blaine furrowing his eyebrows for a second and the idea that Blaine would break down again flashed his mind. ‘Yes, of course, Blaine said and leaned over to grab Ella, ‘Im going to cheer you up, El, even if its the last thing Ill ever do. He walked out the room and closed the door behind them.

*****

‘Hey dad, Kurt said when his dad picked up the phone, ‘Its been a while.

‘Well then you should call me and Care more often, Burt replied.

‘Oh hey son! Yeah youre right, its been a while but Im so happy you called, Kurt said in a lower voice, trying to imitate his father.

Burt sighed on the other side of the line. ‘I am happy you called, Kurt. I just wished you called more often.

‘Well, Id do that if I wasnt so busy taking care of our daughter, Kurt said like it was the most normal thing in the world he was talking about.

‘Kurt? Did you just say "daughter" or are my ears lying to me? Burt asked.

‘No, no, your ears are right. We have a daughter now, dad, Kurt answered.

‘Kurt, thats... Thats just... Burt stuttered.

‘Fantastic? Amazing? Wonderful? Kurt guessed, smiling.

‘No, I mean yes but its early, Burt started, ‘Youre only 25 and Blaines 24!

Kurt sighed. He knew his dad would say that and he was prepared for it. It was a low blow but he had to bring her up. ‘Dad, tell me, how old was mom when she gave birth to me?

‘26, Kurt, Burt answered, sighing, ‘But that doesnt change a thing! You two just got married, what will happen to her if you guys decide to break up?

‘Nothing will happen to her because Blaine and I arent going to break up. We love each other and we both love Ella, I would never hurt Blaine like that and Id definitely not hurt Ella, Kurt protested.

‘Okay, I get it. You guys are soulmates and everything but tell me why youre really calling me, Burt continued.

This was the hard part of the conversation. If Kurt told his father that both he and Blaine are struggling with taking care of Ella, Burt would start with the "I told you so"s and that what not what he needed. He needed advice.

‘Well, me and Blaine, Kurt paused, ‘we have a little problem and we need some advice.

‘What kind of problem, kiddo? Burt questioned.

‘Ella cries a lot. Actually she doesnt stop. Blaine called me at work today and asked me to come home because he was completely stressed out, he thinks hes a bad father because of this, Kurt explained.

‘Blaines not a bad father, what the hell is wrong with him? Burt asked.

‘Dad, Kurt said stern, ‘Remember?

‘Oh yeah, sorry kiddo, Burt apologized, ‘Right, have you um, have you checked Ellas diaper?

Kurt huffed. ‘Dad, weve tried everything. Yes, we checked her diaper. We also fed her, sang to her, let her sleep on our chests, we really did everything.

‘Then I cant help ya, son, Burt said, ‘You barely cried and if you cried me and your mother got you quiet the minute you started by hugging or holding you.

Kurt laughed. ‘That sounds like me, yeah. Kurt had always loved giving and receiving hugs. After his mother died he couldnt sleep well. Every night when he couldnt sleep or woke up from a nightmare he held his teddybear close to him, loving how even the hugs from a teddybear could make him feel a little bit better. Then he met Blaine and he was kind of afraid of constantly asking him for a hug when he needed it but after that one time at the prom Kurt was sure Blaine didnt mind. ‘Hey dad?

‘Yeah kiddo? Burt asked.

‘Do you and Carole maybe want to come over next weekend? I know Blaine would love it and I guess Ella wants to meet her grandparents too, Kurt suggested.

Burt chuckled. ‘Of course kiddo. Well be coming over next week.

‘Great, now if you dont mind Ill go and check on my crazy husband and my lovely daughter.

‘Of course, kiddo, Burt said, ‘Well call later, ‘kay?

‘Okay! Bye dad! Kurt said and smiled even though his father couldnt see.

‘Bye Kurt. Tell Blaine and your little girl I said hi! Burt said and Kurt could hear the happiness in his voice. He knew deep down his dad still thought it was a little too soon, too early for Kurt and Blaine to become parents but he was happy for them.

‘I will do, Kurt said before hanging up. It wasnt after the phone call ended that Kurt heard the sound coming from the living room. A song. And he unmistakingly heard Blaine singing along to it. Curiously, he slid off the bed and walked to the living room. He smiled when he opened the door and Sias "My love" now clearly sounded through the room. Blaine was swaying along to itwith his back turned to Kurt and he wondered if Blaine heard him open the door. ‘Hey you.

‘Hey to you too, Blaine turned around to face his husband. He was grinning and holding Ella in his arms.

Kurt walked over to Blaine, wrapped his arms around Blaines waist and looked down at Ella inbetween them who had a peaceful smile on her face and her eyes were glistening. ‘She stopped crying, he said, suprised.

‘Apparently Sias her favorite, Blaine replied, ‘Or maybe she just likes dancing with me.

‘Thats probably it, Kurt smiled, ‘See, youre not a bad dad at all. What did you do exactly?

‘After I came in here I didnt know what to do so I plugged my iPod in and chose a nice and slow song to shuffle along to and this was it. Its the third time its playing right now, Blaine chuckled.

‘So you just danced with her? Kurt asked.

‘And I also sang along, Blaine added with a smile on his face.

‘I heard that, Kurt smiled and asked Ella: ‘You love papas dancing skills huh?

‘Everybody loves my dancing skills, Blaine huffed and turned to Ella, ‘Especially daddy.

‘But daddy loves everything about papa, Kurt said and pecked Blaines cheek. He walked away from Blaine and Ella and plopped down on the couch. ‘Before I forget, dad and Carole are coming over next weekend.

‘Ooooh, Blaine said excited, ‘That sounds like fun, doesnt it El?

‘The main reason I called him was because we needed some parenting advice but he couldnt help so I hope Carole can give us some tips when they come over, Kurt said.

‘But we dont need those anymore, right? Blaine asked, ‘I got her to stop crying.

‘We dont need those right now indeed and Im so proud of you for getting her to stop crying but I dont want you to have a almost-mental-breakdown like before, Kurt protested, ‘We need help.

‘Okay, Blaine agreed, ‘But where are your parents going to sleep? We made the guestroom into Els bedroom and I dont think theyll both fit on the couch.

‘Oh my God, I havent thought about that yet! Ill get them a room in a hotel close to us, Kurt said and leaped off the couch.

Blaine chuckled. ‘Daddys a little crazy, isnt he? he said loud enough for Kurt to hear it in the bedroom, where the laptop was.

‘Shush! Kurt yelled back and sighed when he heard Blaine laugh.