2x08 Callbacks – Part 2

When Kurt returns from his walk with Quinn, he finds an envelop behind the door. It looks like someone had shoved it under the door while he was gone and when he sees his own name printed in bold letters on top of it, he quickly picks it up and opens it, not even bothering with taking off his coat or closing the door.

It's a Valentine's Day card with a huge red heart on one side and a poem printed on the other. Kurt recognizes it as a Shakespeare sonnet he read in his English class freshman year.

Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?

Thou are more lovely and more temperate,

Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,

And summer's lease hath all too short a date.

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Sometimes too hot the eye of heaven shines,

And often in his gold complexion dimm'd,

And every fair from fair sometimes declines,

By chance or nature's changing course untrimm'd.

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But thy eternal summer shall not fade,

Nor lose possession of that fair thou owest,

Nor shall death brag thou wander'st in his shade,

When eternal lines to time thou growest.

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So long as men can breathe and eyes can see,

So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.

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Happy Valentine's Day, Kurt.

"What's that?" Jeff asks, stepping through the open door.

"Just Blaine proving again that he is lying when he says he isn't good at romance," Kurt replies, before he puts the card on his bedside table.

"You didn't help him with this, right?" Jeff shakes his head.

"Hm, maybe he came back after I went downstairs," he muses before he pulls out his phone and sends Blaine a quick 'I love you'. Blaine doesn't text back, but his boyfriend probably has his phone on silent while he is on the train.

"So, plans for V-Day?" Jeff asks after taking his coat and gloves off, reminding Kurt that he is still wearing his. "I'm assuming you've learned your lesson after the near kitchen fire."

Kurt rolls his eyes. "Yeah, nothing big though. We're going to make dinner together and have a picnic on the floor of Blaine's room like he wanted to do last year. Only this time, I'm in charge of the food," he explains. "You?"

Jeff's ears suddenly turn pink and he clears his throat a few times.

"We're getting a hotel room, so we can ... you know," Jeff admits.

"Oh," Kurt blushes as well. "I thought you already have..." there's no need to finish his sentence either. Why were all his talks with friends about sex lately?

"We've done stuff and I don't really consider myself a virgin anymore, but we haven't gone all the way yet and so we thought Valentine's Day would be romantic."

Kurt pauses for a moment because he hasn't thought about it like this before. He and Blaine did things as well, so does that mean he isn't a virgin anymore either? When did it stop being fooling around and became losing my virginity sex? Wouldn't he know it if he weren't a virgin anymore?

"So, you and Blaine?" Jeff interrupts his internal rambling. "You don't have to talk about it, but you can if you want to. I don't mind," his roommate assures him.

Before coming to NYADA, Kurt had never thought that a straight male friend would ever be willing to listen to him discussing his hypothetical sex life. He thought he would be considered disgusting and unnatural, but luckily the past one and a half years in New York have proven him wrong.

"At what point did you stop thinking you are a virgin?" he asks instead of answering Jeff's question. "If you don't mind me asking."

"The first time she made me come on purpose," Jeff replies bluntly. "But I guess it's different for everyone. Iris believes she is a virgin until we have real sex."

Kurt wrinkles his nose because for him straight sex is really unappealing.

And he wonders if Blaine thinks that they are virgins or not. Not that it really matters in the end. He's totally fine with what they've been doing so far and knows there are things he has no interest in doing any time soon. Still, he is curious about what Blaine thinks. Especially because he isn't really sure what he thinks himself.

"I'm gonna head down to the dining hall. Are you coming with?" he changes the subject, not willing to admit that he isn't sure whether he is a virgin or not.

"I'm starving," Jeff exclaims and Kurt rolls his eyes.

"Aren't you always."

In the dining hall, Kurt steers them over to a table where Nick is already devouring a huge plate of spaghetti and when Jeff gets in line for food, Kurt quickly passes on Quinn's message.

"So, you think I still have a chance?" Nick asks, immediately perking up.

Kurt honestly doesn't know, so he gives him the only piece of advice he can give at this point.

"Just give her time."

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The next morning a bouquet of red roses is delivered to his dorm room, attached to it a card with another Shakespeare sonnet from his freshman class. He is a bit surprised by the choice of flowers because Blaine knows he likes white and blue roses a lot more than red, but his boyfriend does have an important audition this morning, so he is amazed that Blaine keeps sending him those romantic gifts.

Carefully he plucks the card from the stem, trying not to cut himself, and opens it again to read the full text.

Let me not to the marriage of true minds

Admit impediments. Love is not love

Which alters when it alteration finds,

Or bends with the remover to remove:

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O no! It is an ever-fixed mark

That looks on tempests and is never shaken;

It is the star to every wandering bark,

Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken.

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Love's not time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks

Within his bending sickle's compass come:

Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,

But bears it out even to the edge of doom.

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If this be error and upon me proved,

I never writ, nor no man ever loved.

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Your secret admirer 3

Kurt rolls his eyes fondly when he sees the signature, because it has been a long time since Blaine had secretly admired him.

Still, he leaves his room for his first class with a spring in his step, counting down the hours till Blaine returns from Boston.

It's during lunch break when he notices that he forgot his sheet music for vocal class on his desk and he rushes over to the dorm building to retrieve it. When he reaches the second floor however, he skids to a halt when he notices a figure crouched in front of his door, apparently in the process of pushing another envelope under it.

Hoping to catch whoever is helping Blaine, he hides behind the corner, but when the figure straightens up and quickly looks around the empty hallway, Kurt barely manages to stifle his gasp of surprise.

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"What are those?" Blaine asks when Kurt meets him in front of his room later that night.

"Youtoldmesocookies," Kurt mumbles and Blaine smirks.

"What was that?" his boyfriend asks, clearly having understood the first time, but apparently set on making him suffer.

"You told me so cookies," Kurt huffs, before he pushes past Blaine and unceremoniously dumps the plate of cookies on his boyfriend's bed.

"So how did you find out I was right?" Blaine is definitely enjoying this too much, in his opinion.

"He sent me Valentine's Day gifts – which for the record I thought came from you..."

"I didn't send you anything because we said..." Blaine interrupts briefly before Kurt continues.

"But I caught him during lunch break, when he tried to slip another card under the door."

"So, are you going to talk to him about this?" Blaine asks, before he snatches up a cookie.

Kurt shakes his head. "I remember how bad I felt when you turned me down. I figure if I just ignore it he'll get over it eventually. Adam knows I'm with you and I don't think he actually wants me to know that he likes me. He signed the cards with secret admirer."

"And you thought they came from me?" Blaine mumbles around another cookie and Kurt shakes his head, because sometimes, Blaine is such a boy.

"I don't know. I thought you were trying to be romantic," Kurt mock huffs, before he shrieks when Blaine pulls him down next to him and starts to tickle him mercilessly.

"I'm romantic, say it," Blaine teases and Kurt quickly surrenders and assures his boyfriend that he is super romantic.

"And as much as I would like to prove it right now, I still have my AMDA audition tomorrow so I probably should head downstairs and rehearse a bit more," Blaine says after they exchanged a few soft kisses.

Kurt pouts before getting off the bed and brushing a few crumbs off Blaine's comforter.

"It's just one more and then I'm all yours for the rest of the weekend," Blaine promises and Kurt lets him go, because truth be told he still has homework to do and Blaine's roommate will be back any minute now anyway.

Valentine's Day a few days later is much less chaotic than their first one the previous year. Luckily, most of the kids at NYADA aren't really into cooking, so he and Kurt have the kitchen to himself.

While Kurt had started on dinner, Blaine had spread a checkered blanket on the floor between his and Beatz' bed, surrounded it by pillows, and had put plates, cutlery and glasses on his desk.

Now, back in the kitchen he is allowed to help Kurt chop vegetable and taste the food cooking on the stove every now and then. He isn't the worst in the kitchen anymore, because Kurt teaches him dishes from time to time, but it's still safer this way, if they want to avoid food poisoning for Valentine's Day. Which he really does, because he has plans for later.

"So, where's your secret admirer tonight?" he teases his boyfriend, who gives him the finger. After his return from Boston, Kurt hadn't gotten any more gifts, but he was still enjoying having been right about Adam.

"You think you are so funny," Kurt glares at him, but Blaine knows he isn't really mad about the teasing.

"You don't think I am?" Blaine replies, clutching his heart dramatically.

They both burst out laughing because when it comes down to it, they are both drama queens. But what else do you expect of drama school students?

"Is everything ready upstairs?" Kurt asks after they stopped laughing and Blaine nods.

"Beatz is spending the night with his girlfriend and as far as the school knows I'm spending the night off campus as well. Did your aunt call the school to sign you out?"

His boyfriend nods. Kurt's aunt has been incredibly helpful in ensuring they won't be checked up on tonight. And now that he is eighteen he doesn't need his dad's permission anymore to spend the night off campus.

"You know, if the school thinks we aren't here anyway, we could have just gotten a hotel like Jeff," Kurt muses out loud, but Blaine shakes his head.

"I don't think we could have gotten anything we can afford last minute."

"Hmm," Kurt hums before he checks on the chicken again. "Can you finish the salad?"

Once everything is ready and packed into a picnic basket, they sneak upstairs to Blaine's room. Blaine lights a few candles before he sits down next to Kurt on a pillow. They take turns feeding each other food and Blaine knows Kurt must really love him when he spills food on Kurt's shirt again. Apparently he can't get through a Valentine's Day dinner without messing with Kurt's wardrobe.

Kurt just shrugs and takes his shirt off, revealing two more layers underneath. It's definitely an improvement and usually a sign that Kurt wouldn't mind fooling around.

For dessert they share cheesecake and strawberries. The strawberries are messy, but Blaine doesn't mind licking the juice of Kurt's lips.

Not long after, they abandon their food and end up kissing on Blaine's bed. After taking off Kurt's remaining layers, he starts trailing kisses down his stomach before he hooks his thumbs under the waistband of Kurt's tight pants.

"Please," Kurt moans and they keep undressing one another until they are both naked. It's not something they do often, always afraid that one of their roommates might come back early, but tonight they have all the time in the world.

"You are totally jail bait now," Blaine remarks after he surveys the fresh hickey on Kurt's hip. "You know, with me being eighteen and the age of consent being seventeen."

"Hm, I might have to find a younger boyfriend. You are practically an old man already," Kurt pants before he narrows his eyes.

"You aren't pulling that age crap again, are you?"

Blaine shakes his head. "Let me prove it to you?"

He places a kiss on Kurt's bellybutton before slowly moving down, making his intention clear.

Kurt's breath hitches, before he nods jerkily. "God, yes."

So that's what a blow job feels like,Kurt thinks as he tries to get his breathing under control afterward. Blaine's lying next to him, looking like the cat that got the cream. His boyfriend is still aroused and Kurt wants to do something about it, if he could move his limbs.

He wonders briefly if Blaine expects him to reciprocate, because while he wants to try, he is also afraid of screwing up. If talking about sex had gotten any easier, he would probably just asks Blaine what he wants, but he is still struggling with it.

Blaine saves him from having to make a decision by rolling back on top of him. They start kissing again while Blaine rubs against his hip. Once Blaine has finished as well, Kurt snuggles up against him, unconsciously stroking his chest.

"Are we still virgins?" he asks when he is on the verge of falling asleep, because the question has been on his mind since his talk with Jeff.

Blaine furrows his brows for a moment before he replies.

"Personally, I don't think so. Doesn't mean you have to feel the same way."

Kurt considers this for a moment. Considers if what they did tonight changed his opinion.

"In a way, I think I still am one," he shares his thoughts then, "because I always thought that losing your virginity would be this huge thing that would totally change you, but nothing we've done made me feel like that yet. Like, it was big and I was nervous about it, but it just felt like a natural progression of our relationship. I didn't think about it in terms of becoming a man, or whatever else bullshit people say about it."

"Do you think we're having sex?" Blaine asks after a moment of silence, allowing Kurt to collect his thoughts.

"Yes," he replies without hesitation. "So I guess I lost my virginity without even noticing it. Probably because when I thought about sex I thought about sex sex," he adds.

"Maybe it's more clear for straight couples, because what if you never want to go all the way, does that mean you are a virgin forever? Or what about lesbians?"

"Blaine," Kurt whines. " I really don't want to think about straight or lesbian sex right now. You might turn me off sex forever," he adds teasingly.

Blaine just rolls his eyes.

"Go to sleep, Kurt. We have school tomorrow morning."

Before Kurt can close his eyes, his phone chimes on Blaine's bedside table.

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Feb 14, 11:43 pm

From: Aunt Kate

You owe me 'little brother'.

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He wants to text back something snarky but in the end he settles on what he really wants to say to his aunt who has been nothing but supportive of his relationship with Blaine.

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Feb 14, 11:44 pm

From: Kurt

Thank You

Feb 29, 4:01 pm

From: Harmony

Just got my NYU letter. I got in!

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Feb 29, 4:05 pm

From: Blaine

Congrats! Heading upstairs right now to check my emails.

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Feb 29, 4:07 pm

From: Harmony

Let me know what they say. It would be sweet to know some in New York who really knows the city already.

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Blaine wishes he could be like Harmony and just know one hundred percent where he wants to go next years. Still, he runs upstairs, too impatient to wait for the elevator.

Kurt already left for rehearsal so at least he'll have a bit of time to think before he has to tell his boyfriend which colleges accepted him. And he is sure that at least one must have.

His email application immediately alerts him to two new emails, thankfully, and Blaine takes a deep breath before he opens the first. Both of them have attachments, so he assumes it's good news.

And it is. Both Berklee and NYU want him to attend their schools and Blaine lets out a sigh of relief even though it would probably have benefited the decision making if Boston hadn't accepted him.

He quickly texts Harmony that he got into NYU as well, but is still waiting to hear back from other schools before he makes a decision. An email from UCLA arrives while he is texting with his new friend, and suddenly LA is an option as well.

It's time to call in reinforcement because he feels like he'll never be able to make up his mind on his own. And he needs to talk to people that aren't Kurt, because his boyfriend keeps telling him to follow his heart, when his heart is with Kurt.

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Feb 29, 4:31 pm

To Wes, David

Skype conference in fifteen? Need help with college.

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Both Wes and David text back immediately and they agree to Skype in half an hour so Wes has enough time to drop by NYADA to talk to Blaine in person.

After putting his phone down, he flops back and tries to figure out what his heart is telling him. A fruitless effort it seems and when his computer alerts him to a new Skype call, he accepts without bothering to look who is calling him. To his surprise it's his brother's voice that echoes through the room.

"Why so gloomy, Squirt?" Cooper calls out from his back porch in L.A. When Blaine squints he can even see the ocean in the back, and for a moment is insanely jealous of his brother, especially when he looks out of his window. The rain of the last few days has washed away the rest of the snow and going outside is just awful at the moment.

"Why are you calling, Cooper? I don't have much time?" Blaine asks tiredly.

"My buddy's little sister is moving to L.A this summer and is looking for a roommate. Interested?"

Blaine immediately sits up straighter.

"How do you know I got into UCLA?" he demands to know, because what the hell – is his brother psychic now?

"I keep telling you Squirt, forget about college. Move out here and I'm sure I can get you an agent and auditions within the first week. You know I like Kurt, but you are way too young to tie yourself down. Plenty of hot guys in L.A."

Blaine glares at his brother. "Not all of us are happy with meaningless one-night-stands," he retorts.

Cooper raises his hands in surrender.

"Alright, alright. But about L.A. You should totally move out here."

A knock on the door saves him from replying.

"I gotta go, Cooper. Wes just arrived," he informs his brother before hanging up.

It's been a few weeks since he last saw Wes in person, so they hug each other for some time after he opened the door. After they separate, Blaine tells his friend about his dilemma and before long, David joins them via Skype.

"You know, as much as I want you with me in Boston, you need to figure out one thing. Do you want to be a performer or not," David tells him after they fill him in as well. Blaine furrows his brows because he doesn't understand what David's trying to say.

"If you want to compose, or major in music therapy or something like that, I think Berklee would be the perfect fit, but we don't have a performing arts mayor. If that's the way you want to go, you are probably better off in New York or L.A."

Wes immediately starts chanting 'New York, New York', and goes as far as handing Blaine an 'I heart NY' t-shirt to 'influence' his decision. How he has missed his friends' insanity.

"Guy, guys," he interrupts Wes' chanting. "You're not helping."

Wes and David both shrug. "There's nothing new we can tell you, Blainers. I'm afraid you have to figure this one out on your own," David tells him, his face gone for a moment.

Unfortunately, his friends are right – not that he hadn't been aware of that before calling them – and so he changes the subject to his friends' own college experiences.

Wes still is incredibly excited about Julliard even though he stayed in the city as well, and Blaine wonders if that isn't all he needs to know. That he doesn't actually have to move away to be happy in college.

Kurt sighs when Blaine cancels yet another coffee date. His boyfriend has been off all week, and Kurt had been looking forward to his night off so they could talk about whatever is bothering his boyfriend.

He is insanely busy now that rehearsals for 'Oliver!' have started, but at least he is making an effort to make plans with Blaine, plans Blaine seems to have no qualms cancelling or postponing.

What really irks him, however, is that he is certain than Blaine has heard back from colleges by now and apparently refuses to tell him about it. Even after Kurt has assured him countless times that they won't break up regardless of Blaine staying in New York or not.

It's because he is a bit angry that he agrees to go for coffee with Adam against his better judgment. Like he told Blaine, he didn't confronted Adam about the Valentine's gifts, but now that he knows Adam has a crush on him, it's hard not to notice Adam's heart eyes when he is around. Since Valentine's Day he has tried to keep his distance to make it easier for Adam to get over his crush, using 'Oliver!' as an excuse as to why he can't hang out with the younger boy. The way Adam's eyes light up, however, when Kurt agrees to join him for coffee, tells him that Adam is far from over him. Not that it matters. He just has to make sure not to lead the freshman on.

They do end up having a nice evening – Adam hanging on his every word when Kurt tells him about his first rehearsals. Of course, he'd rather talk to his boyfriend, but in the end, it's nice to have someone listen who is really interested in what you have to say.

"Dude, you have to stop hiding from Kurt and talk to him," Wes tells him, when Blaine shows up at his place again. "He's gonna be thrilled when you tell him you accepted your NYU scholarship."

"But what if he thinks I'm staying for him?" Blaine asks and slumps onto Wes couch.

His friend just looks at him incredulously. "I'd love to have your problems, Blainers. Go talk to Kurt, before you really piss him off."

Blaine crosses his arms in front of his chest and huffs. "I'm just practicing for next year. You stayed in New York as well and I still never see you anymore," he tells his friend who shakes his head.

"But we aren't dating. You and Kurt, you're going to see one another all the time. NYU really isn't that far away from NYADA, so stop being a drama queen," Wes nearly yells at him, apparently having lost his patience with Blaine.

Blaine scowls before he gets up from the couch and heads to the front door. "Fine, I'm going," he says petulantly.

He wouldn't act like a child if his friends would take his problems serious. Because no matter what they say, once he graduates high school, he and Kurt won't be able to be as close as they are now, and it's better to get used to it now, before they are in for a nasty surprise next fall.

And as for telling Kurt about staying in New York. He will, after making sure Kurt knows that that was not a decision he made lightly.

2x09:Regionals and Spring Break in Lima.

Sorry for the delay, but for once I have a really good excuse. I injured my right hand, and typing with just my left was a bitch. Now that I can use both again, I hope to get 2x09 up faster.