aislynnlily
Dec. 16, 2011, 3:07 a.m.
Would You Like to Rent My Uterus for Nine Months?: Chapter 4
T - Words: 468 - Last Updated: Dec 16, 2011 Story: Complete - Chapters: 9/9 - Created: Nov 14, 2011 - Updated: Dec 16, 2011 1,318 0 1 0 0
"Thanks Rachel. Yeah, we'll talk to you soon, sweetie." Blaine hung up the phone and turned to look at Kurt, curled up on the couch and trying not to cry. Blaine took a deep breath, sent out a quick plea to the universe that he would say the right thing, then walked over to the couch, shifting Kurt and laying down so that he was curled into Blaine's side.
"Talk to me, Kurt."
Kurt sniffled and cuddled further into Blaine's side. "I just…I was so excited," he whispered. "I guess I should have known it was too easy. I mean, who gets pregnant on the first try? We were all so excited."
Blaine sighed, pushing aside his own sadness at the miscarriage. "I know, baby. But we were prepared to try multiple times. We prepared ourselves for this. I mean, how many pregnancies end in miscarriage? A lot…I read it somewhere."
"Not helping, Blaine."
"Babe, it's gonna happen. We knew this wasn't going to be easy. We just have to stay strong and know that we will have a baby." He paused. "And we need to be there for Rachel, too. She's hurting, Kurt - for her and for us. Her hormones are a mess, and she just lost a baby, too."
Kurt sniffled again, and sighed. "I know," he said quietly. "I'll go see her tomorrow, when I have my emotions more under control. Maybe I'll take some vegan ice cream and Barbra musicals and we can snuggle on the couch all day."
After a few minutes of silence, Kurt looked up at Blaine. "Blaine, are you okay? 'Cause we just lost a baby, and you've been here comforting me, but you've hardly shown any emotion at all. It's okay for you to let go…I'm here to catch you."
Blaine looked down at Kurt for a moment, struggling not to think about what they had lost. He was only able to be there for Kurt when he pushed everything to the back of his mind. Now that Kurt had called him out on it, he could feel the emotions pushing forward again and the tears welling up.
"I…" his voice cracked, and he took a breath and started over. "I was hoping for a boy." He started crying in earnest. "I had already imagined playing catch and teaching him to climb trees, and all of us singing together. Kurt," he sobbed as he buried his face in Kurt's shoulder.
Kurt had started crying again at the thought of his beautiful husband playing with their future son. He tightened his arms and gently stroked Blaine's curls. The two men held onto each other, crying together, mourning the lost life together, and knowing that while they would never forget, eventually the grief would fade and be replaced by the joy of welcoming a healthy, happy child into their lives.
End Notes: I warned for angst! There I was, floating along in my happy, fluffy little Klaine world, and then this happened. Don't worry, there's lots more fluff to come.