I spent so long being miserable, lonely and just bitter and as scary as the thought is, I don't know what I would have done if you hadn't come along. I think there's a possibility that I wouldn't have still been here.

Imagine what I would have been missing. Your beautiful eyes, your sweet voice, your everything but most of all your soul. How you're so strong, determined and in your words, fierce yet so compassionate and loving. Even when that certain person might not always deserve it.

And yet, I can't regret how I almost screwed this up. And even though I know that sounds stupid, it made me realize how irrevocably and ridiculously in love with you I was. It made me realize that I couldn't live a day without feeling your fingers intertwined with mine, without your voice to lull me to sleep as I cried or just your smile. Because I swear that could brighten up anybody's day.

Most of all, I need you to how much I love you. There aren't words in any language to describe just how much I do but I need you to remember it. Remember that you were the best thing to happen to me, you were the only thing I ever needed and I only hope I succeeded in making you as happy as you made me.

Please, when things get tough, when you may want to give up, remember that you and Louis meant everything to me and I need you to stay strong and happy for him. And tell him that I love him every single day. Can you do that for me?

I know I'm always asking things of you and considering everything that you've done for me, everything we've been through, the words 'thank you' just seem too casual but thank you for everything you have done and thank you for loving me unconditionally. Even when I was a total ass.

I know I've said it a thousand times and I'll say it again, I love you. So much,

Yours forever,

Blaine. x