March 10, 2012, 10:18 a.m.
Regrets: The Weight Lifted
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"Have a seat," Burt said, motioning towards the two empty leather chairs in front of him.
"No," Finn stated, "screw that! I want to know what the hell is going on. Where is my mother?"
Kurt laid his hand on Finn's shoulder and said, "Finn, when Carole was on her way back from work, she stopped at the red-light. You know the one between Manhattan and Poreyes?"
Finn slowly nodded, fear engulfing his eyes. Kurt noticed that Finn's brown tent had changed to completely black. It was as if he had lost all hope in the world.
He continued as he began to tear up, "When she stopped at the intersection, an eighteen-wheeler, which contained gasoline, swerved off of his track and crashed into red light pole. As a reaction, gasoline spilt everywhere and the truck caught fire. You mother couldn't make it out of her car in enough time. Before she unbuckled her seatbelt, the entire intersection blew up."
Finn shook his head as tears started to fill his eyes, "Is she okay? Is she at the hospital? What?"
Kurt looked at his father across the room with worried eyes. Burt gently got up and walked towards Finn, taking his hands, as he said, "Finn, your mother didn't survive the explosion."
Everything went by in a flash from Kurt's point of view. After his father told him Carole died, Finn fell on his knees, letting his entire body topple over. He screamed, pounded the floor, and, eventually, the curses and regrets spilled out of his mouth. Kurt could not take it anymore.
As he ran out of the office, leaving Kurt and Burt alone, he fled into his car, crying into his leather steering wheel.
"Why?" Kurt screamed. "Why? She was so wonderful and innocent for Christ's sake!" He looked up at the roof of his car as it began to drizzle outside. "And you wonder why the hell I don't trust you! Why I don't count on you! You took my mothers! They didn't deserve it!"
He turned his head back down, and slammed his forehead against his steering wheel, causing his horn to erupt in sound. He didn't care that it had now started to pour rain outside or that he was in pain; Kurt got out of his car and went back into the shop. This is going to be a lot harder on him than it will be on me, Kurt thought.
As he opened the door of his father's office, he screamed. Finn stood there with his father's gun in his hand, pointing it at his temple. Burt stood in a corner, his arms out in front of him trying to convince Finn not to pull that trigger.
"What the hell am I worth?" Finn screamed over his cries, and he now had a red face. "I never met my dad! He died before I was born! The only person I had left was my mother and now she's dead, too!"
"Finn!" Kurt screamed. "Hear me out!"
Finn nodded, but did not take the gun down as Kurt continued, "You have so many people who love you! You have a family! You have me and Burt! Everyone at McKinley loves you and they will be there to help you through this, do you understand?"
Finn shook his head, "What the hell do they know? I'm nothing, Kurt!"
"Shut up, Finn!" Kurt screamed. "You cannot just let this get in the way of your life! People die! We move on! It's the freaking circle of life!"
Burt added in nervously, "Yea! Akuna Matata and all that crap!"
Kurt shot him a look, "You're not helping!"
Burt said "Sorry" and lowered his head.
"You have a beautiful girl who is madly in love with you, you have a brother and a father figure who looks after you and you have friends that care more about you than you do yourself! Now how do you think it makes us feel if you went and shot yourself because you thought you had no one? We'd feel like shit and I think it would be pretty damn selfish of you to pull that trigger, because all you're thinking about is yourself!" Kurt screamed. Finn had never heard Kurt curse before, but he continued, "Now hand over the damn gun, Finn!"
Slowly, but steadily, Finn dropped his gun on the floor. He collapsed into tears as everyone in the room felt as if a weight had been lifted.
After Burt picked his gun up from the ground, he knelt by Finn and pulled him close, saying "Everything is going to be alright. We'll figure it all out!"
After the crying and noise had lowered, Kurt heard the storm outside stop, as if the sun had come out.